by Kelly Long
She frowned as she opened the barn and found what she expected—no buggy and no horse. She was puzzling out what to do next when she heard the sound of sleigh bells echoing down the lane.
She turned, her heart beating with expectancy, as she watched Ruler appear from around the house. But instead of Jacob, it was Seth Wyse who hopped out of the buggy, his hat off and a wide smile on his handsome face as he came toward her with an outstretched arm.
He bent and pulled her into a quick embrace, then set her back on her feet. “Lilly Lapp, my dear and soon to be schweschder-in-law. Let me offer my most sincere congratulations.” He gave her a contagious grin until she had to smile back, then he swept her up into the buggy.
“I added some sleigh bells to Ruler’s tack this morning. Hope you don’t mind. He’s got a tendency to lag a bit and the cadence of the bells might improve his trot.”
“It’s—fine.” Lilly felt overwhelmed by his greeting and wanted to ask about Jacob.
Seth laughed aloud. “My bruder’s still in his bed. I let him sleep. Even Jacob’s got to have a bit of a rest after a gunshot wound and an hour with Tom Granger.”
“So, he talked to Mr. Granger?”
“Bought the mare, free and clear. You don’t have to worry that your future husband will land himself in jail.”
Lilly felt a rush of relief but was still unsure of how to converse with Seth Wyse. If Jacob was dark and brusque, then his brother was all cheerfulness and light. She felt flustered by his obvious and enticing charm. Yet she remembered his paintings and the serious depth they conveyed. Perhaps Seth’s demeanor was as much a cover as she suspected Jacob’s could be. Of course, in reality, Seth had spoken to her many more times in the past than his brother had, and she decided to just relax and enjoy his goodwill.
She felt Seth glance at her and decided that he, too, must share his brother’s talent of perception because he casually touched her arm as she hugged her book satchel to her chest.
“Lilly, seriously, I don’t know everything about you and Jacob, but I’m glad to welcome you to the family.”
She turned to smile at him. “Thank you, Seth. I appreciate your welcome, and I hope I can make a difference in Jacob’s life.”
“Oh, you’ll make a difference, Blue Eyes, don’t worry about that.”
Lilly couldn’t help the blush that she felt stain her cheeks. She wasn’t used to compliments, especially teasing ones. She couldn’t help the feeling of pleasure that rushed through her at his words.
“Now, that’s a rare thing in the ladies of my acquaintance,” Seth remarked as he turned Ruler easily.
“What?”
“A true blush. You’re a beauty, Lilly Lapp.”
Lilly opened her mouth to speak but shut it again when no words surfaced.
Seth’s thoughtful glance brushed over her, his own blue eyes like the color of the sea. “Sometimes, a rose grows in winter, and we miss it for all the snow.”
She blinked as her heart began to race a bit at his strange comment. It was the artist in him, she realized, that made poetry of words, and she couldn’t help but feel intrigued. But this was Jacob’s bruder.
He laughed, breaking the awkward moment. “Never mind. Here we are.”
She was surprised that they were already at the school.
He came around to help her down and then tied Ruler to the wooden hitching post.
“Ach, how will you get home?” Lilly asked in alarm.
“Easy.” He grinned. “A good mile jog across two sodden fields never hurt any man.” He tipped his hat to her. “Have a good day, sweet schweschder.”
CHAPTER 8
So, tell me why you did it.”
Jacob entered the warm, morning-lit barn where Seth was tending to the mare’s wounds. It had always been like this between them—an unspoken ability to understand each other and to not have to ask too many questions. But he didn’t feel in the mood to give answers he wasn’t sure of himself.
“You should have got me up.” Jacob rubbed absently at his shoulder which had ached all night, leaving him drained and irritable.
“I guess I should have.”
“What does that mean?”
“Nothing.”
“What happened? Was she upset?”
“You mean your betrothed? Nee. We just—talked. She was fine.”
“Well, gut then.”
He blew hot air through his cheeks and lifted a bucket of feed with one hand. He felt like he had the beginnings of a cold, and recollecting Mrs. Lapp’s reaction to the engagement made his head throb.
“Don’t hurt that shoulder any worse.”
“Don’t worry about me, little bruder.”
Seth snorted. “Right. Now, tell me—why the engagement?”
Jacob put the bucket down and rubbed a hand on Thunder’s neck. “I don’t know,” he admitted. “Maybe I wanted a way out of this mess in my head with Sarah, or I wanted to do what’s right for Lilly.”
“Jah, and getting married to an innocent woman while you’re still in love with another sounds like a gut plan.”
Jacob cast him a dark look. “It wasn’t like I planned it ahead of time. And I didn’t make Lilly say what she did about being with me.”
“You didn’t deny it either.”
“Look—what I said, well, I know it sounds narrish, but it just came out of my mouth, like I was supposed to say it.”
Seth turned from the mare to start rubbing wax on a saddle. “She has beautiful eyes, you know.”
“Who?”
“Lilly. Eyes like winter jewels.”
“Since when have you noticed?”
“I always notice girls’ eyes. Besides, I went to school with her too, remember?”
“Jah.”
Jacob ducked his head away from his brother’s prodding. He thought with shame about the kiss he’d taken from Lilly yesterday in his own desperation to escape thoughts of Sarah.
How could he have been so selfish to think only of escaping his pain without considering the ramifications of using her? And the engagement—what if that was only a means of putting something right in front of him to focus on, to cling to, a distraction from his painful reality? Was it wrong for him to continue?
Yet, she seemed to be willing, with all her foolishness about quilt scraps and second choices—and a dog from school days.
What hund?
“We’d best get outside. The buyer’s coming early.”
Jacob rolled his eyes. He was in no mood for the type of buyer his brother typically arranged.
“What?” Seth asked, sliding open the barn door.
“Nothing.”
They went to lean against the fence as a BMW swung down the lane.
“Here we go,” Seth said under his breath, a bit of pleasure edging his voice. “The game begins.”
“Jah. But it’s a game that grows old.”
“You’re growing old, big bruder. You know as well as I do that Englisch lady buyers who come here from Boston—or wherever—have an expectation of what us backward, innocent Amish boys are, and it’s not always pleasant. So, what’s wrong with treating the customer like a princess, changing her views, and getting us extra money for a horse to boot?”
Jacob sighed as the car ground to a halt. “I don’t know.”
Seth cocked his hat. “Think of it as advertising. The Wyse Brothers cater to a customer’s every whim as well as providing the best horseflesh on the East Coast. Now, smile.”
Jacob rubbed at his dark hair, then plastered a smile on his face. He felt like he’d rather be lying down nursing his shoulder instead of moving forward to greet the head-to-toe fur-clad, blond-haired woman who exited the car once the uniformed driver had opened the door.
“Mrs. Castleberrry.” Seth had his hat off and was shaking her hand. “I’m Seth Wyse. We’re so glad you made it despite the unpredictability of the weather this time of year.”
The woman smiled, a dazzling flash of white teeth and an ap
praising glance from makeup-lined eyes. “Perhaps the pleasure is mine,” she said, glancing past Seth to where Jacob stood.
Jacob yanked his hat off and extended his hand. “Ma’am.”
“Oh, please call me Victoria, and I’ll call you—”
“Jacob,” he muttered. Seth took a false step backward and dug him in the ribs as he hurried to respond. “Uh, we’ve got the horse we discussed on the phone. If you’d like to come inside the barn, it’s a bit warmer. Your driver is welcome too.”
She gave an airy wave. “James can wait in the car. He reads. Frankly, I was surprised that you were able to use the telephone; I had heard that you Amish do not.”
“Usually we don’t, but for business we are allowed, Victoria.” Seth had caught her arm against his lean side. “Please let me help you over this uneven ground.”
“Thank you.” She glanced over her shoulder at Jacob. “I should like to have the opportunity to see the area a bit while I’m here. Perhaps you might give me a private tour? It would also give me a chance to see the horse perform at an extended trot.”
Jacob ignored his bruder’s smiling profile and drew a deep breath. “I’d be glad to, Mrs.—uh, Victoria. My pleasure.”
“Marvelous.” She gave a triumphant toss of her fur-hatted head as Seth began to tell her about the farm in dulcet tones.
The beginning of Lilly’s school days were occasionally a time of peace for her, and today looked promising. She opened the back door of the one-room schoolhouse—which had no lock—and concentrated on starting the woodstove, letting the familiar routine soothe away the tumultuous thoughts in her head. She unpacked her satchel of books and graded papers, laying them on her desk, then wrote the schedule for the day on the blackboard. Foremost in her mind, besides the incredible idea of her wedding, were preparations for the Christmas program.
The program was a joyful annual tradition in many Amish communities. Almost everyone would come and crowd the schoolhouse to watch naerfich pupils perform. Only English was spoken in the program, and many of her younger students still struggled during practice to remember to speak English and not to slip into their Pennsylvania Dutch dialect. And, since even the bishop would attend to see how well the students’ English was coming along, this gave both students and teacher reason to fret. This year was no exception in terms of anxiety, despite her forethought and planning to make the program unique. But there was never any telling how the students would perform. So, practice was key, and every school day afternoon from late November to the day of the program itself was spent rehearsing.
Lilly looked up from her desk as the stomping of boots on the back porch alerted her to her first students’ arrival. John and Mary Zook, two of the eldest students in the eighth grade, and twin siblings as well, came well-bundled into the room. They wished her “gut morning,” then went on squabbling in a friendly fashion over the lunch their mamm had packed to be shared. The little trio of Mast children arrived, ranging from first grade through the fifth. Then Lucy Stolis, in the seventh grade, came in shivering, bearing an apple for Lilly. She accepted it with pleasure, considering her own lack of breakfast. By the time she rang the handbell on the back porch, all fourteen of her students had arrived and found their seats.
News spread faster than spilled water in the little community, and Lilly could tell by the students’ suppressed whispers and stray giggles that they knew of her engagement to Jacob Wyse.
“Is there something I should know?” she asked innocently, surveying the excitement on their faces.
“We think you know already, Miss Lapp,” John Zook said, and the others laughed in delight.
To Lilly’s surprise, Mary Zook slid a large handmade card of construction paper from beneath her desktop. “We wanted to say congratulations, Miss Lapp.” She offered the card shyly.
Lilly took it with genuine pleasure, admiring the hearts and flowers and the signatures of all the students. Here was abundant goodwill that cheered her heart and helped set aside her worries of the future for the moment.
“Thank you, thank you all. I’ll cherish it.” She let her smile envelop the class, then she made a sudden decision. “And I have a surprise for all of you—I’d like each of you to come to the wedding. I know that students usually stay in school during wedding ceremonies, but as young ladies and gentlemen, I want you to be there.”
The delight on their faces affirmed to her what an honor she was giving them; even the older boys looked pleased. She just hoped that Jacob wouldn’t mind. She then pushed thoughts of the wedding away and focused on the moment at hand.
“All right, now let’s look at our plans for the day.”
There was a collective groan when they’d reviewed the schedule she’d written on the blackboard, and Matthew Mast raised his small hand.
“Yes?” Lilly asked with good humor.
“Miss Lapp, if we offer to give up Christmas holidays, can we not have the program?”
Several students nodded eagerly in agreement and Lilly had to suppress a laugh. “No, Matthew. You all know it won’t be so bad.”
“Badder than the dentist,” Matthew suggested.
“Worse.” Lilly smiled. “Worse, Matthew. And, no, it won’t be.
“Now I’d like each of you to take the quilt square you’ve been working on. You should be just about finished. I plan to baste them together this evening. Then, as you may know, some of your mothers have kindly volunteered to put our class quilt together for us.”
Again, there was a chorus of faint groans, this time from the boys of the class, and Lilly had to stifle a smile. Making a class quilt to display at the Christmas program was something that was done in many schools, but the boys were naturally opposed to the idea. In the past, she’d seen more than one boy bring in a square that had obviously been completed by a mother or a schweschder, so she’d solved that problem by having them work on the squares only in class. Mothers had donated scraps from their quilting bags, and Lilly had given the option to either glue or hand sew to create a picture on the squares of cotton she’d passed out.
This year’s class quilt theme was “Trees.” Lilly had encouraged her students to think about all aspects of a tree, from seedling beginnings, to the multitude of colors during the fall and the stark beauty of winter. Now, as she walked among the desks, surveying their work, she was surprised and amazed at the variations of colors and patterns that made up the individual trees. The younger students’ work was especially sweet with oddly shaped tree trunks in brown calico and masses of purple and red leaves.
She passed Lucy’s desk, especially impressed by the dozens of tiny hand stitches the girl had used.
“That’s lovely, Lucy.”
The child’s face glowed with the praise and she lifted her head to meet Lilly’s eyes. “Will you have time for a wedding quilting, Miss Lapp?” she whispered.
Lilly paused, trying to think of what to say. She would dearly love a wedding quilting, but there was one secret part of her that questioned whether or not she actually deserved such a joyful celebration. After all, she’d done everything so impulsively with Jacob, upside down and out of order. Wedding quiltings were things of planning and coordination; legacies of a rich past and dear hopes for the future. It was enough, she decided with an inward sigh, if God would bless their life together. A wedding quilting was not necessary for marital happiness. She laid her hand on Lucy’s shoulder.
“I promise to let you know if I do.”
The girl flushed with pleasure and then returned to her stitching as Lilly passed on to the next desk. The idea of a wedding quilt led to other half-formed, tangled thoughts of what it might be like to lie in Jacob’s embrace against a backdrop of imagined patterns. She wondered how often he’d be thinking of Sarah, then snapped her thoughts back ruthlessly to the moment at hand.
CHAPTER 9
Jacob had to suppress a groan as the throbbing in his head increased with Victoria’s chatter. Despite the even pace of the good-minded driving
sorrel named Jim, Victoria sought to grab Jacob’s arm with each dip in the road. He felt like shrugging her off like a bug.
But, remembering Seth’s hissed admonition to “behave,” he nodded and murmured at the appropriate times and hoped that the woman’s desire for a lengthy tour would end soon. However, it seemed that she was enchanted with everything Amish, and when the school bell rang clear as crystal across a shallow field, Victoria squealed with delight.
“Oh, is that a real Amish school? I want to see it. I think I’ll find it picturesque.”
He cleared his throat. “Well, Victoria, the teacher likes her privacy and I’m sure that perhaps another time . . .” Jacob was surprised that he felt a little nervous about seeing his intended.
The woman pouted her red lips and sighed. “I don’t know; the more I experience things the more I think that perhaps another horse to go with Jim here might be nice, but if you’re sure about the teacher . . . I guess we could just go back.”
Jacob could hear Seth now if he didn’t give in to the infuriating woman’s wishes, so he turned the horse without a word and started down the narrow lane to the school. As he squinted against the winter sunshine, he could see the playing figures in the distance. It had snowed a bit the night before and he realized that Lilly would be out for recess as well, keeping gut watch over her charges. The thought did not improve his headache nor his throbbing shoulder any as he considered the recklessness of the day before.
The children swarmed to the roadside when they saw the buggy stop and Victoria again grasped his arm. “Oh, help me down, Jacob. They’re so darling in their outfits.”
He helped her from the buggy then went to hold the head of the horse so that the children could pet it. He did not wish to pay attention to the carrying giggles and whispers of the kinner in Pennsylvania Dutch as they remarked upon his upcoming wedding to the schoolteacher and questioned the presence of the Englisch woman.
“Oh, Jacob, tell me what they’re saying. It’s so delightful to hear a true backwoods dialect.”