Holy Heathen Rhapsody

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by Pattiann Rogers

sudden gusts and shifts of snow descending

  again over them like night. Hooded,

  crouched down close together and sleeted

  with snow, they might have resembled

  a flock of sheep huddled on the hillside.

  Once I saw a work of art lying abandoned

  in the hoarfrost and snow of a forest clearing,

  Van Gogh’s Starry Night lying frayed among

  the stiff and rattling grasses, that deep swirling

  blue sky of bursting suns and splitting stars slowly

  being buried by pearl on icy pearl of drift.

  He could have told them the parable

  of the blindness of snow-filled fogs

  and white-outs, or the parable of the linking

  prisms and patterns of any single flake,

  or the parable of the transfiguration

  by snow of needles, thorns, and jagged

  stones. The breath of his words might

  have been seen as a holy ghost of warmth

  in the paralysis of that killing cold.

  I don’t know if Jesus ever witnessed snow.

  It may never have snowed in Galilee,

  although it is written that he rose

  to heaven in “raiments white as snow.”

  WHITEOUT: THE DISAPPEARANCE OF IMPOSSIBILITIES

  Anything could appear to me here now,

  walking in this obfuscation of snow and fog,

  a true blizzard, if the wind were swifter.

  Totally veiled, I move on legs I can’t see,

  parting endless screens and doorways

  of chilling silk and ice-threaded smoke.

  A black swan might float before me

  at any moment, a hand’s breadth

  from my face, emerging suddenly

  through this solid alabaster, a swan

  so black it’s a mere vacancy of bird,

  a perfect absence of itself. I could easily

  proceed, entering the fall of its body,

  its wings spreading into their own deep

  hollows as it vanishes with me.

  And it seems altogether probable

  that a white wagon hung with ivory

  orchids and pale ferns and pulled by white

  sea turtles could pass silently

  above me, trailing slithers of pellucid

  flying fish and ribbon eels twisting

  through swells of icy dust.

  Many crippled angels attend me here,

  hovering on all sides. My breath,

  the same color as this storm, floats

  through their snow-filled wimples, swirling

  their gauzy pantaloons. Coming in and out

  of existence as I touch them, they regard me,

  holding their muslin canopies over my head,

  reciting prayers of blindness. In my vertigo,

  I posit these angels now, not as beings,

  but as fictions of time creating

  the framework of a necessary place.

  This dizzy loss, this dizzy loss is the same

  loss, the same gain as dancing slowly

  nowhere, eyes closed, with a boy I remember,

  a boy who draws me closer, taking me in,

  as a winter landscape filled with drowning

  seas of descending snow takes in

  and transfigures all previous boundaries.

  Just now a christ with white eyes

  touched my face. I felt the drift

  of his hand across my forehead, his fingertips

  brushing with Braille lightness once

  along my cold lips blessing thus aloud

  each and every one of his missing bones.

  WHAT EXISTENCE

  It has its places, in the grains of frigid gray

  dust on the moon, in the descent of a barb

  of feather lost from a jay, in a rasp of leaf

  released by the sky and sinking to winter.

  Distinctly present in a stone hand lying open

  on rubble, in a clear glass marble embedded

  in place of an eye, in the shorn hair of dead

  women taken for wigs, it is itself and actual

  across hillsides before threatening thunder

  begins, in hollow, in cavity, in null,

  on the surface of the lake where the heron’s

  wavering reflection lay before the heron rose

  and disappeared. It is there in the workings

  of wind around isolated spires of rock, through

  abandoned trestles, picking at the rotted wooden

  beams of condemned bridges, there among dry

  tares and tarweeds, in any shard of buried

  pottery, any crust of insect hull, any fragments

  of crushed shell spilled like splinters of bone

  thrown for dice on the sand, as the sun’s dark

  light in the east at dusk. In the steady haunting

  waiting here and now, it is replicated and fact.

  TO COME BACK

  as an easy wind circumnavigating the land,

  spreading slender grasses, their tawny sheaths

  and dry bristles bending and swinging

  in my wake, or lifting seeds, the keys of white

  ash, the cottons of white poplar, carrying

  their promises within my boneless presence;

  to be a gusty wind in winter, an airy

  cloud of resurrection raising the fallen

  snow, surging skyward off an open hillside,

  a swirling spiral of icy light circulating

  within me like blood;

  to bring the native fragrances of ripe

  orchards, vineyards, and cedar oils,

  the fecund damp of mountain rain forests

  into the streets of the city, becoming myself

  the odors of sweet perfumes, frying meat,

  and liquors, the yeast of loaves rising

  on their racks, smoke and steam my allies;

  to give to the august and muted needles

  of the piney woods sounds harmonious,

  to release chords of voices inside the spires

  of red rock corridors or make visible the art

  of light in motion on dew-covered vines

  of morning glories, or bestow leaping

  pirouettes to languid dust of abandoned roads;

  to be an easy wind smoothing the skin

  of a lake at dusk, barely touching its radiance,

  to pass over those waters as negligibly

  as a shadow passes over the eyes, as silently

  as the spirit of deliverance passes over each night

  without notice, soothing, barely touching,

  the hands and brows, the lips of the sleeping;

  it could be grand—an eternal breath like the wind,

  transcendent and old, to be in death always

  ancient in the way the wind is always new.

  EDGING DUSK, ARS POETICA

  When we meet now, we meet always

  at dusk to play. The hard sun soothed,

  easing off, is a mere sky of placid sea,

  a pale plain of dimming blue and dun.

  Even against the forest of walnut,

  sassafras, and scrub oak hedging

  our court, I can see his silhouette clearly,

  as if he were a distinct piece of night

  broken away, the sureness and potency

  of night taken shape and set before me.

  I imagine a greeting.

  I serve. He receives. We play.

  He’s quick, anticipating me, meeting

  each volley squarely. The thonk of the ball


  found and sent speeding back and forth

  is a smooth, fulfilling pleasure in the body,

  as keen, as sweet as the swallow

  of warm bread dipped in vinegar oil.

  My aim determines his position; his return

  predestines mine. I like what I become.

  I adore his reckoning. More than once, I want

  to jump the net and take him down. Pin

  his shoulders. Kiss his face. Our game

  is more than memory and prophecy.

  Gradually the screen of trees dissolves,

  disappears; or else the night expands,

  absorbing the spaces inside each vein

  and limb; or else the forest and the night

  switch names, trade places. I lose sight

  of him among the cast of stars.

  His return comes from farther

  and farther away, the thrust of the ball

  sounding more and more of shadow,

  its journey back to me a longer

  and longer message. I can still judge

  his angle, still hear the nuance

  of his strategies. I know his study.

  I dart forward, swing high,

  send the next ball back with all

  the might of my several minds, watch,

  listen, ready in my stance, wait

  for as long it takes.

  YOUNG MELCHIOR TAKES THE EVENING AIR

  (SPATIAL POSITIONING)

  Approaching two handspans from dusk,

  he is an infinitesimal fraction of the day

  concluding. As he looks west, his shadow

  lays a line pointing due east. His spine

  is as straight as the walking staff he carries.

  He strolls through the center of a grassland,

  seed-headed weeds and wild rye swirling

  around him in a gold glinting wind. He walks,

  as well, within the memory of a circle of fish

  he once saw similarly swirling, a living ring

  flashing silver in a silver sea.

  He is three degrees northwest of madness,

  three steps beyond glory, standing alongside

  a bank of sunflowers up to their necks

  in madness, up to their necks in glory.

  He passes through a coordinance

  of fragrances: yarrow, nectarine, salt,

  a vagueness of myrrh. The presence

  of his place is validated by a yellow-headed

  blackbird who watches with its one

  appropriate eye.

  Reflecting an angle of attention, he pauses

  as he attunes to the sounds of insects

  chirring in the weeds of a rain-filled delve.

  For a moment, he is located both inside

  and outside his vision of finding that storied

  baby hidden in a basket among water-filled

  weeds and the sleepy strumming of crickets.

  Would he take the infant up in his arms?

  He gauges in the same way the spreading

  branches of the fig tree calculate. His face

  equals the sky he surveys. He enters the night.

  He is more than the darkness as it dives away

  backward now toward the soundless roar

  of the stars appearing from all directions.

  BLUE HEAVENS

  It could make a person dizzy,

  those spinning, circling heavens filled

  with knots of stars, swirling blue

  stars approaching, blue-shadow stars

  fading away. It’s a mayhem of reeling,

  a scattering blue dust of star clouds

  circling the circling centers of spiraling

  galaxies wheeling forever toward no

  known horizon.

  Someone, immersed

  in the deep beauty of these blue celestials,

  could get lost while waiting for hands

  to deliver perhaps an orange, perhaps

  an apple, scarlet or gold, a sprig of green,

  a blossom, pink dogwood, spring plum.

  Inspired by “Golden Horn” Tondino

  The Museum of Fine Arts, Houston, Texas

  THE NEED OF THE BLACK MOON

  We feared this most in those days:

  the black moon in a white sky.

  On waning nights the glossy black

  gleam of this moon’s beauty inching

  toward the west was a ponderous

  pearl too heavy to admire.

  During the nights of its fullness,

  however, there was no lunacy

  in the black moon but a lunar pall

  pervading the countryside, touching

  every hearth and field, as they say.

  Any soul, inevitably so entered,

  succumbed to that dearth. Remember

  the wearisome wringing then.

  And the hooded witch flowers

  spawned by this moon in the damp

  of midnight were no lilies. White

  moths born of their black seeds

  were the art of those blossoms,

  foreboding their theme.

  We feared the endless depth

  of the black moon, the impenetrable

  entryway to its wide-open tunnel,

  the paralyzed swallow of its toothless

  mouth. Is it true, an abyss can create

  shadows of energy? We often found

  dreams in the threat of the black

  moon, in the same way as we often

  heard voices coming from the empty

  sockets of the graveyard skulls.

  The black notes of the black moon’s

  music penned on parchment were

  as vacant as the black dots of the stars

  seen in their constellations against

  the white night of the black moon

  For the comfort of nostalgia, Maestro,

  here is a coin. Play again the dirge

  we danced to in those days.

  NIGHT AND THE CREATION OF GEOGRAPHY

  The screeching cries

  of the killdeer in the night create

  their own narrow channels through the blades

  of broken grasses and sharp-edged

  dunes lining the shore.

  Likewise,

  the nightjar’s whistle cuts a passage,

  like a stream, across the open desert.

  Only the nightjar knows the stars

  of that passage, just as the limpkin’s

  wail is a direction only the limpkin forges

  through the marshlands.

  The furrows

  of the field cricket’s triplet chirps and shrill

  courtship trills transform the sorrels

  and doveweeds in the ditch, fashioning

  needle ways and grids of space by the run

  of their own notes.

  And the thin cough-bark

  of the bobcat establishes another sparse and arid

  stalk among the rocks and brushy land where

  it roots and withers.

  No one can fully explore

  the corridor made through the dark by the coyote’s

  jagged shrieks and clacking yaps, those yelping

  howls like sheer descending cliffs, a noise

  jumbled like rock-filled gulches and gulleys.

  None but the coyote.

  On icy plains, the snowy

  owl occupies the cavern of its own silence,

  a cavern formed by its quest for sweet blood

  of lemming or hare. Within the polished,

  black-and
-white crystals of the freezing

  night air, the owl watches from the warm

  hollow of its stillness.

  AT WORK

  The inner eye of the Cat Goddess recites

  without pausing the blood verses of foraging

  mice written beneath a snow-covered field.

  The Basking God of the lyre snake, red-

  bellied snake, and blue garter snake

  is explaining the coil of the galaxy.

  The Upside-Down Creator of the nuthatch

  descending the tree headfirst in circles

  is willing the sky and toe hooks to hold tight,

  and they do. Seers and Soothsayers are casting

  lots at midnight to determine which beetle—

  the elegant checkered, the nine-spotted

  or two-spotted, the willow leaf, whirligig,

  or harlequin cabbage—will be Lord Inheritor

  of the Following Day. By her shifting, soaring,

  rearranging, and scattering wisdom, the Prophet

  of Autumn Winds makes visible the art

  of the atom. And the Composer of the Sun’s

  Radiance is conducting the chords, the keys

  and harmonies, of colliding ices and cold celestial

  showers, flowing molten lavas and metals

  and all migrating herds and tribes. She counts

  the measures of the evening rains murmuring

  like sleeping birds, numbers each single note

  in the shimmering stanzas of Saturn’s rings,

  in finger cymbals, temple bells, and carillons,

  and—there too—in the cadenza of the white

  rose worn behind her ear.

  THE EARTH WITHOUT A SPIRITUAL DIMENSION

  except for the smallest white button

  of mushroom leading the rank-and-file

  up the rotting trunk of the oak, except for bulb,

  corm, pip, and spore and the passive mien

  of the autumn field when the off-kilter

  scatter and skyward rattle of grasshoppers

  have disappeared and except for the crowd

  of acacia thorns pointing toward all destinations

 

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