by Dion Fortune
“There is no translation, nor ever will be.”
“Why ever not?”
“The British public wouldn't stand for it.”
“Is it as French as all that?”
“No.”
“I'm afraid you're beyond me. Have you got anything else in English along the same lines?”
“There is nothing written.”
“Nothing written that you know of, I suppose you mean?”
“There is nothing written.”
“Oh well, I suppose you know. Here is your twopence.”
“Thanks. Good-night.”
“Good-night.”
Paston found himself outside in the dark, a light rain falling. He had no intention of going back to his own house that night, and as the light rain promised to be the forerunner of a series of squalls he cast about in his mind for the nearest hotel that would suit his mood of the moment. For on leaving the bookshop behind his previous mood had returned; memories had risen again like ghosts in the gathering dusk, and he wished urgently to get back among bright lights and other people. But not his friends. The last thing he wanted was his friends. He did not want people to talk to him. -He just wanted to see them moving about him in bright light.
There did not seem much hope of a taxi in that down at heel district, but it was apparently a short cut to a good many places, and at that moment a taxi turned into it. Paston signalled, and it drew in to the kerb.
He gave the driver the address of one of the big railway hotels, and got in. The cab swung round and bore him away into the width and straightness and brightness of a main road, and he heaved a sigh of relief.
Presently they arrived at the huge facade of the designated hotel, and he went into the lounge and ordered a whisky and soda, and lighting a cigarette, settled down to his book; the whisky and soda had soothed him temporarily, and his nerves were less on edge for the moment. He read rapidly, following the twists and turns of detectives and corpses with impatience. He was not reading for the story. He was reading for information. Information about the opal and its prisoner. Information about the Black Mass that had so caught his fancy and intrigued him.
He gathered from this hasty perusal that the Black Mass was a somewhat messy affair; that a renegade priest was necessary for its performance; also a lady of at least easy manners. He did not discover exactly what was done; nor for what purpose people went to all this trouble. The ceremony in itself did not particularly interest him; not being a believer, he was not especially scandalised; it was no more to him than a Parisian music-hall. The psychology of it escaped him.
The thing in which he was really interested, the thing for which he had bought the book—was its title, ‘The Prisoner in the Opal’; the hint of escape—a glimpse of fire from the heart of the stone—the gates of life ajar—.
For he had come to his journey's end before the number of his days was fulfilled. Life had proved a blind alley, and unless a door opened before him there was nothing to do but fall over the precipice that is at the world's end. The symbolism of the fire flashing from the heart of the stone with its luminous opacity had fascinated him, but it was not elucidated in the course of the book, so far as he could see. The writer had had a glimpse, but had lost sight of it again. The idea of the Black Mass had intrigued him, but he had not followed up the trail. Now he, Hugh Paston, given that trail, would have pursued it; and the idea occurred to him, Why shouldn't he pursue it? He had nothing to lose, no one to consider. If he threw his life away, that was his look-out. As for his soul, he knew nothing about it and cared less. Fortune had returned him his hostages and he was a free man.
He was intrigued by the idea of following up the clue that the author of ‘The Prisoner in the Opal’ had dangled for an instant before the eyes of his readers and then snatched away again. He remembered the words of the second-hand bookseller, that there were no other books on the Black Mass in English, but one in French-very French French, Hugh Paston had gathered. He glanced at his watch. It was shortly after nine. Why not go round, and if there were a light showing in the shop, knock the fellow up, stand him a drink, and try and get him to talk? He had more than a suspicion the man knew something about the subject of Black Masses, else why had he first spoken upon them with authority, and then shut up like a clam? Hugh Paston got his coat, sinned against the tailor by pushing the bulky novel into a pocket, and left the hotel.
CHAPTER II
THE night was clear at the moment, but scudding clouds across the face of the full moon promised more squalls. Hugh Paston turned up his coat collar and made his way through the sordid streets on foot. It seemed to him inappropriate to arrive in the narrow street in a taxi, creating a commotion and drawing attention to himself, and giving the visit an importance he did not wish it to possess. Moreover his head ached from the steam-heat of the hotel and his inner restlessness demanded an outlet.
The wet freshness of the gusty wind that he met at street corners was welcome; it cooled his face and gave him something to struggle with. The dark, too, was welcome after the glare and publicity of the hotel. Just as. earlier in the evening, he had longed for light and crowds, so now he welcomed darkness and solitude, his moods following one another in rapid succession. He felt himself to be capricious, unstable. mentally and physically feverish. At the moment he walked vigorously, full of pressing life that could find no aim or outlet. He didn't know what he wanted, and if he got it, wouldn't like it. He felt irritable. If anyone jostled him, he would get shoved and sworn at. He suspected that his feverish energy would be shortlived, and that in a few minutes it would turn to a dragging weight, as it had done so often before, when the one thing he would want would be to drop into a taxi and be taken home. And once home, he knew the restlessness would renew itself and he would be too weary to sleep.
This was the cycle he had been repeating for the last few days, and he had no reason to believe it had changed its track, save that as he got wearier the phases were shorter and more extreme and the changes more violent.
It came to him, in a moment of insight in the windy darkness, that the thing that had cracked him up was not the break-up of his marriage. That had been the occasion and not the cause. The trouble had been brewing for a considerable time. It amused him to realise that he who at one time had read psycho-analytical literature at the bidding of his wife in order that they might have something to talk about at dinner parties when such subjects were the vogue, was now getting a close-up of the disintegration of a personality.
Without knowing how he got there, he suddenly found himself outside the second-hand bookshop. Late as it was, it was all lit up just as he had left it. He laid his hand on the latch of the half-glass door. It yielded, and he entered, hearing its warning bell clang as he did so. He heard someone stirring in the inner room, the shabby serge curtain was thrust aside, and the bookseller appeared, blinking in the hard glare of the unshaded incandescence, and looking at him enquiringly.
For a moment Hugh Paston did not know what he had come for. His mind was slipping its cogs and it scared him. With a Herculean effort he pulled himself together and managed to say stumblingly: “You said you had another book—on the same subject—in French, I think it was—” and the situation was saved. At least he hoped it was. At any rate, the bookseller accepted him in a matter of fact manner as an ordinary customer. His face showed no surprise at the oddness of the demand or the lateness of the hour at which it was made. Had Hugh Paston had his wits about him, he would have known that the very absence of surprise indicated that he might just as well withdraw his head from the sand, as his tail-feathers were clearly visible. Though of course he had no means of knowing that shortly after his previous visit the vulturine bookseller had been out for his usual evening stroll after shutting-up time, and buying his usual evening paper, had found an illustration on the picture page in which the Press photographer had been lucky enough to catch one face clearly—the face of the chief mourner at a certain sensational funeral, and, starin
g at it, had murmured to himself: “Poor devil! So that was why he wanted something exciting, but couldn't be bothered to read a foreign language?”
The bookseller studied his visitor for a moment before replying.
“Ah, yes,” he said at length, “Huysmans' ‘Lá-Bas’ is the book you are referring to. I have it here. Your mention of it roused my interest in it, and I have been dipping into it again myself. I have also remembered that I was a little rash in saying there are no books in English on the subject of the Black Mass, no books worth having, that is. I do not call sheer sensationalism a book. There is nothing, so far as I know, strictly on the subject of the Black Mass, but one or two interesting books on cognate subjects. ‘The Devil's Mistress’, for instance; and' The Corn King and the Spring Queen.' Perhaps you would like to look at them. I have got them here, if you would be so good as to step this way.” He drew back the tattered curtain that hung in the doorless gap between the bookcases, and Paston followed him through into the inner room.
He had never been in the room behind a shop, and the experienced intrigued him. Half the world does not know how the other half lives, and he was about to have a glimpse of a side of life that had never been opened to him before. He hoped it would distract his mind.
He found himself in a smallish room, too lofty for its size. There was a gas-bracket, but it was not lit, such light as there was came from a green-shaded oil lamp that stood on a small table beside an ancient leather-covered arm-chair drawn up to the hearth. The lamp threw a small circle of gentle light onto the chair; the rest of the room was in a dim, warm gloom, for the fire in the old-fashioned grate was low.
Serge curtains trimmed with a gap-toothed ball fringe were drawn carelessly across a long French window on the wall opposite the doorway by which they had entered, and beside them was a half-open door through which the corner of a sink was visible. The walls were lined to the ceiling with the bookseller's stock-in-trade. Piles of dusty books filled the corners of the floor. A small kitchen table covered with a coarse blue and white checked table-cloth occupied the centre of the room, and was the only bit of furniture in the place that was not cumbered with books. A wooden chair drawn up beside it indicated that it was the dining-table. The absence of a second chair indicated single blessedness.
The fire-place under its white marble mantel-piece was a beautiful bit of wrought-ironwork with high hobs at either side, on one of which a black earthenware tea-pot stood warming, and on the other a heavy, willow-pattern plate. An exceedingly ancient and mangy grey goat-skin hearthrug and an exceptionally heavy set of fire-irons completed the equipment.
Upon the opposite side of the hearth to the armchair with the lamp at its elbow was a big, broken-springed, leather-covered sofa of the same breed as the chair, its seat full of books. The bookseller disposed of the books by sending them to the floor with one sweep of his hand.
“If you will be so good as to take a seat——” he said, indicating the broken springs. Hugh Paston sat down and found them much better than he had anticipated, discovering, to his surprise, that a sofa of this breed, even if broken-springed, was a very much better thing to sit on than the chairs in his own house. He sank back into its roomy depths and relaxed.
“I am afraid I am keeping you from your supper,” he said.
“Not at all,” said the bookseller, “I haven't begun to cook it yet. I have only made the tea. Might I—er—offer you a cup, if you would honour me? It seems a pity to let it stew and be wasted.”
Hugh Paston accepted, not wishing to hurt his feelings. Tea was not one of his beverages at the best of times, and this was not the best of times with him. His mind turned in the direction of old brandy, and he wondered whether it would be after hours when he got back to the hotel, and felt pretty certain that it would.
The bookseller produced two large white cups with narrow gold lines round them and an odd little gold flower at the bottom of each. Hugh remembered having seen similar ones in the potting-shed of his boyhood's home. He believed they were used for measuring out weed-killer and insecticides. At any rate, no human being drank out of them. Into these roomy receptacles went some milk from a bottle. Soft sugar was shovelled in with what looked like a lead spoon, and then a stream of rich mahogany fluid was applied from the broken spout of the black tea-pot.
“This—” said the bookseller, handing him a cup, “is a man's drink.”
Hugh Paston was rather startled to hear such an epithet applied to a cup of tea, but as soon as he sampled it he knew it to be justified. It was hot. It was strong. It was rich in tannin. And altogether it had as much kick as a cocktail and bore not the remotest likeness to tea as it was understood in his wife's drawing-room.
“By Jove,” he said, “that's good stuff. I think you've saved my life.”
“Have another cup?”
“I will.”
Another cup was dispensed and drunk in a companionable silence: Hugh Paston in his tail-coat on one side of the hearth, and the old vulture in his dusty dressing-gown on the other. Hugh had a sudden flash of realisation that with this man one would not touch surfaces, as in Mayfair. If one touched him at all, one would touch the real man. And he felt that in some curious way he had touched him; and to that human touch something in him suddenly clung desperately, like a child.
The old man had eyes of a very light bright blue, deep-set under superciliary ridges like a gorilla, and over-hung by eyebrows that would have served most folk for a moustache. He was clean-shaven, and his tanned leathery skin hung about his chops in folds, after the manner of a bloodhound. His mouth was large, thin-lipped and humorous, very like a camel's.
Hugh Paston, at first sight, had taken him to be somewhere in the eighties; but in actual fact he was a battered and dilapidated sixty-five, looking much older than he need on account of his dressing-gown, a garment usually associated with the infirm.
He, for his part, looking at the man opposite him, judged him to be in the early thirties, but that whatever might be his actual age, he would never look a young man again. He wondered whether he had been deeply in love with the woman who had died with her lover, and surmised that he had not. There was a hungry and restless look about his face that is not seen on the face of men who have loved, even if they have been crossed in love. This was a man, he thought, who was unfulfilled. Life had given him everything he wanted and nothing he needed. Lack of spiritual vitamins and a rachitic soul, was his diagnosis. He judged that there was too much idealism in this man to start him drinking, but that he would prove rash and erratic in all his doings unless a steadying hand were laid on him at the present juncture, and probably rush into the wrong kind of marriage, or a ruinous co-respondentship with some woman for whom he cared not a single hoot.
He, for his part, had a hearty contempt for Mayfair and all its ways and works, and the contempt was genuine and not of the sour grapes vintage. For he held that the average inhabitant of that district would never be able to keep his head above water in a competitive world unless he had a swimming bladder tied to it in the shape of inherited money. Had he been kicked out into life through the gates of a Council school, he would have landed in the gutter and stopped there. So honest and complete was his sense of superiority that he had to overcome a kind of inverted snobbishness in holding out a friendly hand to the man who had not been the architect of his own fortune.
He was watching his visitor carefully, and observed that he was settling down and relaxing, and being not without experience in the ups and downs of life himself, knew that a reaction was on its way, and the fellow would soon feel more dead than alive. He wondered what could be done to tide him over his bad patch.
“I wonder if I might offer you some supper, sir? It is getting late, and-I don't know what you are—but I am getting hungry.”
“Yes, by Jove, now you mention it, I am.”
The old man moved off through the door beside the French window, lit an incandescent burner, and Paston saw a little built-on kitchenette, sm
all as a ship's galley. The pop of gas indicated a gas-stove behind the door, and in a few moments there was a noble sputtering.
The old man came in with a second plate and put it to warm beside the fire. The heavy black kettle was restored to the hob.
“Eggs and bacon suit you?” he enquired.
“First rate. Couldn't be better.”
“Two eggs?”
“Rather.”
In a surprisingly short space of time the bookseller reappeared with a loaded tin tea-tray and began to shuffle a miscellaneous collection onto the table in the middle of the room. Everything was rough but clean, with the exception of the knives, which were not stainless, and had not seen a knifeboard for years.
The old man looked at them doubtfully. Then he went over to the mantelpiece, and clearing it of books by the same simple method that he had cleared the sofa, began to use one end of it as a knifeboard, slapping the knives backwards and forwards on its white marble surface, felt their edges with his thumb, and returned them to the table.
“There's one thing about marble mantelpieces for cleaning knives,” he said, “it saves the Monkey-soap. Now we're ready. Will you come along?” He plunged his hand into a huge pile of books that rose in a far corner, groped among them for a moment, gave them a shake that spilled them onto the floor in an avalanche, and drew out a second kitchen chair, which he carried to the table.
They seated themselves. Hugh Paston thought he had never smelt anything so good in his life as that bacon, or seen anything that looked as attractive as the crisp edges of the fried eggs as the bookseller served them out of the frying-pan in which they had cooked.
They fell to. The old man did not seem disposed to talk, and Hugh Paston, who felt as if he had not had a meal for a week, did not feel disposed to either. They ate in silence. At the conclusion of the meal his host put the black tea-pot back in its place on the hob and filled it up from the kettle. Then he shuffled everything onto the tray with a terrific clatter and deposited his load in the kitchen.