Boss Meets Baby

by Carol Marinelli

  ‘No, Ma.’ He kissed his mother’s cheek to show he was not angry. ‘My duty is to Emma—she is familia now.’

  CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

  ‘CAN I pay Dad’s account?’

  ‘Of course.’ The supervisor was unusually friendly as Emma came into the office, just a little bit flushed in the cheeks and, well, just a little nicer. ‘You’ve sold another painting.’

  It was actually the supervisor who handed her an envelope with a cheque in it and there was a flurry in her stomach as Emma took it. That feel of her baby moving still caught her by surprise, and she smiled, not just at the kicks from her baby but that she had almost paid her debts—and all by her own hand.

  All was well.

  She chanted those words over and over to herself and out loud to her baby too at times.

  All was well.

  Her father’s house had finally sold and she’d found a little flat nearby. Thanks to an excellent reference from Luca, she’d landed a wonderful job for three days a week and once the baby arrived they were happy for her to work a couple of days a week from home, which gave her time to concentrate on her art.

  She was getting there.

  Not quite thriving, but not just surviving either.

  She missed Luca—missed him in her days, in her nights, in her life, and she missed him for their baby too.

  But there was nothing she could do about that, so she poured her grief into her artwork and scared herself sometimes with her own mind—painting dark, swirling stories of loss and grief and hope and life.

  And she’d sold not one but three paintings!

  She’d put one up in her father’s room at the nursing home, which a relative of another resident had liked, and— things had taken off from there.

  Oh, they hadn’t sold for vast sums, but they’d keep the baby in nappies and bottles, and Emma knew that they’d be okay.

  All was well, she told her kicking stomach.

  They really didn’t need Luca.

  Want, however, was an entirely different matter.

  She walked down the long corridor towards her father and wasn’t really looking forward to it. He’d noticed her swelling stomach these past couple of weeks and unfortunately a stroke and a touch of senility weren’t stopping him from asking awkward questions.

  Emma pulled her coat around her and held a massive photo album over her stomach, hoping a few pictures from the past would be enough to distract him.

  And then she saw him.

  Saw six feet two with eyes of blue, sitting chatting on the bed and laughing with her dad, and she absolutely,— completely didn’t know what to do.

  ‘Here’s my baby girl!’ Frank beamed as she made her way over.

  She kissed her dad on the cheek and ignored Luca.

  He watched as she put her father’s pyjamas away and sorted out his chocolate and put some money in a little dish for his newspaper—and he saw the swell of her stomach and the strain on her features, and finally, finally— she faced him.

  ‘Could we have a word?’ Emma said. ‘Outside.’

  They walked out to the nursing-home gardens, along the winding paths, and finally she spoke.

  ‘Don’t…’ Her voice was shaky. ‘Don’t you dare drag him into this! He’s old and he’s confused.’

  ‘He’s our child’s grandfather,’ Luca pointed out. ‘I’d say he’s already in this…and he knows, by the way.’

  ‘Knows what?’

  ‘That you’re pregnant,’ Luca said, and watched her cheeks burn. ‘Were you ever going to tell me?’

  ‘I don’t know,’ she said honestly.

  ‘You don’t know?’ he repeated incredulously.

  So she turned to him and just said it, too tired, too confused and too angry for his mind games this time.

  ‘You knew anyway,’ Emma accused. ‘You knew that morning you said you loved me, and you knew it when you chose to let me go.’ And it was agony when he nodded. ‘So don’t play the wounded party now—you chose not to be around, Luca. I bore you, remember?’

  ‘Never,’ Luca said, his face pale.

  ‘And I’m not very interesting in bed.’

  ‘That’s not true either,’ he said. How he hated hearing it, how he hated what he had done to her—and yet now he had to face it. ‘All I think about is you. All I want is you—if you will give me this chance,’ he vowed.

  ‘Why would I?’ She had loved him so much and he hadn’t wanted that love. She could almost forgive him for herself, but she wouldn’t be careless with her baby’s heart. ‘Why would I risk it again? We’ll do fine without you.’

  And she would, he knew that she would, but how he wanted her to do better than fine—with him by her side.

  ‘I was scared I was like my father,’ he admitted.

  ‘Not good enough, Luca.’ She turned her face away. ‘I’m scared I’m like my mother—but deep down I know I’ll never walk away. You did.’

  ‘He beat her.’ Luca closed his eyes. ‘Badly, over and over.’

  ‘I know that,’ Emma pointed out. ‘And I know you never would do that to me or our baby, so why couldn’t you trust that?’

  ‘My grandfather, my uncle, they were the same too. Emma, I didn’t want to hurt you.’

  ‘But you did!’ She was trying not to cry, trying not to get upset, trying to stay calm for the baby, but it was hard. ‘Over and over you did. It doesn’t have to be a fist to hurt, Luca.’

  Her words sliced his heart—bitter, bitter was his regret.

  ‘My grandmother slipped and fell.’ Luca’s voice was a hoarse whisper, voicing dark thoughts that had never been said. ‘That is what I was told, that was what I believed—I heard my mother sob one night that Rico was just like his father. “And look where my mother ended up” was Rico’s response.’

  It wasn’t just his father, Emma started to see that now, and it wasn’t just the beating…

  ‘He killed her.’

  ‘Oh, Luca,’ Emma whispered.

  ‘And Rico’s brother, Rinaldo.’ His voice was hoarse, the filth of the past all spewing out now. ‘He beat Zia Maria too. Daniela remembers her as glamorous, always wearing make-up—only, of course, it was to cover the bruises.’

  Emma closed her eyes, recalling the well made-up face of Rinaldo’s second bride.

  ‘Maria came to our door one night, scared and crying, yet my mother sent her away—and she was dead the next morning. Kicked by a horse, my father, the— policeman, announced after he’d investigated.

  ‘I grew up with this secret—a secret so well hidden that not even the family doctor could see. My father was the trusted village policeman and yet in his home he did terrible things—his brothers and father too. And when I was younger, I promised I would never get so involved with a woman that I would marry her, give her children…’ — It was so hard to explain and yet he persevered. ‘I thought there was this…inevitability, that the violence was in my blood, in my genes. That I had been passed not just the family name…’ His eyes searched the gorgeous mound of her stomach. ‘And I thought that I had passed it on too—and that the baby would have a better chance of a normal life with just you to look after it.’

  ‘You should have told me all this,’ Emma said.

  ‘When?’ Luca challenged. ‘I don’t come with a government warning. I made my choice to never get too involved with anyone, and then you came along and that simple resolution…’ He swallowed as he recalled just how hard it had been to keep it in and how scared he had been to let it out. ‘I was going to tell you. The day of the funeral, I knew somehow that I would do better, that— I could not hurt you. For the first time I realised I had choices—and I also realised you had to make your choices too. It is not an easy family to marry into.’

  ‘Marry?’ Emma blinked. ‘You were thinking of asking me to marry you that day?’

  ‘And every day from the moment I met you—even if I didn’t want to admit it,’ Luca said truthfully.

  ‘So why didn’t you?�
� she wanted to know.

  ‘I spoke with Leo.’

  ‘The doctor?’

  Luca nodded. ‘I tried to tell him my concerns, I wanted him to reassure me, and instead he said that I could not hide from my genes. He offered me counselling. I thought he was talking about anger management…’ —

  ‘How dare he?’ It was Emma who needed anger management now. ‘How bloody archaic, how dare he imply that you’d be like that too?’

  ‘No.’ He hushed her. ‘Emma, I woke up this morning and I knew, no matter what he’d said, no matter what history dictates, that I would never, ever hurt you.’

  ‘I knew that already,’ she said, but she did understand because there was a part of her that had the same sort of fears—that she’d be a lousy mother, that she’d turn forty and some strange force would take over and she’d suddenly walk out on her family. Luca’s words had rung that bell of fear that she’d heard many times before—that there was a certain inevitability to it all. ‘I feel the same sometimes,’ she admitted, ‘that I won’t be a good mum…’

  ‘You’ll be a wonderful mum,’ he said with absolute conviction.

  ‘You’ll be a wonderful dad.’

  ‘If you’ll let me be,’ he murmured.

  ‘I could never stop that, and I know in the end I’d have told you,’ she admitted.

  He ran a hand over her swollen stomach, rued the moments he’d already missed and promised himself that he’d miss not a moment more.

  ‘You’re nothing like your dad,’ Emma continued. ‘You’re like Pepper!’ How she made him smile! ‘Snapping and snarling, but you’d never bite. Luca…’ She said it with absolute conviction. ‘You’re nothing like him.’

  ‘Actually, I am nothing like him.’

  ‘I just said that.’

  ‘No…’ He blew out a breath, because in all that had happened he hadn’t even had time to really process the news, to even think about it, to explore it, so when he did that for the first time, he did it with her.

  ‘I’m nothing like Rico because Leo is my real father.’

  ‘Leo?’ Emma gasped. ‘The doctor, the one who said…?’ She had thought him familiar when they’d met, and now she knew why! That assuredness, that arrogance that Luca possessed had to have come from somewhere—and now she knew where!

  ‘That is what he was trying to say, about genes. He thought I had guessed, thought I was trying to tell him I knew. Guilt made my mother stay with Rico—and shame. Not just at what others might think but because of what she secretly knew—that she’d been unfaithful to my father even before she’d married him.’

  Emma blinked in amazement, trying to take it all in.

  ‘I love you.’ And it was a different way he said it this time. Not something he dragged from himself, not something he didn’t want to admit. Instead, he told her his truth. ‘People make mistakes. I have just sat and listened to your father’s regret about your mother and you—and I’ve heard my own mother’s regret and guilt too. People bury their shame and fears in the past but they don’t go away, they fester.’ He smiled. ‘Also, I have something else to tell you. Your father is not senile.’ Luca gazed down at her. ‘He told me that today. He knows you think he is, but his truth is that he remembers your mother now with love, and better still…’ He looked at her kind, clear eyes that had never been loved and vowed to make up for all past hurts. ‘Your father says he now has a second chance to love you.’

  ‘He said that?’ she choked.

  ‘Yes.’

  ‘He’s not confused from the stroke?’

  ‘No.’ Luca grinned, the old Luca, the funny Luca, the Luca who had first won her heart. ‘He’s just a bit uninhibited,’ — Luca said, and then he was serious. ‘And so now must I be.’ He stared beyond her eyes and to her soul. ‘I love you, Emma. I always have and I always will. I sat on the sofa that first night we met, after I came in from Paris, and there was a part of me imagining watching that detective show with you.’

  He watched a pink flush warm her cheeks.

  ‘When I left my flat for Tokyo that day, I imagined coming home to you.’

  He watched as the colour spread to her little ears, saw the smile wobble on her lips, and so he told her some more.

  ‘When you held my hand on the plane, I imagined lying next to you every night for the rest of my life.’

  She could feel it, the warm glow of his love warming her icy veins, chasing away all the hurt, the fear, the loneliness—bathing her in this deep, rosy warmth and wrapping her in soft, infinite understanding.

  ‘You can,’ Emma said, her eyes open, staring into the eyes of a man who had made it so very difficult for her to love him. ‘Every night for the rest of your life, you can lie beside me.’

  ‘You too,’ Luca said, because it was such a nice thing to know, such a nice thing to be told. ‘Always, I am here for you.’

  And he would be, Emma knew that. Luca was here, for— her, for their baby—and finally, finally she had the family she had always longed for.

  ‘Come on,’ she whispered. ‘Let’s go and tell Dad.’

  EPILOGUE

  ‘ONE more push,’ Luca implored—as if it were that easy, as if he knew how it should be done just because he’d read it in a magazine!

  ‘I can’t!’

  It wasn’t pushing that scared her, it was life, because in a moment the future would be here—and although she couldn’t wait to meet it, she was scared she wasn’t up to it.

  That, by not having grown up with a mother, she might not be able to be a mother herself.

  It wasn’t one more push, it was four, and then this wait, this rush as a bundle of red was on her stomach and Luca was cutting the cord, was over. Ready or not, she was officially a mum, so she had no choice but to be able.

  ‘A girl!’ It was the doctor who spoke because Luca just stood, his face unreadable, watching his wife reach for their daughter, watching eyes peer at a very new, very big world.

  He had hoped for a boy—not for the old reasons, not for a son or to continue the family name, which was a bit of a black joke between them. No, Luca had wanted a boy because Emma was so scared of having a girl.

  And as he stared at this tiny little lady, so new and so raw and so fragile, he understood her fears—because he had them too. Their daughter was surely the most precious thing in the world and they had to do this right.

  ‘A girl…’ He picked up his daughter and cradled her close, hushed angry, startled cries and then, when he was sure Emma was ready, he handed her to her mother, and— he watched nature unfold, and Emma feed her hungry baby.

  Watched his wife become a mother to his daughter.

  The midwife tidied up around them then opened the curtains on the beginning of a glorious new day, pinks and oranges and pretty lemons filling the window as if the sky had known it was giving her a girl.

  ‘What a beautiful morning to become a mum!’ the midwife said, and left the new family to it. Emma wanted to call her back, worried almost that she’d been left with her baby, that she should know what to do. What if she stopped feeding, or what if she suddenly cried?

  But she was still feeding, making little snuffly noises as Emma stared down.

  Girls were different.

  Politically correct or not, scientifically based or whatever, in a hormonal haze Emma knew that they just were.

  They needed cuddles and blankets and something else—something Emma had been denied and something she swore her daughter would never be without.

  ‘If something were to happen to me…’ Seeing her cradling their daughter, hearing the wobble in her voice, it would have been so easy to wave her fears away, but Luca wouldn’t do that to her.

  ‘There would be Daniela, my mother, Evelyn and her twin girls when they come…She’d be surrounded.’ Luca stared at his daughter. ‘But more than that, she would know about you and know how much I loved you and how much I love her.’

  He left no room for doubt.

  ‘What happen
ed to my playboy?’ she teased.

  ‘He stopped playing.’

  ‘What happens now?’ Emma asked, because she had it all, here in this room. Here in her arms she had it all, and she didn’t know quite what to do with it.

  ‘We name her?’ Luca smiled. ‘Do you want to call her after your mother?’

  She had thought about it long and hard and she thought about it again.

  ‘No,’ Emma admitted, because sometimes it still hurt. ‘Do you want to name her after yours?’

  ‘No,’ Luca said. He had forgiven Mia, and he was happy to see her with Leo, but, well, it was all too new and too much just yet. He didn’t even know what to do with his own surname, let alone pass on his mother’s first name too!

  ‘Aurora,’ Emma said.

  ‘Aurora?’ Luca played with the word in his mind and liked it. ‘It means dawn…’

  ‘And new beginnings,’ Emma said, gazing from her infant to her husband. They would follow their own course now. This precious clean slate they had been given deserved the very best they could give her, and that’s what she would get.

  A new beginning.

  The Salvatore

  Marriage Deal

  Natalie

  Rivers

  About the Author

  NATALIE RIVERS grew up in the Sussex countryside. As a child, she always loved to lose herself in a good book, or in games that gave free rein to her imagination. She went to Sheffield University, where she met her husband in the first week of term. It was love at first sight and they have been together ever since, moving to London after graduating, getting married and having two wonderful children.

  After university Natalie worked in a lab at a medical research charity and later retrained to be a primary school teacher. Now she is lucky enough to be able to combine her two favourite occupations—being a full-time mum and writing passionate romances.

  For my editor, Sally Williamson