“This is Doctor Holroyd,” added Sir Harry. “Is that cambric tea you have there?”
She inclined her head to the stranger by her husband’s bed as if she had never seen him before, and he, taking his cue, and for many other reasons, was silent.
“Yes, this is your cambric tea,” she said to her husband. “You like it just now, don’t you? How do you find Sir Harry, Dr Holroyd?”
There were two jugs on the tray; one of crystal half full of cold milk, and one of white porcelain full of hot water; Lady Strangeways proceeded to mix these fluids in equal proportions and gave the resultant drink to her husband, helping him first to sit up in bed.
“I think that Sir Harry has a nasty turn of influenza,” answered the doctor mechanically. “He wants me to stay. I’ve promised till the morning, anyhow.”
“That will be a pleasure and a relief,” said Lady Strangeways gravely. “My husband has been ill some time and seems so much worse than he need—for influenza.”
The patient, feebly sipping his cambric tea, grinned queerly at the doctor.
“So much worse—you see, doctor!” he muttered.
“It is good of you to stay,” continued Lady Strangeways equally. “I will see about your room, you must be as comfortable as possible.”
She left as she had come, a shadow-coloured figure retreating to a chill light.
The sick man held up his glass as if he gave a toast.
“You see! Cambric tea!”
And Bevis Holroyd was thinking: does she not want to know me? Does he know what we once were to each other? How comes she to be married to this man—her husband’s name was Custiss—and the horror of the situation shook the calm that was his both from character and training; he went to the window and looked out on the bleached park; light, slow snow was falling, a dreary dance over the frozen grass and before the grey corpses that paled, one behind the other, to the distance shrouded in colourless mist.
The thin voice of Harry Strangeways recalled him to the bed.
“Would you like to take a look at this, doctor?” He held out the half drunk glass of milk and water.
“I’ve no means of making a test here,” said Dr Holroyd, troubled. “I brought a few things, nothing like that.”
“You are not so far from Harley Street,” said Sir Harry. “My car can fetch everything you want by this afternoon—or perhaps you would like to go yourself?”
“Yes,” replied Bevis Holroyd sternly. “I would rather go myself.”
His trained mind had been rapidly covering the main aspects of his problem and he had instantly seen that it was better for Lady Strangeways to have this case in his hands. He was sure there was some hideous, fantastic hallucination on the part of Sir Harry, but it was better for Lady Strangeways to leave the matter in the hands of one who was friendly towards her. He rapidly found and washed a medicine bottle from among the sick room paraphernalia and poured it full of the cambric tea, casting away the remainder.
“Why did you drink any?” he asked sharply.
“I don’t want her to think that I guess,” whispered Sir Harry. “Do you know, doctor, I have a lot of her love letters—written by—”
Dr Holroyd cut him short.
“I couldn’t listen to this sort of thing behind Lady Strangeways’ back,” he said quickly. “That is between you and her. My job is to get you well. I’ll try and do that.”
And he considered, with a faint disgust, how repulsive this man looked sitting up with pendant jowl and drooping cheeks and discoloured, pouchy eyes sunk in pads of unhealthy flesh and above the spiky crown of Judas-coloured hair.
Perhaps a woman, chained to this man, living with him, blocked and thwarted by him, might be wrought upon to—
Dr Holroyd shuddered inwardly and refused to continue his reflection.
As he was leaving the gaunt sombre house about which there was something definitely blank and unfriendly, a shrine in which the sacred flames had flickered out so long ago that the lamps were blank and cold, he met Lady Strangeways.
She was in the wide entrance hall standing by the wood fire that but faintly dispersed the gloom of the winter morning and left untouched the shadows in the rafters of the open roof.
Now he would not, whether she wished or no, deny her; he stopped before her, blocking out her poor remnant of light.
“Mollie,” he said gently, “I don’t quite understand—you married a man named Custiss in India.”
“Yes. Harry had to take this name when he inherited this place. We’ve been home three years from the East, but lived so quietly here that I don’t suppose anyone has heard of us.”
She stood between him and the firelight, a shadow among the shadows; she was much changed; in her thinness and pallor, in her restless eyes and nervous mouth he could read signs of discontent, even of unhappiness.
“I never heard of you,” said Dr Holroyd truthfully. “I didn’t want to. I liked to keep my dreams.”
Her hair was yet the lovely cedar wood hue, silver, soft and gracious; her figure had those fluid lines of grace that he believed he had never seen equalled.
“Tell me,” she added abruptly, “what is the matter with my husband? He has been ailing like this for a year or so.”
With a horrid lurch of his heart that was usually so steady, Dr Holroyd remembered the bottle of milk and water in his pocket.
“Why do you give him that cambric tea?” he counter questioned.
“He will have it—he insists that I make it for him—”
“Mollie,” said Dr Holroyd quickly, “you decided against me, ten years ago, but that is no reason why we should not be friends now—tell me, frankly, are you happy with this man?”
“You have seen him,” she replied slowly. “He seemed different ten years ago. I honestly was attracted by his scholarship and his learning as well as—other things.”
Bevis Holroyd needed to ask no more; she was wretched, imprisoned in a mistake as a fly in amber; and those love letters? Was there another man?
As he stood silent, with a dark reflective look on her weary brooding face, she spoke again:
“You are staying?”
“Oh yes,” he said, he was staying, there was nothing else for him to do.
“It is Christmas week,” she reminded him wistfully. “It will be very dull, perhaps painful, for you.”
“I think I ought to stay.”
Sir Harry’s car was announced; Bevis Holroyd, gliding over frozen roads to London, was absorbed with this sudden problem that, like a mountain out of a plain, had suddenly risen to confront him out of his level life.
The sight of Mollie (he could not think of her by that sick man’s name) had roused in him tender memories and poignant emotions and the position in which he found her and his own juxtaposition to her and her husband had the same devastating effect on him as a mine sprung beneath the feet of an unwary traveller.
London was deep in the whirl of a snow storm and the light that penetrated over the grey roof tops to the ugly slip of a laboratory at the back of his consulting rooms was chill and forbidding.
Bevis Holroyd put the bottle of milk on a marble slab and sat back in the easy chair watching that dreary chase of snow flakes across the dingy London pane.
He was thinking of past springs, of violets long dead, of roses long since dust, of hours that had slipped away like lengths of golden silk rolled up, of the long ago when he had loved Mollie and Mollie had seemed to love him; then he thought of that man in the big bed who had said:
“My wife is poisoning me.”
Late that afternoon Dr Holroyd, with his suitcase and a professional bag, returned to Strangeways Manor House in Sir Harry’s car; the bottle of cambric tea had gone to a friend, a noted analyst; somehow Doctor Holroyd had not felt able to do this task himself; he was very fortunate, he felt, in securing
this old solitary and his promise to do the work before Christmas.
As he arrived at Strangeways Manor House which stood isolated and well away from a public high road where a lonely spur of the weald of Kent drove into the Sussex marshes, it was in a blizzard of snow that effaced the landscape and gave the murky outlines of the house an air of unreality, and Bevis Holroyd experienced that sensation he had so often heard of and read about, but which so far his cool mind had dismissed as a fiction.
He did really feel as if he was in an evil dream; as the snow changed the values of the scene, altering distances and shapes, so this meeting with Mollie, under these circumstances, had suddenly changed the life of Bevis Holroyd.
He had so resolutely and so definitely put this woman out of his life and mind, deliberately refusing to make enquiries about her, letting all knowledge of her cease with the letter in which she had written from India and announced her marriage.
And now, after ten years, she had crossed his path in this ghastly manner, as a woman her husband accused of attempted murder.
The sick man’s words of a former lover disturbed him profoundly; was it himself who was referred to? Yet the love letters must be from another man for he had not corresponded with Mollie since her marriage, not for ten years.
He had never felt any bitterness towards Mollie for her desertion of a poor, struggling doctor, and he had always believed in the integral nobility of her character under the timidity of conventionality; but the fact remained that she had played him false—what if that had been “the little rift within the lute” that had now indeed silenced the music!
With a sense of bitter depression he entered the gloomy old house; how different was this from the pleasant ordinary Christmas he had been rather looking forward to, the jolly homely atmosphere of good fare, dancing, and friends!
When he had telephoned to these friends excusing himself his regret had been genuine and the cordial “bad luck!” had had a poignant echo in his own heart; bad luck indeed, bad luck—
She was waiting for him in the hall that a pale young man was decorating with boughs of prickly stiff holly that stuck stiffly behind the dark heavy pictures.
He was introduced as the secretary and said gloomily:
“Sir Harry wished everything to go on as usual, though I am afraid he is very ill indeed.”
Yes, the patient had been seized by another violent attack of illness during Dr Holroyd’s absence; the young man went at once upstairs and found Sir Harry in a deep sleep and a rather nervous local doctor in attendance.
An exhaustive discussion of the case with this doctor threw no light on anything, and Dr Holroyd, leaving in charge an extremely sensible-looking housekeeper who was Sir Harry’s preferred nurse, returned, worried and irritated, to the hall where Lady Strangeways now sat alone before the big fire.
She offered him a belated but fresh cup of tea.
“Why did you come?” she asked as if she roused herself from deep reverie.
“Why? Because your husband sent for me.”
“He says you offered to come; he has told everyone in the house that.”
“But I never heard of the man before today.”
“You had heard of me. He seems to think that you came here to help me.”
“He cannot be saying that,” returned Dr Holroyd sternly, and he wondered desperately if Mollie was lying, if she had invented this to drive him out of the house.
“Do you want me here?” he demanded.
“I don’t know,” she replied dully and confirmed his suspicions; probably there was another man and she wished him out of the way; but he could not go, out of pity towards her he could not go.
“Does he knew we once knew each other?” he asked.
“No,” she replied faintly, “therefore it seems such a curious chance that he should have sent for you, of all men!”
“It would have been more curious,” he responded grimly, “if I had heard that you were here with a sick husband and had thrust myself in to doctor him! Strangeways must be crazy to spread such a tale and if he doesn’t know we are old friends it becomes nonsense!”
“I often think that Harry is crazy,” said Lady Strangeways wearily; she took a rose-silk-lined work basket, full of pretty trifles, on her knee, and began winding a skein of rose-coloured silk; she looked so frail, so sad, so lifeless that the heart of Bevis Holroyd was torn with bitter pity.
“Now I am here I want to help you,” he said earnestly. “I am staying for that, to help you—”
She looked up at him with a wistful appeal in her fair face.
“I’m worried,” she said simply. “I’ve lost some letters I valued very much—I think they have been stolen.”
Dr Holroyd drew back; the love letters; the letters the husband had found, that were causing all his ugly suspicions.
“My poor Mollie!” he exclaimed impulsively. “What sort of a coil have you got yourself into!”
As if this note of pity was unendurable, she rose impulsively, scattering the contents of her work basket, dropping the skein of silk, and hastened away down the dark hall.
Bevis Holroyd stooped mechanically to pick up the hurled objects and saw among them a small white packet, folded, but opened at one end; this packet seemed to have fallen out of a needle case of gold silk.
Bevis Holroyd had pounced on it and thrust it in his pocket just as the pale secretary returned with his thin arms most incongruously full of mistletoe.
“This will be a dreary Christmas for you, Dr Holroyd,” he said with the air of one who forces himself to make conversation. “No doubt you had some pleasant plans in view—we are all so pleased that Lady Strangeways had a friend to come and look after Sir Harry during the holidays.”
“Who told you I was a friend?” asked Dr Holroyd brusquely. “I certainly knew Lady Strangeways before she was married—”
The pale young man cut in crisply:
“Oh, Lady Strangeways told me so herself.”
Bevis Holroyd was bewildered; why did she tell the secretary what she did not tell her husband?—both the indiscretion and the reserve seemed equally foolish.
Languidly hanging up his sprays and bunches of mistletoe the pallid young man, whose name was Garth Deane, continued his aimless remarks.
“This is really not a very cheerful house, Dr Holroyd—I’m interested in Sir Harry’s oriental work or I should not remain. Such a very unhappy marriage! I often think,” he added regardless of Bevis Holroyd’s darkling glance, “that it would be very unpleasant indeed for Lady Strangeways if anything happened to Sir Harry.”
“Whatever do you mean, sir?” asked the doctor angrily.
The secretary was not at all discomposed.
“Well, one lives in the house, one has nothing much to do—and one notices.”
Perhaps, thought the young man in anguish, the sick husband had been talking to this creature, perhaps the creature had really noticed something.
“I’ll go up to my patient,” said Bevis Holroyd briefly, not daring to anger one who might be an important witness in this mystery that was at present so unfathomable.
Mr Deane gave a sickly grin over the lovely pale leaves and berries he was holding.
“I’m afraid he is very bad, doctor.”
As Bevis Holroyd left the room he passed Lady Strangeways; she looked blurred, like a pastel drawing that has been shaken; the fingers she kept locked on her bosom; she had flung a silver fur over her shoulders that accentuated her ethereal look of blonde, pearl and amber hues.
“I’ve come back for my work basket,” she said. “Will you go up to my husband? He is ill again—”
“Have you been giving him anything?” asked Dr Holroyd as quietly as he could.
“Only some cambric tea, he insisted on that.”
“Don’t give him anything—leave him alone
. He is in my charge now, do you understand?”
She gazed up at him with frightened eyes that had been newly washed by tears.
“Why are you so unkind to me?” she quivered.
She looked so ready to fall that he could not resist the temptation to put his hand protectingly on her arm, so that, as she stood in the low doorway leading to the stairs, he appeared to be supporting her drooping weight.
“Have I not said that I am here to help you, Mollie?”
The secretary slipped out from the shadows behind them, his arms still full of winter evergreens.
“There is too much foliage,” he smiled, and the smile told that he had seen and heard.
Bevis Holroyd went angrily upstairs; he felt as if an invisible net was being dragged closely round him, something which, from being a cobweb, would become a cable; this air of mystery, of horror in the big house, this sly secretary, these watchful-looking servants, the nervous village doctor ready to credit anything, the lovely agitated woman who was the woman he had long so romantically loved, and the sinister sick man with his diabolic accusations, a man Bevis Holroyd had, from the first moment, hated—all these people in these dark surroundings affected the young man with a miasma of apprehension, gloom and dread.
After a few hours of it he was nearer to losing his nerve than he had ever been; that must be because of Mollie, poor darling Mollie caught into all this nightmare.
And outside the bells were ringing across the snow, practising for Christmas Day; the sound of them was to Bevis Holroyd what the sounds of the real world are when breaking into a sleeper’s thick dreams.
The patient sat up in bed, fondling the glass of odious cambric tea.
“Why do you take the stuff?” demanded the doctor angrily.
“She won’t let me off, she thrusts it on me,” whispered Sir Harry.
Bevis Holroyd noticed, not for the first time since he had come into the fell atmosphere of this dark house that enclosed the piteous figure of the woman he loved, that husband and wife were telling different tales; on one side lay a burden of careful lying.
“Did she—” continued the sick man, “speak to you of her lost letters?”
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