by neetha Napew
“Are you ... are you asking me to remember you? Because you must know I will.”
“Yes . . . but more, too. I’m asking you to remember me as I was, the young heavyworlder you trusted, the younger man you loved, however briefly and lightly. I’m asking you to hold that memory brightly in mind whenever you consider my people. Coldsleep has a Special meaning for our people.”
“I know. The escort you sent was telling me.”
Zebara’s eyebrows rose, then he shook his head. “I
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shouldn’t be surprised. You’re a very easy person to talk to. But if anyone had asked me whether Major Hessik would discuss such things with a lightweight, I’d have said never.”
“I had to do something to get away from the subject of leather,” said Lunzie, wrinkling her nose. “And from there, somehow ...”
She went on to tell him what Hessik had explained. Zebara listened without interrupting.
“That’s right,” he said, when she finished. “A symbolic death and rebirth, which you have endured several times now. And which 1 ask you to endure once more, for me and my people.”
The absolute no she had meant to utter stuck in her throat.
“I ... never liked it,” she said, wondering if it sounded as ridiculous to him as it did to her.
“Of course not. Lunzie, I brought you here today for several reasons. First, I want to remember you . . . and have you remember me ... as I near my own death. I want to relive that short happy time we shared, through your memories. That’s indulgence, an old man’s indulgence. Second, I want to talk to you about my people, their history, their customs, in the hope that you can feel some sympathy for us and our dilemma. That you will speak for us where you can do so honestly. I’m not asking you to forget or forgive criminal acts. You could not do it and I would not ask. But not all are guilty, as you know. And finally, I must give you what we talked of before, if you are willing to carry it.”
He sat hunched slightly forward, the dark soft robe hiding his hands. Lunzie said nothing for a moment, trying to compare his aged face, with all the ugly marks of a hard life in high G, to the younger man’s blunt but healthy features. She had done that before. She would do it, she thought, even after he died, trying to reconcile what he had lost in those forty-odd years with her own losses.
He sighed, smiled at her, and said, “May I sit with you? It is not . . . what you might think.”
Even as she nodded, she felt a slight revulsion. As a
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doctor, she knew she should not. That age did not change feelings. But his age changed her feelings, even as a similar lapse had changed Tee’s feelings for her. What she and Zebara had shared, of danger and passion, no longer existed. With that awareness, her feelings about Tee changed from resignation to real understanding. How it must have hurt him, too, to have to admit that he had changed. And now Zebara.
He sat beside her, and reached for her hands. What must it be like for him, seeing her still young, feeling her strength, to know his own was running out, water from a cracked jug?
“The evidence you would believe, about our people’s history,” he began, “is far too great to take in quickly. You will either trust me, or not, when I say that it is there, incontrovertible. Those who sent the first colonists knew of the Long Winters that come at intervals: knew, and did not tell the colonists. We do not know all their reasons. Perhaps they thought that two years would be enough time to establish adequate food stores to survive. Perhaps those who made the decision didn’t believe how bad it would be. I like to think they intended no worse than inconvenience. But what is known is that when our colony called for help, no help came.”
“Was the call received?”
“Yes. No FTL communications existed in those days, you may recall. So when the winter did not abate and it became obvious it would not, the colonists realized that even an answered call might come too late. They expected nothing soon. But there was supposed to be a transfer pod only two light months out, with an FTL pod pre-programmed for the nearest Fleet sector headquarters. That’s how emergency calls went out: sublight to the transfer point, which launched the pod, and the pod carried only a standard message, plus its originating transfer code.”
Lunzie wrinkled her nose, trying to think when they might have expected an answer. “Two months, then. How long to the Fleet headquarters?”
“Should have been perhaps four months in all. An
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FTL response, a rescue attempt, could have been back within another two or three. Certainly within twelve Standard months, allowing decel and maneuvering time on both ends. The colonists would have had a hard time lasting that long. They’d have to eat all their seed grain and supplies. But most of them would have made it. instead,” and he sighed again, spreading his big gnarled hands.
“I can’t believe Fleet ignored a signal like that.” Unless someone intercepted it, Lunzie thought suddenly. Someone within Fleet who for some reason wanted the colony to fail.
“It didn’t!” Zebara gave her hands a squeeze, then stood, the robe swirling around him. “Let me fix you something. I’m thirsty a lot these days.” He waved at the selection revealed behind one panel of his desk. “Fruit juices? Peppers?”
“Juice, please.” Lunzie watched as he poured two glasses, and gave her the choice of them. Did he really think she worried about him drugging her? And if he did, should she be worried? But she sipped, finding nothing but the pleasant tang of juice as he settled beside her once more.
He took a long swallow, then went on. “It was not Fleet, as near as we can tell. At least, not they that ignored an emergency pod. There was no emergency pod.”
“What!”
“We did find, buried in the file, the notation that the expense of an FTL emergency pod was not justified since Diplo was no more than twelve Standard light months from a major communications nexus which could pass on any necessary material. Colonists had wasted, the report said, such expensive resources before on minor matters that required no response. If colonists could not take care of themselves for twelve months, and I can just hear some desk-bound bureaucrat sniff at this point, they hardly qualified as colonists.” He took another swallow. “You see what this means.”
“Of course. The message didn’t arrive somewhere useful in four months. It arrived at a commercial telecom
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station in twelve months by which time the colonists were expecting a rescue mission.”
“And from there,” Zebara said, “it was . . . re-routed. It never reached Fleet.”
“But that’s ...”
“It was already embarrassing. The contract under which the colonists signed on specified the placement of the emergency pod. When that message arrived at the station, it was proof that no pod had been provided. And twelve months already? Suppose they had sent a mission then. What would they have found? From this point we have no direct proof, but we expect that someone made the decision to deepsix the whole file. To wait until the next scheduled delivery of factory parts, which was another two standard years, by which time they expected to find everyone dead. So sad, but this happens to colonies. It’s a dangerous business!”
Lunzie felt cold all over, then a white-hot rage. “It’s . . . it’s murder. Intentional murder!”
“Not under the laws of FSP at the time. Or even now. We couldn’t prove it. I say ‘we,’ but you know I mean those in Diplo’s government at the time. Anyway, when the ships came again, they found the survivors; the women, the children, and a few young men who had been children in the Long Winter. The first ship down affected not to know that anything had happened. To be surprised! But one of the Company reps on the second ship got drunk and let some of this out.”
She could think of nothing adequate to say. Luckily he didn’t seem to expect anything. After a few moments, he went back to family matters, telling her of his hopes for them. Gradually her mind quieted. By the time they parted, she carried away another m
emory as sweet as her first. It had no longer seemed perverse to have an old man’s hands touching her, an old man’s love still urgent after all those years.
Chapter Ten
FSP Escort Claw
Dupaynil led the way back toward the bridge, walking steadily and slowly. The young officer would still be wondering, might still wish he had Dupaynil under guard. Except that there was no guard. He would feel safer with Dupaynil in front of him, calm and unhurried. At the landing outside the bridge, Dupaynil said over his shoulder, “If you don’t mind, I’d like to finish disabling the pod locks on pod three.”
“Who’s in there?”
“Your weapons tech. So far as I know, all the crew were in this with Ollery. They’re all dangerous, but this one particularly so.”
Pauls frowned. “Suppose we run into something we need to fight?”
“We’d better not. We can’t trust him. I don’t think he can get out by himself. At least not without your help. But he and Sins had the best chance of figuring out what I did and undoing it, even with the minima] toolkits standard in pods.”
“You may be right, but, look, I want to log at least some of this first. And I want you with me.”
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Dupaynil shrugged and moved onto the bridge. He thought it would be hours before the weapons tech could possibly get out. At the moment, gaining Panis’s confidence took precedence. They settled in uneasy silence, Panis in the command seat and Dupaynil in the one in which he’d first seen the master mate.
He said nothing while Panis made a formal entry in die ship’s computer, stating the date and time that he assumed command, and the code under which he would file a complete report. The computer’s response to change of command, Dupaynil noticed, was to recheck Panis’s retinal scans, palmprint, and voiceprint against its memory of him. Dupaynil would have had a hard time taking over if something had happened to Panis. He asked about that.
“Not as ship commander, no sir. You might have convinced it that you were a disaster survivor. You were logged in as a legitimate passenger. But you wouldn’t have been given access to secure files or allowed to make any course changes. It would’ve given you lifesupport access: water, food, kept the main compartments aired up. That’s all. And the ship would have launched an automatic distress signal when it dropped out of FTL.”
“I see. There are files in the computer, Captain, which will provide evidence needed to confirm Ollery’s treachery.”
Dupaynil noticed that Panis reacted to the use of his new title with a minute straightening; a good sign. He did not mention that he had penetrated some of the computer’s secure files already. Maintenance wasn’t what he would call secure. Panis glanced over.
“I suppose you’d like me to access them. Although I’d think that would be a matter for Fleet Security.” Dupaynil said nothing and waited. Panis suddenly grimaced. “Of course. You are Fleet Security, at least part of it. Or so you say.” Wariness became him. He seemed to mature almost visibly as Dupaynil watched.
“Yes, I am. On the other hand, since I am the officer involved, the one who killed Ollery, you have a natural
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reluctance to let me meddle in the files, just in case. Right?”
“Right.” Panis shook his head. “And I thought I was lucky to be yanked off a battle platform where I was one of a hundred Jigs, to be executive officer on an escort! Maybe something will happen, I said.”
“Something did.” Dupaynil grinned at him, the easy smile that had won over more than one who had had suspicions of him. “And you survived, acquitted yourself well. I assure you, if you can bring in the evidence that shows just where the agents of piracy are in Fleet, you’ll have made your mark.”
“Piracy!” Panis started to say more, then held up his hand. “No, not this moment. Let me log the first of it, and we’ll get into that later.”
This was a ship’s captain speaking, however inexperienced. Dupaynil nodded and waited. The Jig’s verbal report was surprisingly orderly and concise for someone who had narrowly escaped death and still had ripening bruises on his face. Dupaynil’s opinion of him went up another two notches, and then a third when Panis waved him over to the command input station.
“I’d like your report, too, sir. Lieutenant Commander Dupaynil, taken aboard Clow on resupply station 64, Fleet Standard dating . . . Computer?” The computer checked the date and time, and flashed it on Pani’s screen. “Right! 23.05.34.0247. Transfer from the cruiser Zaid-Dayan, Commander Sassinak commanding, with orders from Inspector-General Parchandri to proceed to Seti space on a secret mission. Is that right, sir?”
“Right,” said Dupaynil. Was this the time to mention that he thought those orders were iaked? Probably not. At least, not without thinking about it a bit more. He didn’t think Sassinak had intended to tangle him with planet pirates or their allies. If he said his orders were faked, that would drag her into it.
“Then if you’ll give your report, Commander,” and Panis handed him the microphone.
Carefully, trying to think ahead to the implications of his report, Dupaynil told how his suspicions had been
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aroused by the length of time the crew had been together and the captain’s attitude.
“Escort and patrol crews are never left unshuffled for more than one 24 month tour,” he said. “Precisely because these ships are hard to track and very dangerous, and small enough for one or two mutineers to take over. Five years without a shuffle is simply impossible. Someone in Personnel had to be in the plot, to cover the records.” He went on to tell about setting some surveillance taps and hearing the senior mate and captain discuss his murder. “They said enough about their contacts in both Fleet and certain politically powerful families to convince me that information we’ve been seeking for years could well be on this ship. Agents aren’t supposed to write things down, but they all do it. Names, dates, places to meet, codes: no one can remember all of it. Either in hardcopy or in die computer. And they knew it, because they were afraid I’d get access to those files.” He finished with a brief account of his sabotage of the escape pods, and his actions during and after the drill.
“Do you have any evidence now to support these allegations?” asked Panis.
“I have the recording from that audio tap. There may be data in the other taps. I haven’t had time to look at diem.”
“I’d like to hear what you have,” Panis said.
“It’s in my cabin.” At Panis’s expression, Dupaynil shrugged. “Either I would make it through alive to retrieve it or I’d be dead and it might, just might, survive me. Not on my body, which they’d search. May I get it for you?”
He could see uncertainty and sympathized. Panis had had a lot to adjust to in less than an hour. And to him, Dupaynil was still a stranger, hardly to be trusted. But he made the decision and nodded permission. Dupaynil left die bridge quickly, noting that all die partitions were retracted. He went direcdy to his cabin, retrieved die data cube, and returned. Panis was waiting, facing die bridge hatch. Without saying anything, Dupaynil slipped die cube into a player and turned it on. As it
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played, Panis’s expression changed through suspicion to surprise to, at the end, anger.
“Bastards!” he said, when the sound ceased and Dupaynil picked up the cube again. “I knew they didn’t like you, but I never thought . . . And then to be in league with planet pirates! Who’s that Lady Luisa they were talking about?”
“Luisa Paraden. Aunt, by the way, of the Randolph Paraden who was expelled from the Academy because Commander Sassinak proved he was involved in theft, sexual harrassment, and racial discrimination against Wefts. They were cadets at the same time.”
“I never heard that.”
Dupaynil smiled sardonically. “Of course not. It wasn’t advertised. But, if you ever wonder why Commander Sassinak has a Weft following, that’s one reason. When Ollery was trying to get me to gossip about her, that’s o
ne of the things he mentioned. And it made me suspicious: he shouldn’t have known. It was kept very quiet.”
“And you think there’s more evidence in the ship’s computer?”
“Yes, you heard what they said. Probably even more in their personal gear. But you’re the captain, Panis. You’re in legal command. I believe that you recognize we’re both in a very tricky situation. We have one dead former captain and eleven live crew imprisoned in escape pods. If we should run into some of the other renegades, especially some of Ollery’s friends, we could be shot for mutiny and murder before we ever got that evidence to a court martial.”
Panis touched his swelling face gingerly, then grinned. “Then we’d better not get caught.”
In the time it took to lug Ollery’s body to a storage bay and to disable the controls on the last occupied pod, Dupaynil figured out what to do about his faked orders. He could blame them on the traitor in the Inspector General’s office. Sassinak would never reveal the real source. He was fairly sure he could never get Ssli testimony incriminating her. In feet, it was only a guess that she had done it. It was not in the interest of Fleet or the FSP that she be blamed, even though
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she’d done it. But it was entirely in the interests of the Fleet to bring as many charges as possible against those guilty of conniving at planet piracy.
He thought through the whole chain of events. Would it have made sense for such a traitor to assign him to Claw and get him killed? Certainly, if they considered Sassinak a threat and they knew he’d been working with her. They’d disrupted a profitable scam on Ireta. He’d uncovered one of their agents on the Zaid-Dayan. He was dangerous to them in himself, and they’d taken the opportunity to get him away from Sassinak.