She blinked at me and said, “A movie?”
I picked up a clean napkin and wiped the last few tears off her cheeks.
“Yeah, I have hundreds of DVD’s at my house. Any movie you can think of. What do you say?”
Chapter 5
Danni
I sniffled and closed my eyes for a second. The floodgates had been opened and it was all out there now. Beau only had sex with that girl because he thought I had sex with Jake. Every day up until now he’d thought I’d actually fucked his friend…and he still loved me anyway. He loved me through it all even when he thought I’d been with another man.
In that moment I felt like a piece of shit. I’d spend the past year unhappy and depressed; I was mad at Beau for having sex with a random girl when we weren’t even technically a couple. Even though it felt like he cheated on me, the truth is that he didn’t. He shouldn’t have done what he did but I couldn’t hate him for doing it.
I opened my eyes and looked into his…they were the warmest chocolate brown eyes I’d ever seen. They were so expressive. Beau might say one thing but his eyes always gave him away. Right now they were pleading with me to stay with him.
“Okay,” I answered him, my voice rough.
“Really?” he asked, his body relaxing.
I smiled at him and said, “Yeah. You’re right. Let’s not end this day on a bad note. I want to watch something funny.”
He smiled back at me and answered, “I can do funny. Come on, let’s box this pizza up and get the hell out of here.”
“Okay, I’m just going to go call Ev really quick. I told her I’d check in,” I said and he laughed.
“What’s so funny?”
“Oh nothing. Ryder already called me this morning, told me not to fuck this up today.”
I rolled my eyes and sighed. “I swear he’s like a protective papa bear sometimes.”
“Or a giant pain in the ass,” he laughed. “He just wants this to work out for us.”
I smiled weakly at him and said, “I’ll be right back.”
He nodded at me as I walked toward the bathrooms to call Everleigh. I pulled out my phone and dialed her number. After a few rings she picked up.
“Hello?”
“Hey Ev, it’s me,” I said.
“Hey Danni, how’s the date going?”
“Well, it was going great until we had ‘the talk’,” I replied.
“Oh my God! Well, what happened?” she asked, sounding hyper.
“Did you know he thought I had sex with Jake?”
“He what?” Everleigh screamed so loud that I had to hold the phone away from my ear. “Why in the hell would he think that?”
“He saw Jake kiss me.”
“Oh lord,” Everleigh answered. “And in his mind he just thinks that when two people kiss it immediately means they must’ve had sex?”
“In his world it probably does, Ev. He’s a famous rocker and that more than likely happened every day before he met me.”
“Still, he should have had faith in you, Danni.”
“And I should have had faith in him too, Ev. Yes, he actually did have sex with someone, but it never would have happened if he hadn’t seen me with Jake. He went this whole time thinking we’d slept together but he let it go and loved me anyway. Shouldn’t I be able to do the same thing?”
She sighed and said, “That’s up to you, girl. I hope it all works out for you guys. It was way past time for the two of you to talk this out.”
“Yes it was,” I replied.
I looked over at our table and saw Beau chatting with the waitress as she boxed up our pizza and I watched him for a moment. I was tired of fighting and causing us both to be miserable.
“I love him, Ev. I still do.”
I felt the tears start to come again and I turned my face away before he saw me.
“I know you do. Just do me a favor?” she asked.
“What’s that?”
“Don’t let pride get in the way of you two this time. Don’t let him go,” Everleigh stated.
I took a deep breath and warmth spread through me. I wasn’t about to let him go again. “I won’t.”
“Good. Well, I’m going to let you get back to Beau,” she said, and I could hear a smile in her voice. “You two kids have fun, you hear?”
I chuckled and replied, “Yeah okay. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.”
“Deal. I want details!”
Smiling, I said, “Sure, later Ev.”
“Bye girl,” she said, and I hung up my phone.
Beau came strolling over to me holding the carry out box. “You ready to go, beautiful?”
I grinned at him, hope filling me. I linked my arm in his and answered, “Absolutely.”
“What about ‘Anchorman’?” Beau asked me. We were back at his house, looking through the massive collection of movies trying to find one we wanted to watch.
“That could work. I love that movie,” I answered. “I’ve seen it about a million times.”
“Yeah, me too. Let’s pick something we haven’t seen in a while. What about ‘Talledega Nights’?”
I laughed and asked, “Is this Will Ferrell night or something?”
“Well, what do you want to watch?” he asked playfully. “If you say you want to watch a chick movie though, you are screwed.”
Giggling, I thought for a moment before asking, “Do you have ‘Tommy Boy’?”
Beau smiled at me and said, “Of course I do. I love that movie, plus I haven’t seen it in a while.”
“Great! Okay, ‘Tommy Boy’ it is,” I answered.
He smiled at me and pulled the movie out of the case. I walked over to his couch and sat down, tucking my feet under my bottom as he put the movie into the DVD player and started it.
Once the opening credits started rolling, Beau walked over to the couch and sat next to me. He smiled at me as he put his arm up on the back of the couch. I wanted to scoot over and snuggle up to him more than anything but I was too afraid. I didn’t know why I was…he’d made it clear that he wanted me and I knew I wanted him. But for some reason shyness overcame me and we watched the movie together in uncomfortable silence.
“Danni?” he said, his eyes glassy and red rimmed. He looked like he was in a fog and seemed to be having trouble focusing on my face. “Danni, is that you? Please tell me I’m not dreaming.”
A single hot tear fell down my cheek as I took in the sight of him. His facial hair had grown into more of a beard than he’d ever had. He had dark circles under his eyes, his skin looked slightly sallow, and his face looked so sad that it took all my strength not to break down in tears.
It had been six months since I’d seen him…since Ev and Ryder’s wedding night in Vegas. He looked a little sad then but it was nothing compared to now. The Beau I was seeing was an empty shell of the man I once loved.
“You’re not dreaming, Beau. I’m here, I’m right here,” I said softly as I knelt down next to him.
He was lying on his bed; there were empty and half empty bottles of whiskey and tequila all over his room. There was the stench of unwashed clothes and stale liquor in the air. I had a lump in my throat as I took in his dazed expression. He seemed to be having trouble focusing on me, and a tear rolled down my face.
He reached out a shaking hand and placed it on my cheek.
“You’re so beautiful,” he slurred. “I love you so much.”
I choked down my heartache seeing him like this. I knew I had to take action. I came here to help him after Everleigh called me and that was what I was going to do.
“Beau, come on. It’s time to get up out of this bed.”
He groaned and threw an arm over his face.
“No, I don’t want to get up. It’s too early, the sun’s not even up yet.”
Another tear fell as I pulled his arm from his face. It was five o’clock in the evening. The fact that he thought it was morning obviously meant he was losing track of time and was much worse off than I re
alized. I knew it was going to take all of my strength but I had to separate myself emotionally from him right now because he didn’t need me to be weak. He needed me to be his friend and pull him out of this before he killed himself.
I put my feelings and hurt aside and pulled his arm until he started to move. He reluctantly sat up and I suggested, “Let’s get up and get some dinner, huh? Maybe get a shower first.”
Beau smiled as I led him out of his bed.
“Are you going to wash me, baby?” he asked drunkenly.
I stumbled under his weight as I guided him through the mess and into his bathroom. He slumped down on the toilet seat as I started the shower. I looked over my shoulder at him as I checked the water temperature and he had his head back against the wall with his eyes closed.
“Fuck, my head hurts,” he groaned.
Beau looked completely exhausted, both physically and emotionally. I turned my face away from him and let the unshed tears flow down my cheeks while I got his shower ready. I had wondered the whole drive to Cincinnati if it was a good idea for me to come here after Ev called me begging for help. But seeing how bad this situation really was I realized I was in the right place at the right time. I would save him no matter what I had to do.
I jolted awake, the dream still fresh in my mind. I blinked a few times and realized I had tears in my eyes. The dream was so vivid; I felt pain in my chest as I remembered seeing Beau like that. I don’t think I’ll ever forget his look of defeat or how terrified I was when I first came here.
Looking around the room, it took me a minute to remember I wasn’t at home. I was still in Beau’s house on his couch and now I was covered with a fleece blanket. I must have fallen asleep. I turned my head to look for him but he wasn’t beside me. I sat up, confused as to where he might have gone. After looking around for a few moments I heard water running. It was coming from his bathroom; he was obviously taking a shower.
I suddenly felt brave and stood up off the couch. If my dream had shown me anything, it was that I couldn’t let Beau go down that road again. If giving in to our love for each other was going to keep that from happening then that was what I was going to do. Besides, I was tired of fighting a war between my head and my heart. When it came to Beau my heart would win every single time.
My blood was racing hot in my veins as I walked down the hallway toward the bathroom. I pulled my shirt over my head and tossed it to the floor. As I unbuttoned my jeans and started to slide them down my hips I thought to myself, there’s no turning back now. I quickly slid out of my bra and shimmied out of my panties. By the time I reached the bathroom door I was completely naked and shaking with desire.
I silently slipped into the bathroom and my mouth started to water as I watched him through the glass door of his walk-in shower. He was the epitome of male beauty. His over-long hair was wet and clinging to his shoulders as he rinsed out the shampoo. His back was to me and I felt myself getting wetter and wetter as my eyes roamed down his broad sculpted shoulders and rested on his perfectly rock hard ass. I shivered and fought back a moan as his hips slightly turned and I caught a peek at his dick. It was just as thick and long as I remembered, and my skin felt tight as I stared shamelessly while he washed his body.
I couldn’t take the anticipation any longer. I quietly slid open the glass door, slipping inside the shower behind him. Luckily the water was so loud that he didn’t hear me. My heart was pounding harder than it ever had. I took a deep breath and reached up to touch his muscled shoulders with shaking hands.
As soon as I touched his hot wet skin I leaned in and pressed my lips to his neck. He jumped and spun around to face me. His eyes were a combination of surprised and turned on as they quickly scanned my naked body.
“Danni? What are you doing?”
“Taking a chance,” I answered softly, leaning closer to him.
I could feel the heat coming from his body as I inched closer to him. The water was spraying all over us, our wet bodies just inches apart. I moved my fingers from his shoulders to toy with the ends of his wet hair.
“Am I too late?”
He groaned and grabbed my face between his hands.
“Never,” he whispered before he roughly pressed his lips against mine.
I opened my mouth immediately to him and he thrust his tongue inside. My blood was on fire and passion surged through me as Beau and I tasted each other for the first time in over a year.
He spun us around and pressed me against the shower wall. He let go of my face, and taking my hands in his, he raised them above my head. He held my wrists together with one of his large hands as he roamed his other down my bare side resting it at my waist. I started to shake as he gripped my ass tightly and pulled me as close to his body as he could. I lifted myself up on the tips of my toes and hooked my leg around him. Beau guided my other leg up and I wrapped them both tightly around his waist.
“God Danni I’ve missed you,” he said. “I’ve missed your lips, your skin, your touch…”
As he trailed kisses down my neck he released my hands and I wrapped my arms around his shoulders. I combed my fingers through his hair and moaned.
“I’ve missed you too, Beau. So much.”
He stopped his kisses and looked into my eyes.
“I love you, Danni. I should have told you that a long time ago and like a fucking idiot I didn’t. That was the biggest mistake I’ve ever made but I’m not letting it happen again. I’m not wasting another day without you. I love you more than anything in this fucking world and I’m never letting you go again.”
“Don’t let me go. I love you too, Beau, and I want this. Please,” I whimpered impatiently, grinding my hips against his cock.
His length was engorged and rock solid as it pressed against my stomach. I was desperate to feel him inside me once again and to solidify our relationship by making love with him.
“You want my cock deep in you, baby?” he growled, thrusting his hips into me.
I nodded and panted, “Yes, Beau. Please…please take me. Make me yours again.”
“Tell me you love me. I need to hear it again.”
“I love you Beau. I’ve always loved you.”
“Tell me you want this, want us.”
I wiggled against him impatiently. “I want you right now. Please, Beau.”
“Tell me you want me to make love to you.”
I looked into his eyes and they were dark with need yet soft and warm as they bore into mine. My heart filled with hope…we’d had plenty of sex in the past but we’d never made love. He could never call it that and the fact that he chose those words now really solidified everything in my mind.
“Make love to me, Beau,” I said, panting heavily and feeling like I’d die if he didn’t enter me soon.
He leaned in and kissed me deeply one more time before he took his cock into his hand and positioned himself at the entrance of my heat. He rubbed the head of his dick against my clit several times, igniting little sparks of pleasure in me before he moved back to my entrance and slid his hard engorged cock deep inside me.
I cried out from the feel of us connecting again in every single way that mattered. I closed my eyes and fought back tears as sensation took over me. I had missed this, missed him so much.
“Fuck, Danni, you feel incredible,” he moaned as he moved in and out of me. My legs were wrapped so tightly around his waist that my feet were digging into his ass. After he drove into me until I was close to orgasm, he pulled me away from the shower wall.
“I need you in my bed. Now,” he growled.
He shut the shower off and carried me out of the bathroom to his bed all the while our soaking wet bodies were still connected. The movement was causing friction in all the right placesl we didn’t even make it to his bed before I had a hard strong orgasm. Throwing my hair back, I screamed out as he leaned his mouth down and lightly sucked my neck.
“That’s right, beautiful. Come on my dick.”
“God, Beau!” I
cried out, clawing his back. As soon as my body was coming down from my release, he pulled out and gently laid me on the bed. My legs fell apart and my bones felt like jelly. I held my hand out for him, desperate to feel him inside me again.
Beau looked at me with lust in his eyes and shook his head. “Not yet, baby. We’ve been apart for a year and I have longed for you every day since then. I plan on taking my time with you tonight. I want to show you just how bad I’ve missed you, Danni.”
I melted at his words. I bit my lip and nodded my head, silently telling him that I was up for whatever he wanted to do to me. He needed this and I loved him enough to give it to him.
Our bodies were still wet and dripping from the shower and I had goose bumps on my skin but they weren’t from the cool air…they were all from Beau. He leaned over me and placed his hands on my breasts, teasing my hard peaks with his tongue as he sucked and bit my nipples. I ran my hands through his damp hair as he trailed wet kisses down my body. When his mouth moved down and he started to kiss my thighs I moaned loudly. There wasn’t a thing that Beau did in bed that was not amazing, but I had to admit that when it came to oral sex the man was a fucking master.
I moved my hands from his hair to grip the blankets as his tongue took long, slow, torturous licks up and down my pussy. Of the few exes I had, none of them had ever taken their time with oral sex like Beau did. He made me feel like he wasn’t just tasting me, but like I was his favorite meal and he needed my flavor to survive.
I lost all track of time as he gripped my hips in his hands, licking and tasting me…it went on forever yet seemed to be over too quickly. As he moved his tongue up and sucked my clit into his mouth, I exploded in yet another orgasm. He moaned against my tender, sensitive flesh as he lapped up every bit of my release. “Fuck, you taste so God damned good.”
“Beau, please, I can’t take it. Please, I need you inside me again.”
I looked at him and watched as he kissed his way up my body and crawled on top of me finally nestling his hot, toned body between my legs. Leaning down he touched his nose to mine.
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