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by Allison Adelle Hedge Coke


  My blood-veined rivers, painted pipestone quarries

  circled canyons, while she made herself maiden fine.

  But here I am, here I am, here I remain high on each and every peak,

  carefully rumbling her great underbelly, prepared to pour forth singing—

  and sing again I will, as I have always done.

  Never silenced unless in the company of strangers, singing

  the stoic face, polite repose, polite while dancing deep inside, polite

  Mother of her world. Sister of myself.

  When my song sings aloud again. When I call her back to cradle.

  Call her to peer into waters, to behold herself in dark and light,

  day and night, call her to sing along, call her to mature, to envision—

  then, she will quake herself over. My song will make it so.

  When she grows far past her self-considered purpose,

  I will sing her back, sing her back. I will sing. Oh I will—I do.

  America, I sing back. Sing back what sung you in.

  IV

  WHERE IT ENDS

  for the Marfans

  THE LAST HOUSE CREELEY LEFT

  for Ben Lerner and Joseph Lease

  Days all was away

  and the clouds were far off

  and the sky was heaven itself,

  one wanted to stay.

  —FROM “ABSENCE” BY ROBERT CREELEY, ON EARTH

  Surrounded in

  Spring wide windows leveling

  horizons, hardwood floors buff

  polished, neatly, every angle

  cared for, carefully crafted

  for a poet to breathe free.

  Can the window wear

  faces, horizons, lines once

  balanced here in temporal

  sway, swing out over greater

  fields, open, in the open wide

  as Texas sky, hovering Marfa

  lights? Has he quickened here?

  This same bed, same sleep

  same chairs, table, bench,

  same walls, ceiling, doors,

  same windows pull poetry from

  deeper place, recessive lean

  in the backbelly rumble, crawling

  pit, chest, lungs, breath, crawling breath,

  spine, shoulders, arms, fingertips to type,

  pen, produce some fruited sand plum poetry in

  the last house Creeley left.

  REDUCTION

  All we did was pray for rain

  to put the damn thing out.

  Couldn’t stand the burning

  reminding us of the maybe few

  thousand in there smoldering.

  Or the thousands burned back

  Sullivan-Clinton days, dams

  lodged, released, anyone left

  alive set to flame the next morning.

  Damn the blazing.

  BREATHING

  For weeks we inhaled the dead

  scent the same, financier or footman,

  and like moths all rested on sills,

  searched for light.

  BURN

  Cattle carcass still steaming,

  roadside each way black,

  all we can hope is no human’s-gone-pugilistic attitude

  shrink-posing for fight when air

  drains from muscles

  through pores evaporating mist in the heat of it

  the burnside tangling flesh/ash

  through whirlwinds

  black plumes, threading time disappearing into dark energy

  encapsulating West Texas Border Patrol,

  game wardens, smokejumpers’

  interior exit, camouflaged, must outfox the hustle of fire, bustle

  whole depletion into retreat, flee, surrender. Surrender.

  Hot metal searing Dad’s eye,

  soldering pipe flash

  into sclera surrounding insight.

  He called to me for water.

  I could walk then, but was too

  young to explain.

  Knew the serious nature of it,

  how to draw water to heal.

  Knew how to handle,

  when passing consumed cattle steaming

  their bodies still bearing passing life, still bearing full weight

  near normal, flash-burned when

  they could not escape

  tumultuous wind-driven flame. Black clouds on scorched earth

  managing weather, amassing AEP

  restoration process in the lean

  charred leg, delineating linear directions, compass needles,

  articulating line of duty death,

  Goins gone, his land still smoking.

  The East St. Louis child calling,

  “Let me out. Let me out!”

  as his grandmother’s home buckled inward

  too far-gone.

  Twice prior, two cousins, sisters lost

  in fires years before burn

  strangling through the family, bit by bit. As if Missouri tornados

  weren’t wet enough, the fires fueled there, still hardy, taking.

  Up river, season error snowmelt maddening levees, taking

  houses in laps

  long overgrown, smacking them into tinder

  somewhere heated, but now there is the quickened confluence

  beating away anything substantial

  to vehicle flow, with amorous

  waves rolling wide, gyrating revolve, pushing, turning twist

  into

  back into blaze, the only water deep

  and drifting, not enough hoses

  or people to put this out, now another’s popped up, maybe more.

  By the sixth, caution translates to which way the wind blows, by

  eleventh, homes are temporary, expendable,

  nothing matches life.

  Massive range-riddling smolder. Tufts turn upward, rise on sweeps.

  Glowing bluffs distant horizon, closer

  burn backs off befuddled

  men, women, wishing for work in a heated ten-mile open wide

  volcano mouth, held open since seas

  slid down, lava formed high

  not two hundred miles from Carlsbad where evacuations loom,

  bats scatter, all wide deep of it,

  catacombed, put it out north too,

  under Los Alamos crazed nuclear weaponry, plutonium storage

  experiments hauled over something

  byway Santa Fe, city

  current remnant flagged in trade cloth waving red, yellow flames

  on downtown wheeled armadas, honking,

  “L-e-t u-s o-u-t!” while winds

  wind themselves into imperiled charts, pictographs, cartography cut

  loose from Bandolier-sashed mountains,

  the pockets pushed out

  into ashes all around. Now, here, javelinas

  hurl themselves under

  roadside culverts, taking lower pathways from fiery sear.

  Remember back on Ridge, fires? Crystal called her sister, Faith said,

  “The house is gone, all of it.”

  Sarah standing on top, a black & white in her right palm, her hair

  in her left, all of it smoldering.

  Where’s the cat? My own brother

  burning new construction insulation, for the thrill of it; at eight, “Pyromania,”

  they said, but never mentioned when he self-immolated at eleven,

  no, never gave him that, just coughed

  away memory of our sister

  pouring alcohol on the hard tile, spelling out,

  “Die Die Die” to

  shock us coming home. Kids’ stuff.

  Or, construction workers stubbing

  cigarettes into dry grass behind our place,

  how we burned our rubber

  soles stamping while they laughed at us, Mom and Dad burned

  their palms putting it out, ashed, or her hair shocked that way, white.


  Glass bottle fire, smokes up crossroads, no

  no fiddles found their bow

  play on strings popping alongside road tar

  heels, hollowed ditches full

  Russian thistles’ bitter scorch, flying out

  skeletal-like, running.

  Insides turning out, twisting up like lead turns turning. Rising

  mantle vapor smoking sunset, rise,

  all through night, all through

  cooked fields, calves scrambled on, too fast, too fast, the burn. Burn.

  We’re still missing one hundred twenty-five head

  from Rock House Fire.

  Seventy-four from the leased Poor Farm land. Neighbors keep

  a lookout, nothing. Black Angus, aoudad, pronghorns torched up

  like marshmallow roasts, giving tongue

  lapped licks on lips curled

  quick in heat. Twenty-nine special rangers seek the rest, any loose

  herds made clean of it. Rustlers, must be.

  No vultures vortexed

  sight overhead, no buzzards’ contours, no, only smoke belies.

  Downtown, some fliers offer reward next to a ma and pop chiding

  their eldest over dropping lit butt into pathways.

  No room for

  accidents in No Country for Old Men. No room for it where Woody

  wore belts decked out by Graybeal, by

  Moonlight’s best gemstone,

  Marfa agate. Too bad the shots didn’t display

  the cut of them. Real

  beauties over sterling silver plate. Now heat plates on low-profile sports

  cars tinder prairie grass ignition, cactus wrath. Anything’s

  at risk; everything’s to blame.

  Flames follow wind the way

  water follows wave, over seabed

  ground pummeled high, mile

  high elevation, sure as Denver, but desert scene. Chihuahuan

  and Sonoran, now both carry largest wildfires in colonial

  history, both heated harder, spreading

  further, than pictured

  in recent times. Everything from Tucson through Texas a rage.

  Ladybird’s roadside flowers billow dust, chocolate

  flowers still scenting straight paths familiar.

  It’s the fury fell

  here. Fuming every angle, hopping asphalt,

  by the time Gage

  Holland breaks from roadside rest area, Hwy 90 is shut down clean

  to Marfa, no one there holds much hope,

  Rock House said

  to be still smoldering. It’s all without mercy, without peace.

  Dreams come easily branded, but no iron rod season’s

  coming this round. Come easily into

  infused chicken games,

  forearms stubbed, spoons cooked in dosage blues, shooting

  burns, shoot-up euphoria, hero flying

  through blistered skies,

  they called it horse at import, now horses shot, nine of them.

  Nerves so frayed teakettle copper melts blue,

  then white, ash

  covered the electric burner on stove range, while the range

  outside roared, spat sideways onto

  roofs, roads, ranches.

  Population too sparse here for national concern, no, though

  public radio does spare lives nearby, maybe

  our own, measly thrill

  a bitter bitter thing in coverage accolades, but dammit they do

  deserve attention, we depend on them.

  Give them glory, we’ll

  share in it, same face, Border Patrol/Walk In, all phoenix rise,

  nothing sheared shares grace,

  black peel crusts everything,

  surviving’s the only reason. Look at it, gone. No fire climax

  pines here to justify so much loss,

  rebirth here, a fought thing.

  Mr. Spanish buried ceremonially in shoebox, under glory, flagpoled,

  each niña entered escuela.

  It’s rough country. Aftermath don’t add up.

  Logic’s subjective.

  That’s life out here, not much gussy ghost propositions. Trains

  all that ever run on time, rest of the clockwork’s when it need

  be business. Rain’s only thing missing.

  When it teases,

  lightning sparks whatever’s left, six sparks spread within an evening.

  By morning smoke’s on the plate again.

  Coexistence only calm.

  We expect plunther, plunther along the world’s edge, horizon.

  One day a rim fire burns so great its whirl will create weather,

  pattern vortices tilt horizontal to vertical, hurling

  branch, limb, whatever fills to vorticity. Scorched pathways leaving earth.

  All roads travel onward, until they end.

  Everything ends in time.

  Everything temporary. An eternal fire holds itself, only in heat,

  fuel, oxygen, triangulate combustion,

  tetrahedral support planes

  existence, life spark, yet fire has been carried, cultivated, cured

  since first fire. It’s log bundle, hollowed, fed.

  He fed the first from his pickup on I-44. Tossed the news out his window,

  flaming until half of Luther

  left Oklahoma in fury so hot, all it left was white ash, the whole of it

  under skies dark with night

  shining proof of other worlds. Orion holding up east. The gleam of it maddening.

  Stars surely shine. Sun’s running sky each morning.

  Sirius still rounds night except

  for seventy days or so.

  Always will. Stardust precedes Earth.

  Dust here kicks up heavy, towered seventy feet high

  in Lubbock years back.

  High in Arizona now, where

  Wallow breaks records like gangbusters.

  Mainstreamers

  picking up haboob as if comprehension made it new.

  Predate dust. You can’t. Dust has been and rises when-

  ever wind wills.

  Gusts a given out here.

  Where a heat plate scrapes grass like armadillo shell

  tears into straw with friction, sparks it,

  whole thing burns

  bright, spreads for miles in short order. Spreads for miles.

  People unable to move through it, leave everything they love, hope

  until return, then weep. Like the mother

  whose kids shared our

  school. One tied to the couch and burned alive after Demerol

  downed him there. Bad deal.

  Bad deal all over. Drug wars

  never won. Border blasting happening here.

  Bad deal all over.

  SBI burned down the shooting gallery back when. Now

  ’tis anyone’s game, gamble,

  crap shoot, loosing lives like

  spit on clay, baked hard, broken.

  What’s the seed of it? Crack?

  Char rounds out horizon now,

  used to be shadows. Tall

  men in saddles shifting through, now shadow men unsaddled

  blow away in wind on giant flat.

  Secrets untold shudder

  what should be proper, what should be here, gone. Gone.

  Char brings looseness, holds memory intangible, blackened

  earth, its own beauty, not hollow

  but kept there. In

  evening, vultures scan space, seeking remnant, passing cranes feast

  on roasted grasshoppers, crickets, larva.

  In morning, phoenix

  rises through community sight, open to opportunity, lamenting.

  We come here hoping for more,

 

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