He framed her face in his hands, smoothing the wetness on her cheeks with his thumbs. “It wasn’t you they saw, baby. They saw vulnerability and opportunity and wanted to take advantage of both. They didn’t see you holding your head high in a room full of people who would have rather written you off than faced their own mistakes. They didn’t see your determination to make something of yourself on your own terms, or how you’ve shouldered the responsibilities of an entire family on your own. They didn’t see all you’ve accomplished. They only tried to find where you were exposed and exploit it. They didn’t see you at all.”
“Thank you.” She pulled in a shaky breath. “But isn’t that what you’re doing? Taking me in at a weak moment and expecting some payoff? It’s not as ugly on the outside, but it’s not as pretty as your words, either. We’ve only been here a few hours, and yet we’ve fallen back into bed as if the last few months never happened.”
He shook his head, for the first time seeing it from her side and cringing because she had a point. “We’ll always wind up back here, no matter what happens. It’s where we belong, Megan. I’m not going to lie and say that I don’t want you, but I’ll be fine as long as I know you’ll be sleeping beside me at night. It can be just that simple until you’re ready for more. As long as you agree to stay here, I won’t push for anything else.”
She turned her face into his hand and kissed his palm. “It’s hard to believe you after what’s happened, especially when I know you can convince anyone to see things your way.”
“You don’t want to hear my reasons for doing what I did, so all I can do now is show you that you’re first with me. I don’t care how long it takes for us to get back on track, as long as that is where we’re heading.”
“But what if we don’t work anymore? I’m different now. I don’t even feel like myself most of the time.”
“You’ve been a fish out of water, and until you find what you want to do, you will be for a while longer. But we can either grow together or grow apart. Because even if you think you’ve changed, there is a part of you that is still that sassy, sexy Megan Carlton I fell for, and I don’t want to risk losing her ever again.”
“Good.” Beneath his hands, he felt her cheeks lift in a smile he couldn’t see in the dark. She turned away, settling herself beneath the covers and lying back against the pillows.
Brandon sat still for long moments, trying to decide if he really could do it, really could simply sleep next to her and not try for more. He probably would reach for her in his sleep just out of habit, and then she’d never believe he hadn’t planned it.
Her hand reached out and rested on his thigh, his pulse spiking at the contact. Maybe she meant to torture him with teasing touches for the next few days. That was fine. He’d give her a couple of days to settle in and then seduce her properly.
“Brandon?”
“Yeah?” His pulse ticked higher at the sound of her voice. He pushed a hand through his hair and wished a certain part of his body didn’t respond so enthusiastically to such little encouragement.
“I can’t sleep.” Her fingers curled around his leg and all he could see in his mind was the last time they curled around his cock, and he was really starting to wish he hadn’t gone for the last drink because reining in his desire was as hard as he was right now.
“Just try.” His voice sounded like it had been dragged over gravel.
“I think it’s that I don’t feel like me. Before I always thought it was because I was so out of my comfort zone, but I’ve always been comfortable here.”
“You will be again.” He covered her hand with his and lifted it to his mouth for a quick kiss. He laid their hands on the bed between them, not trusting the temptation of her hand anywhere on his body.
They’d never been very good at this part, the companionable silences and chaste moments. Keeping their relationship private meant they never got to be together as much as he would have liked, so every instance felt like making up for lost time. He tried to think of the last time they’d shared a bed without making love, and he only came up with lurid moments of falling into bed in a post-coital haze.
He sat up straighter, trying to ease the throbbing ache in his groin. His mind might be having an easier time with her safely ensconced in his bed, but his dick was not interested in the intellectual reasons why it would be stuck behind pants for the foreseeable future.
All the experiences of his misspent youth had taught him to live in the now and take advantage of opportunities as they presented themselves. Not for the first time, he was glad he’d been wild enough to warrant a stint in military school. That training was the only thing keeping him on his side of the bed.
“Can I tell you a secret?” she whispered like a schoolgirl.
“Sure.” He swallowed, trying to decide if finishing his drink would help or harm his current situation.
“I miss sex.” She let out a sigh that sent what little blood was left in his brain south. “The excitement and the pleasure and the absolute freedom of it. I hadn’t thought much about it lately, but as I’m lying here it’s all I can think about.”
“Let me know if there is anything you need my help with.”
“I always figured I was a pretty sexual person,” she said as if she hadn’t heard his offer. “But that part of me kind of shut down. Maybe it’s just the availability that gets me going.”
He cleared his throat. “Megan, I said I’d wait and I’m trying to mean it. But you have to cut me a break here. I haven’t had sex since August twentieth, so I need you to either go to sleep or talk about something else.”
“August twentieth, huh?” He felt the bed dip as she propped herself up on her elbow.
“I may have looked it up a few times.”
“Maybe that’s my problem. I’ve hit some kind of three-month alarm.”
“The only alarm that should be going off is the one that tells you to stop teasing me unless you actually want me to make love to you until you’re so exhausted you can’t even lift your head.”
Her laugh was a wicked temptation, and completely Megan. “You’ve only managed that twice, but I should leave that as an open invitation. I’d have to turn in my credentials as a woman if I didn’t encourage that kind of attention at any opportunity.”
“Babe, this is your last warning. Stop now or I won’t be able to until one of us passes out.”
“Really?” She sat up and he wished he could have seen her as she pulled her nightgown over her head and tossed it to the floor. Before he could reach for her, she’d straddled him, her hands wrapped around his biceps to keep his arms still. She leaned forward just enough to dart out her tongue and lick the seam of his lips. “My bet is that you go first.”
“I’m just as sure that you’ll come first.” He leaned in to fulfill the promise of the kiss, but she leaned back.
“You did buy condoms, right?”
Reality flickered into his mind just long enough for him to remember the strategic locations he’d placed them throughout the penthouse. “So many I think the clerk thought I was heading to an orgy.”
The naughty laugh was back, and so was his Megan. She met his kiss with a playful passion of her own. The only thing missing from the moment was light so he could see her bare body. Though, given his current state of near-painful arousal, the visual of her naked might send him over the edge.
He lifted his hands, loving the way her fingers curled around his biceps as he cupped her breasts. He squeezed her, remembering the weight and textures before he rolled her nipples between his fingers. She moaned in pleasure and covered his hands with hers.
She started to rock her pelvis against his erection, so he slipped a hand between them and palmed her. The silky, slippery softness of her made him groan. He’d wanted to make sure she came before he even got the condom opened, but it was next to impossible not to flip her to her ba
ck and bury himself inside of her.
Megan’s lips trailed over his jaw and down his throat, her voice weaving through the erotic haze. “Where?”
He tried to think but couldn’t get beyond how amazing she felt, so soft and smooth.
Her legs started to tremble and her fingernails dug into his shoulders as she cried out in pleasure. She leaned forward, pressing the heel of his palm against her clit as she rode out the waves of her orgasm. Brandon tried to feel the relief of knowing she’d gone first, but couldn’t get beyond his own need and how amazingly sexy she felt against his skin.
She hummed and licked his earlobe and his body twitched in response. “Find a condom now, or else.”
“Or else what?” He reached to the nightstand, pulling open the drawer and finding the box inside.
“Or else I use you like a toy and you get nothing.” She lifted herself off him and roughly pushed her hands into the waistband of his lounge pants, shoving them down over his hips. He tilted his hips to help her, rewarding her with a condom packet and a smile when she straddled him again. But she couldn’t see either because she wrapped both hands around his engorged cock and squeezed.
He cursed, then grabbed one of her wrists. “Put the condom on.”
He heard her hair swish against her shoulders as she must have shaken her head. “It’s dark and I don’t want to do it wrong.”
“You won’t.”
“Seriously, I don’t have much practice. I’d need to see you and I like the dark.” She leaned forward and licked his earlobe again, making his entire body as tight as a fist. “It’s like we’re both blindfolded.”
Oh, she was wicked. He sheathed himself quickly. Megan wasted no time guiding him into position. She wrapped her hand around his girth, rubbing him along her slick folds.
“I thought you said if I got a condom you wouldn’t use me as a toy.” He clenched his teeth and wrapped his hands around her hips.
“You like it.” She lifted and then lowered her body, sliding his cock home in one sure movement.
Her tight heat clutched him, pleasure rocketing through his body. His hands slid around to her butt, squeezing the firm globes as she rocked against him, her breaths already starting to come fast and shallow. He helped her tip forward, knowing it gave her clit direct contact.
She reached for the headboard as she rolled her hips, holding him within her as she took her pleasure. He reached up and threaded his hand through her hair, pulling her mouth to his.
He’d kissed her too many times to keep score, but this held the excitement of the first and the passion of the moment and the experience of knowing exactly what she liked. A deluge of need saturated his mind, and he knew he needed more than her deliberate rocking. He wanted to dive into her, again and again, and that wasn’t going to happen until Megan found her next orgasm.
With one hand still in her hair, he moved the other one to her breast, giving it a gentle squeeze before he began flicking his thumbnail over her nipple. She turned her head away from his kiss and rested her forehead on his shoulder while she ground harder against him.
“Can’t breathe,” she whispered, but didn’t change her pace. He heard her breathing begin to stagger and knew she was close. He wet his thumbs and brushed them against her nipples. She cried out his name, tossing her head back as she took the final strokes towards her bliss.
Her orgasm caught him in a vise, nearly pitching him over the edge with her. He wanted to, needed to find his release like he needed his next breath, but it was just out of reach. While he still felt the tiny quakes of her inner muscles, he rolled her to her back, still deep within her. He slid his hand beneath her knee, pushing it back until he could lever her leg on his shoulder.
He slowly thrust forward, filling her to the hilt. He groaned in pleasure, then began the steady rhythm of sinking and rising. Megan’s soft pants turned into pleas of encouragement, her hair rasping against the mattress as she turned her head from side to side. He knew just what she looked like, her golden hair spread out on the mattress like a naughty halo, her hands squeezing her breasts and her fingers plucking at her nipples until they stood out taut and tender, her big blue eyes wild with passion as she swam in the sea of bliss.
Like a freight train barreling down the tracks, his speed increased as he neared his own release. With each plunge into her, Megan responded with an “oh” that rose an octave with every thrust. She arched her back, her hips thrusting boldly against him. Her body clamped around him seconds before she screamed out in pleasure. With a rough shout, he surged into her a final time, his climax pulsing within her.
He lay beside her, pulling her leg around his hip to keep them joined for just a while longer. She leaned into him and shuddered, her breath coming in rough pants. He rubbed his hand over her smooth bottom, willing his own heart to stop racing.
“I missed you.” She whispered the words, but they sounded thick and heavy.
“Does that count since I’m still inside you?” He kissed the top of her head as she gave a silent chuckle. She swiped at her face and her body shuddered, making him wonder if she’d started to cry. Megan wasn’t one for tears or sweet talk, always being open and direct to the point of painful honesty. He didn’t want to even ask if she were crying now, because being wrong would mean giving her bricks to build the wall between them he’d been working day and night to bring down.
Instead he held her close, breathing in her scent beneath the citrus of a new shampoo she must be using. He played with the strands of her hair until her entire body relaxed, leaning limp against his.
“Brandon?” Megan whispered, her voice thick with sleep. “Did you pass out first?”
“Not yet.”
“Darn.” She cuddled closer and he folded her into him, trying to remember the last time they’d cuddled. She wasn’t one for snuggling, either, but he liked this new vulnerability, this opportunity to take care of her rather than running parallel lives. This was the beginning of having everything he wanted.
…
Megan surfaced slowly, stretching her naked body along the softest sheets she could ever recall feeling. She’d never been able to appreciate the importance of thread count until she’d realized the difference between two hundred and twelve hundred was worth the price.
Memories of last night flooded through her, warming the dull ache between her legs and spiraling heat through her body. She’d forgotten the soreness that used to follow a night in Brandon’s bed, her body having accommodated to his size years ago. It was a pleasant tenderness, but one that made her glad to wake up alone and not from the gentle prodding that usually welcomed morning in his bed.
Her stomach rumbled, bringing her mind out of naughty dreamland and into present time. Today brought many messes for her clean up, and she wasn’t sure where to begin. Brandon had called the coffee shop last night and said she wouldn’t be in today, but she had to decide if she wanted to go back to working there or the bar, where she was going to live, how much she wanted to owe Brandon.
As she got up and started her morning bathroom routine, she wondered what Brandon wanted from her. Last night he’d seemed so completely the man she’d always thought he was that she’d made all kinds of excuses for his behavior of the last few months. It made no sense for him to be pursuing her when she had nothing to offer if he already had a mistress on deck.
She filled the Jacuzzi tub and tried to put it all together. She’d really only seen a kiss, and while she was not okay with him kissing Gemma Ryan, or anyone else for that matter, it very well may have ended there, in spite of how she’d watched them enter his penthouse together. She hadn’t given him the benefit of the doubt, hadn’t given him any chance to explain at all.
As she slipped into the water and turned on the jets, she knew she’d have to confront him sooner rather than later. She didn’t want to drag things on if there was nowhere for them to go.
And she desperately wanted him to have an answer for everything.
The water rushed around her and she hugged her knees to her chest, saying a silent prayer that she could have her life back. She wanted to feel safe and loved again, to have the shrouds of suspicion vanish and see things clearly. If only the niggling doubts would evaporate, she might be able to stand on her own two feet again without worry of being knocked back by yet another tidal wave.
She turned off the tub and drained it, wrapping a towel around herself as she opened drawers in the master bathroom. All of her things were there, in the same disarray she’d left them in. As she rubbed her favorite lily-scented lotion onto her body, her confidence grew that another woman hadn’t made it into Brandon’s bed. If he’d tried to replace her, surely these things would have been among the first to go as someone new cemented her place in his life.
She made her way to Brandon’s dressing room where she’d always kept a robe, her lingerie and a few things to change into. The small section beside his shirts was painfully empty. She knew that the other closet was filled with her things, but it still sent anxiety through her to know she’d been moved out. She checked the drawers in the chests at the center of the room, somewhat relieved to find the bottom drawer that she’d stashed stockings and jewelry in still held her things.
Maybe being apart had been as painful for him as for her, maybe he’d only moved the things he’d had to see every day. If only it had been so easy for her to remove his memory from her mind. Megan tightened the towel around her body and walked to the closed door leading to the living room. She paused with her hand on the doorknob, hearing voices on the other side.
She pressed her head to the cool wood of the door, but still couldn’t make out anything but the rumbles of at least two different male voices. Adrenaline coursed through her at the thought of being caught in Brandon’s penthouse in nothing but a towel. She’d be the talk of the town, but then she was already.
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