The wedding she was planning at home in Australia was going to be one of the most important events in peoples’ social calendar, but Anna didn’t think she could wait. Anna had spent the morning on the phone scouting for the perfect little church, hidden in the English countryside where she and James could marry in secret before returning home and inviting the world to watch.
Chapter 12
Anna, Diana, and Michael checked into a quaint bed and breakfast on the outskirts of Manchester. The origins of the building were thought to be a farmhouse. Its history was reminiscent of a fairy tale. When the farmer died he left the estate to his wife and eight daughters, who unintentionally let the farm fall to ruins. When smallpox struck the family it claimed the lives of the wife and seven of the eight daughters. After years lost and alone, the sole survivor married into a wealthy family. He wasn’t the typical rich boy though, instead he was reluctantly wealthy who pretended to shun his fortune and focus on his true passion—art. When they married he moved into the farmhouse and was overcome by the potential. From that moment his sole purpose, his sole focus became restoring the overgrown and long forgotten farm to a place of beauty and solace, and that is how it had remained ever since. As the story goes that very same man who envisioned such beauty still haunts the gardens, ensuring that its splendour will survive for generations to admire.
In the early 1900s it became known as Chesterfield Castle. It was a gorgeous, old stone building with moss covered walls. It had a large, solid, oak door inviting you in. It was perched high on a five-hectare block, surrounded by gardens filled with colours, scents, and hidden treasures, that had been converted from fields which been once been overrun with chickens and goats. At night thousands of miniature fairy lights and candles illuminated the gardens. A worn cobblestone path wound through the garden to a small babbling brook. Old spruce trees lined the stream, its branches hanging heavy under the weight of the birds singing happily. On one of the large, grey boulders sat a huge slimy, green tree frog. It reminded Anna of something out of a fairy tale. Maybe it was.
The inside of Chesterfield Castle was even more romantic than the outside, if possible. It reflected the warmth, charm and magic of the people who had once called it home. The floors had aged, but character had been embedded into the worn timber. The central bar area had all the modern conveniences that had clearly been combined with the old world charm to make the place homey. Anna imagined living here with the artist and his wife a thousand lifetimes ago. She saw the beauty and majesty that would have consumed the property. Anna felt lost. There was a small niggling in the pit of her stomach, making her wish that she’d been around to see it through their eyes. Despite her reservations, Anna felt an overwhelming sense of delight. There was only one regret that pierced her soul. James. Anna couldn’t help but wish that James could be there to share it with her.
When Anna thought it couldn’t get any better she stumbled into the large country style kitchen. It was all done in oak with white marble bench tops. The windowsill and shelves were cluttered with an assortment of treasures. Old style irons, black and white cow figurines, banged up metal tins, and an old copper frying pan. As soon as she stepped through the door Anna could smell the inviting aroma of freshly baked scones. The smell was so enticing that Anna imagined she could taste the spoonfuls of strawberry jam and freshly whipped cream.
Her room was located on the second level of Chesterfield Castle in the right wing. Anna stood gazing out the window, at the gardens that she had fallen instantly in love with. As she stood admiring the beauty, she felt like a princess high up in her ivory tower, waiting patiently for her knight in shining armour to ride in and sweep her off her feet.
A knock at the door brought Anna back down to earth with a thud. Without waiting for an invitation, Diana walked in and propped herself up onto Anna’s four poster bed. The honey coloured canopy danced on the breeze. A mass of pillows had been scattered around at the head of the bed, the cream coloured quilt had tiny delicate flowers embroidered into it.
“How do you like your room?” Diana asked mischievously. Anna’s face did nothing to mask her pure delight.
“It’s beautiful. I’ve never seen anything like it. I could stay here forever.” Anna smiled dreamily at Diana.
“It really is something, isn’t it? Michael and I are going to head into town to take James for dinner before he starts competition tomorrow. Did you want to come? Or would you prefer to stay here wrapped in your fairy tale waiting for Prince Charming?” Diana smirked knowingly, but was amazed by the amount of strength it took for Anna to turn away from the window. She really did love it here.
“Give me ten?” she questioned. Diana just nodded her silent agreement. And with one final look out over the grounds, Anna spun on her heel and headed towards the bathroom.
Michael met them in the foyer. He wore his black dinner suit and shiny black shoes. Even he wasn’t as immune to the magic of the castle as he pretends to be, Anna thought, slightly amused.
He couldn’t contain the wide smile as his face lit up when he saw them descend down the spiral staircase. “Here come my ladies,” he joked.
He dropped a quick kiss on Diana’s cheek before extending his arm so she could take it. “You look incredible.” He smiled at Diana. Diana wore a very simple but extremely elegant two-piece plum suit. There was something about Chesterfield Castle that had forced them to dress up and play their role. Maybe it was the romance and magic that filled the air, or perhaps it was simply that the old world charms of the castle had infected them.
***
James
They arrived at the small, dimly lit restaurant a little after eight. James was already seated at a corner table. The waitress looking after that section was making no attempts to hide the fact that she was hitting on James. Her flirting was relentless. James saw his mother and father enter and immediately stood up and signalled them over.
When they reached the table, James showed off his impeccable manners by pulling Diana’s chair out for her. “Mum, you look wonderful.” He grinned proudly, kissing her cheek lightly. But he couldn’t hide his distraction. His eyes were darting about, scouring the restaurant for any sign of Anna.
“Is Anna coming?” he asked nervously. After what had happened or nearly happened last night James wasn’t certain. He had absolutely no idea what she was thinking or feeling at the moment. He only hoped that whatever it was, it would not keep her away.
“Yes. She’ll be here in a moment. She’s acting odd, though,” Michael confessed as James’s eye shot up in alarm. “She asked us to drop her a bit up the road so she could walk the rest of the way. That girl definitely has something on her mind,” Michael confirmed.
“Oh, okay,” James sighed, deflated. He knew what was on her mind. He didn’t have to ask. It was the same thing playing on his mind. On repeat. But what was worse, he knew that Anna’s anguish was his fault. “Should we order drinks while we wait?” Diana and Michael just nodded.
James had no trouble attracting the waitress’s attention. He placed their drink order, a bottle of white wine for his parents and Anna, while he stuck to the orange juice. She returned moments later carrying their drinks. After dropping them off, she pressed a crumpled piece of paper into James’s hand. “Open it!” she whispered seductively into his ear. As she walked away her hips swayed seductively.
Diana flashed her son a harsh look. “Well? What’s that? It can’t be the bill because we haven’t even eaten yet,” Diana snorted.
James untangled it. As soon as he saw it, he was filled with guilt and mild disgust.
Elizabeth Webb. If you need a friend or more, call me.
James handed it to his father, who laughed smugly. The fury in James’s eyes showed clearly exactly how unamused he was.
But his anger didn’t last long. As a young woman appeared in the doorway, all thoughts of the phone number in his hand evaporated instantly. Tall and graceful, her dark hair framed her face and cascaded over her b
are shoulders. The black sheath gown she wore was simple yet elegant. Sleeveless, high around the neck, it fell to the floor, grazing her breasts and hips in such a way that it was both modest and sexy. Her make-up was discreet, except for a bright blaze of red on her plump lips. James sat motionless. He was completely mystified and mesmerised by the mysterious woman. It wasn’t until she reached his table and James looked up into her eyes he recognised her. It was Anna. His Anna. Anna as he had never seen her.
Diana and Michael watched with bemused relief. Unable to hide their amusement, they looked on, powerless to do anything but sit back as their son melted at his fiancée’s feet. He was completely tongue tied. All thoughts of the waitress were long forgotten. Michael couldn’t restrain his smirk as he watched the phone number fall to the floor, discarded.
James stood and pulled out her chair. “You’re stunning,” he barely choked, barely managing to string words together. He had always considered Anna beautiful but tonight she stole his breath. He couldn’t tear his eyes off her as he poured her a glass of wine. Raising his glass above his head, he said “A toast. To England.” He laughed lightly.
The waitress appeared a few minutes later to take their order. She was pleasant to Diana and Michael, overly friendly to James, but she was straight out rude to Anna. With their dinner ordered, James led Anna out onto the small, intimate dance floor. By the time he slipped his arms around Anna’s waist, word had spread through the restaurant that James Thompson, the swimmer, dined amongst them. Patrons were craning their necks to get a glimpse, but neither James nor Anna noticed. James just stood in the centre of the dance floor with his arms snugly wrapped around Anna, oblivious to the world.
Something had changed between them. James not only felt it, but he could see it in Anna’s sad eyes. Despite the smile on her face, James knew it was forced. It didn’t reach her eyes. She was keeping him at arm’s length, even as they danced. “What’s wrong?” he asked, his voice trembling. He was petrified that last night could change everything. But it was more than that. James was scared he would lose Anna but it was more than fear. He was baffled as to why she seemed so angry and hurt. Did she blame him? How could he fix it? Would Anna even let him try? His mind was whirling. This had to be fixed and fixed now, otherwise it would be still eating at him when competition started tomorrow.
“Nothing. Why?” Anna was so distant; it was almost as if she wasn’t really there.
“Look, I’m really sorry about last night…”
“No. No. Please don’t. I’m the one who’s sorry. I should have said or done something before it got that far, but I didn’t want to. I don’t know why, but I wanted it just as much as you did. Probably more.”
“Baby, I promise you, that’s not possible,” James confessed, planting a chaste kiss on Anna’s exposed neck, causing Anna to tremble in his arms.
“But I really am sorry. And I wish I could explain it better but I just don’t know how,” Anna admitted. Her face that was usually so bright and bubbly was now apologetic and almost sad.
“Princess, don’t for a minute think that I didn’t want exactly the same thing. And I knew that I couldn’t and shouldn’t, but it didn’t mean I didn’t want it…if that makes any sense at all. We only have a few more weeks to wait. Then you’re all mine.” James chuckled throatily. His honesty and his optimism made Anna’s squirm.
“What if I said I could speed things up? Any thoughts?” Anna waited anxiously for his response.
“I’d say why are we still standing here? But there is no way—”
“Shh,” Anna whispered, putting her finger on his lips. “Haven’t you figured it out yet? I’m magical. I have ways. Tell me, Mr. Thompson, what are you doing in an hour and a half?”
“Whatever you tell me,” he agreed, pulling her closer to him if it was at all possible. He was totally captivated by her. At that moment James knew whatever Anna wanted he would give to her. Wherever Anna went, that’s where he wanted to be. No matter the cost, she would always come first.
Diana and Michael sat, watching them from the table. In fact the whole restaurant was watching their every move.
“I’m really glad he’s marrying that girl,” Michael smiled at his wife, intertwining their fingers. “They’re perfect together. I just can’t imagine him being happy with anyone else.”
“I know what you mean. They really do just fit, don’t they?” Diana replied proudly. Her face was covered by a smile of pure admiration.
***
Diana
James was everything that a mother could hope their son would grow up to be. He was successful, charming, handsome, intelligent, kind, sensitive, and more important than anything else, he was happy.
All they ever hoped for James was his happiness and only Diana and Michael knew how hard that was for James. To the outside world James led a charmed life, and the truth was he really did, but what the world didn’t see was all the sacrifices he had made to have that life. He’d fought the dark periods in his life and always come out on top but that didn’t mean that they weren’t there or that they didn’t leave scars—deep, permanent and ugly scars.
As Diana watched her son she was more thankful for Anna than she could ever express. Since Anna there had been no dark days. It was like she was the light inside James and made his world sparkle. And although Anna knew vaguely of James’s struggles she’d never experienced one first hand, and Diana prayed that she would never have to.
***
Anna
Anna led James back to the table where they sat quietly and enjoyed their meal. James couldn’t help but keep checking his watch, waiting anxiously for the surprise Anna had alluded to. After their meal, Anna told Diana that she and James were going to take a walk, and she would find her own way back to Chesterfield. James shot Anna a bewildered look. Anna just smiled mischievously and offered a slight nod as she reached down and took his hand.
The temperature had dropped noticeably since their arrival and it was snowing lightly. Anna’s dark brown spirals were collecting the soft snowflakes. They landed in her hair, on her nose, and on the ends of her eyelashes. Anna dropped James’s hand and stood with her arms high above her head, spinning around. She looked like an innocent child who’d never before seen snow.
“Where are we going? You realise I have to work tomorrow,” James’s voice was thick with sarcasm.
“What do you mean you have to work? You haven’t done an honest day’s work in your charmed life,” Anna teased. “And of course I know where we’re going. But if you don’t want to come…” Anna mocked.
“I didn’t say that now, did I?” James scooped her up and threw her over his shoulder like she weighed nothing at all. Anna squealed with delight as James slapped her playfully, earning him another squawk.
***
James
Something inside James stirred. The same something that had stirred last night and almost ruined everything. As much as James loved being with Anna right now he knew that they needed some space. He didn’t trust himself to keep his hands off her. If he didn’t put some distance between them, they would inevitably get themselves into something they couldn’t take back.
James’s voice was filled with fear and sadness as he stammered, “L-Look, Anna.” He began sliding her down his body until her feet touched the ground. Anna couldn’t conceal the shock in her eyes as she felt his arousal through her dress. “I really have to get going. I’ve got a big day tomorrow. Will you be all right to get home?” James was staring directly at the ground, he couldn’t even bear to look at her. He couldn’t risk seeing the pain and rejection on her face. He obviously wanted her but now he was pushing her away.
“Yeah, I’ll be fine.” She gulped, unable to hide her disappointment. Without another word James dropped a chaste kiss on her cheek and disappeared into the night, leaving her standing cold and alone.
***
Anna
Anna wasn’t ready to go home. She needed time to digest what just
happened. She couldn’t bear the thought of anyone knowing she’d been rejected. Again. Cast aside. Forcing the hurt aside, Anna determined to savour every moment of it. The ground was steadily being covered in a dusting of soft white snow. It was a clear night with a light breeze blowing at her back. Wrapping her arms around her chest like armour against the cold, Anna continued to walk down the road, often stopping to admire the window displays. Despite being completely bewitched by her surroundings Anna was confused and hurt by what had happened. Maybe it was what hadn’t happened? She didn’t know what she had done wrong nor could she understand why he had left in such a hurry. With her heart pounding in her chest, Anna lost interest in the romance of her surroundings and caught a taxi back to the hotel.
As Anna wandered thoughtlessly through the front door she was nearly bowled over by Diana, who came flying down the stairs to greet her. “Where have you been? We’ve been so worried,” Diana was babbling, barely forming actual words.
“I went for a walk. I was with James, you knew that. I don’t understand.” Anna was bewildered as to why all the panic.
“James got back to his hotel over an hour ago. He rang to make sure you got home safely. What happened? Where did you get to? Are you all right? Anna, talk to me. Please,” Diana interrogated, demanding an explanation.
“Well, after James left I just kept walking. I needed a chance to breathe. Get my head together. I had a lot on my mind,” Anna tried desperately to explain, but she was inconsolable as the dam burst and large, fat tears swallowed her. Something inside her snapped and she was consumed by feelings of guilt and frustration. She wanted to scream and throw things and kick her legs, but she knew none of it would help. She wanted desperately to understand why James had walked away, and so damn easily. Then the sad realisation crept in that maybe this was a sign that things weren’t going to work out for them after all.
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