by Louise Bay
“The Dorchester’s not a problem, mate,” he said. “But I can’t guarantee we’ll be able to keep up with that thing. It might be ugly, but it’s worth a few bob. If it were mine, I’d get my mate, Gary, to re-spray it,” he said as he pulled out after them.
Predictably, Romano sped off and did everything he could to outdrive us.
It worked. We lost them within minutes.
When we arrived at the Dorchester, I leapt out of the cab and ran into the lobby, looking left and right.
“Jake.” I spun around to find Haven behind me.
“There you are. Thank God.”
“You need to calm down. Louis might be a bit over the top, but he seems harmless.”
I shook my head. “He’s anything but. The sooner you’re out of here, the better. Where is he, anyway?” I asked.
“Trying to arrange a dinner reservation. He’d planned to have it served in his suite but I said I didn’t think that was such a good idea.”
“Presumptive prick,” I said.
“Seriously, Jake, calm down. He’s a typical Italian. He’s a bit flash and is used to getting his own way.”
“Yes, things I would have thought you’d hate.”
“Jesus, I’m not marrying the guy. I’m having dinner with him. For work. Will you stop already?”
Romano returned. “I’ve arranged the perfect table. Will you be joining us, Mr. Harrison?” he asked, his eyebrow raised in my direction.
“Do you want to do some photographs at the table?” Haven asked.
I shook my head. “I’ll take some as you walk in.”
After I’d taken a few shots, they went into the restaurant and I started pacing up and down the lobby. I didn’t know whether I should stay and wait for them to finish their dinner, or leave them to it. I couldn’t bear the thought of him or anyone anywhere near Haven. I decided to wait.
I counted every minute that they were gone. I passed the restaurant several times, but couldn’t see them from the door. I took a seat in the lobby and kept my eye on the entrance. Various staff members eyed me suspiciously, and a couple asked if they could assist me, but I shooed them away and kept waiting.
Finally, I saw them emerge. Romano had his arm clasped around her waist, pulling her toward him, and kissing her knuckles again. Haven looked unusually relaxed. Jesus, didn’t she see what a penis this guy was?
“I’m sorry, I have an early start tomorrow, but thank you for the offer,” Haven said as they walked toward me.
I stood up and Haven’s eyes met mine. She didn’t look angry or pleased that I was still there. At that moment, neutral would do.
“I’d love you to see this new Renoir that I bought. Are you sure I can’t tempt you?” Jesus, he wasn’t subtle, was he?
“Another time, perhaps,” Haven replied.
“You’ll have to show her your etchings another evening, Romano. I’m here to see Haven gets home safely,” I said. There was no way Haven was going up to his room.
Romano turned to me. “Is this what you’re reduced to now, Harrison? Loitering in hotel lobbies?”
I ignored him.
“My driver will see you home, my princess,” Romano said.
“Haven and I will be fine in a cab,” I said. I pulled her elbow, trying to put some distance between her and Romano.
“Thank you for a wonderful evening, Louis,” Haven said.
“I look forward to Saturday,” he replied as I led Haven toward the exit.
Blood thundered through my veins and I had to be careful not to tighten my already forceful grip around Haven’s elbow.
“Saturday? Are you serious?” I asked her as we got into the fresh air.
“Let go of me, Jake.” Haven twisted away from me and I dropped my hand.
“What about Saturday, Haven?” I asked again.
“He wants to take me out again.” She indicated to the doorman that she needed a cab.
“And you said yes?” What was she thinking? Did she like him?
“Yes, I said yes. What is your problem with him?” she asked. She sounded confused and I couldn’t blame her. I couldn’t tell her what Romano was really like—I needed her to trust me.
She started to climb into the cab and I quickly followed her.
“What are you doing? Get out!”
“I’m making sure you get home okay.” I was pissed that another guy, and Romano at that, had gotten to spend their evening with her. It should have been me, so I wanted to be the one to see her home. I could at least have that.
“Jake, you’re not my dad. Get out.”
I gave the cab driver Haven’s address and we started moving. She sat as far away from me as possible, looking out the window. I could deal with that. As long as I knew she was safe and with me. Even if she was angry, I could live with that.
We drove along in silence until I couldn’t bear it any longer.
“The guy is a joke,” I said snappily.
“You’re the joke,” she replied. She sounded resigned to the fact.
“Haven.”
She turned to me. “I mean it. You’ve acted like a complete jerk this evening. Louis was fine—a little sleazy but tolerable. You, on the other hand . . . you should trust me. I’m a grown woman. I don’t need rescuing.”
“Haven.”
“What? Stop saying my name like you have some kind of hold over me.”
“I think you have that the wrong way around.” Haven’s hold on me seemed to be increasing. She was right. I had been a prick and I hadn’t trusted her. There was a foundation for my concern, but most of my actions tonight had been about my feelings for Haven. I was angry at Romano and what he had done to my sister, but I was angrier at myself. I’d let Haven go so easily. Beth had been right, I’d not fought hard enough for her and now I didn’t know how to get back in the game.
Haven
In the back of the cab with Jake, on the way back from my date with Romano, I couldn’t figure out why Jake was behaving so out of character. It was confusing but at the same time, I loved that he was so determined to protect me.
“I’m sorry,” he said softly.
I continued to stare out the window, acutely aware of the space, or lack of, between us. He’d seemed to grow physically bigger during his interactions with Romano. “It’s okay,” I said eventually. “I do trust you.” Jake had been so spooked by Romano it was difficult to ignore his concerns, even if I didn’t know exactly what they were. I wanted him to tell me; I wanted to know everything about Romano . . . but also about Jake. I was hungry for information, hungry for him. “But I need to get this article written. Robert is relying on me.”
“Haven,” he whispered. I turned to him, watching his full lips try to say something.
The cab jolted to a halt and the driver sounded his horn.
I clambered out and turned back to Jake. “I’m sorry, too,” I said. Did he know I wasn’t just talking about today? Did he realize that I regretted pushing him away?
His eyes widened and he drew a breath. I closed the door, my eyes still fixed to his and the taxi sped off.
As the cab drove into the distance, I watched, a thousand things I wanted to say and no one to listen.
The next morning I was on speakerphone with Ash while I got dressed for work. I was bored with my work wardrobe and I couldn’t decide what to wear.
“You still like him,” she said.
“And you’ve been dreaming about Channing Tatum. It doesn’t mean you’re going to do anything about it.”
“If I knew Channing Tatum and he wasn’t married, I would totally do something about it.”
“This conversation is ridiculous. Can we change the subject?”
“It’s early. That’s what’s ridiculous. So how was the millionaire Italian?”
“Short. A little over the top. But I have to have the Saturday date with him because the other two aren’t available and we need to get this story in.”
“You’ll have licky Jake there thou
gh, won’t you?” Ash asked.
“Yeah, but Louis is pretty pushy. I think he’ll try and get me on his own, away from Jake. I can handle him, though. And Jake won’t let anything happen to me.”
“That’s so shady. Do you think he was going to try to shag you?”
I shrugged as I held up two skirts that looked almost identical. “I don’t know. I guess. It doesn’t matter—I wouldn’t fall for all his over-used charm. It’s weird that Jake would think I would.”
“Be careful and make sure you’re always in a public place with him. Who’s tonight’s victim?”
“Mark from Brentwood in Essex is my date tonight.”
Ash started laughing. “Are you kidding me? You’re going to have to hoist those boobies past your ears to keep up with the girls he’s used to.”
I giggled. Girls from Essex had a reputation for making the most of their assets. “I think I might have to have a boob job before this evening.”
I was being careful about what I was wearing today. I was going straight from work, which was a bit of an issue as my work outfits were, well, drab. I was also aware that I would be seeing Jake again today. Other than saying he would meet me at the office at six this evening, I’d not seen him since he dropped me off after my date with Romano. I was looking forward to seeing him, despite knowing that was against my better judgment. I wanted him to forgive me for pushing him away. It was too much to hope for anything else.
“What about my black shift with the chiffon sleeves?” I asked Ash. I wasn’t dressing for Mark from Brentwood—I wanted to look good for Jake.
“That’s stepping it up for work, much more like it.”
“Only because I have this date afterward. Everything will be back to normal tomorrow.” I pulled the dress from my closet. It was still wrapped in the plastic cover from the dry cleaners.
“You’re wearing your hair down?”
“I’ll take it down for the date.” Of course I would, Jake liked it down.
“Live a little,” Ash said as she sighed in exasperation.
“I have to go. Love you.”
“Love you, bye.” I canceled the call, threw the phone on my bed and ripped open the plastic.
I zipped up the side of my black dress. It worked. Jake would like it.
“Have you canceled Saturday with Romano?” Jake asked as he walked up to me in the office lobby. We were both early.
“And hello to you, Jake.”
“I mean it, Haven. You need to cancel.”
“You know full well I can’t move Louis. I’m up against a deadline. I’m having to write this up on Sunday as it is.” I was pretty sure Louis was harmless, but Jake was so dead set against me going near him, it unnerved me. “But I won’t go anywhere without you. I promise. And he said I should bring a passport, so I guess you should too.”
“He said what? Fucking hell, Haven, are you kidding me? Can’t I take you for your Saturday night date?”
“Please calm down. What do you think he’s going to do? Sell me into slavery? And no, I can’t date you for this article. Unless you’ve been keeping things from me, you’re not a member of Glass Introductions and I don’t manipulate the facts. End of story. Please try to work with me on this?”
“You are impossible,” he said, rolling his eyes.
I swiped him across his abs. My hand hit granite. Our eyes met as I touched him and his face softened.
“If he’s bought you a ticket somewhere, and not me, you aren’t going.”
I was prepared for the ultimatum, and I was okay with it. I did trust him, and if he felt this strongly then I needed to listen to him. “You have yourself a deal.”
“We have a deal?” Jake seemed surprised. “Okay then.”
We headed outside and Jake flagged down a cab. I gave the driver the address of the restaurant where Mark said he’d meet me.
“So who’s the chump tonight?” Jake asked.
“We don’t say chump in the UK, you’ll have to translate.”
“I don’t know, someone gullible, a general douche?”
“And Mark is a chump because he’s agreed to go on a date with me?”
“No. He’s a chump because it’s an entirely futile evening for him. You’re mine.”
What? Had I heard him correctly? For once in my life, I was left with nothing to say. I had run out of snark. I didn’t want to contradict him. I wanted to turn over the possibility of belonging to him in my head and look at it from different angles. Could it be true? Would it be true?
The rest of the journey continued in silence. I wanted to ask him what he’d meant, but every time I tried to form a sentence, it came out wrong. I stole glimpses of him a couple of times, studying the contours of his jaw, my gaze sliding over lips that could do things to me that I’d never known before him.
Part of me would be his forever.
Mark was good looking, tall and a little rough around the edges. I liked that about him instantly. He was clearly a bit awkward about having Jake taking shots of us. He asked several times about anonymity.
“Okay, I’m going to leave you two to it,” Jake said as he packed away his camera. “I’ll see you Saturday,” he said as he turned to me. I searched his face for something that would help me believe I hadn’t made up what he’d said about being his in the cab but his eyes were blank, all business. He shook Mark’s hand and headed out.
“Portraits are the normal start to a date for me,” Mark said, a bit dazed.
I laughed. “Sorry about that. And honestly, we won’t identify you in the photographs. You have my promise.”
“And you seem very trustworthy. A nice, normal girl as my granny would say,” Mark said, smiling at me.
“I’m going to take that as a compliment.” I laughed.
“You should. My granny didn’t say it to a lot of people. She was a cantankerous old biddy. Even I was scared of her. I should say you look beautiful.” Mark’s rambling was rather endearing. He was nervous and that made me more confident, as though it was my responsibility to put him at ease.
“It’s not obligatory,” I replied, smiling at him. He was as bad at this dating thing as I was but the compliment felt genuine and I accepted it as such.
“I’m really not good at this, am I?”
I laughed again. “You’re doing fine. I feel great after all these compliments, so you’re doing better than you think.”
“Yes, it’s all part of my master plan to win you over,” he said, a gleam in his eye.
I relaxed and sat back in my chair. Mark was going to be good company.
Jake
Beth was curled up on the sofa when I got in from dropping off Haven. “I need to tell you something,” I said to her. I had hoped that I wouldn’t have to bring this up, but I was going to meet Romano for a second time on Saturday. If Beth ever found out that I’d knowingly met with him, and I hadn’t told her, she’d never forgive me.
“Did you elope?” Beth asked.
God, I really didn’t want to destroy her good mood. “Nope.”
“Kiss her again?”
“Nope. I left her on a date with another man and came home as my penis shriveled up and fell off.”
“That’s a delightful image.”
“Well, you asked.” My phone rang and I glanced at the screen. Millie. Why was my ex calling? I pressed cancel and turned back to Beth. “I’ve only got Saturday and then there will be no reason for me to see her again. I’m in California next week and unless I think of something by then, I guess we’ll go our separate ways.” I slumped on the sofa, grabbing the tub of ice cream from her and digging out a spoonful for myself.
“Hey, you’re interrupting my threesome with Ben and Jerry.”
“You’re gross,” I said, shoving the tub back at her.
“So, have you decided to fight for her?” Beth asked.
“I have. I’m just not sure I’ll win. I’m not quite sure what to do.” My stomach churned at the thought of not seeing Haven again. I
was running out of time and I didn’t have a plan.
“So what did you have to tell me, my penis-less brother?” Beth pulled me back into the moment.
“I don’t want you to get upset,” I said and then instantly felt like an idiot.
“Well, problem solved, because if you tell me you don’t want to get me upset then that’s that—I won’t,” Beth said around a mouthful of ice cream.
“Sarcasm isn’t your thing,” I said as I grinned at her.
“Oh yes it is. It’s exactly my thing. Come on, get it off your chest.”
I took a deep breath. “Well, you know Haven’s been dating these guys.”
“Yes, I kinda gathered from your hideously bad moods and the fact that you’ve told me so like a million times. What about it?”
“Well, the second guy was someone we both know.”
Beth paled instantly and put the ice cream on the coffee table.
“Romano,” I said.
She looked at me. “Shit.”
“Fuck. I’m sorry. I never wanted to hear his name again. I just didn’t want to keep it from you.” If I could have scooped out her pain and taken it on myself, I would have. I hated seeing her upset; it reminded me about how bad things had been for her and how I could do nothing about it. Romano and losing the baby had been a tipping point for Beth. She’d spiraled so far down I wondered if she’d ever be my sister again.
“I think I should call my sponsor,” was all she said.
I handed her the phone. “Do you want to talk about it?”
“I never want to go back to that place again,” she said quietly.
“I know. You’re stronger now. What can I do?” I asked her.
“You’re right. I am, and you can’t do anything. You’ve done so much for me already. Thank you for telling me. Does Haven know?”
“No, she knows we have a history and that I hate him. I’ve begged her to stay away from him, but I haven’t told her any details. She’s having her follow-up date with him.”
Her eyes widened. “She is? You can’t convince her not to?”
“I’ve tried. The other two guys can’t do Saturday apparently and she’s on some deadline for Robert. He’s told her to bring a passport.” I pushed my hands through my hair.