He shook his head.
"Did you buy them at all? It's what you said you were leaving for. Remember? You said I was safe there, that you were just leaving to get me something to wear." When she thought he wouldn't answer, she cursed at him, frustrated.
She knew the one thing that could help that, help her let it all go. Just let this entire predicament dissolve into nothingness.
"Give me a fucking smear right now."
He gripped her wrist at that, pulling her hands out from beneath her bottom and twisting so that she had to face him. He didn't look miserable anymore; he looked furious.
"You were supposed to stay there. Stay in the room. No one told you to take my money and use it for drugs. If it wasn't for your damned jonesing you would have been safe, just like I said."
She heard her teeth click together as the anger took her.
"Don't you dare," she hissed. "Don't you dare blame this on me. Don't you--" she had to struggle to get the words past the frantic clacking of her teeth as the trembling made even her chest shake. "Don't--"
She couldn't get any more out, damn him, and damn it if she didn't start to cry. Hot tears snaked down her cheeks, pooling in the corners of her mouth, and her throat all but closed up on her. She couldn't even breathe through the constricted paths in her nostrils. And he had her hands, damn him. He had her by the wrists and she couldn't even cover her face in humiliation.
Just what did he think she would do with that money? Wait patiently for him to return? Buy another night in a place where her drug of choice glazed over nearly every face she encountered. Seeing each expression on her way to the room, how rapt it was, how beyond caring. She knew the feeling beneath those looks. She could taste the bliss deep in the back of her throat, making her skin itch. How was a girl with a problem even supposed to work her way through something like that?
"You said I would be safe." She began patting down the afghan as though it had pockets, searching the cushions of the couch, running her hands down his jacket, shoving her hands in his pockets. Not thinking, just searching, desperate.
"Just one," she said. "I know you still have some. Just give me one."
She couldn't see anymore; the tears made her vision nothing but a wash of color. It could be his face in front of her, or it could be his hands. Nothing mattered. She just wanted a smear. She wanted to let go. There was an itch in the back of her spine sending messages to her legs: escape. Run, flee, make it all go away. She might have heard his voice, but the words, the meaning escaped her. All she knew, all she understood was her own sobbing, her own desperate need. She knew what the trembling was all about now. She should've realized it earlier. It wasn't the stress, not fear. It wasn't because she was cold. Not because her core temperature had dropped at all.
It was because she was coming down. The bliss wanted control of her body again. The euphoria waited for her, demanded her attention. It was her true master, after all. All of the spitters in the den, they realized something about themselves that she hadn't until just now. She belonged to the godspit. It owned her. Sasha believed he owned all of the human flesh he peddled to his elitist and demented clientele, but the joke was on him. How incredibly ironic. How absolutely hilarious. If she wasn't shaking so much, she would just lay her head back on her neck, mouth pointing to the ceiling, and let the laugh out.
It was then that she realized the shaking wasn't coming from within. She was being shaken. She tried hard to focus, levelled her gaze at the face in front of her, and realized it was incredibly close to hers. She could watch Ezekiel's heart beat in his throat, see how his green eyes were searching hers, trying to get her to focus.
"I need it," she said to him and it took everything she had just to make those words exit through her clenched jaw.
His fingers found the back of her neck, massaged her occipital bone, the thumb curling around her earlobe, stroking gently. She could melt into those fingers if she just eased her eyes closed. Breathe into the heat they sent down her back, chasing the cold shiver of need. She tried to focus on that.
"You don't need it," he whispered.
She licked her dry lips. "I do so."
"You're stronger than that," he said and the tone of his voice made her eyes flutter open. His gaze had caught on the movement of her tongue as it darted into the corner. "You already beat it once."
"I never beat it. It just took a dive for a round or two."
A thin smile crept across his face as he leaned closer. Those summer bleached green eyes went to her mouth and stayed there for a long moment while her heart started to dance in her chest. His fingers feathered their way down the back of her neck, easing the afghan from her shoulders. Only then did his gaze slip away from her lips and onto the pulse in her throat. He seemed to be waiting, watching for a change in the rhythm. Tentative fingers whispered over the place where her pulse throbbed, ran down the length of her arm. Something shifted in the way her body trembled as his other hand moved to the opposite side of her neck, testing the heart rate there.
"Adrenaline," he murmured, his eyes mesmerized by the frenzy of its beating.
Her heart stuttered when his lips touched the hollow of her shoulder. A small groan came from somewhere deep in his throat, and that, too, surprised her. She didn't dare move; even though every muscle in her body froze in indecision, some primal energy forced her heart to race. She imagined he felt its beating against his lips as they tasted the skin sheathing her pulse.
"I can make you forget," he whispered against her skin and the way his breath shuddered against the goose flesh that rose in response made her throat ache. "I can take the fear away, Minou. Let me get you high. Let me be your addiction."
Her heart beat so loudly in her ears she knew he must hear it. She almost wanted to apologize for the thunderous sound, but even as she opened her mouth he sealed his lips over her top one, letting his tongue probe within, tentative at first, questioning, and then claiming her mouth with a sure mastery that told her any opportunity for refusal was over. It didn't matter; she was already responding. She allowed her hands to tangle in his hair, pulling him closer; her body melting to his. He was right; her need was evaporating in the bald face of her desire. Images flitted through her mind, of the two of them in the spitters'den, the sounds of pleasure all about them, the feel of another woman's fingers within her, stroking against the ribs of her G-spot, with Ezekiel's cock pressing against her belly, making her wish it was him in there filling her.
She remembered the sense of danger that had heightened her senses back in the den, but she also remembered how her body had fevered for his touch, and how it took ignition like spark to tinder. Like it was doing now.
She broke away from his kiss, gasping for air, trying to fuel the fire in her body that was even now coiling within her womb. Her face went to his neck as she strained against him, her tongue probing his earlobe, nipping, pulling, sucking on it until she felt the same response from him on her shoulder. Until she could hear him panting like she was, struggling to feed her lungs with air enough to stoke the greedy fire in her body.
His palms went to both sides of her face, easing her from his throat, positioning her so that he could take her lips again, tangle his tongue with hers.
He moaned into her mouth, pausing long enough to drag in a breath from her lungs and return it with a shudder. She wanted to tear away from his kiss, to trail the tip of her tongue against the skin and taste the salt of his perspiration tinged with the leftover taste of Cologne, but he gripped her so fiercely, keeping her trapped beneath his mouth that she couldn't do more than squirm beneath the hotspots he created with each touch of his lips to her skin. When she tried to break away, to work the clothing from him, and place her own fevered lips against his flesh, he pinioned her tighter.
"No," he said against her jaw. His thumb prodded at the corner of her mouth, poking itself in, tasting faintly of chai spices. "I'm nowhere near finished."
Hands that trapped her face beneath his kiss mo
ved apart so that one fisted in her hair and the other moved to the small of her back, pressing her closer against him. Through his jeans, through the thickness of the afghan that pooled about her hips, his erection strained for her. He strained for her, forcing her pubis against the hardness of his cock with the one hand, grinding her into him, not satisfied until both hands planted on her hips, rocking her against him.
She could swear her clitoris was throbbing in time with her pounding heart. She wanted him more than she wanted the release of ecstasy, more than the escape of forgetfulness. She wanted him more in that instant than she wanted her heart to beat.
She tilted her hips, lifting to straddle him, making her spine arch as his fingers wrenched aside the uselessly small crotch of her thong; she wanted to give him access, needed it. She couldn't help but gasp when one rigid finger found its way beneath and plunged inside, pressed deep into the tissue within, not pumping; just pressing and releasing, pressing and releasing until she was soaked with desire.
She realized she was shuddering, that she couldn't stop either the trembling or the movement of her own hips as she rode his fingers and it was with a shock that she realized he was taking her to climax, that in a few seconds more she would climb heights of ecstasy only ever matched by the first few moments of taking a godspit smear onto her tongue. She imagined it tickling her tastebuds, electrifying her synapses, and then it was the smooth head of his cock that she was imagining, the swell of it against her tongue. She could barely breathe for the craving of it.
When he emptied her sex of his fingers, confusion whispered fearful thoughts into her mind. It was a trick. Some malicious way to show her how badly off she was, how filthy an addict she was, so willing to trade herself for a lick of a smear like any other addict in the spitters'den. She deserved to be scorned.
Her eyes flew open, expecting to see a mocking look on his face, expecting him to reveal that it had been a ploy to divert her and nothing more, but what she saw was hunger so primitive it made her gulp down the protest that leapt to her tongue. Her gaze fell to his mouth, unable to think of anything but tasting him again, and when she did she realized it wasn't enough. Not nearly enough.
He scooped her from the couch, sheathing himself in her legs as he stood. His arms went around her, crushing her against him so that she felt like little more than a film of oil against his clothes. His lips dragged over her jawline, coming to rest on the crook of her shoulder, the rags of his breath sending waves of shivers down her spine.
She wanted to climb higher on his hips, find the rise of his erection through his jeans, work them off just by grinding against him so that she could part for the crown of his cock and let him slip inside. So entangled was she, that when he took his arms from around her, she didn't so much as slip from his waist.
He worked his hands beneath her, fumbling for the front of his jeans.
"What are you doing?"
"What I've wanted to do since the night I had you in that tub," he said.
She barely felt the movement, all she knew was that she felt the cold shock of the countertop against her bare ass, the heat of his palms as he pressed her thighs apart, the finger that re-entered her, testing for access.
Even as he managed to pull his jeans open enough that she felt the satiny hardness of his cock demanding entrance to her sex, she heard the sound of a key in the door. The hammering of her heart echoed in her ears but this time it flooded her veins with fear, expelling the desire. It had all the effectiveness of a snowball striking overheated skin.
Ezekiel backed away, his hand in the pocket of his jacket, leaving her emptied of him as the door yawned open.
Agni: Act 2
She barely had time to climb down from the counter before the door opened, revealing a narrow hipped, narrow shouldered young man with immaculate taste judging by his attire, but with a very busy hairdresser judging by the faded purple streak in his hair.
"What in the hell are you doing?" the intruder demanded of Ezekiel as Theda launched herself for the sofa and the cover of her Afghan.
"Setting up for bingo." Ezekiel eased the zipper over his erection. His tone was calm, almost too much so for the cold fury that stole his face.
The man took note of Ezekiel's bedraggled state, the look of frustration, and the way he raked his hand through his hair.
"Oh, hell. Not on my counter." The intruder's nose wrinkled in disgust. "Tell me you weren't just fucking that nasty-assed spitter chick on my sideboard."
"I wasn't. Thanks to your shitty timing." Ezekiel's hand crept toward the outside of his thigh as though it wanted to be closer to the boot that held the monstrous knife Theda knew was in there. "Who the hell are you?"
"I own this shit hole," the intruder said. "For Pete's sake make her put something on." He walked farther into the apartment, shielding his eyes as though offended. "I don't know how the hell the two of you got in here, but you got exactly long enough for her to pull some pants over her ass before I start pulling out the cast-iron pans and swinging like Babe Ruth."
"Eddie gave us a key," Ezekiel drawled.
"Eddie?" The fellow's demeanor instantly changed as his hand came away from his brow and clenched at his side anxiously. "How is he? Did you see him? Did he ask about me?"
"Depends on who you are." It seemed mention of Eddie erased all concern about who they were and how they had gotten into his apartment. Even so, Theda opted to keep her mouth shut and cover herself with her Afghan. Let Ezekiel do the talking. Besides, she knew about as much as this new intruder did and was anxious to hear the explanation herself.
"I'm Julio."
The boy looked latino like Theda looked affluent black but she said nothing.
"Eddie is okay," Ezekiel said. He smoothed down his shirt, tucking it into his pants fastidiously, taking his time as though there was nothing odd about being caught with a naked woman wrapped around his hips. Theda's face burned. She pulled the Afghan around herself even tighter, drawing her knees up to her chin.
Julio came into the living room and perched on a rickety chair, pushing his purple streak behind his ear. He put his hand over his brow again, shielding his eyes as he inclined his head toward Theda.
"Didn't I tell you to get dressed?"
She chewed her lip, shrugging. "I don't, uh--"
"She doesn't have anything to wear," Ezekiel said.
Julio's gaze swung back to Ezekiel. "You got a shirt, don't you?" He sucked his teeth in distaste, muttering something about chivalry being dead, then got up from his chair and disappeared behind a Paisley curtain. He came out with a Beyoncé style gold lamé cowl dress in one hand and a Catholic schoolgirl uniform in the other. He proffered both without looking at Theda. "No street clothes," he said. "Just costumes from our sex play."
Might as well stay naked as put either of those on.
"Can't I just have a pair of your jeans?" She looked up at Julio with as much of a pitiful expression as she could manage. He wrinkled his nose again but wouldn't catch her eye.
"And get your cooties?" He shook his head. "I don't think so."
"It's not as though I'm going to be giving you the jeans back," she said to him.
"What do you think this is, the Salvation Army?"
Ezekiel growled and grabbed for the Beyoncé dress, flinging it at Theda. It landed on her head and she peeled it off thinking at least she knew where his proclivities lay.
"I'll take the uniform," she said, reaching for Julio's other hand.
Ezekiel grabbed for her wrist before she could touch the material. "I don't think so," he said.
"I'm not wearing that trashy thing; I might as well run down the street screaming look at me."
"And wearing a religious uniform doesn't scream the same thing?"
She had a retort on her lips when she heard Julio growl at both of them to shut up. He sank into his chair again, putting his head in his hands.
"What a fucken mess," he mumbled more to himself than to Theda or Ezekiel. "I don't
have time for this shit. Just get dressed and get out. If you can't give me any information about Eddie then just get dressed and get the fuck out. "
Without a word, Theda pulled the dress down over her head and smoothed it against her hips. She immediately felt better; all she had to do to feel best was to not look down at what she was wearing. Even the feel of the lamé against her bare skin felt wicked and trashy. She eyed Ezekiel, waiting for some idea of what to do next.
"What's all the hubbub?"
"They've got some girl playing on the promo over and over, saying she murdered Henrik. They're searching for her everywhere."
Ezekiel sank to a crouch in front of Julio. "Henrik? The Beast's son? And what's such a fucken mess about that?" Theda could hear the tension in his voice at the question.
Julio peered up at him. "Seriously? Eddie's in a spitters' den, hoarding fuck knows how many of those disgusting vermin for his boss, and you want to know what the mess is?" He eyed Theda briefly as though she were one of the disgusting vermin and didn't warrant any more attention than a quick shot of a glance.
"Enlighten me," Ezekiel said indulgently.
"Are you sure you know Eddie?" Julio turned back to Ezekiel, his gaze narrowing suspiciously. "Cause if you knew Eddie at all, if you knew what he was doing for a living, you'd know why this is such a fucken mess."
He got up, pushing Ezekiel aside and paced back and forth, mumbling to himself. Finally, he stopped in front of Ezekiel, facing him with hands on his hips.
"Tell me the last time you saw him."
"The last time I saw Eddie, he was laying a smear down on a Councilman's tongue."
Julio shrugged. "That could be anyone in a spitters'den, or outside of it for that matter. Proves nothing."
"The Councilman in question was dressed as a Renaissance executioner."
Julio's face lit up. "Prusser," he said. "Has to be. And what of Councilman Prusser's companion at the time?" The boy's brows lifted inquisitively. Meaningfully.
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