by Alan Judd
Nigel’s friend Valerie Hubbard, the junior security minister, delivered an elaborate and meandering oration. Hymns were sung, the clergyman led prayers and Nigel’s brother – of whom Charles had never heard – read the first eighteen verses of John’s Gospel. Sarah did not participate.
Charles kept to the back as they filed out, at the cost of having to talk to Jeremy Wheeler. There was a queue to shake Sarah’s hand.
‘Tragic, absolutely tragic,’ said Jeremy, adopting a stage-whisper undertone. ‘Very personal for all of us. Real cat-fight over the succession now. The smart money’s on Morley, the outsider, the thinking general. Surprised you’re here.’
‘Why?’
‘You were an Abrahams man. Suppose you went to his, too? I was busy, unfortunately. But you knew Nigel at Oxford, of course. Poor Sarah, she’s taken it very well, very dignified. You were rivals over her, weren’t you, you and Nigel? He pinched her off you or something?’
‘It was more complicated than that.’
Jeremy grinned and lowered his voice further, which somehow made it louder. ‘Now I see why you’re here. Don’t blame you. Attractive woman still.’
In fact, Charles had kept to the back precisely to avoid meeting her. He didn’t want to force her to smile, shake hands, make conversation. He had thought constantly over the past three weeks about how he had affected her life, and could see nothing good. Everything bad that had happened to her – except perhaps for her inability to have more children, though possibly even that, somehow – had been as a result of knowing him. He kept returning to the remark she had once made about his lack of joy, which still hurt and puzzled him. Perhaps she was right, if not quite accurate, mistaking it for the baleful consequences of knowing him.
The wake was at the Studley Priory hotel, where he had taken Sarah on their first date. Jeremy said he would go, to see who was there. There was talk of a memorial service in London. ‘Should be settled by then, the succession. I’ve decided not to allow my name to go forward, by the way.’
‘Why?’
‘D’you think I should?’
The idea was preposterous. But perhaps no more so than Nigel’s brief tenure. ‘Most definitely.’
Jeremy’s round face filled with emotion. ‘Thank you for your endorsement, Charles. I wasn’t going to say anything but if you really think I should—’
‘I do.’
He solemnly shook Charles’s hand, then looked over his shoulder. ‘There’s Morley. Better go and make my number with him. See how the land lies.’
Jeremy’s eager departure enabled Charles to slip away from the queue before Sarah. Outside in the car park mourners for the next funeral were arriving. Many of Nigel’s had already gone. Charles walked about for a while, reluctant to drive straight home but equally reluctant to do anything else. He didn’t want to go to the wake and be sociable and force himself upon Sarah, yet he felt the need to mark the occasion, not simply to leave it. If Sonia had been there he would have talked to her. He hoped there would always be Sonia to talk to.
He noticed Nigel’s official Jaguar and saw Sarah now walking slowly towards it, talking to Roger, the driver. Decent of the SIA, he thought, to chauffeur her on the last day of her semi-official life. He had no idea what a wholly private, single existence would hold for her, where she would live, how good her friends were, whether her work was something she could throw herself into. Whatever her future, there was no room for him in it. He could hardly complain.
He was parked not far from the Jaguar, so he stepped through a gap in the hedge into another section of the car park and walked three times around that to give her time to get away. They had spoken only twice since Nigel’s death, the first time when he rang to see if there was anything he could do. She thanked him but said no, the arrangements seemed to be proceeding normally, there would be an inquest of course but the office was being helpful with the official side of things, it was kind of him to ask. A couple of days later she rang and left a message saying she had told no-one about what she called ‘Nigel’s scene in the house’ and hoped he hadn’t either. He left a message saying he hadn’t and wouldn’t and again offered help, but heard no more.
The sounds of departing cars faded. He stepped back through the gap in the hedge. The Jaguar and the remaining mourners were gone, but standing by the Bristol was Sarah. She had her back to him and was looking the other way across the car park. For the first time in his life Charles felt something approaching an epiphany. It was some seconds before he spoke.
Author’s Note
The Single Intelligence Agency, the combined intelligence service described in this book, is an imagined institution. Neither it nor the fictional characters portrayed are intended in any way to represent the three separate British intelligence services. In particular, the invented character, Nigel Measures, has no connection whatever with any head of any British intelligence agency, past or present.
The story of Measures’s espionage on behalf of the French is, however, based on what is reportedly a real case. On pages 118–119 of his book, Friendly Spies (Atlantic Monthly Press, 1993, ISBN 0–87113–497–7), Peter Schweizer quotes a retired French intelligence official as describing how a ‘junior aide’ on the British Foreign Office European Community negotiating team spied for the French between about September 1985 and the June 1987 EC Brussels summit. During this period, which included the Single Market negotiations, the official allegedly passed ‘invaluable’ intelligence to the French on the British negotiating positions. He also, like Measures in this book, reportedly had his photograph secretly taken with the EC president, Jacques Delors.
I have no idea how true this story is or what happened to the alleged spy – whether he was discovered, whether he is still serving or whether he lives in honourable or dishonourable retirement – but I can say that Measures and what he does in this book bears no relation to any official whom I have known or heard of.