“I’ll be right back,” Dan told his father, who was chewing another massive slice of pita bread with some of the scary pâté smeared on it.
Greg untangled himself from Chuck and met Dan halfway across the living room. Some of the rainbow crepe paper was falling down, and it brushed Dan’s shoulders as he moved.
“Listen.” Greg ran a hand through his shaggy blond hair. “Not now, but sometime soon, I’d really like to talk to you about some stuff.” He looked meaningfully into Dan’s eyes, and Dan took a sip of his Cosmo—fruit punch flavor be damned—and swallowed hard. What with Greg’s grandmother dying, Dan knew he had to be supportive—be there for him in his time of need and all that. But what if what Greg wanted was to make things between them more . . . official—just like everyone else?
Dan’s head was still spinning with the discovery that he was gay—and that he’d probably always been gay. But if he was going to be gay, shouldn’t he at least find a boyfriend who made him feel something besides awkward and nervous? His eyes scanned the room, finally landing on Vanessa, who was talking to his mother and nodding like she actually had some clue as to what Jeanette was talking about. She caught his eye and winked, and Dan instantly felt a little bit better.
“Sure,” he replied weakly. “That’d be good.”
A look of relief swept over Greg’s face. “Thanks. You’re the best.” He gave Dan’s hand a little squeeze before returning to sit next to Chuck, who was feeding his monkey wild boar pâté, its fingers covered with the soft brown goo. Dan watched in horror as the monkey screeched, throwing its furry head back and smearing the pâté all over the freshly washed white wall.
So much for redecorating.
things worth having are worth cheating for
“Oh my God, you have to burn this one!” Serena held out a picture of her first-grade self in a fuzzy alligator costume and dug her feet into the butter-soft forest green Pratesi sheets covering Nate’s bed. His bed was always unmade, despite the fact that his family had a maid who bulldozed through his room every day, washing everything in sight. Serena and Nate lay side by side on their stomachs, a worn leather photo album between them.
“I don’t even remember wearing that,” she mused, tossing the aging photo onto the already messy floor. Even though he’d only been home for one day, his room was a total disaster. Piles of clothes were strewn everywhere, and his huge wooden desk was completely covered with notebooks, magazines, and PlayStation games. A broken Brine lacrosse stick leaned dejectedly in one corner.
“I do.” Nate laughed, retrieving the photo. “It was Halloween. We’d just gone to the Bronx Zoo on some field trip, and you became obsessed with alligators.” He smiled lazily at her. “You ran around telling everybody you were going to live with the alligators.” Serena’s bare foot was right next to Nate’s, and she moved it a fraction of an inch closer, feeling the heat from his body as he turned the pages of the photo album. She bit her lip. She needed to focus on the job they’d come there to do—to choose the pictures for the slide show at Blair’s graduation party. Blair. Nate’s girlfriend. The love of his life. She looked down at the tan leather photo album again and took a deep breath, letting it out slowly. There was Blair’s tanned, happy face, her arms entwined around Nate’s neck as she pulled his face closer to hers, grinning into the camera. They’d probably kissed moments after they took that picture. Because they were in love. Her heart sank with the thought.
“This is so weird,” Nate said, turning the page.
“What is?” Serena asked, hoping Nate hadn’t suddenly developed the ability to read minds. She twirled a lock of blond hair around one finger, waiting for him to finish his thought.
“Oh, no way!” she exclaimed, pointing at the photo album as he turned to the next page.There was Nate, blissfully passed out between a smiling Serena and Blair, the words BUCK NAKED scrawled in red marker across his bare, hairless chest. “I didn’t even know we had this! I’ll let you keep the alligator one if you promise never to burn this one. . . .” She looked up and gave him a mischievous smile.
“Deal.” Nate stuck his hand out, and she shook it, slowly drawing her hand away.
Looking down at eighth-grade Nate, so peaceful and sleepy, Serena couldn’t help remembering how warm his skin always was, and how, on the night they’d lost their virginity to each other, she hadn’t needed a blanket at all—sleeping with Nate was like sleeping with your own personal furnace.
And just as dangerous . . .
“What were you saying though before—what’s weird?” Serena looked down at the ends of her hair again, afraid of his answer.
“I don’t know.” Nate flipped the page and pointed to a picture of Blair on the steps of the Met with Serena, their arms wrapped around each other, tongues sticking out at the camera. “Things seemed so much easier back then. No college. No worries. No responsibilities.” “Like taking the Charlotte for a month without asking?” she said, grinning. “It must’ve been awesome.” She cleared her throat and rolled over onto her back, her hands on her belly. Her stomach dipped and rolled in anticipation and nervousness. She wasn’t sure she really wanted to know the answer to that question, but at the same time, she couldn’t seem to stop herself from asking.
“It was.” Nate closed the photo album and looked at her. “Being out there with no parents, nothing to worry about, just me and Blair . . . it was probably the best month of my life,” he said, although he was really thinking about how kissable Serena’s lips always looked—the way they were always a little parted, with just a trace of a smile.
Serena’s heart plummeted in her chest. She wanted so badly to have been the one out there with him, totally alone, nothing around but the endless expanse of blue water and their half-naked bodies. She wondered for the millionth time if he had found her letter and read it. Somehow, she doubted he had. If he’d found the letter, he would’ve said something, right? But there was probably no point in asking anyway. He loved Blair. There was no question. She felt dizzy at the thought. How could she go up to Yale with them in a week and watch as Nate and Blair stared into each other’s eyes for four long years? She didn’t think she’d be able to stand it.
Nate’s phone rang, breaking the peaceful silence. He grabbed it from the floor and as he reached out, his T-shirt rode up a little, exposing the smooth, tanned skin of his back. Serena swallowed and tried to look away. Nate pushed the speakerphone button and a gravelly, decidedly grumbly voice was released into the air.
“Nate? Is that you?”
Nate looked over at Serena in confusion, wrinkling his forehead.
“Uh, yeah,” he said cautiously. “This is Nate.”
“Well, this is Chips,” the voice growled menacingly. “Meet me at the New York Yacht Club in half an hour.” There was a click, then the sound of a dial tone.
“Fuck,” Nate mumbled under his breath. After a moment he jumped to his feet and slid them into a beat-up pair of black and white Marc Jacobs Vans.
“I’m sorry,” he said, putting his cell phone into his pocket. “But I’ve gotta go.” “Sounds like you’ve got a hot date.” She winked and waited for his sly comeback, but he only gave her a halfhearted smile. Serena searched his eyes, trying to figure out what was going on. Nate turned and started digging through one of his desk drawers, pulling out some rolling papers, a stick of deodorant, and some random unicorn stickers Blair had probably given him in, like, seventh grade or something. “But before you go, I just wanted to tell you that they’re pushing up the release date for Breakfast at Fred’s. . . .” “Seriously?” He turned to look at her again, producing his iPod from the drawer and throwing it into his navy blue Jack Spade canvas backpack along with his keys. “I guess you’ll be a real movie star soon.” He grinned, closing his backpack. “Sure you’ll still have time for us little people?” “I’ll always have time for you, Natie.” Her voice was small but serious. As she held his green-eyed gaze, Nate leaned over and kissed her softly on the forehead, his lips l
ingering for a moment on her skin. He stroked the top of her head briefly with one hand and then walked quickly to the door. Before the door swung shut, he looked back at her —a kind of wordless question swimming in his green eyes. And then he was gone.
Serena sat there in a daze, one hand tracing the path of his lips on her face. Her forehead felt strange and electric—like her skin had just been branded by the soft pressure of Nate’s mouth. She could still feel the silky warmth of his lips, and all she wanted was to chase him out the door and kiss him back.
But not on the forehead this time.
b stakes out her best frenemies
“Hot dogs! Get your hot dogs here!”
Blair perched on a fire hydrant directly across from the Archibald’s town house on Eighty-second Street. A Sabrett hot dog cart was parked on the sidewalk a few feet from her, and the salty aroma of hot dogs, sauerkraut, and hot, golden pretzels was making her feel slightly insane, and very hungry. Her stomach growled and she rolled her eyes in annoyance. Even though she was totally starving, she wasn’t going anywhere or eating anything—especially not a greasy, disease-filled hot dog—until Serena came out and explained to her what the hell was going on and why she was hanging out at Nate’s house. Rumbling stomach or not, right now the only kind of dog Blair was interested in was her lying, cheating boyfriend.
Woof!
She crossed her arms over her chest, her forest green canvas Kate Spade tote resting in her lap. She pushed her tinted blue Prada aviators up on her forehead and watched as the heavy wooden door to the town house swung open. Nate came tumbling out, shoving his white iPod headphones in his ears and practically running down the street. Where was he off to in such a hurry? Maybe the “paint fumes” had gone to his head. Moments later, Serena appeared, looking right, then left, her black leather tote swinging from her shoulder, blond hair gleaming in the sunlight. Aha!
Blair watched as Serena proceeded to practically tiptoe down the street toward the park. As she reached the corner, she stopped suddenly, pulling her cell from her bag. Who was she calling now? Did she need to call Nate only seconds after parting to plan their next rendezvous? Blair leaned forward on the bench, trying to make out Serena’s expression as she held the phone to her head.
Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
Blair jumped as her cell began to vibrate and ring from the confines of her tote. She grabbed it and looked at the caller-ID screen.Well, of course.
“Hello?” she answered shrilly, unable to keep the iciness from her voice.
“Hey.” Serena’s voice was bright and casual. “What are you doing?” “Hey. Nothing. Contemplating killing my family.” And you? Blair added silently.
Serena laughed. “What’d they do this time?”
“I’ll tell you later.” Blair sighed. She watched as Serena stopped walking and held onto a streetlight, kicking one foot against the metal base.
Oh-kaaay . . .
“So, where are you right now?” Serena asked, her voice questioning. Blair watched as she leaned against the pole, crossing her legs at the ankles.
“You know, just out and about.” Blair kept her voice neutral.
An ambulance rushed down the street, siren wailing, and the sound echoed through both phones. “That’s so weird—it sounds like you’re right next to me.” Serena sounded confused . . . and maybe the slightest bit nervous?
“It’s funny you should say that.” Blair’s tone was icy as a January frost. “Because I’m looking right at you.” She watched as Serena whirled around, checking the crowd frantically. “Oh!” she exclaimed, spotting her. “I’ll be right over.” Now this should be a fun reunion!
Ten minutes later, they sat side by side on the cool stone steps of the Met, smoking cigarettes, iced vanilla lattes sweating in their hands. The sun beat down on their heads and shoulders like a reprimand, and brightly colored banners hung from the entrance to the museum, advertising the latest Picasso and Van Gogh touring collections.
“So,” Blair’s voice was cool and measured, “what were you doing over at Nate’s?” She glanced at Serena’s low-cut black cotton Tory Burch tank top. “Because it certainly doesn’t look like there was any painting going on.” “Painting? What are you talking about?” Serena knew it must be weird for Blair to have caught her and Nate hanging out without her, but the iciness in Blair’s voice felt totally wrong, especially here. The two of them had met on these steps countless times. They’d drunk hundreds of coffees and smoked probably thousands of cigarettes here. Usually they would gossip wildly until the sky grew dark and it was time to head home, linking their arms and walking down Fifth
Avenue. But now it didn’t feel calming or familiar to have Blair sitting next to her—it felt tense. Serena shifted on the hard stone, trying unsuccessfully to get comfortable.
“Nate told me earlier he couldn’t hang out because they were painting his room and the fumes were too much to bear. But clearly you were able to handle them,” Blair accused, looking straight ahead.
“Listen, I think you’ve got things all wrong. Please don’t freak out before I tell you what’s really going on.” Serena snuck a glance at Blair, whose eyes were hidden behind enormous blue aviators. She seemed mad, but Serena couldn’t really be sure, since cranky was kind of Blair’s natural state. She hadn’t wanted to ruin the surprise of the slide show, but she knew Blair would never trust her again if she didn’t explain what she and Nate had been doing.
Um, maybe she should’ve thought about that before writing her best friend’s boyfriend a three-page love letter?
“So you know the party at the Met?” Serena took a gulp of iced latte and looked out at the street below. A tired-looking mother was attempting to strap her writhing toddler into a stroller while her husband looked on helplessly. “Well, your mom asked me and Nate to go through all these photos to make a slide show for the party: a ‘This Is Your Life, Blair Waldorf’ kind of thing. That’s why we were hanging out today.” Serena reached into her tote and rummaged around at the bottom. “She asked us to keep it a secret, but clearly you’re too much of a sleuth for us,” she joked, hoping to lighten the mood.
“Seriously?” Blair perked up. She hadn’t even considered the possibility that Serena and Nate might be getting together to do something nice for her. And she loved surprises, as long as she knew about them.
That makes sense.
“Uh-huh,” Serena replied excitedly. “Look at these.” She pulled some old photos from her bag and handed them to Blair.
Blair stared down at the picture of Nate sleeping, the words BUCK NAKED scrawled across his adolescent, scrawny chest in black magic marker. She’d written the “BUCK” part, and Serena’s wavy script had filled in the “NAKED”—they hadn’t even talked about it, they’d just had the exact same thought at the exact same time. Blair laughed, running her fingers over the slick surface of the photograph. “I can’t believe you found this! What were we, like, thirteen? We were so freaking immature!” They looked so innocent, lying there with Nate between them. Blair smiled, suddenly feeling nostalgic. The Three Musketeers—that’s what their parents had called them since grade school, a cluster of adults shaking their heads and smiling as Serena and Blair tackled Nate in their various living rooms, sitting on top of him until he screamed.
Sounds like a dream come true.
“Oh my God.” Blair turned to face Serena and pushed her sunglasses up on top of her head. Some girl’s art portfolio nearly slapped Blair as the girl hurried up the stone steps. “Remember in seventh grade when we all drank a bottle of champagne, and Nate had to go out to dinner with his dad afterwards, totally tipsy?” Serena laughed as she stuffed the photos back into her bag. “How could I forget? And remember how we went back to your house and tried to make brownies? Except we were both so uncoordinated we spilled the batter all over the floor, and then Kitty Minky ate it and threw up in your mom’s closet—all over her new pair of Fendi boots? I’ve never seen your mom that mad before.” Blair laughed, movin
g slightly closer to Serena on the steps. Her anger was slowly dissolving. If Serena would just confess about that fucking love letter, Blair could just forgive her and they could move on. With her family turning on her, she really needed her best friend.
“Can I bum a smoke?” Blair eyed Serena’s slouchy black leather Gucci bag. Serena nodded and pulled out her pack of Gauloises, handing one to her. Even though she’d brought her own Merit Ultra Lights, Blair decided that with Yale coming up so soon, she’d better start smoking a more serious brand of cigarettes.
Doesn’t she mean more pretentious?
A horde of little kids dressed in shorts and T-shirts stumbled up the steps, holding onto a long piece of red rope. Blair watched as the kids struggled to make it to the top of the steps, yelling and laughing, all moving together in a group. She remembered how in first grade, for whatever ridiculous reason, everyone in her class had decided that she had cooties. Serena was the only one who would talk to her. And then, of course, as soon as she had accepted Blair, everyone else had been quick to follow. Serena never had trouble finding people to worship her and copy her every move, even back when they could barely form sentences.
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