I hear yelling outside and a scuffle at the door. What the hell? I hold my stomach and move to the door fast. "You bitch! Where is she?" The Prospect stands in front of me. The fuckin guy shoots him.
"What the fuck is wrong with you! You’re damn lucky you got his arm!" I yell at him.
"Where's Nina and my daughter?" He's yelling from the doorway.
Kellan stands in front of me. I think that's nice but this guy just shot the Prospect. "Buddy, she's fuckin eight months pregnant with twins. She isn't going to hurt you; put the gun away."
I see Security pull up in front of the parlor. Bob gets out with his gun drawn. The guy shoots then Bob does. Kellan falls back, knocking me to the floor with him. Everyone is yelling. I'm just trying to get Kellan off me; he's fuckin heavy! He moves and Bob bends down to me. "How you doing, babe?"
"He was crushing me, thanks." He nods and pulls me to sitting. I get a stab of pain and suck in a breath. "I think I need to go to the hospital." I get another sharp pain. "Yep. I need to go now." I look at what he's looking at; I have blood staining my skirt. He's already on his phone with Doc. He puts his phone in his pocket and lifts me up; looking at Jax, he tells him to drive.
"Doc's calling the hospital." He tells me. He's so fuckin calm and I'm scared. I ask about Kellan. "He got it in the shoulder." He doesn't say any more and I don't ask. I'm scared and keep getting the sharp pains. I feel a gush and look up at him; since I'm sitting in his lap I know he felt that. "It's going to be ok. We're almost there." Again that damn calm! I really want to cry but try to hold it in and lay my head on his chest. His heart is beating fast, for some reason this makes me feel better. The truck stops short and Bob opens the door. He carries me in just saying our last name; they point him to a stretcher. He puts me down and kisses my lips then stands. "A man was shot and fell on her. He weighs about two fifty. She's eight months with twins."
"No twenty seven days. I keep getting pains." I tell them as they're wheeling me down a hall. A pain hits me and I cry out. Bob grabs my hand; I squeeze and clamp my mouth shut. Everything is moving fast; I lose Bob's hand and can't see him. That's when I cry. A nurse is talking to me but I don't want to see her. "I know he'll make sure it's ok if he's here. My babies need to be ok, he'll make sure. Help me Meely. Help me get him back." I feel the shot but keep crying asking for him.
Bob
It's taking too long. They have her in the OR and there's no way for me to get back there. I feel numb. She was bleeding bad; that picture won't leave me. Danny and Kate show with Ben. I just keep pacing. Danny gets me clothes. "Go clean up, Brother. They'll need you when she comes out." I throw chin and go in the bathroom; having something to do keeps me from seeing the picture.
When I come out, I know they haven't heard anything by the tense looks on their faces. I pace. More people show. I've been the one showing for people before; I know there's nothing to say. Thank God they don't try to talk to me. I keep pacing.
A doctor comes out of the doors. "Tailley?" I nod stepping forward. "She's doing fine. She had tearing..."
I put my hand up. "The babies?"
She smiles. "Sorry, they're fine. She had tearing..."
I put my hand up again. "I can't do this now; can you tell Danny and can you take me to her?"
She nods. "Who’s Danny?" She looks back. "Please follow me. She'll be moved to maternity." She says to everyone else. I just want her to take me to Amanda.
She starts walking and I follow. We go into a big room with beds along the walls. I see Amanda and walk to her. Danny talks to the doctor. I hold her hand; she's out. I look around but don't see the babies. Danny comes to me. "They're in the nursery. The doctor thought she'll be calm when she wakes up if she can see you. She was upset when they put her under but they didn't have time to explain; she was losing a lot of blood."
He's watching for my reaction. "What do I need to know?"
"They did a hysterectomy. She can't have anymore. I'm sorry, Brother." He puts his hand on my shoulder.
"She's fine; the babies are fine?" He nods. "It will be ok."
"The doctor warns about depression. Women feel like they're not complete if they can't have kids." He's concerned. I don't know why but I think Mandy will be ok with the twins. I just nod at him. "I'm going to meet you upstairs. She said they'll be moving her in a few minutes. Are you ok, Brother?"
I look at him. "Yeah. Better now." He nods and goes out the doors. I walk with the orderly pushing the bed.
They get her settled and leave. A nurse stays, checking her out. "I'll bring your babies in." I thank her. I move a chair to the bed and hold her hand. The nurse comes back with another, pushing two baby beds. I get up and look at my babies.
"They're both fine. They'll both need to go back under the light but you can keep them in here if you want; we'll be in to check them and your wife regularly. I need you to check their bands and you need one." I put my arm out and she clips it on me.
I thank them and pick up my boy. He's so tiny. Danny comes in, smiling. "Looks good on you." He says picking up my girl. "She's five eight. He's five twelve." I nod. "Do they have names?"
"Yeah, he's Colton; she's Harley, spelled like the bike. Don't give me shit; Mandy picked them. Middle names Robert and Amelia."
"Fuckin good names, Brother."
I look at him to see if he's fuckin with me. He's smiling, guess not. I look over at Amanda, she moved her arm. I sit and hold her hand with Colton on my chest. "I'm calling him Colt."
He smiles at me. "I got shit for calling Brenna Bren. Good luck, Brother." I smile; she already knows. She's saving the whole name for when he's in trouble, my girls cool as shit.
She moans and I squeeze her hand. She opens her eyes and smiles. "I knew you'd make it ok." Fuck, I want to kiss her. Her voice is thick but she's smiling.
"Love you, babe. This is Colt, Danny has Harley." I tell her as I stand. I let her hand go and raise her bed. She has tears on her face. "They're both fine. They need a light but that's it." I put Colt in her arms and wipe her face.
Danny hands me Harley. "I'll give you about twenty minutes; then I'll let them loose." I throw him chin. He gives me a look; I know he wants me to tell her, I nod.
As soon as the door closes she asks, "What did I miss?"
Fuck. Now I'm not so sure she'll be ok with it. "You had to have a hysterectomy, you were bleeding out." I watch her face change to confusion.
"No more periods and no more kids?" She asks. Fuck, she's doesn't have a mom to talk about this shit with.
"Yeah, babe." I don't know what else to say.
"Thank God! I thought that's what that meant." She looks up at me. "Sorry, did you want more than two?" She looks like she's going to cry.
"No, babe, I'm good with two. You're all healthy; I could have lost you. What the fuck would I do with two kids and no you? I wouldn't want to chance that again."
She smiles. "Tess says we'll do fine with the two." She yawns. I put Harley in her bed and take Colt. "I have to hold her. She has to know I love her too." Fuck, she's got tears again.
"You looked tired." I say as I pick up my little girl and put her on her arm. I wipe her tears again.
"They're beautiful, aren't they?" She asks me.
I thought it was just me, "Yeah, they are. Thank fuck they look like you."
She smiles, then closes her eyes. I take Harley and sit by her. Kate sticks her head in and smiles. Everyone pours in after her. They're quiet so I don't say anything. Tiny slaps my arm, making the ‘gimme’ motion. I hand my girl over, smiling. Jeremy, Jacob and Christian stand around Amanda. I smile and throw chin at them.
"I love their names." Kate says.
"Badass as they get. We got Blaze and Harley now." Tiny says, giving Nancy a dirty look. I laugh.
She rolls her eyes, "He wanted to name her Duke." Everyone laughs. I look at Amanda, she doesn't wake up.
"She wouldn't get shit with a name like Duke." Nancy shushes him.
Kate gives Colt t
o Pres then bends down to me. "Did you tell her?"
"Yeah, she didn't get it at first; she doesn't have a mother to tell her about that stuff. She's good with it. She was worried that I wanted more."
She nods smiling. "That's good. Her hormones will be all over the place until they get her on something. She'll have to have it until she would normally hit menopause but it will keep her even keeled."
What the fuck does that mean? "Can you talk to her about that? I don't even know what you said."
She laughs. "I will. It will be ok if she's more worried about your reaction. If she needs it, I can get her with a counselor."
"Thanks, Kate. I didn't know how to explain it because I don't understand myself. I just realized how young she is." I tell her. Everyone is talking so I don't feel like a pussy.
"You're only six years older than her Bob. She'll be fine. I'll make sure me, Nancy and Jess look out for her. I didn't know she didn't have support or we would have already been there for her. Let me know if you have questions or you're worried." She pats my arm.
"Thanks, Kate. I will." I'm so fuckin relieved. I don't know what she needs but now I can ask without sounding like a pussy. Christian laughs. Fuck. Jeremy climbs on my lap; I give him a hug. "Thanks, Little Brother." He puts his head on my shoulder and watches everyone.
Danny puts Colt in his arms. I support his arm and smile. He's so gentle; he kisses his head. I feel the heat right away. Is something wrong? Why does he need the heat? "Jeremy says he's perfect. He just needs to know he's not alone." I look at Danny. What does that mean? He takes Colt and gives Jeremy Harley. I get the same heat. I kiss Jeremy's head; he always looks out for everyone.
Cloud comes in. "Is she good, Brother? I just got in or I would have been here."
I smile. "Perfect. They're all perfect." He smiles.
People are leaving and coming in. When the babies cry, everyone leaves but Kate. Amanda wakes up right away like it's an alarm clock; I smile. She smiles at Kate. "I think they're hungry."
Kate nods, "Do you know how to feed them, Amanda?"
She looks at me, scared. "We read about it in a book." She has tears again. Fuck.
Kate looks at me. "Can you give us about thirty minutes?"
Fuck yeah. I nod and kiss Mandy, putting a crying Colton in her arms. Kate smiles. I wonder if she knows I can't wait to get the fuck out. I screw before she can call me back in. Danny is on his phone at the end of the hall. I walk his way. He looks at me and hangs up. "Kate helping her?"
"Yeah. She doesn't know how to feed them. We read the book but she looked scared and they were crying." I wipe my hand down my face feeling bad that I left. "I don't know how to help her. I should have known; she doesn't have anyone to ask all these things."
He laughs. "None of us did, relax Bob. Kate's got her. Nancy gave Kate studs that will be easy to take out for feedings. Tess had twins so she can help with questions. Let the old ladies handle the old lady shit. The Brothers will have your back. We always do."
That throws relief. I blow out a breath. "Yeah. Always."
"You got beautiful kids, Bob. They won't cry unless you're late with a feeding; they'll be alert right away but won't make much noise. They need to be together to sleep or they'll fuss until they are." He's looking at me while I'm thinking, ‘oh fuck’. "Jeremy said they belong."
I lean against the wall. Oh fuck. Mandy doesn't know half the fuckin shit the kids do. "Can we just leave this for now, maybe ever?"
He laughs; fuckin laughing now isn't fuckin cool. "Yeah, Brother, just make sure they eat every four hours." I nod; I can do that. We can start small. "Let's take a walk; I need a drink and some fuckin food." I laugh. Fuckin Danny and his starving.
We meet Rich downstairs; he's running through the door and Danny whistles stopping him. He shakes his head and follows us to the cafeteria. "Dad, you got a fuckin problem with food. Get a fuckin physical or something."
Danny looks at him. "I don't have a fuckin problem with food; I have a problem with fuckin shit going down before I have a chance to eat. I haven't eaten since last night. I missed breakfast because of a meeting you called last minute and lunch because of a fuckin shooting. I need you to schedule around my fuckin meals." I laugh. He's right, shit always happens that way. He looks at me. "Did you have breakfast?" I nod, still laughing. "Fuckin Brothers." He's pissed, making me want to laugh more.
"I could eat, I missed lunch too." I tell him, trying to calm him down.
He fills a tray and sits down. He doesn't say anything until he finishes. Me and Rich know to leave him alone so we do. I tell Rich about the hysterectomy and hormones. "Kate will explain it to her; I don't get it." I tell him.
"I can explain it, but I’ll let Kate do it. Amanda needs a woman right now, let her have that. Kate did it for Tess too." I nod relieved.
"They're beautiful." Danny tells him. Rich laughs like it’s the best fuckin joke. Fuckin guy. I leave them there and go back to Amanda.
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Two months
Amanda
I smile before my eyes are open. I hear Bob talking to the twins from the monitor. He's telling them about being clean for their mommy. I sit up and pull a pillow over, getting ready for them. I have the studs out and a smile ready when he walks in. "Mommy is ready. Morning, gorgeous." He kisses my lips and hands me my girl first. I get her eating and he puts Colt on the pillow moving my nipple to his mouth. "I love seeing you feed them, babe."
I snort/laugh. "You like seeing my nipples."
He laughs and kisses me again for real this time. "You're right. Sexy as fuck, seeing you feed my babies."
"Stop swearing!" I tell him for the millionth time.
He smiles. "I'm not becoming someone else cause we have kids. All the other kids deal with it, mine will too."
I'm never going to win this one so I let it go, knowing I need to stop nagging him. "How come you're in the brace? Don't you have to be at work?"
"Nope, mandatory vacation day." He says smiling.
I look at him, "You and the fuckin vacation days. How do you get so much damn vacation?"
"Stop swearing." He smiles at me. Fuckin guy.
"I'll stop nagging; it's getting on my nerves, too." I smile at him then laugh.
"Because our job is stressful, we get vacations to relieve that. We all hate them but Jess is fuckin nuts with it. We take them because she gets scary when we don't."
I laugh. The Badass biker men afraid of little Jess. "I'm at Doc's today."
He nods; he keeps track of me better than I do. "I was going to keep them." He says, like I'd say no.
I pull him closer and kiss him. "Ok." I lift Harley to burp her. He takes Colt and puts him on his shoulder. He’s so damn gentle with them I always smile. He’s a good dad. I was so worried we’d fuck them up but he wouldn’t let that happen.
I get my burp and get back to the feeding. He takes them while I shower and get ready to leave. I have to do the pump thing so he has enough for the day. I take the pump and empty bottles with me so I’m not dripping on my shirt all day. With a kiss for everyone, I’m out the door.
It looks like the clinic is running a special today. I mention it to Eva, the receptionist; she shushes me and pulls me closer. “Doc and Sally are having problems, she didn’t show today.” Fuck, that’s not good.
I grab a chart and pull my first patient. I hear Doc yelling on and off all day. It is too damn crazy to get to my coffee. I make it back when it’s cold; I use it to wash down an apple danish. When I’m done I take ten minutes to pump and relieve some pressure. Going back to the front, I see Doc is pissed, talking to Eva as if she did something wrong.
I grab his arm and pull him to the break room. “Do you want to manage the waiting room and all these patients?” He gives me a look. “Don’t even try to take this out on me. Calm yourself down before you piss everyone off and have to work alone! Everyone is here because we believe in you and what you’re doing for these people. Take a brea
th and reel your temper in. Fix whatever you did to Sally and do it damn quick!”
He looks like I slapped him. “What makes you think I did something wrong?” He yells at me.
“You are a man. Sally is sweet and funny and she loves you. If she’s not here it’s because you pissed her off and from knowing her, it takes a lot to do that. Fix whatever the hell you did and stop abusing everyone because you fucked up!” I walk away and grab the next patient that I can see. It’s my last, Thank God.
I don’t hear any more yelling so I finish my patient and help Eva get the charts filed. I hear bikes outside and look up to see Danny walk in. “I need you to come with me, Amanda.” I give the chart in my hand to Eva and run to the back, getting my diaper bag. I flip it onto my back and run out. “Bob is meeting us at the Club with the kids.” I nod as he rushes me out to his bike.
I stop. “Am I allowed to get on your bike?” Bob said this isn’t good. They fight over stuff like this.
He smiles. “It’s good you asked but it’s an emergency and Bob is waiting with the kids. He needs to be on his bike, keeping those kids safe.” I get on behind him, strapping the helmet on. He drives like a maniac to the Club. I hold on for dear life, wishing Bob picked me up in the truck.
At the Club, I jump off as quick as I can. Crazy ass MC guys. “You’re a damn nut on a bike. Thanks for getting me here in one piece but next time have him stop for me.”
I hear him laughing as I go through the door. It is utter chaos. I see Nancy carrying a baby to the back room. I run that way; it’s one of mine. “Hey, Nancy. Where’s the other one?”
She turns around smiling at me. “Bob’s changing him. He’s good with them.”
I smile. “Yeah. Should I go get him or take her?”
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