by Rudy Rucker
Now I realized I’d been framed. Il Archimedes Anarchisti. The TV showed the gun that had my fingerprints on it. According to the news, I’d met Lafcadio to buy the degenerate hypermatter, possibly for CIA use, possibly for the terrorists. I could be a double or even a triple agent. In any case, I had murdered Lafcadio Caron.
Suddenly Sybil was on the TV screen. Her eyes were desperate and she bit her lips. It was hard to make out her faint voice over the machine-gun rattle of the translator’s Italian. For an instant she looked directly out at me, and my heart stopped. Then the bastards put the children on…tiny, serious, confused. I started hitting and yelling.
The three terrorists manhandled me out of their little apartment and left me alone in the office. I smashed a few plants against the wall, then sat down exhausted on the couch. I was supposed to sleep here. All the doors…apartment, outer, workroom…were locked. I tried to stop thinking, tried to stop seeing Tom’s puzzled face.
After a while I found myself wondering if Peter was getting any off those two women. Imagining various three-ways, I slid my hand into my pants. Sybil, baby. It had been so good last night.
How was I ever going to get to sleep here on a vinyl couch with death all around me? My back was killing me. My hurt finger and the wounds on my face throbbed. Did I have any cigarettes?
Going through my pockets I found the little spherelet which Lafcadio had given me. Had that really happened today? Was this the missing sample? The tiny ball glowed mysteriously in the pitch-dark room.
“Smeep,” I went, pursing my lips. “Smeep smeep.” The ball grew slightly larger. There were faint patterns on it, like half-seen continents on a clouded planet. I felt a stirring of excitement in my loins. The thing gave off an incredible aura of sexuality. Pheromones—the airborne organic molecules that people give off when they’re sexually excited. Invisible little PLEASE FUCK MEs. Leaning over the sphere was like putting my face between Sybil’s legs. Without really knowing why, I licked my lips and began smothering the tiny sphere with kisses. I was just so lonely. The sphere grew and became warm to the touch, bigger and bigger. What was going on?
With an effort I drew my face away from the magic sphere and looked it over. The side facing me had a cleft down it, like a peach…like a woman’s beautiful ass. My hands dropped away in astonishment. The mildly glowing sphere hung there weightlessly. Now she was turning, showing herself off.
The perfect buttocks rotated out of sight, and I was facing the lovely naveled round of a pregnant woman’s belly. I reached out to caress her, running my hand down through her wiry pubic hair to fondle the pouty labia. The sphere hummed gently and floated closer. On top were the mounds of two stiff-nippled breasts. Between the breasts nestled a perfect, full-lipped mouth.
My hands were wooden and trembling with excitement, with rechanneled hysteria. I fumbled my pants open and drew the sex sphere down onto my distended penis. This was madness, but I couldn’t stop.
My cock slid in easily. The sphere’s mouth smiled loosely up at me, showing white teeth and a pink tongue. I leaned over, trying to kiss her, but she was just out of reach. Obligingly, she grew a bit larger and plastered her sweet-smelling wet lips against mine, shoving her tongue into my mouth.
I came.
In the sudden silence I could hear one of my captors shifting in bed next door. Was this really happening? I stared down at the object in my lap. A skin-colored sphere the size of a giant beach ball, with breasts on top and a mouth between the breasts. At the bottom were the generous buttocks, a crinkly anus and a vaginal passage containing my rapidly limpening penis. Was this safe?
The sphere giggled, shrugged me out, and rotated one hundred eighty degrees about the horizontal. The intoxicating scent of her south pole filled my nostrils. Pheromones locked into receptor sites. Her soft lips and sandy tongue were at work on my genitals. I sighed with pleasure and sank my face into her deeply rounded cleft.
The harder I licked, the bigger she grew…past beach-ball size, past the size of a library’s big Earth globe, past all reasonable dimensions. My arms could no longer reach all the way around her. The huge mouth held my testicles as well as my penis, and her luscious vagina covered my entire face.
I came again.
Once more the sphere rotated, and I noticed a twinkling brown eye set in her side, just below the crease at the base of her breast. Next to her eye was the delicate shell of an ear.
“Who are you?” I breathed. “Where do you come from?”
The fat breast nudged me and I tongued the chewy nipple.
“Who are you?” I repeated. “Talk to me.”
The smiling mouth came swinging around to plant some sticky kisses on my face. The mouth was almost a foot long now. The teeth looked very big and strong.
“Please shrink a little,” I begged. “You make me nervous like this.”
Obligingly she dwindled down to a more manageable size…maybe a meter in diameter. I happened to be holding her breasts as she shrank, and it was a strange sensation…not as if she were a balloon losing air, but rather as if she were sliding out from under me. Yet when she was through shrinking, her breasts were still in my hands.
“Thank you,” I said, planting another kiss on her mouth. “Please talk to me.”
She pressed her lips together and rocked sweetly one-two, one-two from left to right. Shaking no. Then blew a last kiss at me and shrank slidingly down to orange-pip size.
I smeeped fruitlessly awhile, then put the bright spherelet back in my pants pocket. The two orgasms had left me tired and relaxed. I stretched out on the couch and fell asleep.
***
I woke to Beatrice prodding me with her machine gun.
“Let’s go, Alwin. I want that Easter egg ready for tomorrow. Big workday today.”
My cock was still hanging out. I tucked it into my pants. Beatrice refrained from comment. The memory of last night’s…orgy came rushing over me, filling me with horror and shame. What had I done? Forgotten my wife and had sex with an alien? An evil spirit? A succubus? I was lucky to be alive.
Peter brought me a mug of coffee and a roll with cheese on it.
“I talked to Rectelli, Alwin. He’s bringing us a couple of hazard suits.”
My heart sank. These people were really serious. Really crazy. “We should have glove boxes, too. Or manipulators. You don’t realize how poisonous plutonium is.”
“Shut up!” Beatrice snapped. “Shut up or I’ll make you do it naked.” Her knuckles were white on the gun’s wire stock.
There was a knock on the door. Giulia drifted out of the apartment and got it. It was one of the snoids. He handed in two flat boxes.
“OK, Bitter,” Beatrice snarled. “If you’re not too busy jacking off, could you get your fucking suit on?”
Peter and I put the suits on over our clothes. They were white plastic, airtight with face-windows. You breathed through a mouthpiece connected to a filter-system set in the back. It was hot and uncomfortable. I had only the vaguest idea of what to do next.
But Beatrice was ready to shoot me, so I hustled on into the workroom with Peter.
It was a big room—say, ten meters by twenty—with concrete floors and walls. The six fuel assemblies were lined up in the middle of the room like giant stone coffins. Or complimentary airline packs of two cigarettes each; the cancer-sticks being, in this case, long metal fuel rods.
There was all kinds of equipment around the room…welding torches, Geiger counters, cases of plastique explosive, stacks of metal scrap from wrecked cars. From what I’d gathered, Rectelli and Orali encouraged the Green Death to take actions against those polluters who also happened to be slow in paying protection. They were hoping that this bomb caper could bring in 1010 lire, plus. They, obviously, were crazy, too.
For one thing, this room had big ventilation ducts in the ceiling. Which meant that when we started taking the fuel rods apart, there’d be plutonium dust filtering all through the Supercortemaggiore garage. If inhaled
, a one ten-millionth gram speck of plutonium gives a seventy percent risk of eventual lung cancer. A five-hundredth gram causes certain death by fibrosis within two weeks. I’d tried to tell Beatrice about this yesterday, but she acted like she didn’t believe me or…which was quite possible…she didn’t care.
The fuel rods slid out easily. We laid them down side by side, not too close together, of course. According to some papers Peter had found in the truck, each of the rods held forty little hundred-gram pellets: thirty low-enriched uranium oxide and ten of the heavy stuff, PuO2, plutonium oxide.
Peter got a cutting-torch and took off the metal cap at the end of a fuel rod. I tipped it up, and the pellets came sliding out like sooty checkers. Some dust flew up and I stopped breathing for a second…then went back to hissing the air in and out through my filters.
Peter nudged the pellets with his foot. “How do we tell which are plutonium?” His echoing voice was mixed with the buzz of his breathing system. He sounded like Darth Vader with a German accent.
Without stopping to think it over, I told him. “Use a Geiger counter. The plutonium gives off more alpha-radiation.”
It was funny. I knew I didn’t want the bomb to be a success. But yet, I’d spent so many years working around physics labs that I couldn’t stand not to do it right.
That’s not quite honest. On some deeper level I really did want to build a working atomic bomb. Build it and see it go off. Death wish? Maybe. Or think of a couple of bored twelve-year-old boys whiling away a long Sunday afternoon by setting off firecrackers. The thrill of the blast. The smell of the ozone, the roar of the cloud. I’ve heard that when an A-bomb goes off, the air around it catches fire. You see every color of the rainbow. Especially God’s colors: purple and gold. I wanted to see it for myself.
I got a Geiger counter and separated out the plutonium from the uranium. I used my gloved hands…there was no real danger from the actual radiation. You don’t get the neutrons and the hard gamma-rays until a nuclear reaction starts. The current issue was just to avoid breathing in any plutonium particles …and presumably the hazard suits were taking care of that. I planned to keep my suit on until I was well out of this place.
The next hour was filled with the simple, repetitive work of opening the twelve rods and separating out the PuO2 pellets. It felt more and more unreal. My mind wandered back to my encounter with the sex sphere.
Had I imagined the whole thing? All the ingredients for a good hallucination had been present: physical injuries, mental stress, isolation to the point of sensory deprivation. Bullshit. It had really happened.
With the suit on I couldn’t get to my pants pocket, but I could feel the tiny pressure of the little ball in there. If I called her, would she come return? Of course she would. We were lovers.
This brought back the sick, ashamed feeling I’d woken up with. I was no better than some geek with a foam-rubber woman’s torso like they advertise in Hustler. What a pathetic, twisted vision of womanhood: all the “inessential” parts lopped off, nothing left but tits and ass and holes. Lifelike washable plastic skin. Greek and French features.
But yet, in a way, wasn’t the sex sphere what I’d always wanted? An ugly truth there. “Shut up and spread!” How many times had I said that to Sybil, if not in so many words? The memory of her weeping, televised face filled me with such anguish I could hardly…
“Na?” Peter said, interrupting my thoughts. “Was nun?”
What now. We had twelve little mounds of plutonium pellets, say one kilogram per mound. Critical mass of PuO2 was, as far as I could recall, around ten.
“Put them all together and they all spell MOTHER!” I sang, my voice breaking. “The sound of one hand clapping.”
“What is the next step, Alwin?” Peter held the cutting torch near my suit. “We have no time for lighthearted games.”
“OK, OK. What we need to do is form the plutonium into two hemispheres. Separate the hemispheres with Styrofoam or something, and then pack the whole thing in a big ball of plastic explosive. With any luck, a fast reaction will set in when the explosive slams the two hemispheres together.”
“Why do you speak of luck, Alwin? We need your scientific certainty.”
“So forget luck,” I said with a shrug. “So far as we know, no one has ever built a simple atomic bomb that didn’t work. Let’s finish the job. Do you have anything to pack that plutonium in?”
“There are two steel mixing bowls in our kitchen,” Peter suggested.
“Good. Go get them.”
“You go. We can’t trust you alone in here.”
I went and pounded on the workshop door.
“What?” shouted Beatrice from the other side.
“We need the steel mixing bowls from the kitchen.”
“What else are you gonna need? I don’t wanna open this door any more than I have to.”
I thought for a minute. “Get a bunch of tubes of epoxy glue. And a Styrofoam ice-chest. A-and a small trunk to put the whole thing in.” I paused and thought again. “Do we have wires and a timer in the workshop?”
“Ja, ja,” Peter put in. He was standing next to me. “We’ve got all that.”
“OK,” Beatrice called, her voice gone girlish with excitement. “We’ll get that other stuff right away.”
While Peter monitored the radiation count, I split the plutonium oxide pellets into two six-kilogram mounds. I was hesitant adding the last few pellets, worried I might hit critical mass before I expected to. But the counter just ticked along evenly.
“All right,” I told Peter. “Now we want to find some way of compacting this stuff.”
“Why not hammer the pellets into dust?” Peter suggested. “They’re brittle enough.”
I groaned softly. “Peter, the last thing we want is to kick up a whole lot of plutonium dust. As it is, I plan to keep my suit on until I’m a kilometer or two away from here. Think of something else.”
“Melt it? We’ve got an oxyacetylene torch here that cuts plate steel.”
“Now you’re talking. Now you cookin’ wif gas, boah. We just need a crucible.”
We poked around the workroom till we found a barrel of sand.
“This is perfect,” I told Peter. We’ll hollow out a hemispherical mold like this…” I dug rapidly at the sand, making a bowl-like depression some ten centimeters across and five centimeters deep. “Get the torch.”
Peter dialed the torch up to high and fused the top layer of sand. This would keep the plutonium from trickling away. I got six kilograms of the dirty disks and set them gently in. At my insistence, Peter covered the torch and barrel with a plastic drop cloth before the next step.
“That’s our fume-hood, Peter.”
Just as he started heating up the plutonium, Beatrice got back. I went to the door.
“Is it safe?” she called.
“Oh, sure. We’re not doing much of anything. Come right in.”
The lock clicked and the door slid open. Beatrice stared past me at the flare of light in front of Peter. A fat sputter of plutonium flew up and melted a hole in the plastic cover sheet.
“Take a deep breath,” I mocked. “Good clean country air.”
Beatrice looked a little pale. “Take this shit and let me close the door. And don’t worry about those ceiling vents, I told Orali not to run them today.”
I reached out towards her, rubbing my dusty fingers together. “Don’t just stand in the shallows, Beatrice. Come all the way in. Get healthy, baby.”
There was a sharp report and something whistled past my face. Giulia. She was standing behind Beatrice, firing her Uzi at me.
I know when I’m not wanted. I backed off. Beatrice shoved in some parcels, and the door slammed.
“The first batch is all melted,” Peter said, turning off the torch and walking over to me. “Why do you try to contaminate Beatrice?”
“I don’t like her. I don’t like being kidnapped. I don’t like bombing thousands of pilgrims.”
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p; “Oh, come on, Alwin. So far you have cooperated so well. Just a little more and we’ll let you go.”
“When? When do you let me go?”
“After the bomb goes off. Soon after that.”
Would they? Would they let me go then? Of course not. How could Green Death extort ransom for an imaginary second bomb if I were free to give out their names and the location of their hideout? And Beatrice almost certainly had cancer now. There was plutonium dust all over my fingers. Would she be likely to free me, after she started coughing up bloody gray broccoli?”
“Come on,” Peter said again. “Let’s finish the bomb.”
We levered out the fused PuO2 hemisphere with crowbars and chipped off the glassy sand stuck to it. It was lumpy, but it would do. I got one of the steel mixing bowls and tried the fit. Not too bad. Peter got the sand ready for the second batch.
I brought over the other six kilos of plutonium pellets and stood off to the side while Peter melted it down. I was thinking hard.
The main thing was to keep them from setting this bomb off when Sybil and the babies were around. One option would be to just slap those two plutonium chunks together here and now. Boom.
But there had to be a better idea. Maybe I could rig the bomb up wrong…fix it so it wouldn’t go off? Unfortunately it was just about too late for that. I hadn’t told them about using a tamper and an initiator…a jacket of uranium to keep the neutrons in, and a central source of neutrons to get the reaction rolling…but the bomb would probably work without them. We had an awful lot of plutonium.
Even if I didn’t help any more, Peter would probably be able to put a working bomb together in the next couple of hours. Maybe I should kill him? I picked up a crowbar and stepped towards him. He had his back to me and would never…
A shrill bell went off. Peter whirled around, holding the torch towards me. The door rumbled open and a gun-barrel poked in. We were being watched.