by Iqra Tariq
The next time I saw her she was with Edward Cullen
I didn’t give it much thought because the Cullens befriended none
But I didn’t know that when my love was beginning
To bloom, it will as soon be sent towards its ending
The girl of whom I was so sure that she liked me
Was now with another guy, she no more wanted me
She was from the start interested in the Cullens
Therefore, she had asked me those legends
I never believed those legends to be right
They told that the Cullens were vampires
I seldom met Bella now
But still I loved her even now
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I decided that I will be the best friend of hers
Whenever she will need me I will be there for her
I will take away all her fears
I will wipe away all her tears
But a question I always asked from me
Why did she prefer Edward on me?
Was it because he was far more beautiful than me?
Or was it because he was far more richer than me?
Bella didn’t seem to be such a girl
But the reality was she was now his girl
Then as the next year started
A little present on her birthday I gifted
She didn’t like the idea of gifts
But surely a present I had to give
She loved it and promised to keep it safe
It was a charm supposed to keep her safe
I hugged her tightly sighing
When I saw Edward staring
Hatred whipped through me
Anger lashed through me
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Still I let her go to him
She had immense love in her eyes for him
The love in her eyes was very strong
I realized that him; she couldn’t live without
I was content that she was so happy with him
He also loved her equally I expected from him
But a little time later Charlie called
Bella was nowhere to be found
Another news was also spreading
That the Cullens had left silently
So he had left her all alone
She was missing because he had gone
At night Sam found Bella in the woods
It still haunts Sam how she had looked
Edward had broken her
He had completely shattered her
He was the most cruel monster
He never ever deserved her
Bella was completely destroyed
She was infinitely devastated
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She no more smiled
She always looked so wild
Her eyes were always red from crying
She never smiled, was always sighing
She now spent her time all alone
Lost in thoughts of him who was gone
Whenever something made her remember him
She would wrap her arms around her chest tightly
As if the memory would tear her apart
As if it would burst her heart
Charlie had told me how she always screamed
Horribly at nights from nightmares in her sleep
She was so sensitive, so fragile
This horrible situation; how could she survive?
She had lost her enthusiasm, her spirit was lost
All the excitement, happiness and peace of her was gone
He had played with her innocence
How badly he returned her love and devotion
If I was asked to kill one person in the whole world
I was sure; completely doubtless that it would be Edward Cullen
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Then she started to spend a little time with me
Of course, she could always come back to me
I would give her such love that she would forget
That monster completely who had so cruelly left
She helped me to get parts for the Rabbit
And in favor asked me bike mending
We together in my garage mended some bikes
Which I gleefully taught her to ride
As this was a little risky
So we hadn’t told Charlie and Billy about this
She would now spend the whole day with me
All the time doing adventurous things
Her condition slowly started to become better
Now she smiled and regained her enthusiasm
This is what I aimed at
To get her enchanting smile back
I would be her best friend
And at the right time express my love
When she would have completely forgotten him
When she would have moved over him
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We used to spend so much time together
We were becoming nearer and closer
“Bella, I know what he did to you
And I would never ever do that to you”
I promised her this
But may be it wasn’t long lived
I felt all hot, Sam and his friends always stared at me.
Something strange was going on with me
Something had first happened to Paul, Quil and Embry
And they had all then joined him
They all looked hopefully towards me
As if expecting something from me
I was terrified beyond my wits
I didn’t want something bad to happen to me
Something that would make me join Sam
I never wanted to be his pal
Days passed and changes grew through me
Damn it! What was happening to me?
Each and every day I was growing
Becoming bulkier and taller
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The growth spurt was so quick
That Bella also noticed it
I always had fever now
I always felt irritated, down
One day the fever grew more intense
Bella and I were both so tense
Billy asked me to stay at home and get some rest
During this all of a sudden the “thing” happened
Ah! What a fate! What a world!
All those legends in reality were!
I had transformed into a wolf
I had become a werewolf
This is what they were expecting from me
This is what they were looking for inside me
So the Cullens were really vampires
And a nauseatic feeling through me rised
Bella loved a blood sucker, a leech
And she never bothered to tell me!
What was she thinking?
Did she want to be killed?
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So dangerous he was for her
From him I had to save her
He wasn’t human at all
What was he doing with Bella!
Now I understand why he looked at Bella as if she was something to eat
Because the reality was this that for him she WAS something to eat
And Bella was with him
Just because he was so beautiful and rich
Didn’t she ever worry about her life?
How in his presence could she thrive?
He was the predator and she was the prey
How in his company she could sta
y?
What were they both thinking?
Why everything was she risking?
Didn’t she realize that he would one day end her life?
For God’s sake, was she out of her bloody mind?
Just thinking of their relationship gives me chills
It makes me sick, it makes me ill
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It was thoroughly sadomasochism
It was something entirely forbidden
May be Edward liked to play with the prey first
Then afterwards dramatically satiated his thirst
Thanks God his bloody family left
I will never ever let him near her again
Bella, its my promise to you
I will forever protect you
“But how Jacob? How?
To tell her anything you are not allowed”
There was actually a treaty between the Cullens
And our ancestors, our old ones
Cullens had said that different they had stayed
In place of humans, on animals they preyed
On the condition that they keep true to these words
We wouldn’t enter their territory and harm no one
Nor we will expose them to the world
They will be normal humans for others
Besides their identity we also could not
Expose our identity to the human lot
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As it would also expose the Cullens
And the treaty would be broken
So I was also forbidden to tell
About my werewolf self
In addition I was also dangerous to her
So I was forced to stay away from her
I started rejecting her calls
I didn’t talk to her at all
As this would break my control
I should better be left alone
Thus I had broken my promise
To never ever do what the leech did
But I also had left her
When I was most needed by her
This situation burned me from inside
Although I looked tough on the outside
Anxiously I would circle around her home
At nights, so nothing harms her, this way she wouldn’t be alone
I was also anxious to stay there
Because someone evil was back here
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Victoria was looking forward to kill Bella
As Edward had murdered James for Bella
United our whole werewolf team
So that, Bella safe we keep
On one such day when we were out in the forest
We got the burning stench of one of the vamps
We all gathered to attack together
It was Laurent, near Bella; about to kill her
But he didn’t expect us
He backed away on seeing us
We outnumbered him hugely
So we had killed him easily
Before attacking I had went near Bella
With my eyes I was trying to tell Bella
That it was me; I was a werewolf
But she didn’t understand what she was being told
Laurent was sent there by Victoria
To search for Cullens the area
So that if Bella is alone, unprotected
She get her revenge from Edward by killing
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His love; as he pretended that Bella
Was to him; that he dearly loved Bella
And see what was the cruel reality
He had left her completely unprotected
It didn’t matter to him if she died or lived
She was nothing, absolutely nothing for him
She was in mortal danger
I had to protect her
She was burdened by so many things
Flight of Edward, fear of being killed
And her best friend didn’t even talk to her
Oh God! I had been so much upsetting her
I was helpless
Utterly restless
But how could I tell her? What could I do?
When telling anything I was forbidden to
It was too risky, too dangerous to break the treaty
Because it would start a fight between us and the vampires surely
But when she came to my home, broken, beaten
Drenched in rain, completely sadness laden
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Reminding me about my promise
She asked me why I was doing this
I asked her to leave me alone
But in fact, I could take this no more
I had to do something
I couldn’t see her like this
I loved her so much
From me she deserved this much
That I go tell her everything
But it will then break the treaty
I was confused, I was irritated
I was broken, I couldn’t endure this
I was going to end this all
I had made my plan and all
On that first day, on that beach
I had in a sense told her everything
I didn’t know that those legends were true then
Therefore, the treaty was still unbroken, intact
And if I try to remind her the stories
She will definitely be able to work out my secret
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So one night, I climbed into her room
Through her window, I was confident that soon
I will befriend her again and she
Will workout all the points of the story
I told her the situation
That if she thinks with concentration
She will work out why I wasn’t talking to her
She didn’t respond, I had probably confused her
But I emphasized on that beach day with her
And yes, my efforts were fruitful; it was worked out by her
“So you are a werewolf, Jacob Black?”
In a strange way she asked me that
“What is so strange?” I asked her
She said that it had surprised her
That her best friend was also not human
She was living in what kind of world?
Was anything merely a myth anymore?
How many secrets were there to be exposed?
But I had much more pressing questions on my mind
And I will ask her all no matter if it takes a long time
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“Did you know that Edward is a vampire?”
“Yeah, I had worked out that secret in too little a time”
“What were you possibly thinking?”
Why your life you were risking?”
“I wasn’t risking my life at all
In fact, he was my life all in all
I wasn’t risking anything at all
He was never a danger at all”
“So you didn’t realize that he was going to end your life?”
“For God’s sake Jake! He loved me, we were each others life
How can he possibly end his own life?
In fact, he was always over protective, all the time”
“Bella, were you out of your bloody mind?
What were you thinking! He was a VAMPIRE!”
“He lives on animal blood, Jacob
Although, he craves for human blood
But he disgusts such an act
On his
principles he always acts
Which are never to hurt a human
To feed only on the animals
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Even if my blood most lusts him
I was in no danger from him”
“What are you saying? Were you different for him?
More delicious to him, more wanted, more thirsted by him?”
“Yeah Jake, its true but he completely loved me
More than anyone has ever loved anybody
His love was the strongest love in the world
He had amazing control. He had crossed all limits of love”
“Then why did he left you here?”
“Because, of the danger he wasn’t aware”
He didn’t know that Victoria could do such a thing
He considered himself merely a danger to me
He thought that as long as I was with him
Vampires will keep coming across me
They could hurt me, they could kill me
Just like James and Jasper had attacked me
Therefore, he left; just to protect me,
Just to keep me alive, from dangers save me
But how can I possibly live without him?
He was the entire life of me!
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Love, life, meaning were all over
On the day he left Forks forever”
“But why, Bella, why?
Why do you prefer him on me, why?
Is it because he was so beautiful, had good looks?
Does a fish fall in love with an eagle just because of its good looks?