by James Hynes
Then he hobbled past the three cubicles of J.J., Colonel, and Bob Wier. The personal effects of all three men still sat on their desks or along the shelves, but all three were absent. Paul paused the longest in the doorway of Bob Wier, where he gazed along the shelf above Bob’s desk at the speed-reading manuals and the TexGro literature, his gaze coming to rest on the portraits of Bob’s wife and children, arranged by height. Paul stared longest at the picture of Bob’s wife, a scrubbed young woman with a helmet of blonde hair and the vacant look preferred by the Sears photographer. Paul felt a thickening in his throat.
“Rick’s waiting for you, Paul,” said Nolene from behind him, and Paul turned. She was gazing down at something on her desk and expertly twirling a pencil in her right hand. Paul stared at her until she looked up and met his gaze. Very slowly she shook her head, then lowered her eyes again.
“Paul!” cried Rick from inside his office. “Git on in here.”
As Paul limped through the door, he glanced quickly round Rick’s office. The ceiling was undisturbed; the chair was tucked neatly under the table; Rick’s monitor and desk lamp and telephone sat where they always had. Not only was his window intact, there wasn’t a scratch or a chip on it. Beyond the glass the thick limb of the dying oak seemed to cock its elbow at Paul.
“Way-ul, it never rains, but it rains,” Rick said, as Paul propped himself against the table to take some weight off his feet. “Colonel, J.J., and Bob have jumped ship.” He gestured at three letters laid side by side on his desk, each one on TxDoGS stationery, each one smudged in a different place. “They say they’ve quit to open their own pit barbecue establishment, can you believe that?”
Rick looked as flustered as Paul had ever seen him. He lifted his eyes beseechingly to Paul. “What the hell do these birds know about barbecue?”
Paul bit his lip and said nothing. Rick heaved himself back in his chair and linked his fingers behind his head. “Damnedest thing I ever heard,” he muttered, addressing the ceiling. Then he heaved himself forward, shuffled the three letters of resignation together, and folded his hands.
“That makes you the go-to guy on the RFP,” he said. “You’re the lead honcho now, Paul. Well, truth be told, you always was, but now it’s official.” Rick’s antic bonhomie seemed to founder a bit as he met Paul’s steady gaze. “Unless you’re leaving, too,” he said, with a nervous laugh.
“Actually . . .” Paul shifted his weight to his other foot. The pain was a dull ache, but it never went away.
Rick’s shoulders sagged, and for a moment Paul thought the man might actually cry. He’d never seen anyone look so crestfallen, and he took it as some kind of compliment.
“I just came in to say good-bye,” Paul said.
“You got another job?” Rick said.
“Actually,” Paul said, “I’m going back to school.” Then he smiled and said, “I think I’ve had my fill of government work.”
Paul took nothing from his cube. He even left behind his copy of Seven Science Fiction Novels of H. G. Wells, placing it on the desk next to his mouse pad for the next temp to find. Then Preston walked him out of the TxDoGS Building to his car, and he helped Paul open the doors and the hatchback to let the heat out. As Paul settled behind the wheel and started the engine, Preston slammed the hatchback for him and came around to Paul’s window. He tossed an envelope on Paul’s lap, and Paul pried it open to find three hundred dollars in twenties.
“I can’t take this,” Paul said. He felt tears forming in the corners of his eyes.
“Son, you can’t not take it,” Preston said.
“I’ll pay you back,” Paul said, struggling to control his voice.
“Well.” Preston squinted away towards the river, then peered through the window at Paul. “You pass that money along to somebody else someday, and we’ll call it square.” He stuck his big, rough hand through the window, and Paul took it. Paul didn’t know what else to say, so he put the car in gear and Preston stepped back and crossed his arms. Halfway out of the parking space, Paul stopped and looked out the window and said, “Hey, Preston, you ever been to Beaver, Oklahoma?”
Preston smiled, thinking of the obvious joke, but he resisted the temptation. “Can’t say that I have,” he said. “What’s in Beaver, Oklahoma?”
“I don’t know yet,” said Paul.
Now, two hours later, Paul was finished loading his car. The only thing of his left in the apartment was the Norton Anthology, resting on the kitchen table; the Post-it with the page number on it was folded over and tucked tenderly between the pages like a billet-doux. Paul pried the apartment key off his key ring and placed it on the table next to the book. Then he glanced around the apartment, even lifting his eyes to the ceiling.
“Charlotte?” he said, though he didn’t expect any kind of answer. He hadn’t seen her since that crucial moment in the tree Friday night, but then he hadn’t spent any time in his apartment since then. He still could not puzzle out her presence in Rick’s office on Friday night, nor could he make sense of what she had done there. Not only had he never seen her outside of his residence before, she had certainly never done him any favors. Yet she had saved his life and Callie’s. That was what he couldn’t understand. It was too much to hope, he supposed, that maybe her curse was broken, that he would never see her anymore, that somehow, by doing more or less the right thing—even a few seconds late—he had dispelled Charlotte’s juju, repaid his debt to her, alleviated her feline rage. That would be too much to ask.
“Alright, I’m leaving now,” he said aloud, lifting the anthology off the table. “Um, thanks, I guess.”
He turned and carried the book out of the apartment, pulling the door shut after him and twisting the knob to make sure it was locked. Then he hobbled to his car, hauled open the screeching door, and settled himself behind the wheel. He turned to drop the book on the passenger seat, and there sat Charlotte, looking nearly as she had done when she was alive, her paws tucked neatly under her, her tail curled all the way around her. She looked up at him with her indifferent gaze.
“Well, this is new,” said Paul. He tossed the book behind the seat, onto the heap of boxes. He glanced at Charlotte and shrugged. He started the car, and the engine clattered to life, the metallic banging from the undercarriage bouncing off the walls of the Angry Loner Motel. He laid his hand on the gearshift and looked back through the rear window, but then he sagged in his seat and sighed, the car vibrating noisily under him. He looked down at the ghost of a cat beside him.
“You still hate me, right?” he said. “So why didn’t you let them kill me? Do you care if I live or die, or are you just being territorial?”
Charlotte did not move or make a sound, but she watched him steadily.
“Okay, I get it,” Paul went on. “It’s not that you don’t want me to be tormented, you just don’t want anybody else to do it.” Paul narrowed his gaze at her. “Or is it possible you didn’t want anything to happen to Callie, and I just rode along in her slipstream. Is that it? Do you love Callie? Is that even possible?”
The car chugged almost expectantly under him. Jesus H. Christ, he thought, I’m talking to a cat. Hell, I’m talking to a dead cat. He looked down at Charlotte, curled calmly on the seat. It occurred to him that she might even be purring, but he’d never be able to tell over the racket of the car. He wondered what she’d do if he touched her and decided that it probably wasn’t a good idea to try.
“Never mind,” he said, his fingers curled round the gearshift. “Forget I asked. Screw it. Because you know what, Charlotte?” He settled himself firmly in his seat and gave her a defiant look. “I don’t care. You do whatever you want, and I’ll do whatever I want. It just doesn’t matter anymore. Whether you’re real or imaginary, whether you haunt me in public or in private, I just don’t care. You want to know why, Charlotte?”
She was watching him wide-eyed. Her tail had come uncurled, and it lashed back and forth across the worn corduroy of the seat.
“Because in the last four weeks, Charlotte, I have seen it all. Of all the strange things that have happened to me in my life, you’re not even at the top of the list anymore. Okay? Got that?”
He leaned towards her, brandishing his index finger.
“Whatever you do,” he said, “wherever you follow me, there’s not a single goddamn thing you can do to surprise me anymore. Not one.”
Charlotte yawned, splitting her sharp little muzzle nearly in two. She blinked up at Paul.
“Shut up and drive,” said the cat.
AUTHOR’S NOTE
THE AUTHOR IS GRATEFUL TO H. G. Wells for the Morlocks and the Beast Folk; to Henrik Ibsen for the Boyg and a few lines from Peer Gynt; to Lady Mary Wroth (1587?—1651?) for her “Crown of Sonnets Dedicated to Love”; and to Edvard Grieg for the incidental music to Peer Gynt, especially “In the Hall of the Mountain King.” He’s also extremely grateful to Neil Olson, Mimi Mayer, Keith Taylor, John Marks, Gretchen Wahl, Becky McDermott, Martin Lewis, Ross Orr, and Josh Kendall. And it wouldn’t be a proper Author’s Note if he didn’t thank his two cats, Conrad and Hobbes, who carry on the spirit of Charlotte, sprawl across his keyboard, and (lucky for him) keep their opinions to themselves.