Matt didn’t even respond as pulled out his cell phone and dialed Heath’s office. His lawyer’s assistant said he was in court and couldn’t be reached.
Matt swore and hung up, then made his way to his car and drove the few blocks to Heath’s office. He had to stop Jesse from being served. He had to destroy the papers, make sure she never knew. He had to make this right.
What had he been thinking? That by punishing her now, he could change the past? He couldn’t. It was done. Yeah, what she’d done had been shitty and he had every right to be pissed at her, but he had to deal with that head-on. Not take away her kid. He didn’t want to lose her or Gabe. He wanted them both in his life.
Diane had been right. He’d never stopped loving her.
The realization crashed into him. He loved Jesse. He’d always loved her. Maybe from that first moment, when she’d called his name on a sidewalk outside of a Starbucks and changed his life forever.
He drove faster than he should, raced through a yellow light and parked illegally outside of his lawyer’s office. The elevator seemed to take forever. What if they’d already been sent out? What if he couldn’t take it back? Finally he hurried into the office and found Heath’s assistant.
“I need to find out the status of some papers,” he said, telling himself he was in time. He had to be. “It’s urgent. They should not be served.”
She took a couple of steps back and nodded, looking wary. “Um, sure, Mr. Fenner. Let me check.”
“They were going to Jesse Keyes and they’re about our son. I don’t want her served. Do you get that? I want every copy of those papers given to me personally.”
She went on her computer and typed for a couple of seconds. “They’re still here.”
Relief washed through him. “Good. Collect all the copies and give them to me.”
“I can’t give them to you without speaking to Heath and that won’t be for a couple of hours. Can I have them messengered to your office?”
He didn’t want to wait. He wanted to hold them in his hands and know that he was safe. That he had a chance to make everything right.
“Fine,” he said, knowing his only alternative was to take them by force. “I want them today.”
“Of course, Mr. Fenner.” She smiled tightly, as if eager for him to leave.
Matt nodded and headed out. He reached for his cell phone again, then decided to go straight to the Eastside. He could pick up Gabe from his mom’s and take him over to the bakery. He didn’t know exactly what he was going to say to Jesse, but he would figure it out. She loved him. She’d told him that and if she loved him, everything was going to be fine.
JESSE KNEW SHE WAS going to throw up. Not that it mattered. Vomiting was the least of it. The horror and fear were so big, she couldn’t feel much of her body. She was mostly numb and maybe that was a good thing.
She’d come home for lunch on a whim only to be met in the driveway by a small man wearing a suit. He’d asked if she was Jesse Keyes and then had handed her an envelope. Inside were words that made her heart stop beating.
Now she stood in the center of Paula’s kitchen, re-reading, hoping she’d misunderstood. She had to. He couldn’t have done this to her.
“Jesse?”
She looked up and saw Paula looking very worried. Without saying anything, Jesse handed over the paper work. Paula skimmed it, gasped and swayed, then passed it to Bill.
Jesse walked to the stool at the counter and sat down. She couldn’t think, couldn’t breathe. This wasn’t happening. There had to be a mistake.
In the background, she heard the happy music from a DVD Gabe was watching. He would be busy with that for at least a half-hour, which gave her time to pull herself together. Assuming that was possible.
She hurt everywhere. There was panic, as well, but she couldn’t give in to the fear. She had to stay strong. No matter what it cost, no matter how she had to fight, she wasn’t going to let Matt take away her son.
Strong arms wrapped around her shoulders as Bill offered physical support.
“We’ll get the bastard,” he told her, his voice low and firm. “We’ll take him down.”
“Can we?” she asked, barely able to speak. “I don’t know what to think, what to feel. This isn’t the Matt I know. He could never do that. Never hurt me and Gabe that way. Oh, God, Gabe.”
She fought tears even as her eyes began to burn. “He loves his dad. He can’t get caught between us and I won’t give him up.” She couldn’t imagine life without her son. “I don’t understand. How could Matt do this? I’d always thought we’d come to some agreement. That we’d talk and figure things out together. I thought he wanted that, too.” She’d been wrong.
She knew he was angry, that he blamed her for keeping Gabe from him and…
Her brain slowly cleared. “He’s doing this to punish me,” she whispered. “He wants me to miss out the way he did. He wants me to suffer.”
“No,” Paula said, from Jesse’s other side. “He wouldn’t.” But she didn’t sound convinced.
Jesse covered her face with her hands. Of course, she thought. Everything made sense now. He’d been playing her from the beginning. All of it was a lie. Every second of their time together had been part of his plan. He’d done a hell of a job, she thought grimly.
“I trusted him. I encouraged him to get to know Gabe. I helped him and all the time he’s been setting this up. He put me through all that crap about how I’d taken his son away from him. He made me feel horrible. He made me crawl, all while he knew he was going to try to take Gabe from me.”
There was only silence around her. It was enough to let her know that Bill and Paula feared she was right.
The sense of betrayal was nearly as great as her fear of losing her son. She’d gone to Matt with the incredibly stupid thought that he deserved to get to know his child. She’d been open and giving and honest. She’d exposed her soul to him. She’d confessed her deepest secrets, shown the worst side of herself and, for the second time, he’d turned on her.
“It was just a game,” she murmured. “A game of revenge. He made me believe in him, then he ripped out my heart.”
They’d made love, she thought, humiliated beyond words. She remembered the last time they’d been together. How perfect it had been, how connected she’d felt. Then she remembered how he’d had a condom in his pocket. An amazing coincidence she hadn’t noticed before. He’d planned everything, down to the last detail. From pretending to be her friend to seducing her until she trusted him.
She stood up and brushed the tears from her cheeks. “No! He’s not going to win. I didn’t deliberately do anything wrong and he’s doing this on purpose. He’s not going to get Gabe. I can’t let him.”
“No, you can’t,” Paula said sadly. “I don’t know what to say. This isn’t my son. Matt isn’t like this.” Only she didn’t sound sure.
Jesse didn’t bother pointing out that Matt had obviously changed a lot in the past five years.
“You have us,” Bill told her. “We’ll fight this. He won’t win.”
She appreciated the support and knew she was going to need it. Matt would be a formidable opponent. But what neither of them understood was that he’d already claimed a good part of his victory. He’d stolen her heart for a second time, then returned it broken and bleeding.
He might have done his best to destroy her emotionally, but he wasn’t the only one who had changed. She was stronger than he could imagine. He could do what he wanted to her but Matt was never, ever taking Gabe from her. She would fight him to the death if she had to.
The difference between them was that while he would revel in his thoughts of triumph, hers only made her sad. Defeating her son’s father wasn’t going to be a victory for anyone, especially not Gabe.
MATT ARRIVED AT HIS mother’s house, only to find no one home. He went by the bakery, but Nicole hadn’t seen her sister since lunch. He returned to his office with a vague feeling of unease. Jesse wasn’t answer
ing her cell phone.
He told himself that he would catch up with her later, only he had a gnawing sense he had to talk to her now.
It was nearly two when the door to his office burst open and Bill walked in.
Matt saw past him to Diane’s empty desk. Had the old guy timed his visit when his assistant was out of the way or had he just gotten lucky? Did it matter? One look at Bill’s face told him there was a big problem and Matt could easily guess what it was.
He stood to face the other man, cursing the disaster that couldn’t be undone. Jesse had been served. She’d read the papers, she knew what he’d had planned. She was hurt, confused and probably terrified.
“Let me be clear,” Bill said. “I’ll do whatever is necessary to take you down. When I’m done with you, just lying in the gutter will seem like a step up.”
Matt had to respect the other man’s balls, even as he knew it was all just talk. There was nothing Bill could do to hurt him.
“She got the papers,” he said, ignoring the threat. “She wasn’t supposed to.”
“So it’s a clerical error,” Bill said sarcastically. “Great. I’ll tell her that, because that will make everything just fine. She can sure ignore the fact that you planned all this, that you set her up. What the hell were you thinking, boy? Trying to take away Gabe? Why not just take a lung or a kidney? You’ve seen them together. You’ve seen how much they love each other. They’re a family. You don’t mess with that. Who the hell are you to hurt Jesse this way?”
Matt felt every one of those words as if they were individual punches. They hit him hard in the gut and the chest and the heart.
“I can explain,” he started, knowing it was a feeble attempt at best.
“Explain what? That you didn’t lie? To Jesse? To all of us? It’s too late for that. Whatever it takes, Jesse will win. Your mom and I will make sure that happens.”
Because they were on Jesse’s side. He was oddly comforted to know that she wasn’t in this alone.
“You’re right. I lied to her. I was angry when she first came to see me. No, more than angry. She’d kept my son from me for four years, then she showed up with no warning. She didn’t even seem to understand what she’d done. Telling me she was pregnant, then taking off, wasn’t enough.”
“You think anyone cares about that argument? You think that comes close to being enough?”
“No,” Matt said quietly. “It’s not anything. It’s why I did it. I wanted her punished. I wanted her to feel what I felt. I wanted her to suffer and I was wrong.”
Bill’s gaze never wavered. “I hope you’re not expecting points for that.”
“I don’t. I’m telling you what I was thinking. As I got to know Gabe, as he became more real to me, I was even more angry at what I’d missed. All that time, all those firsts I didn’t get to see. They can never be recovered. They’re lost forever.”
“Jesse should have tried harder to tell you about him,” Bill told him. “She’s admitted that. She made an honest mistake, but that doesn’t justify you sneaking around, pretending to be one thing while waiting to destroy her.”
“I know. I need to talk to Jesse. I need to tell her she doesn’t have to worry. I can fix this.”
“Now that’s the first thing you’ve said that makes me feel sorry for you,” Bill told him. “There’s no fixing this.”
Matt hadn’t actually been worried until that minute. He knew he’d hurt Jesse, that she would be scared and angry and upset, but he believed he could make it right. That he could explain in a way she would understand.
What if he was wrong?
He pushed away the thought. He could get through to her. He’d always had the ability, because he knew her.
“She loves me,” Matt said, more to himself than Bill. “She’s loved me all this time.”
“That makes the situation worse. It sure doesn’t help you. Jesse is never going to forgive you. Just as bad, eventually Gabe’s going to figure out you’re the reason you’ve made his mother sad. A boy doesn’t forget that sort of thing.”
Without wanting to, Matt remembered a time years ago. He’d been maybe seven or eight and had found his mother crying. She’d been stretched out on the bed sobbing that she couldn’t do this alone, that it was too much. He’d been scared and wondered who she was talking to. His father was the only person he could think of.
He’d hated him then, had vowed never to forgive him. It had been nearly twenty years before he’d been willing to try and get in touch with the man.
Matt sat heavily in his chair. The reality of the situation, the potential disaster, weighed on him like the side of a mountain.
“He’s my son,” he muttered. He’d just discovered Gabe. He couldn’t lose him now.
“You should have thought of that before,” Bill said contemptuously. “You had it all, you stupid bastard. Everything you could have wanted. It was all there for the taking. The love of a good woman, a son who only wanted to be with you, a happy family. Everything that matters. But you would rather be right. You’d rather get your revenge. How does it feel now?”
Matt didn’t have an answer. He was too focused on everything that had gone wrong.
“Jesse isn’t alone,” Bill continued. “She has a whole lot of people on her side. People who aren’t afraid of you. People who have resources. I, for one, plan to enjoy every minute of your fall.”
With that, he turned and left. Matt watched him go. When the door closed, he was left alone in silence. He hadn’t felt this alone for a long time. Not since before he and Jesse had first met and she’d changed everything.
He could fix this, he told himself. He’d never found a problem he couldn’t handle. It was just a matter of figuring out the best strategy.
Only, he found it hard to think with the burning emptiness in his gut and the voice that whispered it was possible he’d gone too far.
CHAPTER NINETEEN
JESSE PULLED THE MORNING orders from the computer and scanned the report. Thank goodness the software they used provided a list of products ordered by type. It meant they didn’t have to scan each individual order to figure out what to bake. She compared that list to the inventory being baked and noted how many extra batches of brownies and cakes they’d need to finish that day.
As she worked, she was aware of Nicole and Claire whispering in the corner. They weren’t subtle, she thought, both exasperated and touched by their constant hovering. They were worried about her, which meant they loved her. That was the good news. The bad news was every look of concern, every shared knowing glance, reminded her of what Matt had done and caused her to emotionally crash yet again.
At least she was getting good at picking up the pieces and moving forward.
She started toward the kitchen. Claire stopped her. “Can I help?” she asked.
“I’m going to tell Sid how many more batches of brownies we need.”
“I can do that.” Claire took the paperwork from her and glanced at it. She frowned. “Just tell me how to read this Sanskrit.”
Jesse retrieved her printouts. “I appreciate that you’re trying to help, but the truth is, I’m okay. I’m getting through this. I can do my job and still be sad. I’m great at multitasking that way.”
“I want to help,” Claire said.
“I know.”
Nicole sighed. “Hawk keeps offering to beat the crap out of Matt. Should I let him?”
“It’s not going to be as easy as Hawk thinks. Matt works out.” Jesse happened to know, having seen Matt naked. Something she didn’t want to think about. Although Hawk was the professional athlete.
“Would it make you feel better?” Nicole asked, obviously serious about the question.
Jesse made herself smile. “Look, this is great, but you’re making me insane. Let’s just act normal, okay? That’s best for me. Which means you shouldn’t even be here, Claire. You should be at home practicing for a concert or something. And, Nicole, you have babies waiting for you. I can to
tally handle this. I would prefer to lose myself in work.”
The twins glanced at each other, then at her.
“All right,” Claire said slowly. “Wyatt is looking around for the perfect lawyer to take on Matt. As soon as he has names, I’ll pass them along.”
“Thanks.”
“And I meant what I said about the money. I don’t want you to worry about it. Whatever the lawyer costs isn’t a problem.”
Jesse nodded. Claire had offered to give her what she needed to hire the best lawyer on the West Coast. Nicole had told her the resources of the bakery were hers to use. While she hated the idea of accepting money from either of them, she didn’t have a choice. She had to be able to fight Matt on his own terms.
Her sisters finally left. She sat in the small corner that was her office and tried to think about work. At the moment, it was impossible. All she could think about was how much Matt had hurt her. Last time he’d broken her heart she’d been crushed, but this time she wasn’t sure she was going to survive. She had so much more to lose. Her child was on the line.
Bill had told her about his visit to Matt. That Matt had said he’d never meant for her to be served. The problem was he’d still had the papers drawn up. He’d manipulated everything between them.
The front door opened and a woman walked in. She looked at Jesse. “Is this where the Keyes Bakery moved to?” she asked.
“Yes.” Jesse stood and approached her. “We’re not really open to retail right now. Our building burned down.”
“I know. I just went there and was horrified.” She smiled. “I’m sorry. Let me introduce myself. I’m Cathy. My in-laws are celebrating their fiftieth wedding anniversary this weekend. It’s going to be a huge party. Everything is taken care of, or it was. My mother-in-law just told me that when they got married, the groom’s cake was one of your famous chocolate cakes and that she would like to surprise my father-in-law with that cake again. Is there any way I can order one?”
The woman looked both frazzled and desperate. Jesse smiled. “Sure. You want to pick it up sometime Friday?”
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