by Devon Monk
She wanted out of the bed, out of the room. Wanted to explore this mountain, or maybe go see the Swift again while she was awake, aware.
“I have a few things to see to,” the captain said. “Ship repairs being one of those things. I’m thinking if we get all hands on her, we can fly out by the end of the day tomorrow. Dawn next, the latest.”
“That would be a very good turn of events, Captain Hink,” Mae said. “The sooner we can be on the road again…well, I suppose sky again, the sooner we will set right our troubles.”
“I most certainly hope that is so,” he said.
“So,” Mae said, after Hink had left the room, “are you feeling strong enough to do this on your own, or would you like some help?”
“I think if you place the bowl on my thigh, I might be able to handle it.”
Mae helped her to get situated, and Rose took a spoonful of the soup. The broth was rich and filled with meat and had soft salted dumplings in it. If she’d been in better health she might have enjoyed the meal very much. Right now, she just wanted to get out of the bed and follow Captain Hink to watch him inspect the ship.
She could learn so much from him. Might even learn how to fly. Molly had seemed happy with her help on the boilers. Maybe she’d let her help again.
If she had time. If she lived.
In answer to those two grim thoughts, Rose applied herself to the broth. Once a person stopped eating, it was never long until they were in the grave. And she was not going to lie down to rest easily.
After she had determinedly gotten through half of the soup, she gave the spoon and bowl over to Mae in exchange for a cup of water lightly laced with brandy.
“Never drank so much in my life,” Rose said.
“Just to keep the pain at bay,” Mae answered, tidying up things.
Two of the men from Captain Hink’s ship sauntered into the room and dropped down on cots. They didn’t even take the time to undress or shed their boots and harnesses before they were snoring softly.
Molly Gregor showed up next, and tromped over to Rose’s bed.
“Well, don’t you look perky?” She smiled, and dragged her breathing gear off over her head. “I suppose the menfolk will sleep up on that side of the room, so us fine ladies can retire in relative modesty here. Not that I’m much used to modesty, traveling with those yokels.”
She held her breathing gear and goggles in one hand, then looked around, trying to decide where to drop them. She finally took the cot that was set somewhere between the men’s cots and Rose’s. She dropped the gear at the head of the bed, then sat. She unlaced her boots and sighed.
“I do get tired of the boots,” she said, staring down at her stockinged feet as she wiggled her toes. “Now.” She got up and watched Mae fuss about with blankets and such around Rose’s bed.
She gave Rose a wink. “Is there anything you might need my help with, Mrs. Lindson?”
“What?” Mae asked. “Oh, no, thank you, Miss Gregor.”
“Molly,” she said. “Please use my given name. Friends and crew always do.”
“Thank you, Molly,” Mae said. “I can’t see anything else that can be done tonight. And Captain Hink said we might be flying out tomorrow if the Swift is in good repair, so I think sleep might be the best course for us all.”
“He said that, did he?” Molly asked. “Man seems awfully sure of the work he hasn’t even started on yet.”
“Is the ship badly damaged?” Rose asked.
“Oh, no worse than she’s been before,” Molly said. “We’ll fix her up so you wouldn’t even know she’d taken a hit. Whether it will take a day, or maybe two, is more my doubt.”
“But the captain said—,” Rose began.
“Yes, my dear, I know the captain.” She gave Rose a look. “And I know the sorts of things he says.”
“Oh, I didn’t mean to say that you didn’t,” Rose said.
Molly closed her eyes for an extra moment, and a kindly smile curved her lips. “You haven’t said anything to bother me, Rose—may I call you Rose?”
“Yes.”
“Good.” Molly strolled closer and then glanced over her shoulder toward the men in the room, listening for their snores.
Satisfied that they were sleeping, she said, “I just think the captain very much wants to see you and all of his passengers safely to your destination as quickly as possible. He has a way of promising the moon when his heart’s in it. And just between you and me? When his heart’s in it is when he always manages to come through.”
“Is it?” Rose asked, searching Molly’s face. Molly didn’t carry a heavy resemblance to Mr. Gregor. For one thing, her hair was iron black, whereas the blacksmith’s wild hair was fire red. But there was something to the arc of her cheek, the square of her chin, that reminded her very much of her good friend.
“Is what?” Molly asked.
“His heart … in it?”
Molly’s eyebrows quirked down just a bit, but she was smiling. “Are you asking me if the captain is concerned about the safety of the people who travel with him, or if he’s concerned about you, Miss Rose Small?”
“Both,” Rose said quietly. Yes, she should be much more modest about these sorts of questions. After all, she hardly knew Molly Gregor. But if she didn’t have much time left to her life, Rose figured she would live it as forthrightly as she could.
“Any passenger he agrees to have aboard the Swift—and those are few and far between—the captain has always seen to their safety and comfort. But you?” Molly unbuckled the tool belt around her hips and slung it over one shoulder. “He’s particularly interested in your safety and well-being.”
“Oh,” Rose said.
“And just in case you didn’t understand that, he likes you, Rose, though he’s barely said more than three words to you. I’m not one to tell the captain who to associate with, but I do want you to know that my loyalties will always fall at his side. Treat him kindly.”
Rose just nodded. It might be the medicine and the pain, but it didn’t seem like Molly was threatening her. It almost sounded like she was encouraging Rose’s interest. Maybe glim runners had a different sort of values when it came to a woman’s attraction to a man.
“Good night, Rose Small,” Molly said as she walked off toward her cot. “And good night to you, Mae.”
“Good night, Molly,” Mae said.
Mae came over to Rose and tucked her blanket in around her. “Cold?”
“No.”
“Pain?”
“Still bearable. The tonic helped.”
Mae smiled. “Good, then. Get some sleep. It’s nearly midnight and I think we’ll all want our wits in the morning.”
“Mae?” Rose asked, catching at her hand before she turned away. “Thank you for taking care of me. I’m sorry I’m…well, I’m sorry I’m such a burden.”
“Nonsense,” Mae said. “You’ve certainly looked after my well-being when I’ve needed it.”
Mae turned down the wick on the lantern next to Rose’s bed. Rose could hear her footsteps as she took to her own cot and settled down upon it, taking off her shoes but not her outer dress.
Molly turned out the lantern next to her bed, and the room was filled with the kind of ink black found only in the deep of caves.
“Mae,” Rose whispered.
“Yes?”
“Do you think it wrong for someone to want…happiness? When things seem so dire?”
Mae was silent for a bit, then said, “We all deserve happiness, Rose. Our lives should be filled with it whether the days are dark or sunny. Happiness doesn’t beg permission. It just walks across our threshold, sets itself down beside us, and waits for us to notice.”
“I suppose that’s so,” Rose said. “Thank you.”
From the sound of Mae’s breathing, she slipped into sleep quickly. Molly was snoring softly, and so were Hink’s men.
But for Rose, sleep was fleeting. To try to work herself down into slumber, she closed her eyes an
d imagined herself at Mr. Gregor’s blacksmith shop, naming each tool on the wall, in the order they were hung, and repeating what they were used for.
She’d gotten through most of the crimps and hammers when she heard footsteps at the doorway to the room. Not Mr. Hunt. He had a way of stepping so that it was difficult to hear his heel set down.
No, it was the captain, Hink. Her heart picked up a pace and she opened her eyes. She was used to the dark, but he obviously was not. He stepped over the threshold and walked a way into the room. Then he plucked a lantern from the hook on the wall and lit it, turning it low so that only the barest hint of yellow rimmed the blue edge of the wick.
He carried that with him, pacing by the foot of the beds, past his men, past several empty cots, then past Molly’s bed, where he stopped.
Holding his lantern up a bit, he scanned the rest of the room. Rose didn’t close her eyes, enjoying too much the play of softly lit shadows on his face.
She didn’t think he could see that she was awake. She wondered if he would come closer, wondered if he would sit down next to her.
But after a moment of assessing both Mae and Rose in their cots, he turned his back and made his way to the far end of the room, where he set the lantern back on the wall hook, glowing there like a lone star lost in the night. Then he eased down onto a cot without even bothering to take off his hat.
She wondered where Mr. Hunt was, wondered where Wil was. Mae hadn’t mentioned them.
Her curiosity was sated just a few minutes later. Mr. Hunt and Wil came into the room, both of them together on six feet not making as much noise as one man alone on two.
Mr. Hunt didn’t seem to need light to navigate the night. He moved through it naturally and silently, pacing across the room to where he finally settled in a cot between the other men and the women.
Wil made a slow and careful inspection of the boundaries and contents in the room, then set himself by the door, facing outward.
Rose closed her eyes and listened to the breathing around her. She wished she could be sleeping peacefully like the others, but her thoughts were still racing.
She tried to return to imagining Mr. Gregor’s shop, but her mind was crowded with Captain Hink. She imagined his smile, the hard angle of his jaw, and the low roll of his voice. She imagined they were alone on his ship, flying over the green blanket of trees that was interrupted only by fields and mountains and embroidered streams.
She imagined he was showing her how to fly the ship, how to know the feel of the engines, how to sense the stretch of wings.
Then her imagination wandered onward to other things. The taste of Hink’s lips as he kissed her, the heat of his skin, the touch of his hand against her body. Would he want her that way? Would he smile between kisses? Would he hold her gently or with possessive strength? Would he, even for one moment, love her?
Those were things she wanted to know. Things she might never have the time to learn.
She hoped Mae was right. Hoped happiness knew how to find its way into a person’s life. And she hoped if happiness found her, she might have at least one kiss, one loving moment, before she had to lay down this life.
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
Hink was having a hell of a time trying to sleep. He heard Cedar come into the room with that wolf of his. Listened to him check in on Mae and Rose.
Mr. Hunt was nothing if not a protector of the women. Hink found that commendable, though right now he’d prefer if Mr. Hunt would mind someone else’s business.
He lay still, wishing sleep would drag him down already, but there was too much on his mind. He’d checked the Swift. It wouldn’t take much, maybe half a day to repair her, less than that to supply her.
He’d paid his gold to Old Jack and signed the billing of what he could take from Jack’s stores. If luck would land on his side, they’d be out of this bear trap by tomorrow evening.
The things Mae Lindson had told him about Rose stuck and rubbed, no matter how he turned his thoughts around. Rose was dying. And the longer it took him to get his ship in the air, the less of a chance that there would be a way to see to it that she didn’t die.
Hink was itchy with the need to be doing something. To find the Holder or Alabaster Saint for the president, to get Rose to someplace that could mend her—hell, to get himself and his crew on a range of mountain that wasn’t filled with folk bent on wanting to see him and his ship dead.
But no matter how much he tried to tell himself it was all the crashing and being shot at that had set his nerves on edge, he knew that wasn’t so.
It was Rose Small.
He’d only spoken to her twice. But there was something about her, something behind that knowing smile and innocent eyes. Yes, she was a pretty thing, but he’d seen plenty of pretty women when he was growing up in a bordello. And he’d seen plenty of pretty women since then.
There was something about her. Even fevered, in pain, she stirred him. Made him wonder what her laughter sounded like. Made him wonder what would catch her temper, and what would tease her toward forgiveness.
Mae said she was looking for family. And Rose had seemed intense, rapt, when he’d been talking about the ship, about glim.
The sort of woman who wanted to travel, who found things around her wondrous even when it was just as clear how equally dangerous they were, was rare in this world.
Molly said he had fallen for her. He hated it when that Gregor woman was right.
Still, there wasn’t anything he could do about his feelings. Not right now.
He rolled over, and punched at the blanket roll under his head. The cots were loose strung and about as comfortable as sleeping on a swayback horse. He thought the stone floor might put fewer kinks in his back.
Didn’t seem to be bothering the others. Seldom and Guffin were snoring away, and Molly too, though more softly. He could pick out Cedar Hunt’s breathing and wasn’t fully convinced he was asleep. Mae, though, was still and breathing evenly. And Rose…
She made a small coughing sound in the back of her throat as if she were thirsty.
Then he heard her shifting, likely trying to get to the cup of water near her bed.
Mae would help her.
He waited for Mrs. Lindson to move. Nothing. Waited a bit longer.
Rose made that sound again, then caught at her breath as if waiting for a pain to pass, or trying to keep a coughing spell at bay.
Surely Mae heard that.
When Mae still didn’t move, Hink shifted a bit in his bunk, then sat. His eyes had adjusted to the light and he could see Mae was curled on her side. Her eyes were closed. Everyone else looked lost in the land of dreams, so Hink made his way over to Rose’s bed.
He wasn’t bringing a pillow this time. No, he’d do his best to avoid talking to her, for that matter. She had a way of making him feel doubtful, clumsy. Except for when he was talking about his ship. Nothing made him feel awkward when he was talking about the Swift.
Mr. Hunt didn’t stir as he passed. Neither did Molly or Mae.
He paused below Rose’s cot. She had her hand over her eyes. Maybe she was sleeping. She coughed again, a dry hack, and he could see her throat working to get moisture.
Hink came up beside her bed. “Rose?” he whispered.
She didn’t answer.
He tried again. “Miss Small, do you need some water?”
Rose lowered her hand. Her eyes were wide with surprise, but she nodded. “Please,” she barely rasped.
Hink took the cup from the shelf and sniffed it. Didn’t smell like booze or tea. Just to be sure, he took a very small sip. Stale, but water.
“Here.” He held the cup out and she took it, raising it up to her lips. But her hand was shaking so badly he was afraid she was going to knock a tooth out.
Hink wrapped his hand under hers, helping her bear the weight of the cup and steadying her trembling.
She drank the cup dry and then let him take it away and replace it on the shelf.
“W
as that enough?” he whispered.
She nodded.
He just stood there staring at her. Like a boy who was tongue-tied and slow.
“I suppose I should go,” he said quietly. “Unless you need anything else?”
“No.” Then, thinking twice, she said, “Yes. I mean, yes, if it’s not too much of a bother.”
“Not at all,” he said. “I was already up. Can’t seem to sleep tonight.”
“Neither can I,” she said.
“So what is it you need?” Hink asked. “Medicine? Mrs. Lindson?”
“The sky.”
“What?”
“I feel…” She licked her lips as if trying to work out the words before she said them. “I feel all cooped up here in this stone, here in this bed. I feel like I’ve been on my back, sick, for years. It hasn’t been years, has it?” she asked.
“Just a couple days, I’m given to understand,” Hink said.
“I’d like to see the sky. The stars, if they’re out tonight.”
Hink considered the wisdom of such a thing. She could catch her death of cold out in the mountain air. Even moving her out of the bed might make that shoulder wound of hers worse. He was fairly certain Mrs. Lindson would be set against it. And if Cedar Hunt caught him taking Miss Rose for a midnight stroll, he was fair certain the man would happily string him up by his own tendons.
“Please,” Rose said.
Hink nodded, and let out a breath. “I don’t think you’re up for walking and I don’t have a pony hid away in my pocket.”
That earned him a quick smile, and his heart took to a happy thumping.
“I can walk some,” she said. “As far as I can go, I want to. Need to.”
“How about we save your walking for outside the caverns. I’ll carry you.”
“I…” She glanced at his face, and he knew it was set in a determination that made it clear he was not going to take an argument on this.
“Very well. Thank you,” she whispered.
Hink figured some of the folk in the room must be awake from all their whispered words. Well, maybe not Guffin or Molly, but Seldom slept like a snake—with both eyes open.
And he figured Mr. Hunt wouldn’t have slept through all that.