My hands shook nervously, but I found the fortitude to spread both palms across the expanse of his chest. He inhaled deeply, and I was so captured in the moment that I scarcely noticed when he spoke.
“Are you sure this is what you want, Emily?” he murmured, keeping absolutely still under my wandering touch.
Hoping my hesitation had not caused his arousal to fade, I snuck a glance to the bunching of fabric between his thighs. His sizable manhood strained against his pants, and I found my breath catching in my throat. I forced myself to meet his gaze once more, feeling meek under the intensity of his stare.
“I can’t think of anything I want more,” I said honestly, making no effort to hide my desperation.
I wanted him more than I had ever wanted anything in my life; I would gladly sacrifice my freedom if it meant spending eternity at his side. Sex was no commitment, but I would give him anything he asked. If that was all he wanted, it’s all I would need. Though I hoped he might feel some sliver of feelings for me, I didn’t waste time thinking of the future. All that mattered was that very moment, the time we were together.
“I’m sure that’s not true,” he laughed, his modesty as entrancing as every other part of him.
I found myself giggling, pulling him towards me as I lay back on the bed. He moved fluidly along with me, his eyes never leaving my own as his hand found its way onto my hip. His thumb brushed against the sliver of exposed skin between my pants and shirt, and it was my turn to erupt into chills.
“You’ve just never been free before. I don’t want to take advantage of your innocence, the fact that what you feel for me is…probably not the easiest to deal with,” he said quietly, his tone turning serious.
“For once in my life, I think I won’t look before I leap,” I said gently, leaning in to kiss him again.
His hand shifted underneath my shirt, edging it up to expose my stomach. I felt a little self-conscious, but his expression was one of awe as he dipped his head lower, tracing his tongue around my bellybutton.
I gasped, fisting my hand in his hair and guiding him higher. My shirt inched higher and higher, and his tongue explored every inch of my abdomen before he drew away with a wry smirk.
“I’ll make sure you don’t regret it,” he said assertively.
He gently tugged my shirt the rest of the way off, taking my undershirt off along with it. His eyes rested appreciatively on my chest, and I wished that I’d worn something sexier.
“You’re beautiful, Emily,” he whispered.
I felt my cheeks flare up with warmth, and he smiled gently before reaching behind me to unclasp my bra. I sat slightly more upright, allowing the bra to fall away and expose my breasts. I was tempted to hide behind my arms, but I managed to refrain.
“Oh, you say that like I’m something special,” I said awkwardly.
He cupped my breasts in his hands, his skin hot against my rapidly hardening nipples. I bit my lip, staring up at him from beneath my eyelashes. He held my gaze for a moment longer before leaning in to whisper against my ear.
“You are something special,” he assured me.
I all but melted at that, fully prepared to be nothing more than putty in his hands.
Owen didn’t disappoint, carefully rolling a nipple between his fingers as he lowered his head to the opposite breast. His tongue flicked out, the sensation nearly too much to bear as the wet muscle touched one of my most sensitive spots. He swished it around, flattening his tongue against me and dragging it up before wrapping his lips around my pert bud.
“Oh, Owen,” I gasped out, my hands fumbling blindly to grip the sheets.
It was more than I could have ever expected or hoped for, and I felt as if I were giving myself to sweet insanity. When he drew away, I could do little but whimper and plead for more. He looked pleased with himself, thrilled by the primal reaction he had set alight within me.
“You want to keep going?” he asked carefully, and I could feel him toying with the button on my jeans.
“I want you to keep going and never stop,” I implored, cupping my breasts with my hands.
He watched me with a little smirk, and I wanted to just wipe that smirk off of his face. So I did.
I lurched upright, capturing his lips with an intensity that even I couldn’t have predicted. He easily unfastened my pants, sliding them down my hips to expose my panties. I was almost embarrassingly soaked.
He pressed a finger between my outer lips, touching me through my panties.
“Wow, you do really want this,” he snickered.
I rolled my hips, desperate for the friction he wasn’t providing.
“Stop teasing me, Owen. I want you…I w-want you inside me,” I tried to say forcefully, but my confidence petered out as he looked at me with a smug expression.
He tossed my pants off of the bed, slowly and almost reverently pulling my panties down soon after. I squeaked at the breathy growl that slipped past his lips as I was exposed to him.
“Slow and steady,” he muttered, more to himself than me.
I inhaled a shaking breath, spreading my thighs to further part myself. His fingers dug into the skin of my hips, and it looked very much like he wanted to eat me alive. Before I could make a smart remark, he licked my lower lips slowly with his warm tongue.
I cried out and thrashed, but he kept my hips pinned to the bed to keep me from moving too much. He licked me from the bottom of my soaked slit to the tip of my clit, and it was the most delicious sensation of my life.
“Oh my God,” I whispered, squeezing my eyes shut against the overwhelming sensations.
I could feel something inside me rapidly mounting, something more intense than I’d ever felt before. However, before I could reach that blessed peak, he licked his lips and pulled away.
“Why did you stop?” I whined, clutching his face in my hands.
He raised up, moving to get out of his own pants. As I saw his manhood peeking out of his briefs, I felt myself growing more and more heated.
“You did say you wanted this…” he began, freeing himself from his underwear.
His length bounced in the air, looking almost painfully hard. If his arousal was anything compared to my own, I was surprised he could keep from plunging himself into me.
“It’s not too late to change your mind,” he said haltingly, wrapping his hand around himself. “If you don’t want this,” he murmured.
My heart ached at how attentive he was, how much he cared about my wellbeing.
“Please don’t make me wait any longer,” I sighed, pulling him nearer to me.
His skin was hot, a few beads of sweat rolling down the tanned expanse of flesh. Any hesitation he may have felt seemed to slip away as he settled between my thighs, looming over me.
He guided himself towards my entrance, the tip pressing against me just barely, and I realized, in that moment, that there was no other man I could ever imagine doing this with.
I’d never felt so impassioned in my life. No one could hope to compare.
He pushed inside of me, and I bit my lip as inch after inch disappeared into my depths. He cupped my chin with one hand, pressing our lips together as he drew back slightly before pushing into me fully. I squealed, sinking my nails into his shoulders and trying to focus on the kiss.
“Are you okay?” he asked in a hushed voice, and I nodded with much more confidence than I was currently feeling.
He hummed, reaching down between us to press his thumb to my clit. He rubbed circles around it, slowly drawing his hips back before bringing them to mine again. The mix of pleasure and rapidly fading pain had me reeling, but I couldn’t imagine asking him to stop.
“I’m perfect. It feels so good,” I gasped breathily, the words ringing true as he began to work his hips more rapidly, making me bounce with each thrust.
My eyes nearly rolled back, and all at once, pleasure like none I’d felt before washed over me. I cried out, clenching around him as he continued to pump in and out. Ow
en seemed undeterred by the sudden tightness, and each movement was only serving to heighten my pleasure.
“Oh, Owen!” I gasped.
“Yes, Emily,” he shouted, thrusting once more before emptying himself inside of me.
I felt my insides being coated with his essence, and somehow it only made the experience better. His body shook as he clenched the sheets before nearly collapsing on top of me. He managed to roll to the side, gasping for breath nearly as desperately as I was.
There was so much I wanted to say. I longed, more than anything, to tell him how I felt. When I turned to speak to him, his eyes were closed and his breathing was beginning to even out. I rolled my eyes, but then realized that my disappearance had drawn him out of very little sleep.
Resigning myself to keeping quiet, I grabbed his arm and pulled it around myself, settling in for a good night’s sleep. I couldn’t imagine it getting any better.
Chapter 19
Emily
When I woke the next morning, Owen was no longer in the bed. I could feel the warm spot that he had previously occupied, but his absence worried me faintly. I knew I was likely overthinking it, but I couldn’t help wondering if he had decided that he regretted what had happened.
I hoped he would tell me as much if that were the case, liked to think he would care enough to tell me if he had decided that last night was a mistake. Then again, I hadn’t even spoken to him that morning, so fruitlessly worrying wasn’t going to do any good.
Rising out of bed, I noticed that his clothes had been tidied up, and my own were sitting at the foot of the bed in a folded pile. Well, surely he was just being considerate. I made a point of not getting dressed, walking straight out of the bedroom to seek out the man that had captured my heart.
I found Owen in the kitchen, preparing a breakfast out of what few ingredients were available in the safe house. I watched him silently for a moment before getting the confidence up to approach him. I wrapped my arms around him, enjoying that he had at least left his shirt off for the time being. I could only hope the fact that he’d put the rest of his usual attire on wasn’t some sort of terrible implication.
Although, if that wasn’t a bad sign, the way he stiffened in my arms certainly had to be.
“Good morning,” I said quietly, waiting for him to relax into my embrace.
He didn’t. Instead, he stepped out of my grip none too kindly, turning to consider me with a critical expression.
I deflated, already aware that he wasn’t going to be the kind man he had been last night. I hadn’t been that bad, had I? I thought I’d done a pretty good job; I’d managed to get him off, at the very least. Maybe he had just been caught up in the moment and felt taken advantage of.
Whatever the case may have been, he wasn’t happy.
“Let’s not get too touchy-feely, all right?” he said, an edge to his voice.
I flinched, trying to ignore the sting of his words. Clearly, I had done something wrong. I just wished he would tell me what it was, so I had a chance to make it better. I had no doubt that I had fallen for Owen in the time I’d known him, and I thought he might have felt something for me in turn. I no longer felt like a captive, if that could really even be used to describe my feelings prior to that moment.
Staring at him, I wondered how to go about asking him what I had done to upset him. I couldn’t just ask him if the sex was bad, could I? Surely there was something deeper than that, but I didn’t want to consider that possibility too intensely.
If it had just been an intimate flaw, I could easily dismiss that as inexperience. Maybe he would agree to a bit of hands-on practice, and I was confident that I could learn how to properly please a man. No, not just how to please any man—I wanted to know how to please him specifically. I wanted to know what touches sent a thrill through him, what jolted desire through his being.
Realizing that it was a conversation that was likely better saved for later, I offered him a nervous smile. He didn’t return the expression, looking rather strained. He turned his attention back to the pancakes he was cooking, looking furious to see that he had taken too long to flip the one in the pan.
He growled, grabbing the pan and throwing it in the sink—pancake and all.
“Son of a bitch, I can’t even make breakfast like this,” he swore, storming past me to rummage through the cabinets again.
This time, he came out with a box of cereal that had likely gone stale some time ago. I tried to keep a positive expression, flinching as he slammed the box on the table then tossed down a bowl.
“Eat up. We’ve gotta get a move on. I’ve dawdled too much on this mission,” he said coldly.
“W-was I that bad?” I stammered, and his expression softened slightly, if only for a moment.
He quickly steeled himself again, and I realized that trying to talk to him was a lost cause. I sat down at the table, pouring some cereal in the bowl.
“Is there any milk?” I tried again, hoping that he would at least answer that simple question.
“Sorry, no. You’re just gonna have to eat it dry. They didn’t really have a lot of time to stock this place,” he replied, not sounding remotely sorry.
I felt immeasurably silly sitting naked at the table while he paced the floor. He seemed lost in his own mind, and I wasn’t prepared to draw him out again. It seemed I was going to have to come to terms with the fact that we were pretending the night before hadn’t happened.
Belatedly, the thought struck me through the heart like a poison arrow. I frowned into my dry cereal, realizing what a dire mistake I had made. Not only was I miles away from home and being turned into the feds; I’d also lost my virginity to a man who seemed to care about nothing but the mission.
It was painful to think that his entire personality had been a facade up until that point. He had seemed so sincere, but perhaps he had only wanted one thing from me.
Well, one thing aside from turning me in.
Tears filled my eyes, and I struggled to keep my sniffles quiet. I took as much time as I could eating the depressing breakfast, musing that I could be eating at a five-star restaurant at that very moment, had I remained in Guam. I had given up everything for this stupid idea of freedom, and it seemed that I wouldn’t even get the chance to enjoy it with the man I loved.
I’d been an idiot to think he could have loved me back. I’d been stupid to think he could feel in any capacity at all.
“Owen, how much longer do I have with you?” I asked, noticing the subtle tensing of his muscles. “Never mind, you don’t have to answer that. I just…I was just curious,” I blurted, trying to make up for my mistake.
“You have until you finish breakfast and get dressed. Since you’re not even eating, just go put some clothes on. We’ve wasted too much time already,” he snapped.
He stomped into the living room, grabbing a shirt from his suitcase. I watched him for a moment, aching at the thought that everything we’d been through was just a waste of time for him. It had been so much more than that—for me, anyway.
Jolting out of the chair as he glared in my direction, I padded into the bedroom to gather my clothes and get dressed. It occurred to me to try and escape from the bathroom window again, but I realized that I simply didn’t care enough to make the effort. Ultimately, it seemed that all I’d ever been was a glorified prisoner.
If he wanted to turn me over, I would allow it. I couldn’t stand the thought of hurting him, even after the pain he’d caused me.
Taking my time to get dressed, I allowed my tears to fall freely in the loneliness of the empty bedroom. I wasn’t even that angry at Owen. He was only doing a job. I had more or less forced myself on him, and he had just given me what I’d thought I’d wanted.
Now that my innocence was gone, I had to accept that sometimes life just wasn’t fair. I couldn’t act like a sheltered child any longer. I would turn my father over, and accept whatever fate the FBI decided to inflict upon me.
When I stepped out of th
e bedroom, Owen was dressed and smoking a cigarette on the couch. I hadn’t even known he smoked, and it went to show just how little I actually knew about him.
I shuffled towards him, my arms hanging limply at my sides as I searched his expression for some semblance of the man I thought I had come to know.
He looked pained, in a way, but maybe I was just projecting my own feelings onto him.
“I guess we should get moving, then?” I asked quietly.
He nodded, rising from the sofa and stubbing out the cigarette on the rough fabric. It burned a hole through it, and I was somewhat shocked by the callous action. Somehow, the simple fact that he scorned the place that was so important to me was enough to spurn me into crying again.
His expression flickered from stony to sympathetic, and he reached out a hand as if to touch my arm. I drew away, turning to walk towards the door.
“Yeah. I guess it’s time we finish this,” he said from behind me, his voice gruff.
He pushed the door open, giving me a little push outside. I hesitated for a split second, glancing back into the safe house. It hadn’t been much, but it had been my one taste of something like freedom. It was the place where I’d lost my virginity. It was where I’d fallen in love…for what good that did.
Bidding the place a mental farewell, I allowed Owen to guide me to the car, ready to accept whatever fate lay ahead of me.
Chapter 20
Owen
The car ride passed in relative silence, and I struggled to keep my eyes off of Emily for the duration. I couldn’t deny that her every sniffle cracked my heart closer and closer to utter disrepair.
I clenched my hands on the steering wheel, trying to tell myself I was doing the right thing. If it was so right, though, why did it feel so awful? Surely I hadn’t needed to be so cruel to her, but I was afraid that if I allowed myself the slightest bit of kindness, I would lose my resolve. I couldn’t afford to compromise the mission; I would effectively be ruining myself in the process.
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