In the corridor, Coralie groaned to Violaine, ‘Una’s the only person smiling.’
Solange came in, unpinning a flaxen yellow pillbox. ‘Could you walk on your hands, do something to wake them up? I saw frost settling.’
Coralie did the only thing she could: she showed the hats she was proud of and willed the audience to see them as she did. She’d never been so happy as the finale hove into sight. Back in the corridor, she slipped into a matelot jacket and held out a matching one for Solange. They’d go out arm in arm to show the last two models, she said, because this collection was feeling like a song with too many verses.
Their hats were nearly identical. Solange’s tipped to the right, covering her damaged ear with a silk streamer, Coralie’s tilted to the left.
‘People don’t like newness,’ Violaine said, as she opened the door for them. ‘Not until somebody else gives them permission. Give them permission.’
Coralie tried, but failing in public dampened even her vivacity. Worse, it was silent failure. Unimaginably worse even than that was seeing Serge Martel in the audience. He must have come in while she’d been out of the room. He stood on the same side as Dietrich, his hands resting on the back of a chair. Occupying that chair, a girl whose hair was lacquered into profiterole curls and whose short red dress matched her lipstick.
If ever you see Julie Fourcade, walk away.
She and Solange had agreed to turn and pose in one, smooth movement, but Solange had also seen Serge and swerved away from him. Coralie was a step behind and, in skipping to catch up, her ankle gave way and she fell. After a moment of white-hot pain, she threw out a hopeful joke. ‘Who sank the ship under me?’
She was helped to her feet by Dietrich, who murmured, ‘Don’t let him see your fear.’
A short while later, she addressed her audience while holding on to the back of a chair. ‘Mesdames, please excuse the somewhat ragged ending to this show. I always was a better milliner than a mannequin. Please stay for more hospitality, and to discuss the collection –’
Behind her, Solange snarled, ‘I will kill him. I will take his eyes out.’
She shushed Solange, continuing ‘– to discuss the collection and take another glass of champagne. Did I already say that?’
‘I live to see his blood!’
Coralie signalled urgently to Dietrich. ‘Fetch Solange a drink and keep her occupied.’ She continued her speech, but nobody was really listening.
*
‘We want the white hat you fell over in, and we want to take it now.’
Coralie was writing an appointment in the diary and did not immediately raise her head. Following Coralie’s disjointed speech, Una had announced loudly that she adored everything she’d seen and could she have an appointment immediately, if not sooner? The frost had lifted a degree or two, and a dozen or so other women were waiting to make their appointments.
‘The white hat. We want it.’
Coralie met Serge Martel’s eye. ‘That’s not possible.’ She turned to Julie. ‘You know how it works. Look, the hat won’t fit you and we can do better for you.’
Julie pouted. Coralie wondered how she’d got hold of that hot shade of lipstick, when every other woman was reduced to melting down the stumps of old ones, mixing the ill-coloured goo with glycerin, and enjoying slippery kisses afterwards.
‘I want the white one.’ Julie touched her hair, as if afraid her curls were disintegrating.
‘And you can add some fancy roses,’ Martel said. ‘Why are your hats so boring, Mademoiselle de Lirac?’
‘I prefer “sophisticated”.’ She sent a silent apology to Javier, whose subtle genius had collided with her ignorance back in the summer of ’37. ‘If Julie would like to come back—’
‘Mademoiselle Fourcade to you. We’re getting married.’
She swallowed her contempt. ‘If Mademoiselle Fourcade would care to book an appointment, we will create something she’ll be proud to wear and we will be proud to put our name to.’ Though how the girl would get a hat to stay on her head . . .
‘I want it now.’ Julie glanced up at Martel, drawing audacity from him. ‘Now,’ she said, just as Noëlle had started to do at around the age of two.
Coralie realised where the child had got it from. ‘Not possible.’
‘Anything’s possible.’ Martel inspected a fingernail. ‘Julie and I are dining tonight in a restaurant with a roof terrace and that sailor hat is just right. As your lover would say, a perfect hat for a Dachterrasse. You should try the phrase out on him, when you’re alone.’ Julie giggled as Martel pulled her close and nibbled her ear. She was carrying a handbag made from three shades of leather, one of the new fashionable carry-alls, and she made sure Coralie noticed it by constantly shifting it up her arm. Something about the bag disturbed Coralie, but she couldn’t work out what it was. She just wanted the obnoxious couple out of her salon.
When Violaine came over with a question, Coralie interrupted: ‘Violaine, can you box up the final model, the white sailor, the one I wore?’
Behind her lenses, Violaine registered astonishment. ‘But we never—’
‘We’re making an exception for Mademoiselle Fourcade.’
‘That hat needs flowers,’ Martel chipped in. ‘I’m not having my girl looking cheap.’
‘Heavens, no,’ Coralie agreed. ‘Violaine, attach cabbage roses and a spray or two of jasmine. There are dove feathers too, all colours, and why not add ribbon curls? The more, the better.’
‘And where should I place this . . . salad?’ Mutiny edged Violaine’s tone.
‘On top, dead centre. That way –’ Coralie forced a smile at Julie ‘– whenever the future Madame Martel wears the hat, she will be reminded of her wedding cake.’
*
That night, Coralie lay on the bed, waiting for Dietrich to join her. A forgettable day, if she could only persuade her brain to it. She knew this collection would not take off, not as previous ones had. She’d held the match to the blue touch-paper, as if to send a rocket up into the sky, and it hadn’t caught.
‘It’ll be a slow burn, you watch.’ Una had tried to lift her spirits but Coralie trusted her own instincts. She’d feel better if she could get Serge Martel and Julie out of her mind. Martel had paid generously for a hat that would make Julie look like a Christmas goose. And then, just as Coralie had thought the dramas were over, Lorienne Royer had turned up. She’d misremembered the start time.
She’d brought an escort, a small Frenchman with serious spectacles and oily hair.
‘I know him.’ Una had sidled up to Coralie. ‘He works for the director of police. He creeps around the hospital, checking patients’ residence certificates. I hope all your people are bona fide.’
‘Well, they’re all French citizens.’
‘What he really wants to find are illegal refugees. Or, preferably, terrorists.’ Last summer, a young Frenchman had shot a German naval officer at a Métro station. Eleven Frenchmen had been sent to the firing squad to appease the Germans. It was then that Coralie had felt the heartbeat of Paris change. More attacks had followed and more reprisals. With General de Gaulle’s broadcasts from London settling in angry people’s ears, new, clandestine groups had sprung up. If you agreed with their aims, you called them ‘résistants’. Otherwise, they were terrorists. Ramon had joined such a group in the Auvergne, in the heart of France.
Seeing Lorienne beating a path towards Violaine, Coralie had stepped in front of her. ‘Madame, you cannot expect to be welcomed here. You steal my hats, you steal my ideas. At least have the grace to copy from the other side of the window.’
In a burst of defiance, Lorienne had dodged round her. What had passed between her and Violaine, Coralie had no idea.
‘She was drunk,’ Madame Thomas, who had witnessed the exchange, confided later. ‘Her tongue got the better of her. Let it rest
.’
Dietrich came in from the bathroom, bringing with him the scent of soap and toothpaste. ‘Are you staying with me all night?’
‘Mm. Noëlle’s with Micheline and Florian.’
‘Good. Shall I carry you out and put you in the bath?’
‘Pull me up. I’ll go under my own steam.’ She extended a hand but, instead of taking it, Dietrich got on to the bed beside her and unbuttoned her dress. She wriggled out of it and offered herself up in apple-green silk underwear. ‘I ought to wash first.’
‘Why? You smell quite delightful – of other women’s perfumes but also of yourself.’ He kissed her, a sensuous kiss that travelled from her throat to the inside of her thighs. So tempting to be seduced away from the business of thinking. She could see the top of his head. His hair was going the colour of wood ash but was still thick. Her chosen lover. Protector, too, but now, in every other respect, her equal. As love had once sneaked up on her uninvited, so had self-confidence.
They made love intensely, the sighing of skin against silk the loudest sound.
In his arms afterwards, she listened to him tell her about his day. He’d been to avenue Marigny that morning to call on Kurt Kleber and Kurt’s wife Fritzi, and to pay respects to his Luftwaffe superior, General Hanesse, who had insisted on lunch at the Ritz. After that, a rushed meeting with a man who claimed he could acquire a work of art by the Dutch master Vermeer. A painting that Reichsmarschall Göring wanted badly. A painting Dietrich knew to be fake because the man had sold a near-identical one five years ago to Göring’s official art dealer, Walter Hofer.
‘I told him that Hofer might be duped a second time, as greedy men rarely grow wise, but please, not to waste my time.’
Coralie had her head on his shoulder, only half listening because she was thinking of Julie’s arm around Serge Martel’s waist, and a leather bag on a plump elbow. The bag had been three colours of leather: tan, mole brown and olive. Olive. She exclaimed, ‘No – not possible!’
Dietrich broke off. ‘More than possible. Göring idolises Dutch masters and Hofer hasn’t yet realised that people paint fakes especially for him.’
‘No – I’ve just realised something. That girl, Julie—’
‘Too much rouge. Too much everything.’
‘Her bag was a new-for-old. You take some worn-out ones to a leather-merchant’s and they stitch a new one from the pieces.’
‘And now you’re thinking that La Passerinette can branch into handbags. Good idea.’
‘Listen. One of the colours was olive green and,’ she rolled so she could speak straight into his ear, ‘I brought a handbag that colour from London.’
‘I remember. It clashed with your dress. Why did you not destroy it?’
‘Because it was a cheap market bag. No label, nothing to say it was British-made.’
‘You think Julie stole it?’
‘From the top of my wardrobe. I’d slung it up there.’
‘So, she is a thief and that is distressing in a nanny, even a former nanny. Are you fearful you left something in it?’
‘Yes.’ She made a face. ‘But I can’t think what.’
He kissed her. ‘Nobody can threaten you while you live under my umbrella.’
Umbrella. Sunshine and flowers. ‘Martel told me to repeat a phrase to you. “A perfect hat for a Dachterrasse”. That means “roof garden”, doesn’t it? Why would he have learned that particular word?’
‘God rot that bastard!’ The bedclothes dragged off her as Dietrich rolled off the bed, blasting her in sudden chill. The ceiling light came on, its starfish arms illuminating slowly, like an old-fashioned gas lamp.
‘What have I said?’ Dietrich never cursed; not in front of her, anyway. And though she knew the insult had been aimed at Martel, the shift in his manner alarmed her.
‘Get up, Coralie.’ He was naked, his body a harsh sculpture in the saffron light.
She swung her legs off the bed, reaching for the underwear she’d pulled off after their lovemaking. Holding it against herself felt like a parody of modesty so she dropped it and walked into his arms. A test of his love. If he loved her, he would comfort her. She felt his erratic breathing and it stole in on her that he, too, was afraid.
That word, ‘Dachterrasse’, had affected him.
He said, ‘Cast your mind back to that July evening at the Expo. Outside the German pavilion, I exchanged friendly words with a photographer. You recall?’
‘Yes. And you saluted.’
‘Which shocked you. I saw. Inside, I met two men, one was Kurt Kleber, the other a younger man, a mutual friend. All this you remember?’
‘You all shouted Heil Hitler! Course I remember. I was upset and I wished I hadn’t seen it.’
‘Did you hear what we said among each other, we three men?’
‘No. I was too far away and you were speaking in German.’
‘But you knew a little German by then.’
‘Quite a lot, actually. I’m good at languages.’ It came out defensively. ‘Growing up talking French gave me an ear, and I wanted to learn it for you. On your birthday, I was planning to spend the whole evening talking German to you. It was going to be a surprise.’
He brushed this aside. ‘Tell me again, did you hear anything of the conversation between me, Kleber and the other man?’
‘Not a word, I promise.’
‘But sometimes you lie, Coralie.’ His hands circled her throat. No pressure, but she was seeing her father, murder in his face. ‘Dietrich, please—’
She tried to put her arms around him but he took her to Ottilia’s dressing-table where plain hairbrushes and his Schirmmütze cap were reflected in the multiple mirrors. Keeping hold of her hand, Dietrich opened a drawer and took out some small boxes, the sort that contain cufflinks. From the same drawer, he removed a pistol.
Her head swam. ‘Please don’t.’
He put the gun down beside his cap, then opened one of the boxes, shaking it over a cloisonné plate that still had some of Ottilia’s hatpins in it. Two bullets clacked into the dish.
‘One each,’ he said.
‘You’re going to shoot me?’ And then himself? As the room began to spin, she watched him unscrew the top of one bullet, and tip something out which rolled like a coffee bean. Then the same with the other bullet.
‘These are potassium-cyanide ampoules, Coralie. We take one each.’
‘I won’t. I can’t! I have a child. I don’t want to die!’ She tried to pull away but his grip did not relent.
‘I don’t mean now, and perhaps never. It is a safety measure. A reassurance. We must keep them on our bodies all the time. Even in bed.’
He looked serious. He was serious.
‘You must sew a little pocket into a neck choker, something you can wear each day without attracting notice. Perhaps you would do the same with the ribbon of my Pour le Mérite.’
She looked at him blankly.
‘My Blue Max. The cross I wear always around my neck, the Prussian order of merit. Don’t say you have not noticed it.’
She nodded.
‘So. We will wear them all the time, and if we are taken, we put the ampoule between our teeth,’ he mimed it, ‘and bite down, crushing the glass shell. Death then is quick.’
‘If we’re taken? You mean—’
‘If the Gestapo come, our lives would be worth nothing and our manner of death atrocious.’
She stared into his eyes. Dietrich, her protector, was describing her nightmare. ‘You said we were safe! What’s changed? Why would they come now?’
‘You must make arrangements for Noëlle. I advise you to send her away, perhaps with that girl, Micheline. They should go to the country, or to Teddy’s estate at Dreux.’ The grip on her wrist was becoming painful. ‘You and I are together to the end. Wedded. Adam and Eve.’ The allu
sion to their nakedness came with a dry laugh. He selected another box from the dressing-table and extracted a ruby ring, slipping it on to her finger. ‘This ring, you gave back to me because it was too big so I had it made smaller. We must live for each other now, trust each other, face every danger together. Yes?’
He was asking for faith, but without explaining. And I’m meant to be the one with secrets. She closed her eyes and scenes from her life spun through her brain. Noëlle’s birth, her first cry. Ramon saying, ‘I like your spirit and I want your body.’ Rishal, her sailor lover, saying, ‘I cannot believe I have a girl who speaks French.’
And Donal. Donal calling her name on boulevard de Clichy, finally getting it right. The two of them playing chicken on the railway lines at the end of Shand Street. She’d always cheated, darting back to safety, because she was a coward.
‘Dietrich, why are you saying all this now?’
‘Because what you have told me tonight tells me that my life is in danger, and yours too – you know more than you think. We must keep faith with each other. That is the only choice.’
‘Is it to do with “Dachterrasse”? When Martel said it, I thought of us on the roof terrace at the Expo, and Teddy, and the man I now know to be Kurt Kleber. You always told me you were an art dealer, a middle-man. Are you something else too, Dietrich?’
‘I am much else, Coralie, and will say more after I have consulted with Kurt. Until then, be patient and brave.’
‘I will try, Dietrich. I do trust you, but don’t ever try to separate me from my daughter.’
Chapter Twenty-six
Fritzi Kleber, Kurt’s wife, was a Nordically fair woman and, on meeting her, Coralie presumed she was a typically glacial German-in-Paris. But Fritzi’s manner was friendly. Over aperitifs in the Ritz bar, she kept telling her husband to slow his speech so Coralie could keep up. ‘Even I cannot follow him sometimes.’
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