by Makansi, K.
After we finish eating, we decide we’re far enough away from any Resistance bases that I can activate the Outsider beacon on the pendant Chan-Yu gave me. After I recounted, for the fiftieth time, my experience with the nameless Outsider who led my team to Normandy months earlier, Remy and Soren have become convinced it must be their “Osprey,” the same Outsider who left them bloodied messages and guided them to their boat after Chan-Yu helped them escape Okaria. I described the scars I glimpsed on her arms and the tattoos on her shoulder—“Like those water birds that fly over the lakes sometimes, the ones with the wide wingspan”—and now they’re hoping it’s Osprey who comes to our aid again. Everyone gathers round me, like it is some sort of ancient sacred ritual, and watches me flip the little switch with my thumb. Flick, flick. That’s it. Then, when nothing happens—as if they expected an Outsider to appear out of thin air—we all go to bed.
Since the Director had given out many of the tents on hand to surviving Farm workers, we got what was left over—one double and two singles, “one of them for Remy,” and even though I knew she meant it out of decency, it came out sounding like she was putting Remy in isolation. Remy, though, shrugged and looked pleased that she would have her own place to sleep. On the first night, I was afraid Soren would expect Remy to join him in the double, but he didn’t say a word as she began setting up her tent. I suspect something’s changed between them, but since neither one of them are in the habit of telling me their secrets or talking about feelings, I have no idea what might have happened.
“I don’t mind sleeping alone,” I offered, and we’ve been in the same arrangements since.
Soren’s on early morning watch when his voice slices through the fog of sleep, and I wake to “What the hell? Fuck!” and then a thud and a scuffling sound as if he’s fallen and is scrambling to his feet. I grab my Bolt and am up and out of my tent in a half-second, with hope as my guide, rather than fear.
And I see her. She turns toward me and her face lights up.
“Valerian. We meet again.” And once again I’m struck by her appearance. Lithe and boyishly feminine, but as tense and taut as a pulled bowstring. Since it’s not frigid and the snow’s not up to our shins, she’s dressed simply in camouflage pants and an open jacket over a skin-tight shirt. Just like when she pulled her coat up over her back to show us her tattoo, I can see she’s slender, but she carries her muscled shoulders with the same aggressive, soldier’s rigidity that I recognize from my military training. She’s got her feet planted as square and even as a drill sergeant, and yet she looks as if she’s poised, ready to spring at a moment’s notice.
“Where the hell’d you come from?” Soren demands, brushing the dirt from his pants. Looks like he’d been sitting on the remains of a weather-beaten tree trunk taking the opportunity to shave and clean up a bit when the Wayfarer appeared. His shirt is off, draped over the top of his tent, and his mouth is hanging open, half of his face cleanly shaven, the other half sporting a stubbly shadow.
“Your friend Valerian called. I came.”
“You could have said something. You scared the shit out of me.”
“Skaarsgard, I presume. Some guard.” She reaches up and grasps his chin, moving it side to side. “You missed a spot.” She rubs a thumb down the side of his jawline. “A big one.”
Soren flushes, and I realize he’s completely flustered over the sudden appearance of this almost mythical Outsider. Soren flustered—now that’s something I’ve never seen before. The girl—the Outsider, the wayfarer—turns toward the third tent as Remy crawls out.
“Ah, here’s the famous Remy Alexander, evil scourge of the Sector.” Her eyes light up, in that same glowing ember-ish way I recall from the first time I saw her.
Remy clambers up, rubbing the sleep out of her eyes, trying to flatten her hair, which sticks up every which way. “You don’t look nearly as dangerous as the Dragon makes you out to be,” the girl says.
“Osprey?”
“Guilty as charged.” She laughs and turns back to Soren, appraising him up and down so slowly, so brazenly, I feel my face grow warm on his behalf.
“Sorry I couldn’t be of more help before,” Osprey says, addressing Soren and Remy, “when you needed the boat, you know. But I ran into a bit of trouble. Had a run-in with an old friend.” The way she emphasizes the word friend makes it clear that whomever she ran into was most certainly not friendly. Her brows knit together for a moment and then she smiles again.
“I always wanted to meet Soren Skaarsgard. The pianist.” She stands on tiptoe, runs her hands up Soren’s arms to his shoulders and then on up his neck to cup his face in both hands. “In the flesh.” Then she pulls him down to her and kisses him on both cheeks. When she’s done, Soren’s face is as red as Kenzie’s hair, and I can see the goosebumps on his skin from two meters away. I’d feel a moment of jealousy that she hasn’t bothered to acknowledge that I’m a pianist as well, but then, I don’t think I want the same treatment she’s just given him.
Remy looks confused as Osprey turns back to me. “So where are we going this time?”
“We’d like to meet the Outsiders.” I respond.
She laughs. “Which ones?”
“If there are any ‘leaders’ of the Outsiders, we’d like to meet them,” Soren speaks up, his voice a little hoarse—whether from early morning sleeplessness or the fact that he’s just been handled quite physically by this strange but enthralling woman, I couldn’t say.
“Ah, Mr. Skaarsgard,” Osprey says, in a quiet, contemplative way that reminds me very much of Chan-Yu. Her voice takes on a more serious inflection, as though she’s addressing an audience instead of just friends. “Now there’s a tricky thing,”
“Why?”
“Because we go to great lengths not to be ‘led’ and even greater lengths not to be met,” she says, with that same sort of inflection Chan-Yu used to have when he was explaining something he obviously thought was very simple.
“And they’re obviously very good at it,” I say. “No one in the Sector has a clue what you all do out here, or why, or how.”
She cocks her head and looks at me. Her gold-flecked eyes are dark and fierce, like the bird of prey that is her namesake. “And we’d like to keep it that way, Valerian. You all have been a bit of a nuisance to us in the past, and we have no desire to get embroiled in the affairs of the Sector—or its enemies.”
“But you’re already embroiled. Chan-Yu had infiltrated the highest reaches of power. He worked right beside me—and supposedly for my mother—for years,” I protest.
“And he had help smuggling Remy and me out,” Soren adds. “So there are others like you, like Chan-Yu, in the Sector.”
“Only out of necessity,” she says. “We cannot avoid them if we do not understand them.”
“But we need your help,” Remy says, her voice not quite pleading, but almost. “I don’t know what happened to your people after the SRI massacre was blamed on an ‘Outsider terrorist,’ but you must know as well as anyone what the Sector is doing.”
Osprey’s eyes flash as she turns towards Remy, thrusting her arms out to reveal the scars I’d only glimpsed before, jagged lines that run up and down her skin like filaments etched into her flesh. I shudder. It reminds me of the thin scars, still red and raw, on the image of Evander’s face after Remy got to him.
“Yes, Remy Alexander, I do know as well as anyone. Maybe even better than you. Which is why I stay as far away from the Sector as possible. Perhaps you ought to learn that lesson as well, especially after what happened at Round Barn—”
“Okay, okay,” I interrupt, trying to calm her down. “So you won’t take us to them. Can you at least deliver a message?”
She pulls back and brightens up instantly, the smile returning to her face without missing a beat. “Sure, what message?”
Remy steps forward. “Tell them we seek their counsel on how the Outsiders have avoided conflict with the Sector all these years and how their experiences mig
ht help us avoid an all-out civil war. We want to change the Sector, but we don’t want war. We don’t want innocents dying any more than you do.”
“You sure have a strange way of doing business if you really want to avoid violence,” she says to Remy.
“I’d like to see Chan-Yu again,” Soren pipes up. “To find out what happened after he left Remy and me.”
Osprey’s face clouds over as I add, “And tell him Valerian Orleán would like to thank him for saving his friends, and for saving me. Tell him I am in his debt and at his service,” I say, surprised at my forcefulness even as the words come out, suddenly moved at the memory of what I owe my former aide.
Her eyes rest on each one of us as if she’s weighing us, considering whether or not we’re worth the effort of doing more than just guiding us from one place to the next. “That’s a message I’m sure he’ll be interested to hear,” she says finally, turning to leave as abruptly as she appeared, and it occurs to me that I have no idea how she travels so quietly and so quickly through the Wilds.
“Osprey,” I call after her.
“Yes?” She turns.
“Tell him ‘my allegiance lies outside the Sector.’”
She pauses as if considering my words. Nods once and then walks over to a pathetic excuse for a bush at the edge of our camp, grabs hold of empty air that shimmers into something that looks strangely like an Old world motorbike only without the wheels. She swings her leg over the seat, glances back at us, and then noiselessly speeds off into the distance, fading into nothingness as she goes.
We all turn around as Miah pokes his sleepy head out of the tent. He yawns, adding an exaggerated groan into it, and then looks up at all of us staring down at him.
“What? What'd I miss?”
Next morning, Osprey returns before light has even broken. We’d spent the previous day scouting around camp and then cooked several wild hares that Miah and I managed to snare using a technique Osprey showed me on our earlier trek together. After dinner, the sky was so clear that, once the fire died down, I felt as if I could reach up and pluck a star out of the sky. Since none of us could take our eyes off the Milky Way, painted bright across the inky dome above us, we dragged our sleeping bags out and slept in the open.
“Osprey’s back.” Remy shakes me awake beneath the steely sky, and I blink and look up to see her face mere centimeters above mine. Since the amazing dream I was having featured her in a prominent and very active role, my body thrums with the desire to reach up and pull her down to me. But I don’t. Besides, I need to push those thoughts from my mind before I leave my sleeping bag.
“Okay,” I say. “I’m awake.” I push myself up on my elbows.
“She says at least some of the leaders have agreed to meet with us.”
“I guess the opportunity to see the four of us traveling together—especially the now-infamous Remy Alexander—is too good to pass up.”
“It’s the chance we were hoping for,” she says. “But we need to move. Now. She seems to be in a hurry.” She steps away and starts to tear down her tent. I’m dressed and ready to go in a matter of moments, but Miah is dead to the world. I nudge him as I roll up my sleeping bag and stuff it into its sack. Everyone is up and in various states of drowsiness—everyone but Miah, that is, who is curled on his side like a little boy, a trail of drool drying on his cheek. I kick him lightly in the side.
“Five more minutes,” he grumbles.
“Miah, we’ve gotta move. Osprey’s back.” I shake him, and he turns over in his sleeping bag.
“Last time I was up before dawn was never. Goway.”
I laugh. “Never as in four days ago.” I nudge him with my foot, and he growls and flops over, face down, ignoring me and everything going on around us. I unzip his sleeping bag and flap it open wide only to reveal his broad back and stark white ass. His eyes open wide with the rush of cold air and he starts flailing, trying to cover himself up again.
“What the fuck, Orleán!” he shouts, as everyone stops what they’re doing to watch. “It’s cold out there.”
“Get your naked ass dressed, then!” I cross my arms and look down at him.
“Why’d you take your pants off, anyway?” Soren asks, a bemused look on his face. “What if we have to move fast in the middle of the night? That ass of yours would shine like a lighthouse. Drones could home in on that thing from fifty kilometers.”
Miah mutters something about needing a little more room in the junkyard and then groans as he stands up and stretches. He rubs his eyes and looks around at everyone staring at him—including Remy and Osprey. “What? Never seen such a fine specimen before?” He looks down and laughs. “Guess I’ll go take a piss now. I’ll sign autographs after I’m dressed. And after breakfast.” He picks up the pile of clothes he’d been using as a pillow and heads off behind our tent before turning and looking at Osprey. “We are having breakfast, aren’t we?”
Osprey shakes her head sadly. “I’m not sure we have enough food to fill the needs of such a fine specimen. We’ll just have to wait and see.”
A few minutes later, after we’ve packed up to leave, Remy asks me for a hand up onto her horse. I glance around for Soren, who normally would have been at Remy’s side. But he’s already mounted and looking down at Osprey as she strokes the neck of his horse and points to something in the distance.
I hold out my cupped palms for her. She reaches for the pommel of her saddle and puts a booted foot in my hands. I lift her up onto her horse, and she settles in, grabs the reins, and then turns to look down at me. I let my hand brush her thigh and the warmth of her leg electrifies my fingertips, sending a pulse of heat all the down to my core.
Does she feel it, too?
“Thanks,” is all she says.
But her eyes meet my own for a second before she turns away, just enough time to burn hope into me like the scars on Osprey’s arms.
A few hours later, the bleak wasteland around us is shimmering in the heat. It’s mid-April now and warm spells aren’t uncommon this time of year, but we didn’t anticipate anything like this. In the Sector, we don’t have much data on what the terrain is like this far beyond Sector borders. No reason to. Nothing grows out here, so it’s useless to us. Not to mention dangerous—or so we were taught. Notwithstanding the hungry bearded goats, we haven’t seen or heard much wildlife at all. Some wild dogs or coyotes in the distance, some lizards or wild hares scuttling away from us. But that’s about it.
Osprey leads our little pack on her oiseau, the French word for bird, which is what she calls her hovering motorbike. I notice Soren keeps nudging his horse up so he can ride next to her. I notice, too, that Remy seems perfectly unconcerned that Soren’s taken an obvious interest in Osprey. In fact, she seems to be paying no attention to him at all. She rides quietly by herself, right hand on the reins, her left twisting something absentmindedly in her jacket pocket.
I tilt my head back and try to read the sky. We’re heading northeast, and I notice little flashes of Osprey’s crystalline astrolabe every now and then when it catches the sunlight. I wonder if she’s showed it to Soren already or if she’s keeping it secret for now. I remember when I first met her, how she wouldn’t let the others see it.
“So, Vale,” Miah says, riding up from behind me. “What’d you make of Osprey?” He waggles his eyebrows at me in such a way that I can’t help but look at him sideways.
“Forgotten Moriana already?” I try to keep my voice neutral—and joking—but I must not have done a very good job, because the horror that colors his face makes me instantly regret the line.
“No!” His mouth drops open in astonishment. My heart thuds at the sudden fear I’ve offended my best friend. “God, no, Vale. Don’t think for a second I’ve forgotten her.”
“Bad joke, Miah. Sorry.”
But of course, he’s quick to forgive.
“I just meant, Osprey seems a little out there. Are all the Outsiders like her, do you think? With crazy scars and funky hai
r?”
“You’re one to talk about funky hair. That mess of yours defies description. And that beard? Wow.”
He strokes his beard fondly. “Fair point. She still seems a little off-kilter, though. I mean, obviously she’s a girl, but she doesn’t really seem … well … you know what I mean … like a girl, like Moriana or Remy or Kenzie.”
“Soren seems to like her well enough.”
“Yeah, and it looks like Remy couldn’t care less.”
I just nod, glad I’m not the only one who’s noticed, but I don’t want to act like I’ve been focused on Soren and Remy when so much is at stake. Of course, Miah probably knows what I’m thinking even before I do.
“Am I right in sensing something’s changed between the two of you? Seems like since Evander … that she’s … well, you know. That she’s softened up. And Soren doesn’t seem to be beating his chest and baring his teeth every time you go near. What happened with you guys at Round Barn?”
I’m almost afraid to put it into words. “She saved my life and then I saved hers … beyond that I don’t know. If anything has changed, I don’t want to jinx it.”
“Well, I guess I’ll hold off on the handfasting present.”
We rode in silence for a while and then Remy pulled up beside me. Miah nudged his horse forward with a little smile, ever the romantic.
“What are you going to say?” she asks.
“What?” I respond, genuinely confused.
“What are you going to say to the Outsiders. About why you’re with us. That’s what they want to know. That’s why they’re willing to meet us.”
“Is that what Osprey said?”
“No, but isn’t it obvious? The mysteriously kidnapped Valerian Orleán turning up on the Outsiders’ doorstep with his kidnapper and two Resistance traitors?”