by Luxie Ryder
Yes? I scrunched my face up and clenched my fists, uncertain how hard I needed to concentrate in order make him to hear me.
How are you?
My toes curled at the sound of his voice and my body went into overdrive, attempting to wrench the decision about what would happen next away from my brain, and send us all running back to the man who had made us feel so good.
I’m ok…maybe a little embarrassed that I acted like such an idiot but hey, what’s new? Where are you?
In bed…thinking how you should be here beside me.
I could almost see him lying in his massive bed in the room with the indoor borealis, his beautiful body sprawled across the sheets while his eyes beckoned me closer…and suddenly, I longed to be with him.
I wish I was with you right now. I got no answer but I didn’t regret telling him how I felt. Maybe he was mad at me because I’d been so unfair to him? Or maybe he just hadn’t heard me. I squeezed my eyes shut a little harder and tried again. Nathan?
“You don’t have to do that you know.” I felt his breath waft over my cheek and in that moment I realized he was no longer just in my head, he was here. I opened my eyes and turned towards the sound of his voice to find him standing beside me. Nathan reached down and smoothed the frown from my brow as I stared at him in confusion, too stunned at discovering him in my bedroom to understand what he meant. He gave me a lopsided grin. “You don’t need to concentrate so hard. You only need to think of me and I can hear you.”
“Oh,” I said, wondering how long he’d watched me pulling faces. My cheeks got warm and I knew I was blushing but I didn’t really care that much. I leapt out of bed and threw my arms around his neck.
“God I’ve missed you,” he muttered into my hair and pulled back to cup my face in his hands as he pressed his lips to mine. I groaned the instant he took my mouth and I clung to him, long after he tried to pull away. Eventually, I let him go because I could sense he wanted to say something and I owed him the opportunity.
“We should talk,” he said, grabbing my wrists in his hands as he took a step back. “Jess, I can’t help what I am. Do you think for one second that I want to steal your love or force you to be with me against your will? I could kill Elias for robbing you of the choice, but it was my fault it happened. You are right; I should have simply told you. But what’s done is done. Is it really so horrifying for you to imagine sharing your life with me?”
His words sobered me and although I wanted him so badly I could hardly breathe; I needed to make him understand why I’d been so angry at him. “No, of course not. But the choice should have been mine.”
His laughter caught me by surprise. “Freedom to choose how our lives turn out is a luxury denied to most. Do you think I chose to fall in love with you? Nobody decides who to love, they just do. And once they embrace and accept the fact that they love someone else, don’t they too give up their free will by choosing to be with that person, no matter what?”
I couldn’t deny the logic in his words. In a way, I had chosen Nathan, all those years ago. Our relationship hadn’t followed a natural progression but, faced with the knowledge of who and what he was, would I have turned him away? Would I have refused the chance of eternal happiness with the man I’d been in love with for half of my life? I knew the answer to that question and, as soon as I thought it, so did Nathan. The beaming smile adorning his handsome face told me as much.
“That’s gotta stop,” I warned, unable to resist his infectious laughter. “I don’t like you knowing what I’m thinking before I do.”
“I’ll teach you how to keep me out Jess, I swear.”
His lips claimed mine in a soul rending kiss that conveyed so much he hadn’t said. I pulled away with a sigh, overwhelmed by what I was thinking and feeling. Nathan gave me one of those half-smiles I knew so well and I closed my eyes against the urge to fall to my knees and beg him to take me to bed.
“Don’t you want to sleep?” he said, for once annoying me by ignoring my unspoken plea.
I nodded. “Yes, but I want you more.”
“You’ve already got me.” He pulled at the tie holding my robe around me and pushed it off my shoulders, sending it cascading down my naked body in a billow of white.
His gaze tore across my naked body but before he touched me and made me forget what I wanted to do, I ripped off his t-shirt and slid my fingers inside the elastic of his pants and shoved them down over his hips. Nathan kicked them off and stepped closer, gritting his teeth and hissing when I wrapped both of my hands around his warm, hard cock. He grabbed my shoulders, dropping his forehead to rest against mine, his breath coming in ragged pants when I tugged on him.
I sank to my knees, dragging my lips across his skin as I made my way down to his groin. I didn’t give him to the chance to object and slapped his hands out of the way when he would have pulled me to my feet. When my mouth closed over the head of his penis, Nathan shuddered, groaning long and low in the back of his throat as he clutched at my hair. I slid my lips down the warm, pulsing length of him, loving the weight of his cock on my tongue and the feel of his balls in my hand.
He stood patiently for only a minute until he reached down to grasp me under the arms and drag me to my feet. He backed up towards the bed, twisting me around when we drew level to it and pushing me down onto the mattress. But he didn’t join me, dropping instead to his knees at the foot of the bed and pushing my thighs apart.
His tongue slid up my leg, starting at my ankle and pausing at my knee before inching closer to my thigh. By the time his lips made contact with the heat at my center, my insides were coiled as tightly as my fists and I bucked towards him when he sucked my clit into his hot, demanding mouth, already on the verge of orgasm. Just when I thought I would come, and hard, he pulled away.
I raised my head in confusion, wondering in the silly part of my brain if immortals still needed to worry about things like condoms, but Nathan wasn’t looking for a condom. He was staring at me with the strangest look in his eyes, his gaze crawling over my flesh, as if committing me to memory.
“Whatcha doin’?” I whispered up at him, smiling at the expression on his face.
“Wondering what I ever did to deserve you, Jess.”
My eyes misted over, touched by the sincerity in his words. “We deserve each other, Nathan. Fate doesn’t make mistakes.”
His lips crushed mine as he laid his body on top of me, slotting his legs between my thighs. I tore my mouth from his and the breath stilled in my throat when his hands clutched at my hips and he entered me in one swift, devastating thrust. I pulsed around him, my eyes watering from the exquisite sensations radiating through my pussy.
“I want you to come…” Nathan whispered, his teeth nibbling at my earlobe, “come while I’m buried deep inside you and I can feel you rippling around me.”
Nathan grunted in reaction to the hard spasm that went through my body, caused by his words. He surged into me again, his hands lifting my hips from the bed a little, and his pelvis rubbing against my sensitive bud.
“Now…now,” he groaned, lifting his head to stare into my eyes as he quickened the tempo and thrust his hot, hard cock into me over and over again. My inner walls clutched at him as if responding to his command. Unlike anything I’d ever experienced before, my whole body shuddered and convulsed around him, as if each part of me had conspired to make the orgasm Nathan gave me the most intense of my entire life.
“I love you, I love you.” I said the words over and over, almost like a mantra.
“Oh God, I love you too…so much.” Nathan’s voice faded and his arms began to shake as his face contorted in ecstasy. His chest heaved and his breaths came in short, shallow gasps until he collapsed on top of me with a husky shout.
We slept entwined in each other’s arms, our bodies two halves of a whole, and our souls forever bound.
Epilogue
“Jorge! On the roof - two o’clock.” I pointed, directing my partner’s attention away f
rom the alleyway.
The perp, hiding in a doorway mere feet away from us, laughed quietly in premature celebration of what he might have believed was a lucky break. I hadn’t developed my powers enough yet to picture the look he had on his face as I used my mind to wrench the gun from his hand, but I heard his muffled shout of surprise and took a perverse pleasure in that instead.
“Police! Come out with your hands up!”
Jorge ran to my side, yanking his piece from its holster and putting himself between me and the source of the danger. Being an honorary Magi had its benefits, and one of the best was that I could protect the man who would take a bullet for me without hesitation and who I loved like a big brother. Jorge surged forward to grab the skinny young kid who was wearing his pants sagging around his hips and his hat on backwards. His angelic face, more suited to choir practice than armed robbery, paled in fear when he saw the size of the guy charging him down. Terrified as he was, he would live to see another day, because I’d used my newly acquired skills to diffuse the situation before fatal force became necessary - something I took frequent advantage of and for which I was grateful.
In the month since I’d returned to active duty, my life hadn’t changed as much as I’d thought it would. The job I loved occupied my days, and Nathan occupied my nights. He’d been right when he told me things would only be as different as I wanted them to be.
I smiled at the thought of the husband I adored and would never tire of, for as long as I lived.
You ok? I heard him say, as usual, never far from me, no matter what his location.
I’ll be better later, when we’re together.
I was getting better at talking to him, and more importantly, learning how to block him out of my mind when I needed some peace and privacy. I loved Nathan more than life itself but sharing every waking thought with him would take some getting used to.
I couldn’t phase yet the way he could, and I envied his ability. He’d promised to teach me but kept putting it off. I think he was worried I’d go somewhere and he wouldn’t be able to find me. Remembering something Elias’ wife had told me only the other day, which she guaranteed would cure Nathan’s reluctance to show me how to do it, I hung back and let Jorge put the kid in the cruiser.
A little bird told me that I haven’t lived until I’ve had sex on the astral plane. It’s such a shame we can’t try that tonight Nathan…you know, because I don’t know how to phase yet…
I sent him an image of how I pictured we would look, naked and entwined in each other’s arms, celestial winds swirling my hair and starlight reflected in our eyes. A wickedly husky laugh caressed my ears moments before I felt Nathan’s breath on my neck. I turned into his arms, my lips searching for his.
“Cain, you’re so predictable,” I said, when he released my mouth and I could breathe again.
“What can I say? I’m a sucker for a woman in uniform.” His finger hooked inside my shirt, teasing at the button as if wanting to pop it open. “We’ve only got ten seconds until that man mountain you call a partner is gonna decide to come looking for you.”
“So no time for a lesson?” I said, sticking my bottom lip out in mock disappointment. Nathan nibbled at it while his hands did their best to drive me insane in the short time we had left.
“Oh, there’s always time for a lesson my love,” he whispered as his physical form disappeared, leaving his touch as the only tangible evidence that he was still with me. “And the lesson for today is not to tease your husband when he has the power to drive you crazy without anybody else knowing what he’s doing.”
I smiled at Jorge as he came to look for me and walked back towards him, hoping my face didn’t betray my guilt. Nathan’s lips caressed my neck, his teeth nipping gently at the flesh, his breath warm on my skin.
Stop it! I thought, the smile on my face confusing my partner Jorge, who was staring at me as if I’d gone nuts.
Ok, I’ll leave you alone… for now, Nathan replied, a laugh in his voice as I felt his presence fading. I don’t remember you being this much of a wuss at school.
“I’m still braver than you, Cain!” I said out loud.
“Huh?” said Jorge
“Nothing,” I replied, shrugging my shoulders and ignoring the look the kid in the back seat was giving me.
Nathan’s chuckle echoed inside my head, and a surge of heat raced through my body that made my toes curl. I suppressed the need to gasp out loud and sent him an image of how I would get my very hot, very sweaty revenge on him later.
He groaned. Jess…you’re killing me.
I guess I could have reminded him that he was dead already, but I enjoyed having the sexy Magi at my mercy for a change. And if Nathan believed I possessed the magic to make him die of pleasure, I had no intention of shattering his illusions any time soon.
The End
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