To my new and deeply respected colleagues at Simon Spotlight—thank you for recognizing the importance of telling this story in the most authentic way and never flinching at the gory details. Jen Bergstrom—my initial conversation with you gave me the courage to tell my story. Sarah Sper—you edited this book with a deliberate, sensitive touch, and great encouragement. Trish Boczkowski—you took over the reins and shepherded the book through publication with grace and dedication. Cara Bedick—you never missed a beat in the changing of the guard. And last but not least, Michael Nagin—your involvement and excitement made the jacket come to life.
To the people who helped me get my life back more than once: Jeff Lukas, Cathy & Tom Steiner, Stacy Tregaskiss and everyone at Narconon Louisiana, Novus Medical Detox, LRH, Geraldine Owen Delaney a.k.a. G.O.D., Dr. Drew Pinsky, Bob Forest, Bill Wilson, and Bob Smith, and all my friends and family in recovery—I don’t know what I’d do without you.
To Two Bunch Palms Resort and Spa—you are my sanctuary, my favorite place. To Palihouse—where most of this book was written, thanks for the fries and inspiration. To the LAPD—y’all saved my life and set in motion the miracle that is my recovery.
And, of course, love and gratitude to Freddie the Noble Pug, Max the King of All Pugs, and the newest addition to our family, Little Louie the timid Chihuahua, who has yet to reveal his special name.
Table of Contents
Cover Page
Title Page
Copyright Page
Table of Contents
Introduction
Part One: Laura Phillips
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Part Two: Mackenzie Phillips
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Part Three: Girlfriend, Wife, Daughter
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Part Four: Papa's New Mama
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Part Five: The Rock
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
AFTERWORD
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
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