The Memory of Mars
Raymond Jones
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the memory of mars
the memory of mars
A REPORTER SHOULD BE objective even about a hospital. It’s his business to stir others’ emotions and not let his own be stirred. But that was no good, Mel Hastings told himself. No good at all when it was Alice who was here somewhere, balanced uncertainly between life and death.
Alice had been in Surgery far too long. Something had gone wrong. He was sure of it. He glanced at his watch. It would soon be dawn outside. To Mel Hastings this marked a significant and irrevocable passage of time. If Alice were to emerge safe and whole from the white cavern of Surgery she would have done so now.
Mel sank deeper in the heavy chair, feeling a quietness within himself as if the slow creep of death were touching him also. There was a sudden far distant roar and through the window he saw a streak of brightness in the sky. That would be the tourist ship, the Martian Princess, he remembered.
That was the last thing Alice had said before they took her away from him. “As soon as I’m well again we’ll go to Mars for a vacation again, and then you’ll remember. It’s so beautiful there. We had so much fun—”
Funny, wonderful little Alice—and her strange delusion that she still clung to, that they had taken a Martian vacation in the first year of their marriage. It had started about a year ago, and nothing he could say would shake it. Neither of them had ever been to space.
He wished now he had taken her. It would have been worth it, no matter what its personal cost. He had never told her about the phobia that had plagued him all his life, the fear of outer space that made him break out in a cold sweat just to think of it—nor of the nightmare that came again and again, ever since he was a little boy.
There must have been some way to lick this thing—to give her that vacation on Mars that she had wanted so much.
Now it was too late. He knew it was too late.
* * *
THE white doors opened, and Dr. Winters emerged slowly. He looked at Mel Hastings a long time as if trying to remember who the reporter was. “I must see you—in my office,” he said finally.
Mel stared back in numb recognition. “She’s dead,” he said.
Dr. Winters nodded slowly as if in surprise and wonder that Mel had divined this fact. “I must see you in my office,” he repeated.
Mel watched his retreating figure. There seemed no point in following. Dr. Winters had said all that need be said. Far down the corridor the Doctor turned and stood patiently as if understanding why Mel had not followed, but determined to wait until he did. The reporter stirred and rose from the chair, his legs withering beneath him. The figure of Dr. Winters grew larger as he approached. The morning clatter of the hospital seemed an ear-torturing shrillness. The door of the office closed and shut it out.
“She is dead.” Dr. Winters sat behind the desk and folded and unfolded his hands. He did not look at Mel. “We did everything we could, Mr. Hastings. Her injuries from the accident were comparatively minor—” He hesitated, then went on. “In normal circumstances there would have been no question—her injuries could have been repaired.”
“What do you mean, ‘In normal circumstances—’?”
Dr. Winters turned his face away from Mel for a moment as if to avoid some pain beyond endurance. He passed a weary hand across his forehead and eyes and held it there a moment before speaking. Then he faced Mel again. “The woman you brought in here last night—your wife—is completely un-normal in her internal structure. Her internal organs cannot even be identified. She is like a being of some other species. She is not—she is simply not human, Mr. Hastings.”
Mel stared at him, trying to grasp the meaning of the words. Meaning would not come. He uttered a short, hysterical laugh that was like a bark. “You’re crazy, Doc. You’ve completely flipped your lid!”
Dr. Winters nodded. “For hours during the night I was in agreement with that opinion. When I first observed your wife’s condition I was convinced I was utterly insane. I called in six other men to verify my observation. All of them were as stupefied as I by what we saw. Organs that had no place in a human structure. Evidence of a chemistry that existed in no living being we had ever seen before—”
The Doctor’s words rolled over him like a roaring surf, burying, smothering, destroying—
“I want to see.” Mel’s voice was like a hollow cough from far away. “I think you’re crazy. I think you’re hiding some mistake you made yourself. You killed Alice in a simple little operation, and now you’re trying to get out of it with some crazy story that nobody on earth would ever believe!”
“I want you to see,” said Dr. Winters, rising slowly. “That’s why I called you in here, Mr. Hastings.”
* * *
MEL trailed him down the long corridor again. No words were spoken between them. Mel felt as if nothing were real anymore.
They went through the white doors of Surgery and through the inner doors. Then they entered a white, silent—cold—room beyond.
In the glare of icy white lights a single sheeted figure rested on a table. Mel suddenly didn’t want to see. But Dr. Winters was drawing back the cover. He exposed the face, the beloved features of Alice Hastings. Mel cried out her name and moved toward the table. There was nothing in her face to suggest she was not simply sleeping, her hair disarrayed, her face composed and relaxed as he had seen her hundreds of times.
“Can you stand to witness this?” asked Dr. Winters anxiously. “Shall I get you a sedative?”
Mel shook his head numbly. “No—show me ...”
The great, fresh wound extended diagonally across the abdomen and branched up beneath the heart. The Doctor grasped a pair of small scissors and swiftly clipped the temporary sutures. With forceps and retractors he spread open the massive incision.
Mel closed his eyes against the sickness that seized him.
“Gangrene!” he said. “She’s full of gangrene!”
Below the skin, the surface layers of fatty tissue, the substance of the tissue changed from the dark red of the wounded tissue to a dark and greenish hue that spoke of deadly decay.
But Dr. Winters was shaking his head. “No. It’s not gangrene. That’s the way we found the tissue. That appears to be its—normal condition, if you will.”
Mel stared without believing, without comprehending.
Dr. Winters probed the wound open further. “We should see the stomach here,” he said. “What is here where the stomach should be I cannot tell you. There is no name for this organ. The intestinal tract should lie here. Instead, there is only this homogeneous mass of greenish, gelatinous material. Other organs, hardly differentiated from this mass, appear where the liver, the pancreas, the spleen should be.”
Mel was hearing his voice as if from some far distance or in a dream.
“There are lungs—of a sort,” the Doctor went on. “She was certainly capable of breathing. And there’s a greatly modified circulatory system, two of them, it appears. One circulates a blood substance in the outer layers of tissue that is almost normal. The other circulates a liquid that gives the remainder of the organs t
heir greenish hue. But how circulation takes place we do not know. She has no heart.”
* * *
MEL HASTINGS burst out in hysterical laughter. “Now I know you’re crazy Doc! My tender, loving Alice with no heart! She used to tell me, ‘I haven’t got any brains. I wouldn’t have married a dumb reporter if I did. But so I’ve got a heart and that’s what fell in love with you—my heart, not my brains.’ She loved me, can’t you understand that?”
Dr. Winters was slowly drawing him away. “I understand. Of course I understand. Come with me now, Mr. Hastings, and lie down for a little while. I’ll get you something to help take away the shock.”
Mel permitted himself to be led away to a small room nearby. He drank the liquid the Doctor brought, but he refused to lie down.
“You’ve shown me,” he said with dull finality. “But I don’t care what the explanation is. I knew Alice. She was human all right, more so than either you or I. She was completely normal, I tell you—all except for this idea she had the last year or so that we’d gone together on a vacation to Mars at one time.”
“That wasn’t true?”
“No. Neither of us had ever been out in space.”
“How well did you know your wife before you married her?”
Mel smiled in faint reminiscence. “We grew up together, went to the same grade school and high school. It seems like there was never a time when Alice and I didn’t know each other. Our folks lived next door for years.”
“Was she a member of a large family?”
“She had an older brother and sister and two younger sisters.”
“What were her parents like?”
“They’re still living. Her father runs an implement store. It’s a farm community where they live. Wonderful people. Alice was just like them.”
Dr. Winters was silent before he went on. “I have subjected you to this mental torture for just one reason, Mr. Hastings. If it has been a matter of any less importance I would not have told you the details of your wife’s condition, much less asking you to look at her. But this is such an enormous scientific mystery that I must ask your cooperation in helping to solve it. I want your permission to preserve and dissect the body of your wife for the cause of science.”
Mel looked at the Doctor in sudden sharp antagonism. “Not even give her a burial? Let her be put away in bottles, like—like a—”
“Please don’t upset yourself any more than necessary. But I do beg that you consider what I’ve just proposed. Surely a moment’s reflection will show you that this is no more barbaric than our other customs regarding our dead.
“But even this is beside the point. The girl, Alice, whom you married is like a normal human being in every apparent external respect, yet the organs which gave her life and enabled her to function are like nothing encountered before in human experience. It is imperative that we understand the meaning of this. It is yours to say whether or not we shall have this opportunity.”
Mel started to speak again, but the words wouldn’t come out.
“Time is critical,” said Dr. Winters, “but I don’t want to force you to an instantaneous answer. Take thirty minutes to think about it. Within that time, additional means of preservation must be taken. I regret that I must be in such haste, but I urge that your answer be yes.”
Dr. Winters moved towards the door, but Mel gestured for him to remain.
“I want to see her again,” Mel said.
“There is no need. You have been tortured enough. Remember your wife as you have known her all her life, not as you saw her a moment ago.”
“If you want my answer let me see her again.”
* * *
Dr. Winters led the way silently back to the cold room. Mel drew down the cover only far enough to expose the face of Alice. There was no mistake. Somehow he had been hoping that all this would turn out to be some monstrous error. But there was no error.
Would she want me to do what the Doctor has asked? he thought. She wouldn’t care. She would probably think it a very huge joke that she had been born with innards that made her different from everybody else. She would be amused by the profound probings and mutterings of the learned doctors trying to find an explanation for something that had no explanation.
Mel drew the sheet tenderly over her face.
“You can do as you wish,” he said to Dr. Winters. “It makes no difference to us—to either of us.”
* * *
THE sedative Dr. Winters had given him, plus his own exhaustion, drove Mel to sleep for a few hours during the afternoon, but by evening he was awake again and knew that a night of sleeplessness lay ahead of him. He couldn’t stand to spend it in the house, with all its fresh reminders of Alice.
He walked out into the street as it began to get dark. Walking was easy; almost no one did it any more. The rush of private and commercial cars swarmed overhead and rumbled in the ground beneath. He was an isolated anachronism walking silently at the edge of the great city.
He was sick of it. He would have liked to have turned his back on the city and left it forever. Alice had felt the same. But there was nowhere to go. News reporting was the only thing he knew, and news occurred only in the great, ugly cities of the world. The farmlands, such as he and Alice had known when they were young, produced nothing of interest to the satiated denizens of the towns and cities. Nothing except food, and much of this was now being produced by great factories that synthesized protein and carbohydrates. When fats could be synthesized the day of the farmer would be over.
He wondered if there weren’t some way out of it now. With Alice gone there was only himself, and his needs were few. He didn’t know, but suddenly he wanted very much to see it all again. And, besides, he had to tell her folks.
* * *
THE ancient surface bus reached Central Valley at noon the next day. It all looked very much as it had the last time Mel had seen it and it looked very good indeed. The vast, open lands; the immense ripe fields.
The bus passed the high school where Mel and Alice had attended classes together. He half expected to see her running across the campus lawn to meet him. In the middle of town he got off the bus and there were Alice’s mother and father.
They were dry-eyed now but white and numb with shock. George Dalby took his hand and pumped it heavily. “We can’t realize it, Mel. We just can’t believe Alice is gone.”
His wife put her arms around Mel and struggled with her tears again. “You didn’t say anything about the funeral. When will it be?”
Mel swallowed hard, fighting the one lie he had to tell. He almost wondered now why he had agreed to Dr. Winters’ request. “Alice—always wanted to do all the good she could in the world,” he said. “She figured that she could be of some use even after she was gone. So she made an agreement with the research hospital that they could have her body after she died.”
It took a moment for her mother to grasp the meaning. Then she cried out, “We can’t even bury her?”
“We should have a memorial service, right here at home where all her friends are,” said Mel.
George Dalby nodded in his grief. “That was just like Alice,” he said. “Always wanting to do something for somebody else—”
And it was true, Mel thought. If Alice had supposed she was not going to live any longer she would probably have thought of the idea, herself. Her parents were easily reconciled.
They took him out to the old familiar house and gave him the room where he and Alice had spent the first days of their marriage.
* * *
WHEN it was night and the lights were out he felt able to sleep naturally for the first time since Alice’s accident. She seemed not far away here in this old familiar house.
In memory, she was not, for Mel was convinced he could remember the details of his every association with her. He first became conscious of her existence one day when they were in the third grade. At the beginning of each school year the younger pupils went through a course of weighing, in
spection, knee tapping, and cavity counting. Mel had come in late for his examination that year and barged into the wrong room. A shower of little-girl squeals had greeted him as the teacher told him kindly where the boy’s examination room was.
But he remembered most vividly Alice Dalby standing in the middle of the room, her blouse off but held protectingly in front of her as she jumped up and down in rage and pointed a finger at him. “You get out of here, Melvin Hastings! You’re not a nice boy at all!”
Face red, he had hastily retreated as the teacher assured Alice and the rest of the girls that he had made a simple mistake. But how angry Alice had been! It was a week before she would speak to him.
He smiled and sank back deeply into the pillow. He remembered how proud he had been when old Doc Collins, who came out to do the honors every Fall, had told him there wasn’t a thing wrong with him and that if he continued to drink his milk regularly he’d grow up to be a football player. He could still hear Doc’s words whistling through his teeth and feel the coldness of the stethoscope on his chest.
Suddenly, he sat upright in bed in the darkness.
Stethoscope!
They had tapped and inspected and listened to Alice that day, and all the other examination days.
If Doc Collins had been unable to find a heartbeat in her he’d have fainted—and spread the news all over town!
Mel got up and stood at the window, his heart pounding. Old Doc Collins was gone, but the medical records of those school examinations might still be around somewhere. He didn’t know what he expected to prove, but surely those records would not tell the same story Dr. Winters had told.
It took him nearly all the next day. The grade school principal agreed to help him check through the dusty attic of the school, where ancient records and papers were tumbled about and burst from their cardboard boxes.
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