Love Me Like This: The Morrisons

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by Bella Andre


  As she headed through the garden to her cottage, she was so preoccupied with her incessantly swirling thoughts and worries that she barely noticed the sun was just starting to set and the moon was rising on the opposite side of the sky. Even drawing a bath and sinking beneath the bubbles hardly soothed her, although it did help the ache in her side recede a bit.

  If Justin were here, he’d know exactly what to say and do. He’d figure out a way to make her laugh. And he’d surely set out to make her knees weak too.

  Longing for him even more now than before, she forcefully reminded herself that Justin already had to deal with a sick girlfriend—the last thing he needed was for her to become desperate and clingy, unable to function without him. That wasn’t the woman she wanted to be. And she was certain that wasn’t the woman he had fallen in love with.

  Love. Justin’s love made her feel more lucky than she’d ever been, even when in many ways her luck had never been worse. She wanted him to feel just as lucky, which was another reason she couldn’t let every second they spent together be about her disease.

  She’d said she wanted romance, but she hadn’t done anything to make it happen, had she?

  Just that quickly, an idea came to her—the perfect romantic plan.

  Napa Valley was one of the most romantic places on earth. Thousands of proposals had been made in her town, thousands of brides and grooms had proclaimed their never-ending love to each other in nearby vineyards and wineries. All these years, Taylor had longed for the chance to be with Justin, and she wanted to make sure they celebrated fantasy becoming beautiful reality.

  After getting out of the tub and wrapping a towel around herself, she called her friend Angie to ask if she could cover breakfast in the morning. Taylor hadn’t planned to miss two breakfasts in her first week at the B&B, but these were extenuating circumstances.

  Her next call was to a company that she never thought she’d actually work with. If only because she’d never been particularly good with heights. Of all the scary things she was facing lately, however, heights barely made the list.

  She had only just disconnected and set the alarm on her phone for four thirty a.m. when Justin walked in. “Anyone home?”

  “I’m in the bedroom.”

  His eyes lit up—then went dark with heat—when he saw she was wearing only a towel. “Damn,” he said, “it’s good to see you.” He looked super yummy in a navy button-down shirt and dark slacks, and she realized he must have showered and shaved in his room at the B&B. He pulled her into his arms. “Are you just getting into the bath or just getting out?”

  “Out,” she replied, “but I’m more than happy to get back in with you.”

  He groaned, the sound reverberating from his chest to hers. “I can’t tell you how badly I want to do that, but we need to get going.”

  “Get going? Where?”

  “I’ve made reservations.” He smiled at her. “Romantic reservations.” Of course he had. Because all he wanted was for her to be happy. “But if you’re too tired—”

  “No, I’m fine.” Though she’d been drooping on her feet before, she suddenly felt like a million bucks. All because Justin loved her. “Actually, I feel great now that you’re here. I just need to get dressed.” She opened her antique pine armoire. “Dress code?” Judging by his outfit, she took a guess. “Something pretty?” She held up a green silk dress with long sleeves and a nipped-in waist.

  “Perfect. I’ll wait in the kitchen while you get ready. Otherwise, I won’t be able to resist the allure of taking a bath with you.” She had to laugh at the slightly pained look on his face as he walked away.

  She would have loved to have climbed into the tub with him, but honestly, the chance to put on makeup and a dress and heels to go out on a date with her boyfriend filled her with a wonderful rush of happiness. It was funny how something small like this could make her feel lighter, more hopeful. She needed to remember this moment as she moved forward over the next weeks, months, and years—that she shouldn’t make the mistake of forgetting to appreciate the little things—a sunrise, a smile, a perfect chocolate chip cookie.

  And especially a romantic evening out with the man she loved.

  He wouldn’t tell her where they were going, but that was perfectly okay with Taylor. As long as they were together, she knew it would be great. Even the drive was perfect, the sun having just disappeared behind the mountains, leaving the vineyards glowing in a soft, dusky light.

  Twenty minutes later, Justin pulled into the Wine Train parking lot. “Surprise.”

  “I’ve been wanting to do this for months!” She threw her arms around him and kissed him. “I love it already.”

  She could see how pleased he was by her appreciation of his romantic gesture as he grinned and said, “I hope you love it even more once we’re on the train.”

  “Ms. Cardenes, Mr. Morrison, welcome to Romance on the Rails.” The conductor, who was wearing a sharp black suit and cap, gave them a bow. “We are very glad you are able to join us tonight on our magical and romantic journey. Please watch your step as you board, and then I will take you to your private dining quarters.”

  Taylor lifted her eyebrows at Justin. Private dining quarters? She hadn’t even realized the Wine Train had such a thing. She’d looked into buying a ticket to one of their murder mysteries a few months back, but had glossed right over their romance package. After all, what was the point in thinking about romance when the only man she cared about was thousands of miles away?

  She would have given herself a little pinch to make sure this evening was real if Justin hadn’t taken her hand just then. Following the conductor, they passed through one beautiful restored Pullman car after another. There were a few families in the first car, but most of the Wine Train’s passengers tonight were couples. Young, old, or somewhere in between, they all looked happy to be on board the luxurious train, and most looked to be deeply in love as well.

  But it was hard to imagine any of them could compare with what she and Justin had together. A bond so deep, so true, so strong, that love was blossoming even in the midst of their less-than-perfect situation.

  Tonight was perfect, though. A romantic trip on the Napa Valley Wine Train was exactly the kind of date she’d been longing for this afternoon when her head was spinning.

  The conductor led them into the final car. “You will be dining beneath our glass-topped Vista Dome with the stars twinkling above and panoramic views of the silver-painted vineyards all around you as we traverse Napa Valley tonight. If you will please take a seat, I’d like to present you with one of our finest local vintages, a sparkling wine we hope you will greatly enjoy. And now, please relax and let us know if there is anything we can do to make your romantic evening shine even brighter.”

  “I know one thing that can definitely be improved upon,” Justin said once they were alone. He scooted his chair closer, so that they were sitting side by side instead of on opposite sides of the round dining table, and put his arm around her as the train slowly made its way out of the station. “I would pull you onto my lap, but this looks to be a family-friendly trip.” The wicked glint in his eyes gave testament to the fact that he really did want her sitting on his lap.

  Blissfully happy, she leaned her head against his shoulder. “This is the perfect escape.”

  “I agree.”

  Sitting close, they looked through the windows and the roof as the stars began to appear one by one, almost as though someone were turning them on with a light switch simply to captivate the two of them. Together, they pointed out the constellations they knew and made up names for those they didn’t.

  Taylor wasn’t sure she’d ever seen so many stars. Or maybe it just seemed that way because everything seemed brighter and better when she was with Justin.

  “Do you remember that night we snuck past the fence at the Dish and spent the night gazing at stars?” The hiking trails on the edge of the Stanford campus had been named for the massive high-powered antenn
a that had been installed at the top of the hill in 1962.

  “I was just thinking the same thing,” he said, pressing a kiss to the top of her head. “I nearly told you that night.”

  She shifted to look at him. “Told me what?”

  “That I loved you. That I’d always loved you. That I always would.”

  Her heart melted, and when she kissed him, she couldn’t hold back. Before she knew it, she actually had started to climb into his lap, family-friendly trip be damned.

  The sound of a throat clearing had her jumping back into her seat, cheeks flaming. Justin, on the other hand, looked extremely pleased with himself.

  The waiter did an impressive job of keeping a straight face. “Everything we will be serving you tonight is made from local ingredients. To begin, an amuse-bouche made of local butternut squash and zucchini.”

  Taylor’s stomach growled, and she realized she’d barely eaten all day. She usually ate breakfast after her guests in the morning, but with her mother and Bruce there, she’d been in a rush to get things worked out with them. And then they’d gone to meet with Debra in Yountville before coming back to put on tea for her guests. Altogether, she’d nibbled only some scrambled eggs in the morning and then half a cookie in the afternoon.

  Having promised everyone from Justin to her mother to her doctors that she would take good care of herself, she should dig in. But first she needed Justin to know something. “I nearly did the same thing that night up at the Dish. I was this close to blurting out my feelings for you.”

  “You were?” He looked stunned. “How the hell could I have been so blind? If I’d had even the slightest inkling that you felt the way I did…”

  “I’ve always been good at hiding my feelings, at pushing them away when they feel too big or too hard to deal with.” She swallowed hard. “Sometimes, I’m afraid I’m going to fall back into that pattern. Even this afternoon, I was so ready to escape reality that I made you promise to act like none of it is happening, to pretend that everything is sunshine and butterflies and rainbows.”

  He lifted her hands to his lips and pressed a kiss to each of her palms. “I agree that we shouldn’t hide our feelings, and we shouldn’t pretend we’re not dealing with some massive decisions. But I don’t want us to stop seeing sunshine, butterflies, and rainbows either. That’s what happened to my dad after my mom died, and I know she wouldn’t have wanted to see him like that. And, if I’m being totally honest, that’s what happened to me in Frankfurt.”

  Before she could ask what he meant, the waiter returned with their salads. As soon as they were alone again, she said, “You haven’t talked much about Germany, but I thought it was good for you. I thought you were doing work you wanted to do.”

  “I was. I am.” But that spark she was so used to seeing in his eyes dimmed as he told her, “I let it consume me. I was more than happy to let my work, my research, take the place of everything I no longer had. My colleagues were pleased by my fervor and endless energy, at least in the first couple of years.”

  “Then what happened?” She could see this wasn’t easy to talk about, and she was proud of him for doing it anyway.

  He stared out the window, but she knew he wasn’t seeing the Napa Valley night. “It crept up on me, how tired I felt. How uninspired.”

  “But you didn’t take a break to recharge?”

  He shook his head. “My colleagues kept inviting me to join the local soccer team, or to meet up with them at the biergarten. But I couldn’t stop thinking about all the work that wouldn’t get done. And I kept telling myself we were almost there with our research, that we’d nail it if I just spent a few more hours every day. So I blocked myself off from everyone and everything but the lab and my research and ended up getting grouchy and short with everyone. Sleep eluded me more and more too, and even the things I used to enjoy doing, like hiking and woodworking, lost their pull. My goal to find a cure for breast cancer became my only reason to get up in the morning and the reason I wouldn’t let myself go to sleep at night.” His expression was grim as he said, “The thing is, it wasn’t just about the work. About finding the cure. It was about hiding. From my feelings about losing my mom. And from my feelings about you. Because I knew you would never be mine…and I couldn’t stand the thought of a life without you.”

  “I was hiding too,” she admitted. “In my relationship with Bruce. In a job I didn’t want. In a life my parents had mapped out for me because otherwise they would worry. It wasn’t until I got sick that I had to stop making them my excuse for always playing it safe and being a coward.”

  “A coward?” He said it as though nothing could be further from the truth. “Do you know what my mother always used to say about you?” When she shook her head, he smiled. “She thought you were the bravest woman in the world to throw yourself into the mix with us Morrisons. And then later, when you would spend all those hours with her in the hospital, she would say it again and again—that you were the only person she wasn’t related to who had the guts to come and be with her.” Justin lifted his hand to Taylor’s cheek. “You were never afraid. And we all loved you more than ever for that. For being there for her when everyone else fled.”

  “I loved your mom.” There were tears in Taylor’s eyes, and she had a big lump in her throat. “I wanted to be with her.”

  “I love you.” Justin’s words were as sincere as any she’d heard him speak. And then, before she realized it, he was slipping out of his chair, getting down on one knee, and reaching into his pocket for a small, velvet-covered box. “Taylor Cardenes, I’ve known from the first moment I met you that I wanted you to be mine. Will you marry me?”

  CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

  Taylor’s eyes were huge as she stared at him. He was holding one of her hands, but the other was over her mouth, which had fallen open.

  Justin’s heart was pounding a million beats a minute. He’d never been so nervous—or felt so certain—about anything in his entire life. They might have been dating only a few days shy of a week, but for eight years, Taylor had been his best friend…and his secret love.

  Time, as they both knew all too well, offered no guarantees. And he didn’t want to waste any more of it. He wanted Taylor to be his wife and he wanted to be her husband. He wanted to start a family with her as soon as her doctors gave them the thumbs-up. He wanted to help her run her B&B and ask her to look over his work at the lab to see what brilliant insights she had to help move them closer to a cure. He didn’t plan on spending nearly as much time in his lab in the future, but he’d be hugely energized and focused during the time he did spend working.

  He also finally understood that he would be able to do so much more to make others’ lives better if he were living his own life to the fullest. He wanted to spend every Christmas, every birthday, every Valentine’s Day with Taylor beside him. He wanted them to be a team in everything, good or bad.

  The ring had been burning a hole in his pocket for the past hour. Taylor knew him so well that he was almost surprised she hadn’t guessed it was there. He had planned for his proposal to come at the end of the evening, after the food had been cleared and there was no chance of anyone disturbing them. But he hadn’t been able to hold it in, not when he could have sworn his mother was whispering in his ear: Ask her.

  “Yes.”

  Taylor spoke so softly that Justin wasn’t sure he’d heard her correctly. “Yes?” His voice shook with hope and love and longing.

  “Yes!” she yelled, flinging her arms around his neck so that the ring box was accidentally knocked out of his hand as she slid from her seat to kneel on the carpet with him.

  They kissed like they’d never kissed before. A best-friends-turned-lovers-turned-newly-engaged-couple kiss that blew all the others out of the water.

  He never wanted to let her go, but at the same time, he was anxious to cement their engagement by getting the ring onto her finger. The box was only a few feet away, beneath the window. But when he picked it up, the ring was
no longer inside.

  Together, they hunted for it on their hands and knees, looking in every crevice, every corner. That was how the wait staff found them, with their rear ends sticking up in the air, their eyes slightly wild.

  “We just got engaged,” Taylor said.

  The man and woman holding the covered trays gave them confused smiles. “Congratulations.”

  “The ring went flying,” Justin explained in what he hoped was a calm voice, but wasn’t anywhere close. “That’s why we’re down here searching for it.”

  “Not to worry, sir,” the waiter said as he put down his tray. “We’ll help you.”

  The four of them crept around the dining car for what was probably only a couple of minutes, but felt far longer, when the other waiter called out, “I found it!” She held it up, and Justin only barely stopped himself from grabbing it out of her hands. “Oh, it’s lovely.”

  “Is it?” Taylor said on a laugh. “I can’t wait to see it.”

  “Forgive me.” The woman gave the ring to Justin. “We’ll give you two some time alone.”

  But Justin didn’t want to wait another second, and clearly neither did Taylor, because she thrust her left hand at him so that he could slide the ring into place.

  It was a perfect fit. Just as he’d known it would be.

  “It’s so beautiful.” Taylor held up her hand so that the diamonds caught the glow of the lights. “I’ve never seen a ring like it.”

  He’d been inspired by seeing her in her wine country garden and knowing how right she looked in it. Even though he could easily have afforded something more expensive, he knew she wouldn’t feel comfortable in something flashy. So instead of one big diamond, two dozen beautifully cut diamonds radiated out from the center like petals.

  It wasn’t until Taylor’s stomach growled again—which set off the chain reaction of his stomach growling—that he realized they were still on the floor. Laughing, they got up, then seated themselves to eat the food the servers had left for them.

 

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