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Holy Heathen Rhapsody

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by Pattiann Rogers


  she’s pulled fetid strings

  of maggot-infested flesh

  from abandoned hides;

  once existed for a month

  on the putrid marrow

  from a wild boar’s corpse.

  She’s lived in even leaner

  times, leaping and munching

  on lizards, grasshoppers,

  and grubs.

  Her eyes have seen the evening

  sun setting on the Serengeti

  from inside the boney cavern

  of a fallen wildebeest.

  She’s called with others

  beside a kill, yelped, howled

  for murder’s sake in chorus

  all night long on the starless

  grass sky of the savannah.

  Forager, tenacious scrounger,

  scarred, crippled

  by the hooves of kicking

  gazelles, she knows

  better than anyone else

  what kind of god it was

  who left the pure white bone

  of the moon picked so clean.

  With scab worms and billy-club knots

  on her rear, she’s here—Thief, Felon,

  Mongrel Messiah—beside the blind

  beggar for good.

  And now when his sustaining

  visions of bonfires over water

  come only dimly and rarely

  when his fingertips harden, tough

  and numb as leather and his beseeching

  talents fail, when all sighted

  angels face in the opposite

  direction and there is no one

  in that dark and frightening

  paucity who sees

  that he does not see,

  then with his hand on her head,

  she can lead him down these alleys

  in the way he has to go.

  LESS THAN A WHISPER POEM

  no sound above a nod,

  nothing louder than one wilted

  thread of sunflower gold dropping

  to a lower leaf

  nothing more jarring

  than the transparent slide of a raindrop

  slicking down the furrow of a mossy

  trunk

  slightly less audible than the dip

  and rock of a kite string lost and snagged

  on a limb of oak

  no message

  more profound than December edging

  stiffly through the ice-blue branches

  of the solstice

  nothing more riotous

  than a cold lump of toad watching

  like a stone for a wing of diaphanous

  light to pass,

  as still as a possum’s feint

  no message more profane than

  three straws of frost-covered grass leaning

  together on an empty dune

  a quiet more

  silent than a locked sacristy at midnight,

  more vacant than the void of a secret

  rune lost at sea

  no sound, not even

  a sigh the width of one scale of a white

  moth’s wing, not even a hush the length

  of a candle’s blink

  nothing,

  even less than an imagined finger held

  to imagined lips

  IN THE SILENCE FOLLOWING

  After a freight train lumbers by,

  hissing steam and grumbling curses,

  metal screeching against metal, it passes

  into the night (which is the empty

  shadow of the earth), becoming soft

  clinking spurs, a breathy whistle, low

  bells clanking like tangled chains,

  disappearing as if on lambskin wheels.

  Something lingers then in the silence,

  a reality I can’t name. It remains as near

  to a ghost as the thought of a ghost

  can be, hovering like a dry leaf spirit

  motionless in a hardwood forest absent

  of wind, inexplicably heraldic. It is closest

  to the cry of a word I should know

  by never having heard it.

  What hesitates in that silence possesses

  the same shape as the moment coming

  just after the lamp is extinguished

  but before the patterned moonlight

  on the rug and the window-squares

  of moonlight on the wall opposite

  become evident. That shift of light

  and apprehension is a form I should know

  by having so readily recognized it.

  After the yelping dog is chastened

  and a door slams shut on the winter evening

  filled with snow and its illuminations,

  someone standing outside in the silence

  following might sense not an echo

  or a reflection but the single defining

  feature of that disappearance

  permeating the frigid air.

  When all the strings and wires of the piano’s

  final chord are stilled and soundless, the hands

  just beginning to lift from the keys, when the last

  declaration of the last crow swinging down

  into the broken stalks of the corn field ceases,

  when the river, roaring, bucking, and battering

  in its charge across the land, calms its frothy

  madness back to bed at last, then suspended

  in the space of silence afterward, may be

  a promise, may be a ruse.

  THE DOXOLOGY OF SHADOWS

  They float and sweep. They flicker

  and unfold, having neither electrons

  nor atoms, neither grasp nor escape.

  Like skeletons, they could be

  scaffolds. They are visible echoes.

  Like scaffolds, they could be memory.

  When of cattails and limber willows

  on a summer pond, they are reverie.

  Layering each other in a windy

  forest, they can cover and disfigure

  a face to a puzzle of shifting pieces.

  If straight and unwavering when

  crossing grassy lawns and clearings,

  they are measures of time, true

  of direction. The shadows

  of minnows on the creek bed below

  are either darting ripples of black

  sun over the sand or reverse reflections

  of surge as fish, design as soul.

  They bring the devices and edicts

  of winter, of spring, into the house,

  over walls, ceilings, staircases—

  the inside motion of a blossom falling

  outside, a bird beyond the window

  swooping a passage of pure flight

  through the room. Shadow-drops

  pearl over sofa, table, books, replicating

  rain lingering in gold among leaves

  and branches at dusk.

  I sit on the floor within the shadow

  network of a winter elm, its architecture

  spread across the rug. The substance

  of this structure is less than the bones

  of a bumblebee bat, yet it holds me.

  Some shadows are much esteemed,

  those of canopies, awnings, and parasols.

  Many ancient tales record sightings

  of ostriches seeking the black relief

  of cloud shadows on the savannah,

  following them across the treeless plains

  like magi following the holy star.

  Maybe the metals o
f meteors, the drifting

  remnants of galactic debris, the ices

  and gravels of disintegrating comets

  in their orbits cast showers of tiny pale

  shadows (like spells or blessings or praises

  upon us) as they pass between sun and earth.

  With no fragrance—neither spicy, sweet,

  acrid, nor mellow—without sighs or summaries,

  without an aim of their own, like wraiths

  and ghosts with no heft of any kind—the sole

  matter of shadows is lack. Disappearing

  in darkness, they depend for their being

  on light. Therefore, they cannot be evil.

  Some people still do not believe.

  SPEAK, RAIN

  Sound with the cries of Rachel’s children.

  Moan over empty hillsides and river runnels,

  among the broken stones of abandoned streets

  and fallen fences, through empty channels

  and sharp-ledged ravines resonant with echo.

  Rasp and rattle with the integrity of a perfect

  reckoning down the metal roof onto the splash

  pans of gutters, down the pipes of open sewers.

  Snore skywide with sporadic mumbles.

  Rumble from your own soul sources.

  Stutter erudite nonsense, a stentorian

  preaching from high altars, pellets clicking

  and tapping among the leathery leaves

  of oak and hickory in the upper towers

  of the kingly forest.

  Is that the giggling of lost Peter and Aaron

  pattering on the cold lake’s surface?

  Speak, an eloquence devoid of message

  in the silence of floating fog. I’m listening,

  the voice sinking among the invisible

  blades of the morning marsh.

  Tarry awhile in the dark, humming the sleep

  and lullaby common to that far place

  from which you have come.

  In retreat, challenge slowly in single words

  striking randomly: now, and now, now,

  now and now.

  In the dust, spit large rounded vowels.

  WITHIN THE EARTH BENEATH US

  Our Father, who is the Passageway in the tunnel

  of the worm and the trench of the mole,

  in the wintering eggs of the luminous beetle

  and the ragged reachings of all roots scraggly

  and crooked with the network of their knitted

  inroads, who is the Deep in unseen subterranean

  rivers, the Porous of limestone, sandstone,

  and gravel through which groundwater seeps

  to purity downward, the Sunless in buried aquifers,

  and the overpowering Weakness in the single cell

  enormities surmounting there, who is the Source

  and Savior of the eyeless eel and the eyeless

  pseudoscorpion and is the Blindness of the eyeless

  eel and the eyeless pseudoscorpion, and the rigid

  Seriousness of ancient cave chambers, echoing

  caverns, and catacombs, damp stone spires

  and walls of granite organs, the Light of calcite

  pinnacles which, after touched by sudden light

  in their lasting darkness, emit light themselves,

  dimly, briefly, who is the seething core Intensity

  of molten metals, the center Clench of solid

  iron/nickel fury, who is the complete Circumference,

  each and every inner Radius of orbital earth,

  hallowed and empirical, who is the Story

  and is the Telling and is the Silence beyond

  forever. Amen.

  SIGNIFYING (COMING TO EARTH)

  Rain comes in its minions, streaming

  down into ravines and rimples, running

  over and under bedrock and boulders,

  down the slopes of gulleys, sopping

  mossy dells and frond-filled valleys.

  And snow, without blizzard, colorless

  with silence, floats to earth, gathering

  across plains and lowland forests, covering

  the smallest flat pads of weathered

  mushrooms, filling the upturned hulls

  of spent pods—yucca, locust, pea, mimosa.

  All of these seek the earth.

  Spiders drop too, sometimes sailing

  in hatchling clusters, gliding through

  a still day on streamers or blown

  sideways over fallow fields until

  the wind ceases and they settle

  in the bristled grasses and mayweeds.

  Whispy seeds of ash and maple aim

  for it, each balanced with the wind on double

  paper wings. Every direction points

  finally toward earth. Acorns, walnuts,

  hickories split away, plummet hard,

  knocking through tangled twigs

  and branches to get here.

  And geese zero in, whiffling and skidding

  feet first to a lake-slide landing, skimming

  in praising sprays of water. Watch.

  The earth is so desired. Coming

  as close to it as possible, consumed by it,

  white toads and blind fish adore the deep

  of its internal damp, foregoing color for it,

  relinquishing sight. The inert seek it too,

  bone splinters, fleshy crumbs, nasty orts

  and roughages sink through sea currents

  all the way down to its bottom sunless bed.

  The heavenly—angels, arch-angels—

  deliberately descend, perching and hovering.

  Their choruses sound then like broken chords

  of wind strumming through pinyon pines,

  like the dodecahedron ring of icy chimes

  hanging in crystals from winter eaves.

  With all the vast freedom and void

  of the universe to select from, frigid evil

  comes too, seeking warmth in the belly

  of the lover, power in the birthright of the sea,

  spring light in the pulse of the prairie.

  The earth is so desired. How its rock

  and river body is loved, its dune and hillock,

  its night and day demeanor. Even the dead—gone,

  buried, and forgotten—take its name forever.

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  With thanks for the tenacious and devoted work of the editors of the following journals in which the poems listed were first published, and thanks to the editors of all such journals and magazines that provide venues for the publication of poetry.

  American Scientist: “Holy Heathen Rhapsody”

  ARTline: “Blue Heavens”

  Ecotone: “Co-evolution: Seduction”; “Summer’s Company (Multiple Universes)”

  Field: “Scarlatti Sonata Testament”

  Georgia Review: “At Work”; “Night and the Creation of Geography”; “Yearning Ways”

  Image: “Hail, Spirit”; “Speak, Rain”

  The Iowa Review: “Edging Dusk, Ars Poetica”; “In the Silence Following”; “Less Than a Whisper Poem”

  Literature and Belief: “The Snow of Things”; “What Existence”

  New Mexico Poetry Review: “The Earth Without a Spiritual Dimension”

  Orion: “Romance”

  Poetry International: “The Doxology of Shadows”

  World Literature Today: “Signifying (Coming to Earth)”; “The Body Entire”

  My thanks to the editors of the following chapbooks in which certain poems in this book appeared: Lies and Devotions (Tangram Press) and Summer’s Compa
ny (Brooding Heron Press).

  I’m extremely grateful to Paul Slovak for his kindness, his efficient editing, and his insightful and helpful comments on my manuscript.

  PHOTO BY JOHN R. ROGERS

  Pattiann Rogers has published eleven books of poetry and two collections of essays. Her most recent books are The Grand Array: Writings on Nature, Science, and Spirit (Trinity University Press, 2010) and Wayfare (Penguin, 2008). Song of the World Becoming: New and Collected Poems 1981–2001 (Milkweed Editions) was a finalist for the Los Angeles Times Book Prize and an Editor’s Choice in Booklist. Firekeeper: New and Selected Poems was a finalist for the Lenore Marshall Award and a Publishers Weekly Best Book of 1994. Rogers is the recipient of two NEA Grants, a Guggenheim Fellowship, and a 2005 Literary Award in Poetry from the Lannan Foundation. Her poems have won three prizes from Poetry, the Theodore Roethke Prize from Poetry Northwest, two Strousse Awards from Prairie Schooner, and five Pushcart Prizes. Her work has appeared in Best American Poetry in 1996 and 2009, and in Best Spiritual Writing, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, and 2010. Rogers’s papers are archived in the Sowell Family Collection of Literature, Community, and the Natural World at Texas Tech University. She has been a visiting writer at numerous universities and colleges and was an associate professor at the University of Arkansas from 1993–97. She is the mother of two sons and has three grandsons. She lives with her husband, a retired geophysicist, in Colorado.

  PENGUIN POETS

  JOHN ASHBERY

  Selected Poems

  Self-Portrait in a Covex Mirror

  TED BERRIGAN

  The Sonnets

  LAUREN BERRY

  The Lifting Dress

  JOE BONOMO

  Installations

  PHILIP BOOTH

  Selves

  JULIANNE BUCHSBAUM

  The Apothecary's Heir

  JIM CARROLL

  Fear and Dreaming: The Seclected Poems

  Living at the Movies

  Void of Course

  ALISON HAWTHORNE DEMING

  Genius Loci

  Rope

  CARL DENNIS

 

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