by John Harwood
The following morning brought another summons from Dr. Straker, and an even longer wait before he appeared in the doorway of my room. My mouth was very dry, and I could feel my arm shaking as he took my wrist.
“You are agitated, Miss Ashton. Mr. Mordaunt has told you, I believe, that Miss Ferrars is to visit us. Is that, do you think, the reason for your agitation?”
“I—I cannot tell, sir.”
“You do understand, Miss Ashton, that you are under no obligation to see her? My first duty is to you, as my patient, and I will not have you exposed to unnecessary nervous strain.”
“But sir,” I pleaded, “I want to see Miss Ferrars; I shall be quite calm, I am sure of it. If I seem anxious, it is because—because I hope this meeting will lead to my release.”
“Mr. Mordaunt is certainly of that opinion,” he said drily. “Well, I shall allow it. You may speak to Miss Ferrars—in my presence, of course—but if you seem in the smallest degree distressed, I shall close the proceedings forthwith. And if you should change your mind in the meantime, do not hesitate to send for me—remembering that I shall be leaving for Bristol on Monday afternoon and will not return until Tuesday evening.”
He rose, and seemed about to leave, then paused by the door.
“I take it, speaking of remembering, that you still have no recollection of where you hid Miss Ferrars’ writing case.”
I was suddenly, acutely conscious of the oak chest, a mere three feet from where I was sitting. I felt sure I could smell leather and parchment. My eyes were irresistibly drawn toward the chest, even as I tried to keep them fixed upon the floor at my feet, pretending to reflect. The air was heavy with suspicion.
“I am afraid not, sir.”
“A pity. Well, good day to you, Miss Ashton. I shall look in again on Wednesday, if not before.”
His cool, sardonic smile seemed to linger as he closed the door behind him; the rhythm of his departing footsteps was exactly as I had heard it from the gallery above his workroom.
At a little before five o’clock on Monday, I was standing at the back of the old house, scanning the woods around me for signs of pursuit. Birds were making a great clamour, and there were constant rustlings and cracklings in the undergrowth around me. I could not get enough air, no matter how rapidly I breathed, and at every movement amongst the trees, my heart would give a great jolt and seem to stop altogether.
All afternoon I had waited beneath the copper beech by the forecourt, pretending to be immersed in a book, alternately wondering if the tower clock had stopped and wishing the quarters would not strike so frequently. The shadows were lengthening, and the evening chill beginning to descend, before the gatekeeper emerged from his lodge and opened the gate. A few minutes later I saw Dr. Straker cantering up the drive on a glossy bay horse. He passed through in a flurry of gravel, spurring his horse in the direction of Liskeard. The gatekeeper did not lock up after him but remained by the entrance. As the hoofbeats faded into the distance, I heard a rumble of wheels from the opposite direction.
A small black carriage, enclosed like a London hansom, turned in through the gate and pulled up in the middle of the drive, about twenty yards from where I was sitting. No one got out; the driver remained on his box. I could not tell if there was anybody within.
Nor could I afford to delay any longer. I rose to my feet, made a play of stretching, and set off across the grass, fighting the temptation to hurry or look back until I had passed out of sight of the carriage.
My original plan had been to entice Lucia away from the house, by way of hints dropped during our supervised conversation. She wanted the wills; I wanted my freedom. If she believed I was prepared to strike a bargain with her, she might slip out and meet me somewhere private. I would force her to change clothes with me, and then somehow imprison her for long enough for me to reach Plymouth, show the papers to Henry Lovell, and trust in my powers of persuasion. Lucia, or so I had persuaded myself, would not have risked an interview with him; far safer just to forge my signature on a letter whenever she needed money.
It had seemed a desperate enough scheme when I first thought of it; as the day approached, it looked altogether hopeless, but without a disguise of some sort, I would certainly be apprehended. I had thought of stealing into the servants’ quarters and taking a maid’s uniform, but every foray had ended at a locked door, until I realised that the key was already in my hand. Dr. Straker was not especially tall; dressed in the clothes from his workroom, I would have a far better chance of escape. If necessary, I would fill my pockets with biscuits and walk all the way to Plymouth. I had found a place on the boundary wall, on the far side of the wood, where the trees grew close enough for me to scramble onto the top.
If I found enough money for the train, I would leave at once. I had brought my writing case with me, secured beneath my dress with strips torn from a petticoat; the outline was visible, but my cloak concealed it. Otherwise, I would hide everything I needed and leave immediately after breakfast the following morning. I had excused myself from luncheon often enough that my absence would not be noticed until the evening, by which time I ought to be in Plymouth. And even if the alarm was raised earlier, they would be looking for a woman, not a man.
I reached the alcove in the wall, took one more fearful look round, and eased the door open. Before, the sound had been muffled by the rain; now, every creak of the hinges echoed like a gunshot. As I stepped inside, I thought I heard a twig snap somewhere nearby. But I dared not look back. I hastened up the stairs, through the door at the top, and on to the gallery. The muddy trail I had left ten days ago seemed quite undisturbed.
On legs that shook as though I had been stricken with palsy, I let myself down through the hole in the floor, with the whole flimsy staircase quivering in sympathy. Clothes, money, food, I told myself. The fear will not kill you unless you give in to it.
The space beneath the gallery floor was much darker. Several large pieces of machinery, partially covered by dust sheets, were ranged along the wall: they looked like massive spinning wheels except that the wheels were made of glass. A desk, littered with papers, stood in the corner by the staircase. The wall itself was blank except for a doorway at the far end.
Clothes, money, food. The closet door was shut, but not, to my overwhelming relief, locked. I took down a shirt, a waistcoat, and a frayed tweed suit, such as a countryman might wear for rough walking, wondering why he kept a wardrobe here. The shoulders were too big, and the sleeves too long, as were the trousers, but not outlandishly so, and his heavy tweed overcoat—with a scarf to cover my throat—would help to conceal the disparities. I felt in all the pockets, hoping for coins, but found only lint and fragments of paper.
The hat would have covered my ears if my hair, which I had pinned as high and as tightly as I could manage, had not held it up. I saw at a glance that the boots were far too large, but the cuffs of the trousers would cover my own shoes.
Money and food. The biscuit tin was half full of ginger biscuits, stale but perfectly edible; I crammed them all into the pockets of the overcoat and returned to the desk, where I draped the clothes over Dr. Straker’s chair, and rifled through every drawer, but I found only papers, many of them filled with elaborate diagrams and mathematical symbols. Every nerve was screaming, Take the clothes and go; but without the train fare, I would have to stay another night, or sleep in the open; a woman dressed as a man could not ask anyone for shelter.
I looked frantically around the room, wondering if there was anything I could take to a pawnbroker in Liskeard. But I had never pawned anything in my life, and all I could see were tools and scientific instruments, which were sure to arouse suspicion.
There was, however, a cabinet on the other side of the floor, with a drawer at the top. An invalid chair, with an opening in the seat like a commode, stood nearby; I was sure it had not been there ten days ago. As I approached, I saw that leather straps had been attached to the arms and legs: once secured, the occupant would not be
able to move. I imagined, all too vividly, a patient in a fit of mania, teeth bared, face distorted with fury, straining to break loose.
Hanging from one of the handles was a curious piece of headgear, like a coronet made of thick brown leather, with black-coated wires trailing away from it. Inside the circlet were two polished metal discs, about the size of a half-crown and six inches apart.
Take the clothes and run.
I opened the drawer.
Inside were dressings and bandages, several stout leather straps, neatly rolled, some crescent-shaped pieces of gutta-percha, about the size of my hand, an open case of surgical instruments . . . and a fine silver chain, glittering faintly as I drew it out.
The key to my writing case.
Again I became conscious of that low, resonant hum, not so much a sound as a faint vibration coursing through my bones and teeth. I put the chain over my neck and ran, scooping up the clothes and clutching the hat by the brim as I scrambled back up the stairs, squeezed past the furniture and through to the antechamber. Should I change my clothes here, or in the chamber below? I would rather freeze in a ditch than stay another night within these walls.
Throwing the hat and the clothes down the stairwell, I followed unsteadily after. But at the lowest step, my foot caught in my skirts, and I went sprawling across the tangled clothing. My head struck the floor; dazzling pinpoints of light flashed before my eyes, and I lay for a few seconds unable to move, wondering if I had broken anything.
Escape. I dragged myself painfully to my feet and went over to the window to make sure there was no one outside. Only my blurred reflection, staring back at me through the grimy pane.
My reflection recoiled from me, its mouth opening in a soundless cry of surprise or alarm as darkness swallowed it.
I was woken by hands undoing—no, doing up—the buttons of my dress. A young woman was crouching over me. I had seen her last in the doorway at Gresham’s Yard, dressed in my favorite pale blue gown. Now she was wearing a grey travelling-dress and cloak exactly like my own. Her face blurred and re-formed; I wondered hazily if she might be a dream. As she rose to her feet, the cloak fell open, revealing my dragonfly brooch pinned to her bosom, its ruby eyes glowing like drops of blood.
Lucia.
And, clasped in her gloved hand, my writing case.
I tried to stand, but a wave of dizziness swept over me. She murmured something that might have been “I am sorry,” turned, and was gone.
Using the wall for support, I dragged myself to my feet and over to the doorway. She was already ten yards away, hastening toward the ruined stable; I would never catch her now. And even if I did, who would believe me? I was the lunatic; she was Miss Ferrars, and the writing case was hers, not mine. And soon, very soon, she would be the owner of Tregannon Asylum.
She had almost reached the far corner of the house when Dr. Straker, still in his riding clothes, appeared from behind a buttress and seized Lucia by the arm. I saw, as I drew back from the doorway, that he was steering her toward me.
I tried to gather up the clothes, but stooping made my head spin so badly that I feared I would faint again. I left them where they were, scrambled back up the stairs on my hands and knees, and into the stone chamber above. There I halted, crouched by the entrance, trying to control my breathing as voices echoed in the stairwell: Dr. Straker’s as cool and ironic as ever; Lucia’s shrill with fear.
“And what, pray, are my clothes doing here?”
“She had them.”
“I see. And where is she now?”
“I—she must have run away. Now please, you must let me go—”
“Perhaps she is within; I think we should make sure. You first, Miss Ferrars—or should I say, Miss Ardent?”
I heard a gasp from Lucia, and faint sounds of struggle.
“You may climb on your own, or be dragged, as you prefer. And do not try to escape me. All the other doors are locked.”
A sparrow could not have concealed itself in that featureless chamber. I had no choice but to retreat through the inner door, which I dared not close, along the dark passage, and onto the gallery. Daylight was fading fast.
Should I go on down to his workroom? I darted toward the stairs—but where would I hide? I fled along the gallery instead, boards squeaking beneath my feet. There was no passage at the far end: the furniture was heaped against the wall. Too late to go back. I squeezed into the only possible hiding place—beneath a small table, with chairs stacked on either side of it—and huddled there, quivering like a cornered animal. If Dr. Straker came even halfway along the gallery, he was bound to see me.
The floor trembled. I heard muffled voices, then the sound of a lock turning over. My last chance of escape had gone. The footsteps drew nearer.
“Down the stairs, if you please.” Though he was speaking quietly, Dr. Straker’s voice rang through the chapel. I could feel the staircase shaking as they descended. Lucia was making incoherent sounds—or sobs—of protest.
To hear without being able to see was more than I could bear. I crawled forward, keeping close against the side wall, and raised my head until my eyes were just above the balustrade.
Dr. Straker was standing with his back to me, one hand clamped around Lucia’s arm, my writing case in the other. He set the case down on a bench and steered Lucia toward the invalid chair.
“Pray take a seat, Miss Ardent. I am afraid the accommodations are rather limited.”
She struggled, but, with a single deft twist, he forced her down into the chair and stooped over her right arm as she flailed at him with her left. Within a few seconds he had her other wrist pinned and strapped; she kicked wildly and tried to bite him, but her legs were secured in turn, and then her upper arms, until she could only writhe helplessly as he stood back and straightened his coat.
“You will feel no pain, I assure you. It is not often that I have the luxury of working with an intelligent, fully sentient subject, let alone one to whom ethical considerations do not apply. I shall make the most of the opportunity.”
“Please, I beg of you, let me go! You have the papers; I promise, on my life, we will never speak of it to a living soul.”
“Your promise, I fear, is not a currency I can accept. Blackmailing Edmund Mordaunt was one thing; attempting to blackmail me was quite another. It amused me to let you believe that you had deceived me as you deceived your unfortunate—cousin, is she not? Miss Ashton, as she is destined to remain. Whereas you will continue in the role of Miss Ferrars—the late Miss Ferrars, if I may anticipate a little.
“And now I must go in search of Miss Ashton. We shall renew our acquaintance after dark; I regret I cannot make you more comfortable, or prescribe anything stronger than a mild sedative. A few drops of laudanum, perhaps? No? Then I must leave you. And please do not waste your breath in calling for help; these walls are immensely thick. You could scream all night, and not a soul would hear you.”
He picked up the writing case, and seemed to hesitate. I heard him murmur something that sounded like “Best not risk it.” Then he turned abruptly and strode toward the stairs. I shrank into the corner beneath the balustrade, not daring to retreat in case the floor creaked. But the staircase did not move. I heard a drawer open, followed by a muttered exclamation. The drawer closed again; a key turned in a lock.
I peeped over the edge again and saw him standing over Lucia. The writing case was no longer in his hand.
“Did you take the key?” he said sternly.
She shook her head wildly.
Caught between the terror of being seen, and the terror of not being able to see him, I dared not move my head. He moved to a panel on the wall and ran his hand across it. All around the room, yellow light sprang from what I had thought were oil lamps, shaded so as to direct their illumination downward, leaving the gallery in near darkness.
He stood in the middle of the floor, surveying his domain, and then began to move around the room, glancing under benches and opening cupboard doors—
including that of the closet, which I had, after all, remembered to shut—until he passed directly beneath me. I heard the rasp of sheeting being pulled off the machines below.
My only chance, I thought, is to crawl back to my hiding place as soon as I feel his tread on the stairs, and pray that the sound of his ascent will cover any noise I make. But again the staircase did not move; he reappeared beneath the far end of the gallery and completed his circuit of the room.
Once more he paused beside Lucia, so that his shadow fell across her face. He drew a watch from his waistcoat and considered it, frowning. Then he raised his head, scanning the gallery. I held my breath.
“No,” he said at last, “I must not delay.”
He crossed to the panel. Lights around the room began to go out, one by one, until only a lamp above the vestry door remained. With a mocking sketch of a bow to Lucia, he drew out a bunch of keys, strode to the vestry door, unlocked it and departed, turning the key behind him. The echoes flitted around the chapel, fading into silence.
My first thought was to remain where I was, wait for his return, and try not to make a sound while he was doing—whatever he meant to do to Lucia. Then, perhaps, I could escape when everything was quiet. But he would surely go straight to my room, and then the hunt would be up. And how long could it be before he decided to make a thorough search of the gallery?
No; my only chance was to recover my writing case, find a way out, and hope that Dr. Straker’s clothes were still where I had left them. Dressed as a man, I might pass for one of my pursuers.
I rose stiffly to my feet and moved unsteadily along the gallery and down the stairs.
“Georgina! For pity’s sake, help me!”
I did not look at her but went straight across to the other door I had seen. It was heavy and close-fitting; when I tried the handle, it did not even move against the frame.