ALSO BY REBECCA RASMUSSEN
The Bird Sisters
THIS IS A BORZOI BOOK
PUBLISHED BY ALFRED A. KNOPF
Copyright © 2014 by Rebecca Rasmussen
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Rasmussen, Rebecca.
Evergreen : a novel / Rebecca Rasmussen. —First edition.
pages cm
ISBN 978-0-385-35099-0 (hardcover : alk. paper)
ISBN 978-0-385-35100-3 (eBook)
1. Brothers and sisters—Minnesota—Fiction. 2. Group problem solving—Fiction. 3. Families—Minnesota—Fiction. 4. Minnesota—Fiction. I. Title.
PS3618.a78E94 2014
813′.6—dc23
2013016240
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
Jacket design by Kelly Blair
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Contents
Cover
Other Books by This Author
Title Page
Copyright
Dedication
Epigraph
Part One: Evergreen, Minnesota 1938 Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Part Two: Hopewell Orphanage Green River, Minnesota 1954 Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Part Three: Evergreen, Minnesota 1961 Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Part Four: Evergreen, Minnesota 1972 Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Reading Group Guide
Tell me the landscape in which you live, and I will tell you who you are.
—ORTEGA Y GASSET
PART ONE
Evergreen, Minnesota
1938
1
Eveline LeMay came after the water. She arrived on a cool morning in early September, asleep in a rowboat without paddles as if she knew the river currents would carry her past the tamarack and black-spruce forest, around Bone Island, a fen, and a bog, all the way to Evergreen and her new husband, Emil, who was waiting for her on the rocky shore.
The flood had delayed Eveline’s trip north two months and forced her to travel by boat since the dirt roads had been washed away and no plans were made to restore them. Emil had sent word for her via the forest service to stay with her parents in Yellow Falls, a lumber town twenty miles south of Evergreen, until the water receded because he was living on the roof of their cabin, subsisting on whatever happened to float by. The newspapers blamed the flood on nature, but everyone knew the government had been building a dam to harness the power of the Snake and Owl Rivers in order to, in their words, bring light to all that was dark, but in everyone else’s: to build a paper mill and clear-cut the forests.
“Mein Liebe,” Emil said, and Eveline opened her gray eyes.
“I lost the paddles,” she said, sitting up in the rowboat, stiff from floating all night.
On either side of the river, a forest of towering white pines shaded the shore. When the wind blew, long green needles fell onto the water like rain.
Emil lifted her out of the boat as if she were a child and waved away a mosquito from her face. “My poor baby,” he said, kissing her. “But you’re here now. You’re home.”
For the first time in two days, Eveline felt warm again despite her thin cotton dress, which she chose because Emil said the daisy pattern reminded him of the meadows in Germany where he played as a boy. She’d pinned up her long wheat-colored hair into a bun and let a few strands fall loosely around her face. Until she fell asleep, she’d pinched her cheeks every few hours to give them the rosy color Emil admired when they first met.
“Lob der Jugend,” he’d said. In praise of youth.
Emil was ten years her senior, gray at the temples, which made him look both dignified and a little rueful. His shoulders were broad and strong from working outside, which belied the stiffness in his chest he called winter in the heart.
“They’re boots,” he said now, handing Eveline a pair of black rubber waders that rose to her thighs. “The country’s all mud.”
“And the cabin?” Eveline said, struggling with them.
“I stopped living on the roof three weeks ago,” Emil said. “They’re not like stockings. You won’t break them if you pull harder.”
Once she secured the waders, Eveline took Emil’s hand, and the two of them walked up the rocky riverbank into the woods, which were alive with the hum of mosquitoes and groaning tree trunks. Emil set down pine boards for her to walk on in the places where the mud gurgled and spit sulfur. Where he didn’t set down boards, the mud came up to her ankles and in one place her calves.
“At least the water came before the government did,” Emil said. He pointed to a stand of old-growth pine trees the flood had uprooted and tossed like matchsticks onto their sides. “It’ll make good firewood.”
“Do we have a fireplace?” Eveline said.
“A woodstove,” said Emil.
“Electricity?”
“A year or two yet. I’m working on running water.”
Eveline had agreed to move to Evergreen because she wanted to be wherever Emil was, and Emil wanted to open a taxidermy shop on the edge of the wilderness like his father and his father’s father back in the Black Forest. Eveline’s mother had yielded similarly when she was nineteen and agreed to marry Eveline’s father and live above the Laundromat despite her allergy to heavy detergents. Every afternoon for as long as Eveline could remember, her mother would sit in a spearmint-oil bath to clear her sinuses, but she’d always be ready to greet her father with a kiss when he came home from the lumberyard, which made Eveline confident about her decision to marry Emil and move to Evergreen.
Before Emil proposed to her, Eveline worked at Harvey Small’s, the only restaurant in Yellow Falls, serving plates of hamburgers to lumberjacks to relieve some of her family’s financial burdens. After her shifts, she’d go across the street to Lenora’s Fine Gowns, the place she’d met Emil, to brush against China silk and French chiffon, party dresses too fine for Northwoods parties. The dress shop was tucked between a live-bait stall and the Hunting Emporium, where camouflage jackets and buck knives hung from strands of twine in the front window. Eveline would circle the shop, reliving the moment when Emil had walked by, saw her twirling before a mirror, and was drawn to her side. After that, she’d go home to wash the scent of bacon fat out of her hair and freshen her skin with lemon juice.
Coming into the country meant Eveline no longer had to work i
n the restaurant, where children poured milk shakes onto the seats and stray dogs circled out back for bits of gristle, but it also meant she and Emil would have to eke out sustenance from the hard northern landscape and whatever supplies Emil had salvaged from the flood. Eveline was nervous about her instinct for survival, but she trusted Emil’s completely. Emil had survived war as a boy and yet wasn’t hardened. Eveline thought of his butterfly collection—the delicate purple emperor he gave her the day they met—and squeezed his hand. Around them great pines lay like injured soldiers, sap streaming from their bark like blood.
“I packed too many dresses,” Eveline said, surprised at how the modest silver band on her ring finger had made her lose sight of the place she was packing for. She’d tucked a pair of dancing shoes into her suitcase at the last minute.
“You won’t always have to wear waders,” Emil said.
There’s something else, Eveline thought, but couldn’t say in the middle of all this death.
Before Emil decided to move them north, they shared her childhood bedroom in the apartment above the Laundromat and had only twice been daring enough to move together as man and wife, but it had been enough for life to begin inside of her.
Her mother didn’t speak of her condition, but each morning she brought Eveline a cup of herbal tea with a spoonful of honey. She let out the seams of Eveline’s clothes and found an oversize winter coat for her at the secondhand shop.
“Mom?” Eveline had said the morning before she left for Evergreen, when her mother passed by the threshold of her bedroom door. But the question Eveline wanted to ask her mother she couldn’t find the tongue for, because even though her mother seemed cheerful enough and complained little, over the years her face had become weighed down by something Eveline recognized but didn’t yet understand.
Are you happy? Eveline had thought.
Emil let go of Eveline’s hand when they got to a clearing in the forest and the mud gave way to bright green moss, then switchgrass that rose to her thighs.
“It’s not much farther,” he said, tossing aside a dead weasel so Eveline wouldn’t have to step over it. “Everything’s been displaced.”
Eveline wondered if Emil meant perished. Sometimes he used words that meant something different than they did to Eveline. When he asked her to marry him, he’d said “in case we’re separated,” which Eveline took to mean so we won’t ever be separate.
The two walked through the thigh-high grass, over fallen branches that snapped beneath their feet and spongy earth that gave beneath them, Emil with a hand in his trouser pocket and the other wrapped around the handle of Eveline’s tweed suitcase.
Overhead the clouds lumped together until Eveline couldn’t discern their shapes individually anymore. The air smelled of wet earth. Oxeye daisies and milkweed thistle, which grew in the back lot outside her bedroom window in Yellow Falls, gradually took the place of the switchgrass and made Eveline feel more sure of herself. What a good spot for a garden in the spring, she thought. My first real garden. In place of the milk thistle, which scratched at her waders like fingernails, she imagined everything from pumpkins to malva flowers. Maybe even a row of walnut saplings, which would grow up with their child. When Eveline was a baby, her mother planted a forsythia shrub behind the Laundromat so Eveline would be the first one in town to glimpse spring in its bright yellow petals.
Eveline looked up at the clouds. “Do you think it’s going to rain today?”
“Only if you wish it to, my wife,” Emil said. “I’ve been practicing saying that.”
“The wife part or the lying part?”
Emil smiled. “Both.”
“Emil?” Eveline said, but before she could finish her thought the cabin rose out of the tangle of milk thistle in front of them like the prow of a ship on a wave.
For a brief stark moment, Eveline saw her future in the black water stains that licked the brown logs, in the boarded-up window Emil had yet to fix because he’d have to float a pane of glass twenty miles up the river. She saw it in the mud bubbling out from beneath the porch steps and the yellow liquid oozing like pus from the chinking between the logs.
And yet on the porch were two rocking chairs Emil had built and an evergreen wreath decorated with winterberries. A white-throated sparrow, what her father called a fortune bird, sat on the perch of a bright red birdhouse that hung from the eaves.
Emil set down her suitcase. “What is it?”
Eveline placed a hand on her stomach, a future that nudged her through the sunny material of her dress. “I’m pregnant.”
2
Emil carried Eveline across the threshold singing, “A Junge! A Mädchen! Let us have one of each!” and everything turned sour. Though Emil had spent weeks cleaning the cabin, a few of the logs still dripped water like leaky faucets. He’d set pots and pans beneath the most eager of the streams and covered the stains on the floor with grass rugs, but the rugs couldn’t contain what was beneath them, what was above them, what was all around: rot.
“It will get better,” Emil said and set Eveline on her own two feet.
“Of course it will,” Eveline said because she didn’t want to hurt her husband’s feelings or betray her own. She was certain she’d be sick if she didn’t focus on what was pleasant about the inside of the cabin: the matching nightstands with delicate birdlike feet, the woodstove alight and crackling with blue and orange flames, and the narrow bed Emil had skirted with evergreen boughs and pinecones, which made it look like a nest.
“Would it be all right if I lie down?” Eveline said, hoping sleep would transform her disappointment, her fears. She told herself she was tired—that was all. Just very tired.
Emil led her to the bed, turned down the dark blue patchwork quilt, and pulled the covers up to her chin. He touched the gentle curve of her stomach.
“Sleep, my dear,” he said, as if he understood she was overwhelmed, as if he’d felt the very same way when he arrived in Evergreen.
Eveline fell asleep almost as soon as she closed her eyes. In her dreams, she heard the little bird on the front porch skittering across the wood planks, chirping her welcome song. She heard the tamaracks and black spruces bending in the wind beyond the cabin. She heard the drip-drop of water in the cast-iron pots and pans on the floor. All day, Eveline tried to open her eyes to her new life, and all day they remained closed.
Late in the evening, Eveline woke to the smell of rot, a still-sour stomach, and to Emil, who was snoring lightly beside her. His chest rose and fell with the sureness of a grandfather clock, and Eveline placed her hand on his ribs to steady all that was unsteady in her. She looked at the chipped basin Emil had set on the floor for her, but she couldn’t bear the thought of an upheaval so close to him. On her nightstand, an oil lamp was burning. She lifted it with one hand and lifted herself out of bed with the other. Before he brought her into the cabin, Emil had steered her to the outhouse he’d built behind it.
Eveline put on her shoes, opened the heavy front door of the cabin, and stood on the porch a long moment in her daisy dress.
“It will get better,” she said, clutching the oil lamp like an old friend.
After she found the outhouse, Eveline wiped her mouth with a handkerchief. She adjusted her underclothes and her dress, and in the process tilted the oil lamp too far south. When the flame went out, panic electrified the nerves in her spine and legs until she remembered a trick her father taught her when she was little. Eveline closed her eyes hard and opened them softly, and the dark wasn’t so dark anymore.
On that night pulsing stars needlepointed the sky, and the moonlight, a pale harvest yellow, shone on the trunks of nearby birches, lighting their silver bark like streetlamps. The daytime industry of animals in the forest had slowed to an occasional hoo from an owl and the croak of a tree frog. Even the expanses of mud, which gurgled and spit during the day, eased back into themselves now. Eveline saw then that before the flood the country was beautiful and that it would be again.
During September, Emil worked on beauty’s behalf outside of the cabin, clearing milk thistle and pricker bushes, while Eveline worked on its behalf inside. Emil had altered the frame of their one-room cabin to make it more structurally sound, but the people who lived here before them were the ones who’d built it and therefore decided its layout, which puzzled Eveline. The cupboards, for instance, were hung intermittently through the cabin instead of centrally in the kitchen, and Eveline was forced to put cans of beans in the cupboard above their bed and sacks of flour and rice in the one beside the closet door. The woodstove, where Eveline cooked their meals, sat on a pallet of bricks in the far corner of the room, and that, along with the placement of the cupboards, made Eveline wonder about the previous tenants, who’d left behind everything but their clothes and family photographs.
“Did they say where they were going?” Eveline asked one morning as she was cooking breakfast and noticed the path of worn wood between the stove and the table.
“Back to Canada, I think.”
The woman had left behind a rosary and a silver hand mirror engraved with the words FOR MEG, LOVE, WILLIAM.
“I wonder why,” Eveline said.
“They missed home,” Emil said.
“They weren’t able to make one out here?”
Emil touched the rosary. “It’ll be different for us.”
It was strange to be living among other people’s things, and Eveline did what she could to make them feel more like hers. She pulled apart one of her dresses to make a floral curtain for the little window above the basin in the kitchen and filled the extra water glasses with stems of oxeye daisies and joe-pye weed from the meadow. There wasn’t much to do about the boarded-up window, so that afternoon Eveline sat on the porch and on a page in her journal sketched what the view would have been. When she finished, she tacked her drawing to the rusty nail sticking out of the plywood board.
“I should make a wreath instead,” she said when Emil came in from working.
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