Sebastian (The Beck Brothers #2)

by Large, Andria

  Sebastian pulled the towel off and drug it over his chest and stomach. Raelynn’s breath caught as she got an eyeful of his toned backside. Sebastian glanced over his shoulder at her from where he stood in front of his dresser, that naughty smirk of his curling his lips.

  " Quit looking at me like that, Rae," Sebastian rumbled.

  " Like what?" Raelynn purred and rolled onto her back, stretching her arms above her head.

  Sebastian growled, his eyes darkening with desire as his gaze licked over her. " Like you're ready to jump me."

  Raelynn shrugged. " I am ready to jump you," she said. Sebastian's butt flexed, making Raelynn smile lazily. She wanted to bite that butt.

  " Don't say that! I'm already dying as it is. We still have a week before you go to the doctors," Sebastian groaned, pulling open a drawer and pulling out a pair of black tactical pants.

  " Screw what the doctor said. Come over here and fuck me," Raelynn breathed, kicking the covers away.

  Sebastian hissed out a breath and hung his head. " Rae..." he choked.

  " Please, Sebastian. I need you," Raelynn whined.

  " Dammit," Sebastian cursed under his breath before dropping his pants to the floor and striding over to the bed.

  He was already hard as he climbed up onto the bed and covered her with his big body. His mouth landed on hers, kissing her fervently. Raelynn moaned and wrapped her legs around his hips. Sebastian's hand slipped under her shirt to cup her bare breast. His thumb swiping over her nipple. Raelynn gasped against his lips and arched her back, pressing herself more firmly into his big hot hand. Sebastian tore his mouth away and pushed up to his knees. He grabbed the hem of the baby tee she was wearing and went to yank it up but Raelynn stopped him, grabbing his wrists.

  " Wait," Raelynn breathed.

  Sebastian frowned. " What?"

  " Can we leave my shirt on?" Raelynn blushed. The scars she now had on her chest and stomach made her a bit self conscience.

  Sebastian's frown deepened. " Why?" he asked, narrowing his eyes at her.

  Raelynn hesitated before answering. " I don't...I don't like my scars," she whispered.

  Raelynn didn't know how she expected him to react. Angry, maybe? But what she got was something completely different. Sebastian's face softened, his green gaze flashing with understanding. Sebastian leaned down and kissed her tenderly, his hand cupping her face.

  " Baby, I am still going to find you sexy, if that's what you're afraid of. I don't give a shit that you have scars. You will forever be beautiful in my eyes. I want your skin on mine. Please, let me take your shirt off," Sebastian whispered sincerely, his eyes searching hers.

  Raelynn blinked back tears and slowly released Sebastian's wrists. She nodded, silently giving Sebastian permission to take her shirt off. Sebastian slowly lifted her shirt. Raelynn closed her eyes and lifted her arms. Raelynn kept her eyes closed even after the shirt was gone. She just didn't want to see what was on Sebastian's face. There was no way he could find her sexy with the ugly raised red scars that were on her chest and stomach.

  Raelynn choked back a sob when she felt Sebastian's lips on the scar between her breasts. The angry red puckered scar ran the whole length of her sternum. She knew it would fade with time and not be as noticeable, but right now it was super ugly in her opinion. Sebastian pressed light whispering kisses down the length of it before moving down to the one on her stomach that was just right of her navel. As he kissed the scar on her belly, he slid her panties off. Then he kissed his way back up her body.

  When he reached her face, he cupped it with both hands and kissed her passionately as he entered her. Raelynn gasped and dug her fingers into his back. Even though he hadn't said anything, Raelynn could feel his love for her. This was not fucking, or sex, it was love making. He was showing her just how much he loved her with every stroke, every kiss, every sweet whisper of how beautiful she was. She'd never seen this side of Sebastian. At least not in bed. They usually went at it hot and heavy. They both liked it fast and a bit rough. But this was tender and slow and filled with emotion.

  A few minutes later they were both panting and sated. They cleaned up then Sebastian finished getting ready for work while Raelynn headed into the kitchen to make him some coffee. Sebastian entered the kitchen in a pair of black tactical pants, a dark gray polo with Bill's shop logo on the left side of his chest and black boots. He looked so hot in his work clothes. His gun was most likely tucked in a holster at the small of his back. He was allowed to have it showing at work, but not outside of the shop.

  Raelynn handed him a cup of coffee. " Thanks, babe," Sebastian murmured, giving her a peck on the lips.

  His green eyes watched her over the lip of his mug as he took a sip of his coffee.

  " What?" Raelynn asked, curious as to what he was thinking.

  Sebastian shook his head. " Nothing. I just want you to believe me when I tell you that you're beautiful no matter what," he said softly, reaching out to tuck a strand of hair behind her ear.

  Raelynn smiled softly. " I do believe you," she whispered, slipping her arms around his waist and resting her head on his chest.

  " Really?" he asked skeptically.

  Raelynn nodded against his chest. " After what we just did in the bedroom? Yes, I believe you," she sighed contently. She really did believe him when he said he didn't care that she had scars. He more then showed her that he was completely serious.

  Sebastian dropped a kiss on the top of her head, his arms wrapping around her to hug her. " You are the most gorgeous woman I've ever laid eyes on, inside and out, and no scars will ever change that," he murmured into her hair.

  Raelynn looked up at him, her chin resting on his chest. " Thank you, Sebastian. That means a lot to me."

  Sebastian gave her a lopsided grin, dropped a loud kiss on her mouth then let her go. " I gotta get outta here. I'll see you later, sweet cheeks," he said cheerfully as he headed for the door.

  Raelynn smiled and shook her head. Damn, she loved him. She never knew any man who could make her feel so good about herself. If he didn't give a shit about her scars, why should she? If he didn't find them ugly, then she shouldn't either. It was just proof that she lived. She was alive and had an amazing man who wanted her no matter what. Could life get any better?

  Chapter 13

  The next three weeks flew by for Raelynn. She went to physical therapy twice a week and had regained all her strength. She was pretty much back to normal, which she was ecstatic about. She could not wait to get back to work. She had moved out of Sebastian's apartment, much to his disappointment. He had tried to get her to stay, but she missed her house and her own space.

  A few days before her doctor’s appointment that would give her the go ahead to go back to work, Raelynn started feeling sick. Her stomach was nauseous most of the day for three days. She was feeling tired and run down. She was thinking that she was coming down with the flu or something since it was November and prime time for the flu. So when she went to the doctors, she told the nurse about her symptoms. They had her give a urine sample for some reason. Raelynn thought it was a little odd but what did she know?

  Raelynn sat in one of the rooms waiting for the doctor to see her. The antiseptic smell was making her want to puke. She hadn't really eaten much in the past three days though so she doubted there was anything to actually throw up. There was a knock on the door before it opened and her doctor, Dr. McLean, walked in. He gave her a gentle doctorly smile.

  " Hi there, Raelynn. How are you?" he asked as he went and sat on his stool.

  Raelynn shrugged from where she sat on the exam table. " Could be better. I think I have the flu or something."

  He didn't reply, just gave her a small smile. " Well, you are cleared for work. You have definitely shown that you are back to your full strength."

  " Oh man, that's great," Raelynn sighed in relief.

  " But I do have other news for you," Dr. McLean said, an odd twinkle in his eye that made Raelynn nervou
s.

  " Okay," She said slowly.

  " You don't have the flu, Raelynn. You're pregnant," he said.

  Raelynn blinked at him. Surely she hadn’t heard him right. " Excuse me?"

  " You're pregnant," he repeated.

  Raelynn gaped at him. " What? How? I...I'm on birth control!" she stammered.

  Dr. McLean grimaced. " Yeah, I know. When you were in the hospital you weren’t able to take it and they gave you an antibiotic, correct?"

  Raelynn gasped, hands flying up to cover her mouth. " Oh no! I completely forgot about that! Shit!"

  " Do you know who the father is?" Dr. McLean asked gently.

  Raelynn nodded, swallowing hard. " My boyfriend."

  The doctor smiled. " Well that's good. At least you won't end up on the Maury show," he said with a wink.

  Raelynn was so taken back by his joke that she burst out laughing.

  " This doesn’t have to be a bad thing, Raelynn," he said sympathetically.

  " I'm not going to be able to work out on the streets as soon as my boss finds out," Raelynn muttered.

  " Maybe it's time for you to think about a career change," Dr. McLean suggested softly, patting her thigh.

  Raelynn frowned. She didn't want a different career, she wanted the one she had. Goddammit! She was such an idiot! How could she have forgotten that she hadn’t taken her pills while in the hospital? Plus the antibiotics? And what was Sebastian going to say? Would he be happy? They never talked about kids. Jesus! He hadn't even told her that he loved her yet. They've been together for 5 months now and he still hadn’t found the courage to tell her. She was starting to wonder if he would ever tell her. Maybe she was wrong and he really didn't love her. He cared about her - that was a definite - but maybe he didn't love her like she thought.

  Raelynn left the doctor's office in a bit of a haze. She was pregnant. She was pregnant with Sebastian's baby. A swirl of happiness made her smile. Dr. McLean told her to find an OBGYN as soon as possible so that they could take over her care. She would need an ultrasound to determine the due date. He did a rough estimate since she knew when the conception most likely happened. She was most likely looking at a July due date.

  Raelynn glanced at her watch. 5:00pm. By the time she would get to Sebastian's apartment, he would mostly likely be home. She had to tell him. She had to tell someone or it was going to burst out of her and who better then the father? As she drove to his apartment, she imagined a million different ways he could react. She prayed that he would be excited. Because the more she thought about it, the more excited she got. She never thought she'd be pregnant at 28. She always thought she would be in her mid-thirties at least because of her career.

  She walked into Sebastian's apartment to find him lounging on his recliner flicking through the channels on the tv. He glanced over at her when she walked in. He gave her a sexy smile. He had already gotten changed into a t-shirt and sweatpants, his standard after work-not-going-anywhere attire.

  " Hey, baby. What did the doctor say?" Sebastian asked, watching her as she dropped her purse on the counter before walking into the living room.

  Raelynn sat on the couch, adjacent from him. " I'm cleared for work."

  Sebastian's smiled faded and he groaned. " Dammit! I was hoping you'd never have to work again."

  Raelynn snorted. She knew that he was completely serious. Oh wait until he heard the other news. " I also have something else to tell you."

  " And what's that?" Sebastian asked curiously, eyebrow lifting.

  " I'm uh...I'm pregnant," Raelynn said hesitantly, watching him to gauge his reaction.

  Sebastian's mouth dropped open and his eyebrows shot up. He then shook his head in confusion and blinked at her. " Uh, what?" he asked stupidly.

  " I've been feeling sick for the past few days and thought it was the flu. They tested me at the doctor's office and it turns out that I'm pregnant," Raelynn explained nervously.

  Sebastian frowned. " I thought you were on birth control?"

  " I am. But when I was in the hospital I wasn’t able to take it and they also gave me antibiotics. I didn’t even think about it when we had sex that first time after I got home. I was just so use to not having to worry about it that I didn’t even think twice about it."

  Sebastian nodded in understanding as he stood up and turned the tv off. Raelynn watched him warily as he walked around to the opposite side of the coffee table and started to pace. One hand went to his hip while the other rubbed his stubbled jaw. She couldn't tell what he was thinking. She prayed he was going to be okay with this. She'd do this on her own if she had to but she really didn't want to. She wanted him to be part of the baby's life and her life.

  " Wow," he murmured quietly. " Just...wow," he repeated as if he was in shock, which he probably was.

  " I'm sorry, Sebastian. I feel like such an idiot for forgetting something so important," Raelynn sighed.

  Sebastian glanced at her, his green eyes gentle and filled with understanding. " Rae...come on, that was the last thing on your mind."

  " So you're not upset?" Raelynn asked softly.

  Sebastian's brows furrowed and he stopped pacing to send her a hard look. " How could I be upset? You're having my baby. That's..." Sebastian shook his head, closing his eyes for a moment before opening them and staring right at her. "...Shit, Rae. That's just amazing."

  A slow smile formed across Raelynn's face. " Really?" she asked, hopefully.

  " I mean...I'm in shock. But I'm gonna be a daddy," he grinned wide, his eyes lighting up. " That's fucking insane," he chuckled.

  " I was so afraid you weren't going to be happy about this," Raelynn sighed in relief.

  Sebastian came around the coffee table and sat down next to her. He took her hand and kissed her palm. " I know it wasn't planned and I hadn't really expected to be a dad any time soon, but I'm happy about it. How do you feel about it?" he asked.

  " I'm still in shock, really. But I think once it all sinks in I'll be ecstatic," she smiled.

  Sebastian chuckled and kissed her on the lips. Then he hopped up again and started pacing on the other side of the coffee table. " God, I got so much shit running through my head right now," he muttered almost to himself. Then his head snapped up, his eyes locking on hers. " You're not going back to work," he stated firmly.

  Raelynn flinched as if slapped. " Excuse me?" she choked. He completely blindsided her with that comment.

  " There is no way you're going back to that job," Sebastian said, his face serious - his tone even more so.

  " That ‘Job’ is my career, Sebastian. It's what I do," Raelynn said, completely dumbfounded.

  " Not anymore," Sebastian snapped.

  Raelynn gaped at him for a moment. Just who the hell did he think he was?! " You can't tell me what to do, Sebastian! I plan on working until I can't physically do the job. Then I'll go back to work after my maternity leave."

  Sebastian scoffed incredulously. " Oh no you fucking won't."

  Raelynn stood, fists balled at her sides. Oh, she was beyond angry now. " Screw you, Sebastian! That’s not your decision!" she yelled at him.

  " You will not put your life and the life of our baby in danger because you want to chase after bad guys, Raelynn. Not fucking happening," Sebastian bit out, his eyes flashing angrily.

  " Hey! I didn't give you shit when you went back to work after all that stuff happened to you!" Raelynn argued.

  " That is not even close to the same thing and you know it!" Sebastian laughed bitterly.

  " Whatever! Doesn't matter! You can't tell me what to do! I'm going back to work and there is nothing you can do about it! It's not your decision!" Raelynn shouted at him.

  They were both standing on either side of the coffee table, glaring daggers at each other. It would have been comical with their height difference if Raelynn wasn’t so angry. Sebastian’s muscled 6’4 frame towering over Raelynn’s tiny 5’3 frame. She could only imagine what someone would think if they saw them rig
ht now. This little girl infuriating a giant would probably make people worry.

  Sebastian made an aggravated noise as he shoved his hands into his hair and paced away from the table. When he turned back around, the tortured expression on his face was almost unbearable to look at. " Raelynn...it's one thing to put yourself back out there, I didn't like it and I didn't want you to do it but I understood. Now, we're talking about you and our baby. I can't...you can't do that to me. What if you get shot again? Not only could I loose you, but our baby too? I couldn't handle that," he croaked, his eyes pleading with her.

  " Sebastian, do you realize what you're asking me to give up? I love my job," Raelynn frowned.