by Griggs, Winnie; Pleiter, Allie; Hale, Deborah; Nelson, Jessica
“Evening, Brett.”
“Evening, Sheriff.” Brett bowed in exaggerated solicitude. “Won’t you come on in?”
Clint ignored the mockery in Brett’s voice and walked inside. The cabin was well-appointed with food and supplies, but clearly the spartan home of a bachelor. There wasn’t a “homey” touch in sight, which made him wonder how much time Evelyn spent with her brothers anymore. Still, Clint was relieved to find that Theo had honored his request and gathered his two other brothers. This was going to be hard enough to tell once, much less have to repeat.
“Theo. Reid.” Clint tipped his hat to the other men in greeting. “Hope you don’t mind me asking if you all are alone?” It sounded overdramatic, but tonight’s situation called for every precaution.
“Just us.” Theo spread his hands around the room with the indignant grin Clint tried not to let get under his skin. “Not a bandit in sight. Sit on down and tell us why we ought to be boarding up our windows and loading our rifles, why don’t you?”
Clint sat down, doing his best to ignore the jab. Don’t let them get to you. You can’t expect decades of bad blood to dissolve overnight. He folded his hands on the table and gave a serious look to each of the three brothers as he filled in every detail of the siege that was about to take place. “Late tonight, five men on horseback with black bandanas over their faces will ride onto your property from the northern side. Two men will stay behind and cut your northern fence so as to drive some of your cattle across the river on their way out. The other three will head south to each of your barns where they plan to set fire to your grain stores and any outbuildings that look like they might burn quickly. Make sure your horses and other animals are elsewhere—these men can’t be bothered to be careful.”
“You’re serious. You’ve somehow come by the advance information that the Black Four are raiding here, tonight.” Clint dearly hoped Reid’s shock was the beginnings of belief, rather than open ridicule.
“I do.”
Theo crossed his arms over his chest. “How?”
“I’ll get to that in a moment. Right now you need to—I need you to listen.” Clint longed to snap at them to quit their grousing for once and do the right thing, but that wouldn’t help matters at all.
Reid let out a low whistle. “You really believe this is happening.”
Clint chose to take that as acceptance and kept going, hoping the other brothers would follow. “Store up water buckets, blankets and move as much of your grain and hay elsewhere. Set two men with rifles to guard the house, and a third on the southwest corner of your land so that he’ll see my messenger.”
Theo actually laughed. “Your messenger?”
“I’ve gotten myself in with the Black Four. They think I’m one of them now. That means I’ll be riding with them onto your land. I can’t very well duck out and warn you, so I’m sending someone else. Someone you can’t help but notice.”
“Well, who would that be?” Brett planted one elbow on the table in mock interest.
“Lars Brinkerhoff.”
Theo laughed harder. “You’re sending a ghost to warn us?”
“I’m sending you a flesh and blood live man who escaped murder by Samuel McGraw and his fellow cavalrymen of the Security Patrol—who are the Black Four—by letting them think he was dead.”
“Wait just a minute!” Reid nearly shouted. “You expect us to believe it’s McGraw who’s coming after us tonight? And they’re the ones who set fire to Brinkerhoff’s land?” He pushed back from the table with such force his chair nearly toppled over. “The Black Four is Sam McGraw and the Security Patrol? And Brinkerhoff’s not dead?”
Clint had to admit, it did sound outlandish put that way. Tonight required a leap of faith that would be hard to ask of a good friend, much less a longtime family enemy. “McGraw and his cronies have a middleman set up in the next county. Since the government forbids them to buy the land, McGraw simply spooks you off yours, tips off his crony to buy it cheap, then he’ll buy it back right after his commission expires. All four get prime land dirt cheap and no one’s the wiser.”
“But it’s our stakes, our land,” Reid countered.
“Not if they can clear you off it like they did the Thompsons.” Clint hesitated before adding, “Or kill you. They figure you’ve got prime land, and without any widows or heirs to worry about, things don’t get complicated if one of you happens to die. Or all of you.”
“But Brinkerhoff’s sister still has their land,” Brett pointed out.
“They didn’t want Brinkerhoff’s land, they wanted his silence. He saw what they did to the Thompsons. He knows enough to connect McGraw to the Black Four. We were hatching a plan for me to get in with McGraw and bring them down from the inside, only they took things up a notch and decided murder was just a short hop from vandalism. McGraw set the fire to the Brinkerhoff cabin with the direct intent to kill Lars.” He looked Reid directly in the eye. “They nailed the only door shut before they set a torch to the place.”
Even now, it still sent a chill down Clint’s back to speak of it. It was sinister, what McGraw had thought he was doing, and only the grace of God kept him from succeeding.
“Only they didn’t know Lars wasn’t inside,” Clint went on, glad to see the men were listening at last. “It was best for everyone—Katrine included—if they thought Lars was out of the way.” Clint glared at the eldest brother. “These men kill, Theo, and easily. You’re next. Whether you believe me or not, you can’t ignore the possibility. You’ve got to be ready for tonight.”
“I think you’re plum out of your mind,” Theo balked. “Dead men bringing warnings and cavalrymen riding like bandits. It’s crazy talk.”
Clint had known this wouldn’t be an easy persuasion, but he’d counted on the Chaucer brothers having more sense than this. Then again, what about any of this made sense? Would he have believed a Chaucer, if roles had been reversed and they had come to him with so wild a story? He took a deep breath and tried again, surprised to find a prayer of Let them believe me, Lord silently appearing in his mind. Well, now, Clint could count himself as officially desperate enough to resort to prayer. “I know this ain’t easy to swallow, but think about it—what possible reason could I have for making this up?”
“Who knows why a Thornton does anything?” Brett’s voice sounded too much like the sour echoes of his father, who’d taught the boys to hate their former neighbors. War and its devastating aftermath had made enemies of these two families. The bitterness had fermented for years, and even Evelyn’s affections hadn’t softened the sting. One night of cooperation—even against a common enemy—wouldn’t undo so deep-seated a hatred.
Clint caught each man’s eyes in turn, looking for any sign that he’d been successful. Their expressions remained hard and dark. “I’ll warn you one last time. Make yourselves ready. When you see Lars coming to your gate, you’ll know I’m telling the truth and McGraw and the Black Four are on their way. But you won’t have much time and you need to get ready now. Lars will help you defend your land when he gets here. When the time is right, I will, too.”
“You’ll help us defend our land?” Theo scowled. “Now I know you’re soft in the head. Thorntons are the reason we lost our plantation. I’ve no mind to believe you are gonna lift a single finger to save our land now. You got a lotta nerve coming here with a cockamamie story like this and expecting us to bar up windows and load up guns.”
There was nothing more to be done. Clint was out of both time and arguments to change their minds. “I’ve said my piece. What you choose to do with it can’t be helped. I’ll see you tonight.”
“I doubt that,” Brett replied.
Clint had one sorrowful thought as he rose from the table and left the cabin: you may die for that doubt.
Chapter Fourteen
Winona worried the fringe at her sleeve as she had for the past hour. “The sun sets on slow feet tonight.”
“Indeed,” Katrine replied. The two of the
m stood on the newly built church steps, looking west toward town. Tonight, Winona would stand watch on the small hill just east of town. Clint would tack a red bandana to the back wall of the blacksmith’s shop as he rode to join McGraw, which would be Winona’s signal to ride out to Lars’s hiding place and send him on to the Chaucers’ lands. How she wanted him to come here first, to hug her and tell her things would be all right before riding off on such a dangerous mission.
Winona had explained the plan in simple enough terms. She believed in Clint and the wisdom of any plan he put together. Still, such faith couldn’t stop the endless list Katrine’s brain concocted of things that could go wrong.
“You worry for Lars, don’t you?” she said to the Cheyenne woman when her dark brows knit together for the hundredth time that hour.
At first she only nodded in reply, then she added, “I have been praying. To Christ, as Reverend Thornton has taught me to do.”
Katrine offered a sigh. “What else can we do right now but pray for His will and protection?”
“I know Reverend Thornton tells me I should pray for God’s will to be done in my life. I should want that God’s will is done tonight, but my own heart is strong in what it wants. What if they are not the same? What if that blocks the way of my prayers?”
Katrine could easily understand those feelings. Hadn’t centuries of believers felt the rift between human wants and Divine Sovereignty? “I believe God knows our hearts, weak or strong. It is a fool thing to hide your own feelings from Him.” Her own words made her wonder if she’d attempted to hide her feelings for Clint from God. She’d poured her heart out to Lars, but she had never really taken the matter to prayer, had she? She pushed out a sigh, hoping Winona’s fear of “blocked prayers” could not be true. “If God heard our prayers only by what our hearts wanted, we’d go no end of wrong, ja? I believe it is the Holy Spirit’s job to change feelings that pull us from God’s purposes.” Holy Spirit, You have much work to do tonight.
Katrine tried to meet Winona’s eyes with kindness and peace rather than worry and fear, but she suspected the wise young native saw right through her ruse. “We cannot help but fear tonight, but we also know God holds the outcome. So,” she said as she squared her shoulders and folded her hands in her lap, “I shall try to set aside the fear and pray in trust.”
Winona considered the words for a moment, then spoke softly. “Have you set aside what you feel for the sheriff?”
Katrine took a breath to start a flurry of denials, but then realized how useless an attempt that was. In the end, she merely shook her head.
“Hearts wander in foolishness.” After a second, Winona added, “Or perhaps they are the wiser than our heads in what matters most.”
Katrine ran one hand along the newly painted church rail, thinking of the new square windowsill Clint had built for her. “I don’t think that is true. My heart feels very foolish right now.”
“My heart began to see Lars far before my spirit looked to your God. I saw how God made Lars who he is. How his faith shapes him as a man. At first there seemed to be so much between us, so many differences. Now I see that much of that is of no matter to God or hearts.”
If Lars felt for Winona the way the Cheyenne woman felt for him, then Katrine couldn’t help but think Lars’s heart had chosen very wisely indeed. “It would be lovely if that were true.”
Winona caught Katrine’s arm. “What do you believe stands between you and Sheriff Thornton?”
There seemed no simple way to put it. Then again, maybe it was as simple as the answer that came to her. “Things that cannot be changed.”
“Reverend Thornton would say God is more powerful than anything man can do, yes?”
“Yes. Only some things cannot be undone. Even God’s forgiveness cannot change a past deed.” A woman is still dead, Katrine thought. A murderer still roams free.
“There is a deed on your soul?”
The simplicity of Winona’s words did not come close to describing the tangled route Katrine and Lars had had to take on their difficult way across the nation to be here in Oklahoma. And yet, that’s exactly how she felt. As if there was a dark spot staining her life that could not be removed, even if it was forgiven ten times over. “Yes.”
Winona narrowed her eyes. “The sheriff does not know of this deed?”
“No.” The word hung in the darkening air, final and sad.
“And you do not tell him because you fear it would change his heart against you.”
His heart against you. The choice of words stung, and Katrine swallowed hard.
Winona’s gaze seemed to take stock of Katrine’s sagging shoulders and dismiss them. “And so you decide his heart for him by not telling him.”
“Do you know the word compromise?”
Winona shook her head but guessed. “Something between two people?”
Again, so simple. Perhaps that was why the Cheyenne always looked so serene—there seemed to be no complexity or compromise in their world. “Often it’s more than that. It can be…bending to agree to something, or it can be doing what you must when you would rather do something else. Like a mistake, only different.”
“So you have made a mistake, a…compromise that you think would drive Sheriff Thornton from you if he knew.”
“Sheriff Thornton is not a man who compromises. Not when it comes to the law.”
Winona folded her hands together. “That is true. But this compromise, it is not the same as a crime, yes?”
Katrine felt her sigh to the bottom of her shoes. “It depends on your point of view.” That really was the crux of it, wasn’t it?
“Do you regret whatever it is you have done?”
Did she regret doing what it took to keep that man from hurting her? Katrine was never sure of the answer to that question. On her worst days, she was angry at the world for forcing such a choice on her at that age. On her best days, she knew the person she was now had very little to do with the frightened girl who pretended not to see that woman in her pool of blood on that street so many years ago. That act, she could sometimes forgive. The many other poor choices the torment of that act had fostered—well, those were filled with regrets. “I wish I had not let it harm me so.”
“You told me once you felt you were given another life when you were pulled from the fire. Can you not choose to leave all that behind you?” She met Katrine’s eyes with a powerful dark gaze. “Can you not let Sheriff Thornton choose if he would want to leave that behind, instead of choosing for him? It seems to me this is also about the fear and trust you just mentioned.”
Winona, for all her simplicity, was right; Katrine was allowing fear to deny Clint his own choice about her past. She was taking away from him the chance to choose, in the fear his choice would be to end their friendship.
Only their goodbye this afternoon had already ended that friendship. Not because she didn’t want his company, but because she wanted it more than ever. She wanted more than a friendship from him. Mere friendship with Clint, genuine as it may be, would never be enough. “Yes,” she whispered to Winona, “it is about fear.”
She feared she would be like Trillevip, surrendering her loved one to another’s heart. Dear Father, can You make me brave enough tonight to risk what I have for what I want most?
*
As if it knew what deeds McGraw planned, the moon hid its face tonight. McGraw was delighted to have such cover of darkness, but Clint could argue the inky night both helped and hindered his plans. Shots fired in the night could easily go off target, one man could easily be mistaken for another. There was just so much that could go wrong.
Not to mention his own concentration. Something had shifted between Katrine and himself this afternoon. Neither one had admitted their feelings to the other—in fact, their words declared the opposite—but the denials rang hollow and Clint was sure they both knew it. The clarity of her eyes made her a poor liar—they spoke so much more loudly than her words. That woman had so much love
to give the world, and yet she held back, often hiding behind Lars’s outgoing nature. She needed a family to love and to love her. Watching her with Dakota and Walt—and every other child in Brave Rock who thought of her as The Story Lady—showed that clear as day.
Which made his path clear as day as well: he’d have to tell her he could never give her a family. Outright, in the clearest—and maybe cruelest—possible words. He’d tried to tell himself differently, that all her pretty dreams about happy homes and big families didn’t involve him. Still, he couldn’t deny what he saw; even as she spoke the word friends he knew that wasn’t the half of it. Glory, but when she touched his arm it was easy to forget there was a near decade between them. When she spoke his name he could make himself dismiss how they were from different worlds.
This entire week—and what was about to happen tonight—had shown him things he’d tried not to see. Katrine was sweet and pure, she’d surprised him by how brave she could be. But none of that could deny the hard truth that Katrine was not suited to live the risks of a lawman’s wife. Especially not if she wanted all those young ones. He, like every Thornton, knew the pain of growing up without a father. Children needed a father they could be sure was coming home safe and sound. As sheriff, that wasn’t part of what he could bring to a woman’s home. No, he wouldn’t risk such a constant threat of loss for any wife of his.
“Thornton!” McGraw pulled his horse up beside Clint and cuffed him on the shoulder. “Where’s your head at, son? If you want to stay alive you’d best keep your mind on your business tonight. We’re riding out. Where’s your bandana?”
Clint held up a red one, and watched McGraw scowl, glad his scheme to get it up onto the blacksmith’s wall was already in play. “What in blazes is that thing? I told you to get yourself a black one.” He peered at Clint, doubt narrowing his eyes. “You getting cold feet?”
“Not one bit,” Clint shot back, inserting confidence in his voice. “Just didn’t think of the details.” He shrugged as if he didn’t think it was that important but would go along with commands, then cocked his head back in the direction of the smithy’s. He’d hung a black one off the back wall earlier today. “I saw a black one hanging off the blacksmith shop. I’ll go swap it out.”