by Forever Redd
“And you…what do you want?” I asked.
“Ha. What do I want? I want what every woman should want. I want a dude that’s gone know when to feel me and know when to fuck me. I want stability. Stability in life, not just financial. Someone that feels my pain, because it’s his own. I want him to know my voice because he listens when I speak. Talk to me, not at me. I want someone that’s going to know the beat of my heart, because it too is his own. I want him by my side all the time, not because I want him there, but because he wants to be there.” Karley paused to wipe the tear that had fallen from her eye. “When he looks at me, I wanna see the love in his eyes. Not a love that only I can see, but a love that the world sees.”
“Can I be him? I wanna be that guy, Bae. Am I him?”
“I don’t know yet.”
“What?” I was shocked.
“If you had to ask, clearly, you don’t know yet either. Did you want some of these cookies?”
“Nah, go head, I’m straight.”
Karley gathered her cookie bag and turned on the TV. I didn’t want to read too far into what she was saying because she did make a valid point. If I was asking, maybe I didn’t know. I pretended to watch whatever this bullshit was on Lifetime while Karley ate her cookies.
6
Victoria
The extremely hot shower was what my body needed. I took the time to reflect on my life, this thing they call the present, but was far from a gift. I just had twins, and that alone was difficult to fathom. Then there was my marriage, the death of my mother-in-law, and to top it all off, my husband is a whore. All of this happened in the short span of four months, and the present was supposed to be a gift? Couldn’t say I wanted it anymore. I just lived damn near a lifetime in only a few months. Was I to stay, should I go? My mind was all over the place. When Jody came with his shit about walking into our future, it sounded great, but I stepped into our future the day he proposed.
I hurried the process of getting clean, and getting out, which proved to be a difficult task after the eight stitches that Ms. Kitty had received. The twins came into the world tearing shit up. I could only hope that wasn’t an indication of how they are going to live their lives. A pain in my ass. Once my shower was complete, I threw on my night clothes and prepared to chill.
I was rounding the corner to the living room to tell Jody that I was going to take him up on his offer and go lay down for a few, but then I heard his voice. He was on the phone, and since I had no idea with whom, I decided to listen.
“Yea, Sincere Monroe and Serenity Monae,” Jody spoke into the receiver. “Victoria handled it like a champ. Nah, she in the shower right now…I know that’s right…Everythang is everything.”
I continued to listen to the one-sided conversation, even though I had concluded there was nothing to be heard, because he was sitting there talking about me. I was going to hate living like this. Everything was going to be suspect. I would be checking everything from text messages to voice messages, email to snail mail, and there I was, eavesdropping.
“Aaawww man, already?” Jody questioned the person on the other end. “Ok, let me talk to her and see what I can make happen. No promises though, okay?”
Jody ended the call, and I walked from my spot in the hallway like I wasn’t just listening to his conversation.
“Hey Babe,” I stated in a cheerful tone. “Who was that on the phone?”
“That, on the phone?” Jody asked. “The babies are full, and sleep. Oh, I put the blankets and stuff in the dryer already, okay? You was in there forever, girl.”
What the hell, I thought. Who asked him all that? Is it that hard to say who was on the phone?
I decided to ask again for good measure, “Who was that on the phone?” Instead of answering the question, he was still changing the subject.
“Come eat with me.” Jody took my hand and led me to the dinner table. I took my seat, and prepared myself to partake of the bullshit Jody was going to feed me along with dinner. I just hoped I could stomach it all.
Jody prepared our plates and brought them to the table, placing mine in front of me, and then took his seat. He reached across the table and took my hand in his, “Let’s say grace.”
What the fuck? The only time I have heard anything remotely close to grace coming from his lips was when he mumbled, “Thank you,” right before devouring my pussy.
I bowed my head slightly, enough to pay respect to the Lord and still see the devil as he sat across from me.
“Lord, thank you for the food we are about to receive for the nourishment of our bodies. Bless the hands that prepared this meal that we are about to consume. These and your continued blessings we ask in your son Jesus’ name, Amen.”
I lifted my head, and opened my eyes fully. “Amen,” I stated, while thinking of the twenty third Psalms. He prepareth a table before me, in the presence of mine enemies.
“Ok, Ma, I wanna rap wit you ‘bout sumn,” Jody began.
If it wasn’t about who was on the phone, he could miss me with his bullshit.
“Great, because I need to do the same. By all means, go ahead,” I responded.
“The phone call. That was the company, time to make the doughnuts, baby girl. I gotta go back to work.” Jody waited for my reaction to the news.
Of course there was a time when seeing him off crushed me, but now, not so much. “Oh, is that all? Jody, I knew you had a job that requires travel when we got together, and I knew you wouldn’t be able to stay off long. I had the babies, you didn’t, so go back. Somebody’s gotta feed us. How long will you be gone?” I asked.
“Well, I was offered a North Carolina load that will last about a week, nine days tops, but there is also a slot to ride to Arizona. If I take that, we lookin’ at ‘bout twenty days, maybe even a month. I told you I was gon’ be here for you, so I need to know, what can you handle? If you want, I can stay here a lil longer while you get yo strength up. We ok wit money, Ma. We could be better, but I don’t hafta leave right now. What you want me to do?”
“Do you have dates yet?”
“They talkin’ bout pullin’ me out next week.”
“Ok, next week is fine. I thought you were talking about leaving tomorrow since you were acting all crazy, like you couldn’t tell me who was on the phone.”
Jody chuckled, showing off that damn glistening grill that made me moist every time I saw it. “No Ma, I ain’t know how you would take the news, so I was tryna break it to you gently. Oh, you said you had something you wanted to discuss. What’s up? Talk to me.”
I am not sure why, but I lost all nerve. I wanted to say so much, but I didn’t know how. I just wanted to have my old Jody back and not feel like I had done something wrong, or I wasn’t good enough.
“Oh, I just wanted to say thank you for my few minutes of peace. I needed that so much, and I thank you.”
“You welcome, Ma, but that ain’t nuttin to be thankin’ me for. Anytime I am here, I’ma be takin’ care of the kids and you, just watch. Now, let’s eat. You know Karley can break her foot off in some roast.”
“Yea, Karley can hook up a mean roast. I can’t wait to sink my teeth into some real food. That hospital food wasn’t hittin’ on shit.
“You talked to Karley?”
“No, I was going to call her tomorrow. Why?”
“No reason, just makin’ small talk. Don’t forget to call her, ‘cause if you do, you know we gon’ hear about it later.” Jody smiled and continued to fill his face. “Look who’s up,” Jody said and got up from the table. “They both up, Ma, look! I haven’t seen that before.
Jody carefully handed me a wiggling Sincere. I nestled my baby close to my chest and inhaled his new baby scent, he smelled so good. Jody, on the other hand, didn’t appear to feel the same about Serenity.
“Aye Ma, I think she shitted, you want her?”
“No, I don’t, Daddy. You said you was going to do all this, that, and the other, so handle it. Go change that baby’s butt i
nstead of leaving her to sit in it.”
“Go wit me, Ma. She a girl and shit, I’ono what to do to get her clean down there, please?”
I followed his old pitiful ass to the nursery so I could change Sincere, too.
“Ya know, there is more to this daddy stuff, Jody. They aren’t toys, they have to be fed, bathed, and cared for. These babies depend solely on us. Now watch and learn, because next time, it’s on you.”
I walked Jody through the process of cleaning and changing a little girl, and he looked like he would rather die than to go through that again.
“Look Vic, Sincere already sleep. Do they ever stay awake long enough so we can play wit ‘em?” he asked.
“Considering they just got here, no, they won’t be awake long enough to play with, and play what? You will have plenty time to play with them when they get a little older. Right now, all they do is eat, sleep, and shit. Since they both sleep, I am going to go and get their beds fixed up so they can sleep in there, and not in those seats. Jody, our bed is off limits, you got that? Don’t get lazy and be bringing them in there because you too tired to sit out here or in their room and feed them, either.”
Jody nodded as I gave him instructions for later. “Naw Ma, ain’t no need for them to be in there with us, I got it.”
“Good, don’t forget it.”
************
Jody
I channel surfed with one hand resting on my dick and the remote in the other. Every so often, I would give it a snug squeeze to tame the beast that was building. We hadn’t had sex in a while due to pregnancy and discomfort. She said with all of the babies’ weight resting on her pelvis and the added huge belly, it just hurt. She knew I was a very sexual person and that was what I enjoyed about her. My wife had that wet-wet and I damn sho needed some of it. The extra weight was sexy as hell. She had big titties to begin with, but the kids worked some magic on ‘em. Damn, my dick was hard. In house pussy and can’t even fuck it, but she wondered why I did the shit I did. Don’t she know I’ma man, and as a man, I have needs?
What kinda man are you? Sneakin’ ‘round like you got a job and shit. If you was a real man, you would tell her ass where you really goin’.
What the fuck? There was the voice again. I looked around the room and didn’t see anybody, but it seemed like that voice was popping up more and more. I had to get away from the voice, so I went to join Victoria in the nursery. For what I knew, she was in there on the phone wit a nigga, or snooping ‘round lookin’ for some shit.
“What you in here doin’ Mrs. White?” I asked, startling her from her daze.
“Just taking it all in, ya know?”
“Yea, it’s a lot. You been through a lot these last few months and I know I wasn’t makin’ it easy on you either.”
“No, can’t say that you did. I mean ya know, while I was having your children, you were out having your fun, and you been havin’ it for who knows how long. So no, Jody, you really didn’t make things easy for me.”
“Now see, there you go. I said I know I fucked up and I said I was wrong. What you not gon’ do is hold this shit over my head forever. If you wanna go, I understand. But if you wanna make this shit right, we can. But dwelling on this shit and living like strangers, that ain’t even an option.”
“You got a lot of nerve, Jody. How you gon’ sit up here and think just because you say I’m sorry, everything is okay. It’s not okay, Jody,” I screamed.
“Come here,” I held my arms out to my emotional wife.
“No.”
“Come on, come on, you know you want to. Let me hold you, Future.”
Victoria loved when I called her that. She was so determined to have her life the way she wanted it that any mention of the future got to her. I knew how to push her buttons, but I also knew how to pull her strings. She came to me, just as I knew she would.
“I love you and I’m sorry. You gon’ always be my future. Promise me that.”
“I promise.”
7
Victoria
Jody and I made it through the week before it was time for him to go, and I was finally able to talk to Karley before he left. We agreed he would take the Arizona trip, the money would be great and we could definitely use it. I had called Karley earlier that day to let her know she had been sorely missed and I needed my sister back in my life, like now. Lucky for me she was very understanding and didn’t hold it against me for taking so long to call. Turned out, she had been on an emotional roller coaster herself, but she said we would discuss that face to face. I hoped she and Leon were ok, they were just the cutest couple to me and they got along great. I couldn’t wait to see her, even though I knew the trip wasn’t about me. It was about the twins, but I was happy nonetheless. I told her about Jody leaving, and as soon as I took him to get his truck, she could come over and give me the four-one-one.
Karley, being the overprotective person she was and the voice of reason, insisted that she drop him off since I hadn’t been home very long. She was such a savior. I didn’t feel like packing up the twins and driving ‘round town anyway. Since she had my back, I decided to straighten up the house a bit and prepare some lunch for our overdue visit.
Jody was in the shower when I walked into the room to tell him the slight change in plans. Karley would be taking him to get his truck. I heard the water turn off in the bathroom. Shortly thereafter, Jody emerged with a towel wrapped around his waist. Just the sight of him made me feel like I was in that Axe Chocolate cologne commercial. I wanted to bite some of that chocolate and my mouth began to water.
“Come sit down for a second, Baby. I need to talk to you,” I said.
He took a seat on the bed and grabbed his lotion off of the nightstand. I took the lotion from his damp hands and poured the masculine scented cream into mine. I began to massage his shoulders, then his arms, one by one. I had to touch him. I wanted to feel him, inside and out.
“I’m gonna miss you, Daddy…so much,” I whispered in his ear while caressing his every muscle. I moved to his chest, then his belly, and finally his back. Jody moaned louder and louder every time I touched another body part. When I made my way back to face him, I noticed his eyes were closed, and his dick had found its way out of the opening of the towel. I kneeled in front of him and applied lotion to his thighs, calves, and feet. I carefully maneuvered my fingers between each one of his toes, and every so often, I noticed the twitch in Jody’s dick. I opened the towel to expose all of him. To me, he was the sexiest thing in the world, and I wanted him so bad. I just wanted to taste him.
I ran my tongue all around the head of Jody’s dick. He tasted so sweet, and so sinful, death by chocolate. Inch by inch, I took him into my mouth, making sure to lock my jaws as he filled my oral cavity to capacity. When my nose was in his belly button, and his balls on my chin, I rolled my tongue around his shaft, and eased my head back to slide him out my mouth. Once I reached his massive head, I applied a little pressure and flicked my tongue back and forth over that tiny hole that allowed life to flow from his body. Jody was gripping the sheets and his toes were balled up so tight that his feet looked like big fists. I was the farthest thing from a super freak, but my head game was nothing shy of the truth, and judging by Jody’s reaction, he certainly confirmed my thoughts.
A small drop of precum was released on the tip of my tongue and that was the encouragement I needed to split his wig. I lowered my face to his balls and they seemed as though they weighed a ton. I placed one in my mouth and issued a severe tongue lashing and spit bath. I did the same to the other, and then them both together. I hummed loud enough for my vocal chords to vibrate against the family jewels.
“Damn, Ma, please don’t stop,” Jody said as he grabbed two fistfuls of my hair and reclined back onto the bed.
“You like that, Daddy?” I questioned. I knew the answer, but I wanted to hear him say it.
“Yes, Ma, oh my God, yes…I like it.
“Is this my dick?” I asked while blowing
slightly on his manhood.
“It’s yours, Baby, dis yo dick.”
I opened my mouth, relaxed my tonsils, and quickly took all of him in. Back and forth, forth and back, I was bobbing on the dick. I beat his meat using nothing more than my mouth.
“Please, Ma, five minutes, just give me five minutes,” Jody begged.
“Five minutes for what? Some pussy? Nope, but when you get back, if you’re a good boy while you’re away, I promise to give you more than five minutes,” I said before placing him back in my mouth for another taste. “You can live in this pussy, Baby, it’s yours.” I meant that, despite all that he had done. My pussy belonged to my husband and I spent every waking moment showing him that, at least I thought I did.
With Jody’s dick dripping wet from all the spit I had left behind, I interlocked my fingers and wrapped my hands around his shaft. I slid them up and down his dick and my mouth went to work on the head. I was only sucking and licking, but all of the dick got touched. Jody was on the brink of climax and he was teeter tottering between shock and bliss. I removed his dick from the seclusion of my mouth, whispered to his head, “Cum for me, Daddy.”
A few more throat shots and all his tension, frustrations, and millions of babies were released down my throat. He had my hair in a vice like grip so I couldn’t do anything but allow his juices to violate my esophagus. I wanted to choke and die. But make no mistakes, I’d rather those babies be in my throat than in my uterus any day.
Jody sat up, looked down at my cum stained mouth, and licked his lips.
“Ya know, Ma, I could be real careful,” he said while removing an unruly strand of hair from my face. “Just let me slide the head in.”
Yea, ok, just the head, I been knowing that old trick, I thought.
“Jody, we not gone even go there. You know like I know how that works. It’s gon’ be longer than five minutes, and it isn’t going to be just the head.”
Jody looked down at the big rod between his thighs that was threatening to poke me in the eye. “Ma, you know I can cum getting head, but my dick won’t go down til I get up in sumn.”