by Jerry Kramer
One note about the language of the book: Football players, in their locker rooms, use approximately the same language that an educated army platoon would employ in its barracks. Like soldiers, the players use words they would not dream of using in the home or among strangers. The harshness of the language varies, of course, from man to man. Among the Green Bay Packers, for instance, Bart Starr and Carroll Dale shy away from all obscenity; Vince Lombardi limits his to the few words that lend emphasis to his habitually impassioned speeches. Jerry Kramer himself is fairly typical; he is neither appalled nor amused by obscenity. In his diary, he has retained only the minimum necessary to reflect each situation accurately and honestly. He has avoided using obscenity simply for shock value.
My job, with this diary, was to organize, to condense, to clarify, and to punctuate. I did not have to polish Jerry Kramer's phrases or prompt his thoughts. If anyone suspects that I placed words in Jerry Kramer's mouth, he credits me with too much courage. I would never put words in the mouth of anyone three inches taller and sixty-five pounds heavier than I.
DICK SCHAAP
New York City
April 1968
PROLOGUE
They sat in front of me, an audience of college presidents and college deans, gathered at a banquet in Milwaukee a few years ago, and as I looked down from the speaker's rostrum I could tell they were waiting tolerantly to hear what a professional football player could possibly say to them. I could hardly resist one line: “Before this dinner, I rode up in the elevator with several of you gentlemen, and I want to tell you I was amazed to discover that you people can actually talk and carry on a civilized conversation.”
I was, of course, twisting the cliché, turning upon those educators the line I had heard too many times about professional football players. Nothing irritates me more than the implication that we're some sort of subhuman beasts, trained animals clawing each other for the amusement of modern Romans. I'm not trying to suggest that pro football players as a group are the intellectual equals of, say, the staff of The Paris Review. But I've sat with lawyers and with politicians and with writers, and, frankly, when I want an interesting conversation, I'd just as soon chat with a bunch of pro football players. At least the players are willing to discuss something besides football.
I guess the editor of The Paris Review, George Plimpton, feels the same way. He'd rather go to a football training camp than to a literary cocktail party, and I can't blame him.
Not that I have anything against literature, or against cocktails, for that matter. I like to read—poetry, philosophy, novels, almost everything. I don't think my reading habits are exceptional—I certainly don't pretend to be a scholar—but every time a reporter comes to my room in training camp or to my home and sees my books, he seems impressed (The Beast reads!), which makes me suspicious about the reading habits of reporters.
Like almost every professional football player, I'm simply not a one-dimensional figure. I'm a businessman much of the time. I own part of the American Archery Company in Wisconsin and part of the Packer Diving Company in Louisiana. I'm the host of a syndicated TV show once a week during the football season, and I'm involved in half a dozen advertising ventures. I follow the stock market. I keep looking for new opportunities for investments.
Still, most of all, I'm a professional football player. I joined the Green Bay Packers in 1958, fresh from the University of Idaho, and during my rookie season we were the worst team in pro football. Over the past eight seasons, we've been the best team in pro football. Not coincidentally, our head coach for the past eight seasons has been a man named Vincent Thomas Lombardi, a cruel, kind, tough, gentle, miserable, wonderful man whom I often hate and often love and always respect. I've played next to great football players in Green Bay; sixteen of my teammates have been named to one or another of the All-Pro teams during the past nine years. I managed to make the All-Pro teams four years myself.
I've worked hard at professional football, and professional football has worked hard on me. During my life, I've submitted, not always cheerfully, to a total of twenty-two operations, most of them major, many of them the direct result of football injuries. I was given up for dead once; everyone, including my doctors, feared that I had cancer. I've got lasting scars from the top of my head to my ankles; for all my stitches, my teammates call me “Zipper.” I've been told at least three different times that I would never be able to play football again, but I've kept coming back to play.
Why? I'm not sure. That's one of the reasons I've decided to keep this diary of my 1967 football season. I'm thirty-one years old now, and I have no pressing need for the money, much less the aches and scars, I'll earn during my tenth professional season. But perhaps, by setting down my daily thoughts and observations, I'll be able to understand precisely what it is that draws me back to professional football.
I want to show exactly what it's like for me—an offensive lineman, a right guard, definitely not one of the glamour positions— to struggle through a professional football season. I want to show what my teammates are like in all their dimensions. I want to show what it's like to push yourself almost beyond endurance for a coach who considers pain only something that you must shrug off.
And I want this diary to have a happy ending. After all, this isn't Hamlet, and I'm not Shakespeare. I'm a professional football player.
JERRY KRAMER
Green Bay, Wisconsin February 1967
FEBRUARY 10
I drove downtown to the Packer offices today to pick up my mail, mostly fan mail about our victory in the first Super Bowl game, and as I came out of the building Coach Lombardi came in. I waved to him cheerfully—I have nothing against him during the off-season—and I said, “Hi, Coach.”
Vince Lombardi is a short, stout man, a stump. He looked up at me and he started to speak and his jaws moved, but no words came out. He hung his head. My first thought—from force of habit, I guess—was I've done something wrong, I'm in trouble, he's mad at me. I just stood there and Lombardi started to speak again and again he opened his mouth and still he didn't say anything. I could see he was upset, really shaken.
“What is it, Coach?” I said. “What's the matter?”
Finally, he managed to say, “I had to put Paul—” He was almost stuttering. “I had to put Paul on that list,” he said, “and they took him.”
I didn't know what to say. I couldn't say anything. Vince had put Paul Hornung on the list of Packers eligible to be selected by the Saints, the new expansion team in New Orleans, and the Saints had taken him. Paul Hornung had been my teammate ever since I came to Green Bay in 1958, and he had been Vince's prize pupil ever since Vince came to Green Bay in 1959, and it may sound funny but I loved Paul and Vince loved Paul and everybody on the Packers loved Paul. From the stands, or on television, Paul may have looked cocky, with his goat shoulders and his blond hair and his strut, but to the people who knew him he was a beautiful guy.
I stood there, not saying anything, and Lombardi looked at me again and lowered his head and started to walk away. He took about four steps and then he turned around and said, “This is a helluva business sometimes, isn't it?”
Then he put his head down again and walked into his office.
I got to thinking about it later, and the man is a very emotional man. He is spurred to anger or to tears almost equally easily. He gets misty-eyed and he actually cries at times, and no one thinks less of him for crying. He's such a man.
JUNE 15
Practice starts a month from today, and I'm dreading it. I don't want to work that hard again. I don't want to take all that punishment again. I really don't know why I'm going to do it.
I must get some enjoyment out of the game, though I can't say what it is. It isn't the body contact. Body contact may be fun for the defensive players, the ones who get to make the tackles, but body contact gives me only cuts and contusions, bruises and abra- sions. I suppose I enjoy doing something well. I enjoy springing a back loose, making a go
od trap block, a good solid trap block, cutting down my man the way I'm supposed to. But I'm not quite as boyish about the whole thing as I used to be.
A couple of months ago, I was thinking seriously about retiring. Jimmy Taylor, who used to be my roommate on the Packers, and a couple of other fellows and I have a commercial diving business down in Louisiana. Jimmy, who comes from Baton Rouge and played for Louisiana State University, is a great asset to the business; he's such a hero in Louisiana I wouldn't be surprised if he ended up as governor. We've been building up the company for three years now, and this year, with Jimmy playing for the Saints-he played out his option here and jumped to New Orleans—we should really do well. He'll be able to entertain potential customers, wine them and dine them and take them to the Saints' games.
I thought of retiring so that I could devote more time to the company. And I would have retired, I believe, or at least tried to shift to the New Orleans team, if a deal hadn't come through with a man named Blaine Williams, who's in the advertising business in Green Bay. We're getting portraits made of all the players in the National Football League, and we're selling them to Kraft Foods to distribute on a nation-wide basis. It can be a very lucrative thing for me, so I decided I'd better stay here in Green Bay and keep an eye on it.
Coach Lombardi heard that I was thinking about retiring—he hears everything—and he suspected I was going to use this as a wedge to demand more money. That wasn't what I had in mind, not this time.
Still, I haven't heard a word from Lombardi about a contract for this year.
JULY 5
Pat Peppler, the personnel director of the Packers, phoned today and asked me if I wanted to discuss my contract. I told him I wanted $27,500, up from $23,000 last year, and I said it isn't as much as I deserve, of course, but I'll be happy with it and I won't cause any problems, any struggle.
I mean it. I know I'm worth more than $27,500, but I don't want a contract fight over a few thousand dollars. I can remember what happened in 1963.
That was the year after I kicked three field goals in the world championship game against the New York Giants, and we won the game by three field goals, 16-7. During the 1962 season, I kicked extra points and field goals, and I was named All-Pro offensive guard, and, in general, I had a pretty good year. I came in wanting a sizable raise, and Coach Lombardi started out with the standard 10 percent he offers when he wants to give a guy a raise. I said I wanted nearly 50 percent, from $13,000 up to $19,000, and he hit the ceiling and said absolutely not. He said he'd give me $14,500 or maybe $15,000.
In the back of my mind, I was thinking about playing out my option—the one-year professional football contract allows a man to play out a second year at the same salary and then become a free agent, the way Jimmy Taylor did last year—and jumping to Denver in the rival American Football League. Denver wanted me badly.
Coach Lombardi, with his spy system, found out what I was thinking about. He has a real thing about loyalty, and he got doubly upset. He called me into his office and offered me $15,000 and said, “Look, I'm going to give you fifteen, but you have to take it today. Tomorrow, it'll be down to fourteen.” I didn't take it.
I started training camp without a contract, and Vince made practice almost unbearable. Every block I threw, every move I made, was either slow or wrong or inadequate. “Move, Kramer, move,” he'd scream, “you think you're worth so damn much.” And the contract negotiations weren't kept at any executive level. They were held at lunch and dinner, at bedtime and during team meetings, and the rest of the coaches joined in, all of them on my back, sniping at me, taking potshots at me. I got bitter, I got jumpy, and then a lot of the other guys, my teammates, began to tease me, to ride me, and the teasing didn't sound like teasing to me because I was getting so much hell from all angles.
And then I almost exploded. We have a ritual the day before a game. The offensive linemen get together with the defensive linemen and throw passes to each other. We take turns playing quarterback, and you get to keep throwing passes until one of them is incomplete. It's a silly little game, but it loosens us up and it's fun. Every lineman's dream, of course, is to be a quarterback. So, in 1963, the day before an exhibition, we were playing this game, and I stepped up for my turn to play quarterback and Bill Austin, who was our line coach, yelled, “No, get out of there, Kramer, you can't be a quarterback.”
I said, “Why not?”
And he said, “Just 'cause I said so.”
There was no reason, except for the contract, and this burned me up. Later, Austin approached me in the lobby of the hotel we were staying in, and he said, “Jerry, I want to talk to you.”
I said, “Look, you sonuvabitch, I don't want to talk to you at all. I don't have a word to say to you. I don't want to have anything to do with you. Stay away from me.”
I was out of my head a little bit.
Bill said, “Now, now, don't be like that.”
“I mean it, Bill,” I said. “Stay away from me.” I stopped just short of punching Austin.
That night, Coach Lombardi put me on the kickoff team, the suicide team, which is usually reserved, during exhibition games, for rookies. “The kickoff team is football's greatest test of courage,” Lombardi says. “It's the way we find out who likes to hit.”
I knew how dangerous the kickoff team could be. In 1961, when I was kicking off for the Packers, I had to be on the kickoff team, of course. I kicked off once against the Minnesota Vikings, the opening play of the game, and when I ran down the field, I ran straight at the wedge in front of the ballcarrier. The wedge is made up of four men, always four big and mobile men, more than 1,000 pounds' worth. One of the guys from the Minnesota wedge hit me in the chest and another scissored my legs and buckled me over backwards and then the ballcarrier stumbled onto me and pounded me into the ground and a couple of other guys ran over me and stomped me in deeper, and the result was a broken ankle. I missed eight games in 1961.
And then in 1963, for that exhibition, I found myself on the kickoff team again. I took out all my fury on the field. I was the first man down the field on every kickoff, I hit everyone who got in my way, and after the game Lombardi came up to me and said that he wasn't the vindictive type, that we could get together and settle the contract. I signed the next day for $17,500.
Pat Peppler told me today he would check with Coach Lombardi about my demand for $27,500.
JULY 7
Pat Peppler called back. “You can have $26,500,” he said. “If I wanted $26,500,” I told him, “I would have asked for $26,500. If I'd said $44,500, I suppose Lombardi would have come back with $43,500. I want $27,500 without any fuss, without any argument.”
JULY 10
“OK, it's $27,500,” Pat Peppler said today. “Stop by and sign.” I'm going to forget that I ever thought about retiring. I'm going to forget that I've got a lot of money coming in. I'm going to forget that I don't really need football anymore. I've decided to play. Let's get on with it.
JULY 14
Practice began officially yesterday for everyone except the veteran offensive and defensive linemen. We don't have to report until 6 P.M. tomorrow, Saturday, but I couldn't wait. I had to go over to the stadium this morning. It's not that I'm anxious to start the punishment, but I figured one workout today and one tomorrow would help me ease into training. Monday, we start two-a-days, which are pure hell, one workout in the morning and one in the afternoon, and if I don't get a little exercise, the two-a-days'll kill me.
Naturally, I saw Vince this morning. He asked me how I was, and, before I could tell him, he said, “You look a little heavy.”
I guess I am. I was up around 265 a few weeks ago, and I'm 259 now, and I'd like to play somewhere between 245 and 250. I'm not too worried about my weight. I know I've got the best diet doctor in the world. His prize patient right now is a rookie tackle named Leon Crenshaw, from Tuskegee Institute, who reported to training camp a week ago weighing 315 pounds. Dr. Lombardi has reduced him to 302.
We had one of our little “nutcracker” drills today, a brand of torture—one on one, offensive man against defensive man— which is, I imagine, something like being in the pit. The defensive man positions himself between two huge bags filled with foam rubber, which form a chute; the offensive man, leading a ballcarrier, tries to drive the defensive man out of the chute, banging into him, head-to-head, really rattling each other, ramming each other's neck down into the chest.
The primary idea is to open a path for the ballcarrier. The secondary idea is to draw blood. I hate it. But Coach Lombardi seemed to enjoy watching every fresh collision.
Lombardi thinks of himself as the patriarch of a large family, and he loves all his children, and he worries about all of them, but he demands more of his gifted children. Lee Roy Caffey, a tough linebacker from Texas, is one of the gifted children, and Coach Lombardi is always on Lee Roy, chewing him, harassing him, cussing him. We call Lee Roy “Big Turkey,” as in, “You ought to be ashamed of yourself, you big turkey,” a Lombardi line. Vince kept saying during the drill today that if anyone wanted to look like an All-American, he should just step in against Caffey