by Louis Stone
“I don’t see ’ow I’m ter blame for this any more’n if ’e’d come to the gutter through drink. It was a fair go on the Road, an’ if I beat ’im an’ the others, it was because I was a better man at the game. I spent nearly all my money in that little shanty where I started, an’ ’im an’ the others looked on an’ ’oped I’d starve. Yer talk about me bein’ cruel an’ callous. It’s the game that’s cruel, not me. I knocked ’im out all right, but wot ’ud be the use of knockin’ ’im down with one ’and an’ pickin’ ’im up with the other?”
“You say yourself that he took you off the streets, and gave you a living.”
“So ’e did, but ’e got ’is money’s worth out of me. I did the work of a man, an’ saved ’im pounds for years. Yer wouldn’t ’ave such a sentimental way of lookin’ at things if yer’d been a street-arab, sellin’ newspapers, an’ no one ter make it ’is business whether yer lived or starved.”
“But surely you can’t see him in that condition without feeling sorry for him?”
“Oh yes, I can; ’e’s no friend of mine. ’E told everybody on the Road that I went shares with the Devil,” said Jonah, with an uneasy grin. “’Ere, I’ll show yer wot ’e thinks of me.”
He felt in his pocket for a coin, and crossed the street. Paasch had finished his piece, and putting his fiddle under his arm, turned to the loafers with a beseeching air. They looked the other way and discussed the weather. Then Jonah stepped up to him and thrust the coin into his hand. Paasch, feeling something unaccustomed in his fingers, held it up to the light. It was a sovereign, and he blinked in wonder at the coin then at the giver, convinced that it was a trick. Then he recognized Jonah, and a look of passionate fear and anger convulsed his features. He threw down the coin as if it had burnt him, crying “No, I vill not take your cursed moneys. Give me back mine shop and mine business that you stole from me. You are a rich man and ride in your carriage, and I am the beggar, but I would not change with you. The great gods shall mock at you. Money you shall have in plenty while I starve, but never your heart’s desire, for like a dog did you bite the hand that fed you.”
Suddenly his utterance was choked by a violent fit of coughing, and he stared at Jonah, crazed with hate and prophetic fury. A crowd began to gather, and Jonah, afraid of being recognized, walked rapidly away.
“Now yer can see fer yerself,” he cried, sullenly.
“Yes, I see,” said Clara, strangely excited; “and I think you would be as cruel with a woman as you are with a man.”
“I’ve given yer no cause ter say that,” protested Jonah.
“Perhaps not,” said Clara; “but that man won’t last through the winter unless he’s cared for. And if he dies, his blood will be on your head, and your luck will turn. His crazy talk made me shiver. Promise me to do something for him.”
“Ye’re talkin’ like a novelette,” said Jonah, roughly.
But Paasch’s words had struck a superstitious chord in Jonah, and he went out of his way to find a plan for relieving the old man without showing his hand. He consulted his solicitors, and then an advertisement in the morning papers offered a reward to anyone giving the whereabouts of Hans Paasch, who left Hassloch in Bavaria in 1860, and who would hear of something to his advantage by calling on Harris & Harris, solicitors. A month later Jonah held a receipt for twelve pounds ten, signed by Hans Paasch, the first instalment of an annuity of fifty pounds a year miraculously left him by a distant cousin in Germany.
He showed this to Clara while they were crossing in the boat to Mosman. She listened to him in silence. Then a flush coloured her cheeks.
“You’ll never regret that,” she said; “it’s the best day’s work you ever did.”
“I ’ope I’ll never regret anythin’ that gives you pleasure,” said Jonah, feeling very noble and generous, and surprised at the ease with which he turned a compliment.
They had the Point to themselves, as usual, and Clara went to the edge of the rocks to see what ships had come and gone during the week, trying to identify one that she had read about in the papers. Jonah watched her in silence, marking every detail of her tall figure with a curious sense of possession that years of intimacy had never given him with Ada. And yet she kept him at a distance with a skill that exasperated him and provoked his admiration. One day when he had held her hand a moment too long, she had withdrawn it with an explanation that sounded like an apology. She explained that from a child she had been unable to endure the touch of another person; that she always preferred to walk rather than ride in a crowded bus or tram because bodily contact with others set her nerves on edge. It was a nervous affection, she explained, inherited from her mother. Jonah had his own opinion of this malady, but he admitted to himself that she would never enter a crowd or a crush.
The result of her pleading for Paasch had put her in a high good humour. It was the first certain proof of her power over Jonah, and she chattered gaily. She had risen in her own esteem. But presently, to her surprise, Jonah took some papers from his pocket and frowned over them.
“It’s very impolite to read in other people’s company,” she remarked, with a sudden coolness.
“I beg yer pardon,” said Jonah, starting suddenly, as if a whip had touched him. She never failed to reprove him for any lapse in manners, and Jonah winced without resentment.
“I thought this might interest yer,” he continued. “I’m puttin’ Steel in as manager at last, an’ this is the agreement.”
“Who advised you to do that?” said Clara, with an angry flush.
“Well, Johnson’s been complainin’ of overwork fer some time, but Miss Giltinan decided me. She’s very keen on me openin’ up branches in the suburbs.”
“You place great weight on Miss Giltinan’s opinion,” said Clara, jealously.
“Ter tell the truth, I do,” said Jonah. “Next ter yerself, she’s got the best ’ead fer business of any woman I know.”
“I don’t agree with it at all,” said Clara. “You’re the brains of the Silver Shoe, and another man’s ideas will clash with yours.”
“No fear!” said Jonah. “I’ve got ’im tied down in black and white by my solicitors.”
Clara ran her eye over the typewritten document, reading some of the items aloud.
“‘Turn over the stock three times a year’! What does that mean?” And she listened while Jonah explained, the position of pupil and tutor suddenly reversed.
“‘Ten and a half per cent bonus, in addition to his salary, if he shows an increase on last year’s sales.
“‘Net profits on the departments not to exceed twenty-five per cent’,” read Clara in amazement. “Why, I should have thought the more profit he made, the better for you.”
“No fear,” said Jonah, with a grin; “I can’t ’ave a man puttin’ up the price of the Silver Shoe with his eye on his bonus.”
Then a long discussion followed that lasted till nightfall. As the night promised to be fine, Jonah persuaded her to take tea at a dilapidated refreshment-room, halfway to the jetty, and they continued the discussion over cups of discoloured water and stale cakes. When they reached the Point again the moon was rising clear in the sky, and they sat and watched in silence the gradual illumination of the harbour. The wind had dropped, and tiny ripples alone broke the surface of the water. On the opposite shore the beaches lay obscured in the faint light of the moon, growing momently stronger, the land and water melted and confounded together in the grey light. The lesser stars fled at the slow approach of the moon, and in an hour she floated alone in the sky, save for the larger planets, flooding the deep abysses of the night with a gleam of silver, tender and caressing, that softened the angles and blotted details in brooding shadows.
Overhead curved the arch of night, a deep, flawless blue with velvety depths, pale and diluted with light as it touched the skyline. On the right, in the farther distance, Circular Quay flashed with the gleam of electric arcs, each contracted into a star of four points. And they glittered on t
he waterline like clustered gems without visible setting. A fainter glow marked the packed suburbs of the east; and then the lamps, flung like jewels in the night, picked out the line of shore to Rose Bay and the Heads.
Ferry-boats were crossing the harbour, jewelled and glittering with electric bulbs, moving in the distance without visible effort with the motion of swans, the throb of engines and the swirl of water lost in the distance. It was a symphony in light, each detached gleam on the sombre shore hanging
Like a rich jewel in an Ethiop’s ear.
Between the moon and the eye the water lay like a sheet of frosted glass; elsewhere the water rippled without life or colour, treacherous and menacing in the night.
Jonah turned and looked at the woman beside him. They were alone on the rocky headland, the city and the world of men seemed remote and unreal, cut off by the silvery light and the brooding shadows. It dawned slowly on him that his relations with this woman were independent of time and space. Of all things visible, it was she alone that mattered. Often enough he had missed his cue, but now, as if answering a question, he began speaking softly, as if he were talking to himself:
“Clara!—Clara Grimes!—Clara! I’ve wanted ter say that out aloud fer months, but I’ve never found the place ter say it in. It sounds quite natural ’ere. Yer know that I love yer—I’ve seen it in yer face; but yer don’t know that you’re the first woman I ever wanted. No, yer needn’t run away. I’m afraid ter touch yer, an’ yer know it. Yer thought because I was married that I knew all about women. Why, I didn’t know what women were made for till I met you. I thought w’en I ’ad the shop an’ my boy that I had everythin’ I wanted, but the old woman was right. There’s a lot more in this world than I ever dreamt of. Seein’ you opened my eyes. An’ now I want yer altogether. I want ter see yer face every ’our of the day, an’ tell yer whatever comes into my mind. I spend ’ours talkin’ to yer w’en I’m by myself.
“It’s only my right,” he went on, with increased energy. “I’m a man in spite of my shape, an’ I only ask fer what I’m entitled to. I can see that other men ’ave been gittin’ these things without me knowin’ it. I used ter grin at Chook, but I was the fool. I had everythin’ that I could see that was worth ’avin’, an’ somehow I wasn’t satisfied. I never could see much in this life. I often wondered what it was all about. But now I understand. What’s this for,” and he indicated the dreamy peaceful scene with a sweep of his hand, “if it only leaves yer starin’ and wonderin’? I know now. It’s ter make me think about yer an’ want yer. Well, yer’ve made a man of me, an’ it’s up ter yous ter make the best of me.” He broke off with a short laugh. “P’raps this sounds funny ter you. I’ve ’eard old women at the Salvos’ meetings talk like this, tellin’ of the wonderful things they found out w’en they got converted.”
Clara had listened in silence, with an intent, curious expression on her face. Jonah’s words were like balm to her pride, lacerated three years ago by her broken engagement. And she listened, immensely pleased and a little afraid, like a mischievous child that has set fire to the curtains. Jonah’s face was turned to her, and as she looked at him her curiosity was changed to awe at the sight of passion on fire. She thought of the crazy fiddler’s words, and felt in herself an infinite sadness, for she knew that Jonah would never gain his heart’s desire.
“I’ve ’ad my say,” he continued, “an’ now I’ll talk sense. You’re a grown woman, an’ yer know what all this means. I can give yer anythin’ yer like: a house an’ servants; everythin’ yer want. What do yer say?”
Clara had gone white to the lips. It had come at last, and the Silver Shoe was within her reach, but the gift was incomplete. She must decline it, and take her chances for the future.
“Not quite everything, Joe,” she replied gently, afraid of wounding him. “Ever since I was a girl I’ve had something to be ashamed of through no fault of my own—my drunken father, the street we live in, our genteel poverty; and now, when I seem to have missed all my chances, you come along, and offer me everything I want with the main thing left out. Oh, I know those cottages where the husband is a stranger, and the neighbours watch them behind the curtains, and pump the servant over the back fence! I’m too proud for that sort of thing. Oh, what a rotten world this is!” she cried passionately, and burst into a storm of weeping. It was the most natural action of her life.
Jonah sat and stared at the lights of the Quay, dismayed by her tears but relieved in his mind. He had spoken at last; already he was framing fresh arguments to persuade her. Presently she dried her eyes and looked at him with the ghost of a smile. Then began a discussion which threatened to last all night, neither of them giving way from the position they had taken up, neither yielding an inch to the other’s entreaties. Suddenly Jonah looked at his watch with an exclamation. It was nearly ten. In the heat of argument they had forgotten the lapse of time. They scrambled over boulders and through the lantana bushes down to the path, and just caught the boat.
When they reached the Quay they were surprised again by the splendour of the night. The moon, just past the full, flooded the streets with white light that left deep shadows between the buildings like a charcoal drawing. They took a tram to the Haymarket, as they were afraid of being recognized in the Waterloo cars, and reached Regent Street after eleven. The hotels had disgorged their customers, who were talking loudly in groups on the footpath or lurching homeward with uneven steps. Jonah was explaining that he must see Clara all the way home on account of the lateness of the hour, when he was astonished to hear someone sobbing in the monumental mason’s yard as if his heart would break. He turned and looked. The headstones and white marble crosses stood in rows with a faint resemblance to a graveyard; the moonlight fell clear and cold on these monuments awaiting a purchaser. Some, already sold, were lettered in black with the name of the departed. Jonah and Clara stared, puzzled by the noise, when they saw an old man in the rear of the yard in a top hat and a frock coat, clinging to a marble cross. He lurched round, and instantly Clara, with a gasp of amazement and shame, recognized her father.
She moved into the shadows of a house, humiliated to her soul by this exhibition; but Jonah laughed, in spite of himself, at the figure cut by Dad among the ready-made monuments. As he laughed, Dad caught sight of him, and clinging to a marble angel with one arm for support, beckoned wildly with the other.
“Come here—come here,” he cried between his sobs. “I’m all alone with the dead, and nobody to shed a tear ’cep’ meself. Shame on you, shame on you,” he cried, raising his voice in bitter grief, “to pass the poor fellows in their graves without sheddin’ tear!”
He stopped and stared with drunken gravity at the name on the nearest tombstone, trying to read the words which danced before his eyes in the clear light. Jonah saw them plainly.
SACRED TO THE MEMORY OF
SARAH JAMES,
Aged Eighty-five.
A fresh burst of grief announced that Dad had deciphered the lettering.
“Sam!” he cried bitterly. “Me old fren’ Sam! To think of bringing him here without letting me know! Me old fren’.”
Here sobs choked his utterance. He stooped and examined the shining marble slab again, lurching from one side to the other with incessant motion.
“An’ not a flowersh onsh grave!” he cried. “Sam was awfly fond flowersh.”
“Get away ’ome, or the Johns’ll pinch yer,” said Jonah.
Dad stopped and stared at him with a glimmering of reason in his fuddled brain.
“I know yoush,” he cried, with a cunning leer. “An’ I know your fren’ there. She isn’t yer missis. She never is, y’ know. Naughty boy!” he cried, wagging his finger at Jonah; “but I won’t split on pal.”
That reminded him of the deceased Sam, and he turned again to the monument.
“Goo’bye, Sam,” he cried suddenly, under the impression that he had been to a funeral. “I’ve paid me respecks to an ol’ fren’, an’ now we’ll both sleep
in peace.”
“Come away and leave him,” whispered Clara, trembling with disgust and mortification.
“No fear!” said Jonah. “The Johns down ’ere don’t know ’im, an’ they’ll lumber ’im. You walk on ahead, an’ I’ll steer ’im ’ome.
He looked round; there was not a cab to be seen.
He led Dad out of the stonemason’s yard with difficulty, as he wanted to wait for the mourning coaches. Then, opposite the mortuary, he remembered his little present for the Duchess, and insisted on going back.
“Wheresh my lil’ present for Duchess?” he wailed. “Can’t go ’ome without lil’ present.”
Jonah was in despair. At last he rolled his handkerchief into a bail and thrust it into Dad’s hand.
Then Dad, relieved and happy, cast Jonah off, and stood for a moment like the Leaning Tower of Pisa. Jonah watched anxiously, expecting him to fall, but all at once, with a forward lurch Dad broke into a run, safe on his feet as a spinning top. Jonah had forgotten Dad’s run, famous throughout all Waterloo, Redfern, and Alexandria.
22
A FATAL ACCIDENT
As Clara crossed the tunnel at Cleveland Street, she found that she had a few minutes to spare, and stopped to admire the Silver Shoe from the opposite footpath. Triumphant and colossal, treading the air securely above the shop, the glittering shoe dominated the street with the insolence of success. More than once it had figured in her dreams, endowed with the fantastic powers of Aaron’s rod, swallowing its rivals at a gulp or slowly crushing the life out of the bruised limbs.
Her eye travelled to the shop below, with its huge plate-glass windows framed in brass, packed with boots set at every angle to catch the eye. The array of shining brass rods and glass stands, the gaudy ticket on each pair of boots with the shillings marked in enormous red figures and the pence faintly outlined beside them, pleased her eye like a picture. Today the silver lettering was covered with narrow posters announcing that Jonah’s red-letter sale was to begin tomorrow. And as she stared at this huge machine for coining money, she remembered, with a sudden disdain, her home with its atmosphere of decay and genteel poverty. She was conscious of some change in herself. The slight sense of physical repugnance to the hunchback had vanished since his declaration. He and his shop stood for power and success. What else mattered?