The Parting

by Beverly Lewis

  The Parting

  BEVERLY

  LEWIS

  The Parting

  The Parting

  Copyright © 2007

  Beverly Lewis

  Cover design by Dan Thornberg, Koechel Peterson & Associates, Inc.

  Unless otherwise noted, Scripture quotations are taken from the King James Version of the Bible.

  Scripture quotations identified NIV are from the Holy Bible, New International Version.® Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984 by International Bible Society. Used by permission of Zondervan Publishing House. All rights reserved.

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  Published by Bethany House Publishers

  11400 Hampshire Avenue South

  Bloomington, Minnesota 55438

  Bethany House Publishers is a division of

  Baker Publishing Group, Grand Rapids, Michigan.

  Printed in the United States of America

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  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

  Lewis, Beverly.

  The parting / Beverly Lewis.

  p. cm. —(The courtship of Nellie Fisher ; bk. 1)

  ISBN 978-0-7642-0437-1 (alk. paper) —ISBN 978-0-7642-0310-7 (pbk.) —ISBN 978-0-7642-0438-8 (large-print pbk.) 1. Amish—Fiction. 2. Lancaster County (Pa.)—Fiction. I. Title.

  PS3562.E9383P37 2007

  813'.54—dc22 2007023566

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  DEDICATION:

  To my uncle and aunt

  Amos and Anna Jane Buchwalter,

  who gave us many happy memories

  in their wonderful-big house

  in Brownstown, Pennsylvania.

  AND

  to our friends

  John and Rachell Henderson,

  who received the unexpected gift of a child.

  By Beverly Lewis

  SEASONS OF GRACE

  The Secret • The Missing

  ABRAM’S DAUGHTERS

  The Covenant • The Betrayal • The Sacrifice

  The Prodigal • The Revelation

  THE HERITAGE OF LANCASTER COUNTY

  The Shunning • The Confession • The Reckoning

  ANNIE’S PEOPLE

  The Preacher’s Daughter • The Englisher • The Brethren

  THE COURTSHIP OF NELLIE FISHER

  The Parting • The Forbidden • The Longing

  The Postcard • The Crossroad

  The Redemption of Sarah Cain

  October Song • Sanctuary* • The Sunroom

  The Beverly Lewis Amish Heritage Cookbook

  www.beverlylewis.com

  *with David Lewis

  BEVERLY LEWIS, born in the heart of Pennsylvania Dutch country, fondly recalls her growing-up years. A keen interest in her mother’s Plain family heritage has inspired Beverly to set many of her popular stories in Amish country, beginning with her inaugural novel, The Shunning.

  A former schoolteacher and accomplished pianist, Beverly has written over eighty books for adults and children. Five of her blockbuster novels have received the Gold Book Award for sales over 500,000 copies, and The Brethren won a 2007 Christy Award.

  Beverly and her husband, David, make their home in Colorado, where they enjoy hiking, biking, reading, writing, making music, and spending time with their three grandchildren.

  Contents

  Prologue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Epilogue

  Acknowledgments

  More From Bestselling Author Beverly Lewis

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  PROLOGUE

  Autumn 1966

  For as long as I can remember, I’ve eagerly awaited the harvest. Oh, the tantalizing scents wafting from Mamma’s kitchen, come autumn. But it’s not my mother’s baking as much as it is my own that fills the house with mouthwatering aromas. Each year I entertain myself, seeing how many ways I can use pumpkin in an array of baked goodies. Naturally there are pumpkin pies and pumpkin breads. But I also delight in making pumpkin cookies with walnut pieces and brown sugar sprinkled atop. And there is spicy pumpkin custard, too, and gooey pumpkin cinnamon rolls—sticky buns, of course—cinnamon pumpkin muffins, and the most popular item of all: pumpkin cheesecake.

  As I wait for pies to bubble and cookies to turn golden brown in the old cast-iron oven in Mamma’s kitchen, I thrill to the world beyond our tall windows, watching for the first hint of shimmering reds on the sugar maples along the west side of our lane. I catch sight, too, of the glistening stream as it runs under Beaver Dam Road and across our wide meadow. It’s here, near Honey Brook, northeast of White Horse and smack-dab in the Garden Spot of the World, where I live with Dat and Mamma and my two older sisters, Rhoda and Nan.

  But garden spot that this may be, this year I am not able to use our own pumpkins for baking, nor am I as aware of the usually melodious brook, or the growing excitement of the fun to come—youth frolics and hayrides. All the pairing up beneath the harvest moon.

  Sadly our own harvest has already occurred—stunted stalks of sweet corn, acres and acres of it all around us, cut early. Dat said the fact it never got taller than knee-high was an omen of bad things to come. “Time will tell, as in all things,” he declared. And time did tell.

  Accepting our loss, we salvaged what was left of the lifeless stalks, using them for fodder. Even so, some are still standing brown in the field. Rows of short scattered stumps, a cruel reminder of what might have been.

  Though I’m only seventeen, I’ve already made some observations about the passing of years. Some are marked by loss more than others. As for this season, never before have we lost so many of the People to jumping the fence to greener pastures—our own cousin Jonathan and his family among them. But losing a crop, or some of our own to the world, pales in comparison to the greatest loss of all.

  I still remember clearly that early June Saturday. The day had begun with anticipation, as all market days do. Grief was the furthest thing from my mind the morning Caleb Yoder smiled at me for the first time ever. I was minding my own business, selling my baked goods to eager customers, when I had a tingling awareness of someone nearby watching me. I looked up . . . and there he was. I felt a rush of energy, as if something inside me was saying: Is he the one?

  Caleb’s admiring gaze lingered after his handsome smile, and by afternoon, my next oldest sister, nineteen-year-old Nan, was telling me something Caleb’s own sister Rebekah had whispered to her—that Rebekah wished Caleb might court me. Such a wonderful-good thing to hear!

  No
w, if I hadn’t secretly liked him for several years, the smile and the whisper would have meant little and the day would have been like any other. Instead, it was the collision of the best and worst days of my life.

  My sister Suzy died that evening. Younger than me by just eleven months, she drowned before she had a chance to be baptized and join church—a giant strike against our souls. Mamma and I were alone in the bakery shop when the policeman came with the wretched news, and I could not stop shaking long into the night.

  Nearly a hundred days have come and gone, and at times it seems Suzy’s untimely death has started a whole chain of unusual events. I’m aware of a hole in my middle, like someone reached in and pulled a big part of me out. This, mixed with a measure of anger. Surely the Lord God and heavenly Father could have done something to protect her, to keep her from dying. Yet I must learn to accept this terrible thing that has come across my path. It is our way. At all costs, we must trust in divine sovereignty, even when, secretly, doing so is just plain hard.

  Am I alone in this?

  My sister was daring, truth be told. Mamma sometimes said such characteristics in a pretty girl were a recipe for danger, and trouble certainly seemed to follow Suzy during her last months. Losing her was bad enough, but my own guilt tears me apart, too. I’ve heard tell of survivor’s guilt—when you feel responsible because someone you loved has died, and you’ve survived. But that isn’t my guilt. No, mine is ever so much worse.

  Most times I’m able to push it deep down, where I can scarcely feel it, but every so often the blame rises unexpectedly. If not for me, Suzy would be alive. Jah, I know her death wasn’t my fault, but if I’d stopped her from going with her friends that day—and I would’ve done so if I’d known she’d a mind to take dangerous risks—I could have saved her. I can only hope someday I’ll be able to forget all of that. Forgetting Suzy will be impossible.

  As for dear Mamma, it seems she can’t think on much else. All of us miss Suzy’s presence dreadfully—her constant whistling on washday, as well as her cheerful, even mischievous smile while weeding the vegetable garden. Like she knew something we didn’t.

  I daresay it is Rhoda and Nan . . . and myself—all of a sudden the youngest—who must help carry poor Mamma through this sorrowful time. Nearly all her energy still seems spent on Suzy. I see her pining in the set of her jaw, the way she shies away from social gatherings, longing for the comfort of silence . . . for her cherished aloneness. No doubt she yearns to talk to Suzy again, to cup her freckled face in both her hands and hold her near.

  Sometimes I want to hug Mamma and whisper, “I’m so sorry. Please forgive me.” But she wouldn’t understand, and my words wouldn’t change anything.

  Truth is, Suzy’s gone. The ground holds her body now. The ground holds her diary, as well. I broke my promise to burn it if anything ever happened to her, the kind of talk between sisters who never think they’ll have to honor their frivolously spoken vow. Instead, I walked to the wooded area behind the paddock and buried it deep in the ground, as good as destroyed. Better that we remember the Suzy we all knew as sweet, innocent, laughing—the truest friend—and not who she became.

  While Mamma grieves in her own way, Dat scarcely talks of Suzy. He acts almost as if nothing’s changed, as if he isn’t affected by her death. Yet I can’t bring myself to believe he is cold toward the loss of his youngest daughter. Surely he is merely sad and simply unable to express his grief openly as his womenfolk do. I see flickers of pain and worry around his dark brown eyes. Jah, at the heart of him, he must suffer the searing, constant ache the rest of us feel when we whisper amongst ourselves of lovable Suzy and the mystery surrounding her life . . . and death. Daily, we struggle to face the future without her.

  There’s but a single bright spot on my horizon: Caleb Yoder. Now, I must admit to having spent time at Singings and youth frolics with plenty of fellas, but none who holds a candle to Caleb as I imagine him. Though the days continue to pass, I’m still holding out hope that he might yet invite me to go riding after a Sunday night Singing or other gathering. Such a fine driving horse he has, too. He might chuckle if he knew I thought such things!

  I may be just fuzzy brained enough to think my affection for him is enough to keep me going when I feel this sad. Maybe Caleb has figured things out for himself about Suzy’s final weeks and her death—who knows what he’s heard, what with the rumor mill hard at work. Could be that’s why he hasn’t asked me to ride with him sooner, unless he is seeing someone else. If he is, I can hardly blame him.

  Even so, I hold my breath, reminding myself that he might be honoring my time of grieving, a noble thing if true. Then again, maybe I’m mistaken that he ever noticed me at all, and I’m simply engaging in wishful thinking born of a wounded heart. Either way, I realize how important it is to yearn for the best, as Mamma used to say . . . before she lost her Suzy.

  To my thinking, Caleb is the best. He is admirable and good from the inside out. I only hope he might choose to smile at me again, for hope is all I have.

  “Therefore we do not lose heart. . . . We fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”

  —2 CORINTHIANS 4:16, 18 NIV

  CHAPTER 1

  She sometimes wondered what her life might have been like had she been given only one first name. Instead, she had two—Nellie, after her great-grandmother on her father’s side, and Mae, for Mamma’s youngest sister.

  Despite the near-fancy ring to them, Mamma had often said the names were a good fit, and what with the special attention Nellie Mae gave to creating her pies, cakes, and other pastries, she guessed her mother was right.

  But I’m not fancy, not one bit! She hurried across the drive toward the bakery shop set back behind the house, where Dat had made an area for parking both automobiles and horses and buggies. Nellie Mae glanced at the hand-painted sign atop the bakery shop and smiled.

  Nellie’s Simple Sweets.

  The cozy place was considered hers because of her nearconstant baking as a girl. By the time she could roll out pie dough or see to it that a two-layer cake did not fall, she was baking more than her family could possibly consume. It was Dat who had suggested building a small shop right on the premises to offer Nellie’s delectable treats to the rest of Honey Brook. Of course, it never hurt to bring in some extra cash, which the shop certainly did, thanks to word of mouth from Nellie’s many satisfied customers.

  This nippy September morning, Nellie Mae raised the green shades on each window and quickly turned the sign on the door to Open. In less than five minutes, the regulars started to arrive, all Englischers, two by car, and the other on foot. The brass bell on the door jingled merrily as they each entered, all smiles.

  “Willkumm,” Nellie greeted first Mrs. Hensley, a woman with a distinct southern accent; then Miss Bachman, who was known for her peanut butter cravings; and Rhoda’s employer, Mrs. Kraybill, two of her children in tow.

  Not wanting to appear overly eager, Nellie Mae stood primly behind the counter while the ladies perused the display case. Mrs. Hensley scrutinized the array of baked goods, a canary yellow dress resembling a sack beneath her sweater. Rhoda had spoken of such tent dresses, as they were called by the English, and Nellie was polite not to stare at what surely was the brightest dress she’d ever seen. With her swept-over bangs and pouffy hair, Mrs. Hensley couldn’t have looked more like an Englischer.

  Mrs. Kraybill blinked her pretty eyes over her rimless glasses and asked, “Would you mind if I purchased all four dozen of the pumpkin cookies?”

  “Why no, not at all,” Nellie was quick to say.

  Mrs. Hensley pointed to the cinnamon-raisin cake front and center on the counter, tapping her manicured fingernails on the glass. It was nearly all Nellie could do to keep from leaning forward and telling her how wonderful-gut the cake tasted.

  “How do you bake all this yourself?” Mrs. Hensley asked, her fingernails still resting on
the glass. “It’s perfectly lovely.”

  “Melts in your mouth, too,” added Miss Bachman, eyeing the peanut butter fudge on the left. “How you manage to bake everything without so much as a recipe amazes me, Miss Nellie Mae. You’re a walking cookbook!” Glancing at Mrs. Hensley, she smiled. “If you want the recipe, just ask. Nellie’s as generous with her know-how as she is with the sugar on her cookies.”

  Nellie Mae blushed. She had always had a good memory. When it came to listing off ingredients and correct measurements, she could do so in her sleep.

  Rooting in her purse, Mrs. Hensley pulled out her wallet and a small tablet. “Would you mind terribly, dear? I’d love to try my hand at that cake.” Her eyes pleaded for the recipe.

  Quickly Nellie rattled off the ingredients and the measurements, feeling somewhat self-conscious, even though she didn’t mind one iota sharing such things with her regular customers.

  If only Caleb Yoder would stop by sometime, she thought before catching herself. It was wrong to boast, and she would surely be doing so by showing off her baking ability for the sake of male admiration. Still, Nellie could hope.

  She turned her attention to making correct change. When she’d finished with Mrs. Hensley’s purchases, she assisted the other two women, who, much to Nellie Mae’s delight, were now fussing over who would have the fudge.

  Nellie Mae sat fidgeting in her elder brother Ephram’s carriage early Thursday morning, thankful Mamma had sent Nan to oversee the bakery shop so she could make this visit. She adjusted her black outer bonnet while Ephram sat silently on the right-hand side of the carriage, his eyes focused on the road as they drove toward his house.

  Snug under her heavy woolen lap robe, she tucked her hands into the gray muff and shivered, wishing it were summer again. She daydreamed of lying in a green meadow, the delicious scent of wildflowers perfuming the air.