Among the clans, the renaming ceremony admitted the young to full membership in the lodge, launched their life’s work, welcomed them to the temples, and often began the dance of courtship.
Han was in a kind of no-man’s-land of existence. His sixteenth birthday had come and gone months ago, scarcely noticed. Mam had brought home a honey cake from the bakery on the corner and had reminded him that he needed to find a real job. No ceremony marked Han’s transition from lytling to grown-up. He just oozed over the borderlands, like any creature close to the ground.
So Han was envious, yet Dancer seemed miserable. Was he having trouble choosing a vocation? Was Willo pressuring him into something he didn’t want?
He tried to talk to Dancer about it, one day when they were fishing. At least Dancer would fish with him. In fact, he seemed eager to be out on the mountain and away from camp. He’d seize any excuse to do so.
“So,” Han said, flicking the tip of his pole so his fly lighted on the water, “Digging Bird barely talks to me. She always has her nose in the air.”
Dancer grunted. “She’ll talk to you, don’t worry. After the ceremony.” Dancer set down his pole and lay back on the riverbank, closing his eyes. His eyelids looked like great bruises in his unusually pale face.
“If…if I had to choose, I don’t know what I’d be,” Han said, feeling like he was rattling on against Dancer’s silence. “I’ve had lots of vocations already.”
“A vocation is different from a job,” Dancer muttered. “Trust me.”
“How is it different?” Han asked, encouraged by Dancer’s response.
“A vocation is not something you slap on, like a coat of paint, and change whenever you want. A vocation is built into you. You have no choice. If you try to do something else, you fail.” This last was said with deep bitterness.
Han nodded. Sometimes it seemed like he’d never escape his past life as streetlord of Ragmarket. If you were good at something, if you made a name, that something stuck to you, haunting you all of your days.
He fingered the silver cuffs around his wrists. They seemed to symbolize his lack of options. If he could just get them off, he might turn into someone else. At least he wouldn’t be so easily recognized.
“I guess it’s important to figure out what it is you were meant to do,” Han said. “What would you do, if you could choose anything?”
Dancer opened his eyes, squinting against the shafts of sunlight leaking through the trees. “I always thought I’d like to apprentice with a Demonai goldsmith, like Elena, and learn to make jewelry, amulets, and magical pieces.”
Dancer had always gravitated toward the gold and silversmith tables at the markets.
“Have you asked her?” Han asked.
Dancer closed his eyes. “She won’t take me on.”
That was strange. Elena knew Dancer, would know him to be a hard worker, and honest. “Well…can your vocation change? Are you locked in? Do you have to do the same thing all your life?
“It depends,” Dancer said. “Some of us have no choice at all.” He swiped at his eyes with the heels of his hands. Then he stood and walked away, into the woods, leaving all his fishing gear behind.
A week after his arrival at Marisa Pines, Han decided to visit Lucius Frowsley’s place. He had to let him know he’d no longer be able to deliver his product to Fellsmarch. He hoped Lucius would give him some other kind of job, something he could do without going to town, but he knew that was unlikely.
He descended using the Spirit Trail, then cut away on the path leading to Lucius’s place.
The cabin looked deserted as usual, no smoke curling from the chimney. But Lucius wasn’t fishing on the creek bank, or tending his still on the hillside. In fact, the fire under the boiler had gone out and the brick liner was cold. That never happened. Lucius might be slow, but he was consistent.
Han piled wood under the boiler and replenished the wash, but didn’t light it, and left the distillate where it was.
Perplexed, he walked back to Lucius’s cabin, which was the last place he’d expect to find him on a sunny spring day. He could leave a note, but that’d do no good to a blind man. He had a last bit of money he owed Lucius, but he hated to leave it in the cabin when the old man wasn’t there.
He knocked loudly. There followed a spatter of barking, and then Dog’s solid body hit the door.
He must be here, Han thought. Lucius and Dog were always together.
“Hey, Dog,” he said, pushing open the cabin door. Dog was all over him, slapping his face with his long wet tongue, all in a dog frenzy of joy. “Where’s Lucius?” Han asked, feeling a twinge of worry.
His eyes adjusted to the dim light, and then he saw movement on the bed in the corner. “Lucius?”
There were no lamps, of course, but Han ripped the curtains open to admit some light into the room. The old man was sitting on his bed, curled up against the wall, cradling a bottle, sick or drunk or something.
Han glanced around the cabin. Dog’s water dish was empty, and his food dish too.
“Lucius? What’s the matter with you?”
“Who is it?” the old man quavered. Then his voice changed, grew shrill and defiant. “Cowards. Have you come for me too?”
“It’s me. Han,” Han said, hesitating in the doorway. “Don’t you know me?”
Lucius slung his arm over his face as if he could hide behind it. “Go away. I know the boy’s dead. I a’ready heard, so don’t try to fool me. You’ve got what you wanted, so leave me alone.”
Han crossed to Lucius and patted him awkwardly on the shoulder. The old man flinched away, clutching his bottle like a lifeline.
“What are you talking about? I’m not dead. You’re talking crazy.”
The old man opened his clouded eyes. “You don’t have it, do you? The jinxpiece. The boy hid it good, did he?” Lucius cackled. “Well, I don’t have it, if that’s what you’re after. Do your worst. You can torture me, but I can’t tell you what I don’t know.”
“Just stop it, Lucius,” Han said, losing patience. “I’m going to get you something to eat.”
If Lucius hadn’t fed Dog, chances were he hadn’t fed himself either. Han went out to the pump in the yard and filled a bucket with water. He brought it in and filled Dog’s water dish and dipped some into a cup for Lucius.
“Here,” he said, gently wresting the bottle out of Lucius’s hands. “Drink this instead.” He dug in his carry bag and pulled out a biscuit, pressing it into Lucius’s hand. When the old man just sat clutching it, Han broke off a piece and put it in his mouth.
Lucius chewed mechanically, his bristled jaw working up and down. Dog lapped noisily at his water. Han rooted through Lucius’s cupboards and found an end of ham that he broke into pieces. He put part into Dog’s food dish and fed the rest to Lucius, bit by little bit, alternating with sips of water.
Dog wolfed his down.
“They said you was dead,” Lucius mumbled, and Han knew he was back to his senses. “I thought it was my fault, for telling you to keep the jinxpiece.”
“Who said I was dead?” Han asked.
“They said you was murdered down by the river,” Lucius went on. “Ripped apart by demons.”
Understanding flooded in. “Oh. That was my doing. I wanted people to think I was dead.”
Lucius stopped chewing. “Are they after you, then? The Bayars?”
Always the Bayars. “No. The bluejackets are after me. The Queen’s Guard. They think I killed a dozen people.”
“Ah.” Lucius heaved a great sigh of relief. “Thank the Maker it’s nothing worse.”
“It’s bad enough!” Han exploded. “I can’t go home, I can’t make a living. I’m stuck here on Hanalea.”
“There’s worse things,” Lucius said, eating on his own now. “Did you kill ’em? Those people?”
“No, I didn’t kill them! You know better than that. I’m out of that. Or trying to be.”
“Well, then. Give the bluejackets
time. Once the hoopla dies down, they’ll be buyable again.” Lucius licked his fingers and reached down, groping for the bottle.
Han put the cup of water in his hand. “I think you’d better stick with this.”
Lucius sighed and said, “So you’re going to stay at Marisa Pines?”
“For now. I’m not going to be able to deliver for you for a while, anyway. I’m sorry.”
“Where’s the amulet?”
“It’s hidden. Back in town.” Which was inconvenient, now that he thought about it. It would be difficult to get.
Lucius coughed and spat on the ground, the way old men do. “Maybe you should consider going south, to Bruinswallow or We’enhaven. Or east to Chalk Cliffs, and get a job on the docks. You’d be safer there.”
“Well.” Han fingered the cuffs around his wrists. “I was thinking of Arden, or Tamron. It’s not so far away. I could get home to see Mari and Mam now and then.”
“There’s a war going on, boy, or hadn’t you heard?”
“I thought I could go as a line soldier,” Han said. This was his latest idea.
Lucius slammed down his cup. “A soldier? A soldier? What kind of fool idea is that?”
Han hadn’t expected this reaction from Lucius.
“Well, it’s good money, and I wouldn’t need an apprenticeship, or schooling, or—”
“You’ve got schooling, boy! Schooling enough to know you don’t want to go as a soldier. Here I just got done feeling guilty because I thought you was dead. Soldiers’ lives are too cheap these days. If you was an officer, you’d have a chance, anyway.”
“Officers come from the academies,” Han said. “I’ve got no money for that. I thought I could save up some money from soldiering, and then go to the academy.”
“’Course you can,” Lucius said sarcastically. “You think Wien House’ll take you one-legged? Blind like me? With your lungs burned out by the poisons the Prince of Arden uses? Do you want to end up like your father?”
“You’re right, Lucius. I have all kinds of other options,” Han said, wondering why everyone had a license to lecture him lately. “How to decide? I could be a ragpicker. I could keep mucking out stables. I could be a fancy boy; the money’s good, and the clothes…”
“Doesn’t Jemson want you for a teacher?” Lucius interrupted.
How does he know these things? Han thought. “Well, I’m not going into orders, if that’s what you mean. Besides, I kind of burned that bridge,” he added, thinking of Corporal Byrne and Rebecca with the green eyes that could pin you to the wall. It seemed a lifetime ago, but he’d bet no one had forgotten it.
They both fell silent, each wrestling with his own thoughts.
“Funny they’ve not come after you,” Lucius said finally. “The Bayars, I mean.”
“Maybe the jinxpiece isn’t as valuable as you thought,” Han suggested. Lucius scowled and shook his head, and Han added, “Or maybe they don’t know who I am.”
“Hmmph. Well, we can hope for that, boy,” Lucius said. “We can hope for that.”
C H A P T E R N I N E T E E N
NAME DAY
Despite feeling left out of the ceremony itself, Han couldn’t help getting excited as the name day celebration approached.
Every year at summer solstice, all the clan children who turned sixteen during the warm weather months were celebrated at a naming ceremony. It was one of the few times during the year that Marisa Pines and Demonai camps came together for dancing and flirting and matchmaking between the clan families. It was also a time for show-off cooking, so it was bound to be the feast of the year.
The guesthouses were full three days before solstice, and visitors spilled over into the other lodges. Even the Matriarch Lodge had its share of guests.
Bird had secluded herself in the Acolyte Lodge with the other oath-takers, as was custom, but Dancer disappeared into the woods two days before the feast without a word to anyone. Han could tell Willo was worried. She was busy with preparations for the ceremony, but several times she went to the door and peered out, saying, “I thought I heard someone coming.” She flinched at every sound and slept fitfully.
Insignificant Han slept fitfully also, sharing the floor of the lodge with six young Demonai cousins, who giggled and whispered and yanked out strands of his hair.
When Han emerged from the Matriarch Lodge the morning of the ceremony, haunches of venison were already roasting on spits, and the succulent scent of roast pork wafted from fire pits in the ground. Long trestle tables had been set up under the trees. Han and the younger children brought back armloads of wild onions and garlic, and freshly baked pies were lined up on the cooling racks in the cooking lodge.
Han helped lay the fire in the outdoor temple, dragged more seating into place for clan elders, and flirted with some Demonai girls he hadn’t seen for six months.
Willo dressed in her Matriarch’s robes, then carefully laid out Dancer’s clothes, unfolding them from the trunk at the foot of her sleeping bench—leggings and moccasins, a soft shirt and fringed buckskin jacket painted and beaded in her distinctive style. Han studied it for clues. It was a nontraditional, somewhat jarring design, incorporating the familiar Marisa Pines and Matriarch symbols with rowan and jinx signs.
Willo even pulled out a beaded buckskin shirt for Han, the lone hunter symbols embroidered on the back yoke. Han stammered out a thanks, and Willo smiled and shook her head.
“Thank you for being a friend to Fire Dancer,” she said. “He will need you in the coming days.”
Han blinked at her. “What do you…?”
She shook her head. “You will see,” she said, turning away, dismissing him, and sitting down at her loom as if it weren’t a feast day.
And still Dancer didn’t come.
“Do you want me to go look for him?” Han asked, unable to stand the suspense any longer and wanting to do something useful.
“He will come,” Willo said, throwing her shuttle and catching it. “He has no choice.”
The feast began in late afternoon, the long tables groaning with platters and bowls, dogs circulating hopefully underneath. Han wasn’t as hungry as he thought he’d be, eating on his own. His friends were all sequestered, preparing to cross into the future.
Finally, at the last possible moment, Dancer slipped back into camp, looking haggard and dirty, like he’d slept for three days on the ground.
Willo silently handed him a basin, and he sluiced water over his head and face, scrubbing away the grime with a towel. He then dressed for the ceremony with quick fierce movements, making no comment on his new clothes.
Han opened his mouth, but his voice died in his throat. He was angry with Dancer for acting this way. Jealous of his friend’s place in the world and the ceremony that would confirm it. Whatever vocation had been chosen for him, he needed to accept it. Han wished someone would tell him what to do with the rest of his life.
And then it was time to go. The torches were already lit as they made their way along the path to the outdoor temple, even though the light would linger far into the night on this longest of days. A soft breeze kissed Han’s skin, carrying the scent of night lilies and the promise of the brief upland summer.
Dancer left them when they reached the temple, circling around to join the others in the Acolyte Lodge. Willo split off too, to join the elders at the front of the temple. The grown-ups wore the ceremonial garb of their chosen vocations, a flower garden of colors. Han, feeling foolish, sat on the ground with the younger children, folding his long legs up out of the way.
The ceremony began with speeches from the elders of both camps. Han recognized Averill Lightfoot and resisted the urge to fade back into the woods. He’d last seen the trader during the disaster at Southbridge Temple, when he’d kidnapped Rebecca and escaped into Ragmarket.
It’s all right, Han told himself. The trader hadn’t recognized him then, and by now the red-brown dye had nearly washed out of his hair. Who would expect to find a Ragmarket s
treetlord at the Marisa Pines naming ceremony?
Cennestre Elena, Matriarch of Demonai Camp, told the familiar story of how the clans were carved from Spirit stone and the breath of the Maker brought them to life. And how, to this day, the queens of the Fells returned to the Spirits at the end of life, each claiming a peak as her final dwelling place.
Han found himself relaxing, the cadence of the familiar old stories soothing him as it always did. Why couldn’t real life be that orderly? Instead it was a tangled fish line, with knots and connections you couldn’t see.
For instance, Averill was the consort to the queen of the Fells, the father of the princess heir. Han couldn’t help but think it strange, this linkage between those glittering Valefolk who lived within the frowning walls of Fellsmarch Castle and the members of the upland clans, whose camps seemed like an extension of the landscape, who walked so gently on the land.
It was time for the first of the summer born to be introduced by their sponsors. Iron Hammer, a blacksmith, came forward, followed by a tall, broad-shouldered girl in a leather vest and leggings, decorated by horses and flames burned into the leather.
She must be Demonai, Han thought, since I don’t know her.
“Who do you bring before us, Hammer?” Averill asked.
Hammer cleared his throat. “The girl, Laurel Blossom, came to me, saying she dreams of metal and flame. She has been examined, and it is a true calling. I have agreed to be her sponsor. She has meditated on her name. I present to you Flame Shaper.” And he grinned broadly, as if it were his own daughter he was presenting.
And so it continued. An apprentice basket maker was named Oak Weaver. A would-be storyteller was named Tale Spinner. A jewelry maker became Silver Bird.
Now two Demonai warriors came forward, a man and a woman, heads high, knives at their belts, bows slung over their shoulders, silver Demonai emblems hanging from chains around their necks. They were clad in the green and brown leggings and shirts that made them invisible in the forest. Anyone who went up against wizards had to have a bit of magic of their own.
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