by Tony Black
I knew the Craft were up to their necks in this too, but I got the impression their involvement was more crisis management – covering tracks. The reason for their intervention was still to be confirmed but I had an idea Fitz could check that out. When you weighed it all up, I was still missing the bigger part of the puzzle and I needed to get to it. And soon.
I was on my second pint when the bold Fitzsimmons strode in. His face was flushed red, the collar of his white shirt open at the neck. He ordered himself a whisky at the bar then scanned the room, made for my table. He looked over his shoulder as he walked, his gait unsteady, like he was breaking in new shoes.
‘I don’t like this, Dury… not one feckin’ iota I don’t.’ He seemed edgy.
‘It’s a nasty business all right.’
‘Jaysus, I’m not on about that.’ He pressed his index finger into the table. ‘I mean meeting in here. First crack I hear about taking it up the Gary, I will swing for ye, Dury!’
I let out a laugh. ‘Yeah, well… I need to keep a low profile for now.’
Fitz riled, ‘So what’s feckin’ new?’
I told him about being hoyed up by Shaky, the trip to the country-side, the threats. I stretched out all the juicy bits, made him fully aware of how seriously he should take it. After all, there were implications here that he needed to consider too. Shaky might not be the kind of criminal that he spent his days chasing after any more, but he understood how they operated, knew every one in his manor and liked to think he could keep them under control.
Fitz rubbed his fat cheek as he spoke. ‘I’m not getting this. Why’s Stevens so concerned with the Laird Boy?’
‘Simple. The kid owed his man money. Gemmill has form for GBH and a serious record. If it was to be known that he had been helping the lad set himself up as a dealer it wouldn’t look good for Shaky, would it?’
Fitz sipped his whisky, savoured the taste a little, showed his bottom row of teeth, then spoke: ‘There’s that, I suppose. But then, why doesn’t he just cut Gemmill loose?… Be the answer to all his problems.’
‘Gemmill’s too deep into that organisation. If he went he could sink him, or worse, set up on his own, and nobody wants a bloody drugs war.’
Fitz sighed, waved a hand at me in a ‘slow down’ motion. ‘Okay, okay… whatever his reasons, what we have is Stevens putting the frighteners on you to keep away from the Laird boy’s murder investigation. Let’s stick to those facts for now.’
‘All right… so where does that get us?’ I played wingman to Fitz; sometimes it paid to let him think he was the smartest man in the room.
‘Way I see it, with the Craft involved, and the uni’s boyos… this investigation is as dead in the water as our Laird laddie. At least, they think it is… if Stevens was connected to that mob, he wouldn’t be shitting himself about you poking yer nose in.’
I put the tick in the box, let him see I was paying attention: ‘So he’s running scared without any cause…’
‘Correct! Or should I say… up to a point.’
I saw where he was going with this now. ‘What you mean is, it doesn’t matter to the Craft who killed Ben Laird; they just want it swept under the carpet. But if it was Gemmill who killed him, and he’s trying to cover his own tracks, in fucking clumsy fashion, then he might just blow this whole thing open.’
Fitz raised his glass, slugged deep. I watched his Adam’s apple move up and down. He licked his lower lip, put down the glass, ‘You leave young Gemmill to me, and fucking Shaky as well… By Christ, I’ll give the fucker a shake, so I will.’
I liked the sound of that. ‘You’ll keep me out of the picture?’
‘Jaysus, of course. I’ll be watching him closely, though. He’ll know he has serious police interest and if he puts a foot wrong he’ll be hauled in… Should free you up a bit to get down to brass tacks.’
There was certainly plenty to be getting on with. ‘Well, there’s some progress.’ I produced the folder from Rasher, opening it at the cutting with the headline about the seventies killing. I pushed it towards Fitz.
‘What’s this?’ His face drooped as he took in the header, and the implications.
‘Read ’em and weep.’
Fitz scratched his head as he scanned the cutting. He was a slow reader. I watched his brow crease up as he digested the piece. Once or twice he looked up from the print, shook his head a bit, then his eyes returned to the cutting. When he was finished he sat back in his chair and pinched the flabby skin under his chin, said, ‘Christ Al-fucking-mighty… they’ve got form for this caper.’
‘Oh, yes.’
He held up the cutting, winced. ‘Where did you get this?’
I finished off my pint, said, ‘The paper… they’re all over it. I have to tell you, they’re looking to go big on this, mate.’ I went back to the file, produced another cutting that I’d found tucked away at the bottom of the pile. ‘This makes especially interesting news. I was looking through the file and I found this.’ I handed over a picture of the class of ‘79 that the paper had reproduced. ‘I don’t think the hacks have cottoned on to this, but that one I’ve circled… recognise him?’
Fitz squinted, ‘No… who is it?’
‘It’s Joe Calder. He was a classmate of the boy that was hanged. This goes way back, Fitz… years back. If this gets blown up, there’s people with lots to hide that’ll be thrown into the spotlight.’
‘Oh, the feckin’ Craft will love this discovery.’ Fitz rubbed his hands together, laughed it up. I saw him register the way this might play out – old scores settled for him; top brass shed from the force. And his nephew in the clear. It was a pretty payday ahead for him… if he worked it right.
I smiled, wiping the froth of Guinness from my mouth. ‘Thought you might say that. You need to check out if any more of those faces are matched to names in the force… and especially the Craft.’
Fitz leaned forward, rested on his elbows. ‘I’m all over it.’
Chapter 29
I HADN’T SEEN AMY SINCE her ordeal with Danny Gemmill and Shaky, but she didn’t seem to be too worse for wear. Pacing about the flat in a pair of flared white hipsters and a flowery top that tied around the back. She was blasting Hod as she went.
‘You old fart,’ she yelled, ‘since when were you appointed my father?’ Hod looked wrecked, standing at the end of the sofa with his fist resting on his chin. ‘Gus, thank fuck!’ He reached for his jacket. The chair it lay on nearly went with him. ‘Your turn, mate… you can do some babysitting for her.’
Amy stood in the doorway, one hand on her hip, the other in a single-digit salute directed at Hod.
‘See some folk… no matter what you do for them, it’s never enough,’ said Hod.
‘I told you, I don’t need looking after,’ roared Amy.
I had to laugh.
Hod said, ‘Isn’t that your tune, Dury?’
He had me there. I opened the front door for him, said, ‘Where you off to?’
‘Away… any-fucking-where!’
‘Aye, well, watch out, eh. Remember, Shaky’s still got your number and he wants paying.’
‘Aye, aye, aye.’
As the door closed Amy balled fists, raised them and looked to the ceiling. ‘Oh, thank fucking Christ. He won’t even let me sit in my room on my own in case I shimmy down the drainpipe.’
I smiled at the image. ‘Well, he’s got a point.’
She picked up her foot, showing me a set of five-inch heels. ‘C’mon, in these? I’m good but I’m not that good!’
I went over to the window, watched Hod head for the Scotbet on Lothian Road. Wondered where he got the money to put a line on. Let it slide. He was probably only going in to soak up the atmosphere. Anywhere would be an escape from the claustrophobia of Amy’s flat.
‘Had any visitors?’ I asked.
‘Oh, aye… the other one, other part of Haud It ’n’ Daud It!’
‘Mac?’
‘Yeah, whatever you want to ca
ll him. They’ve been taking it in turns to mind me. I feel like a five-year-old.’
‘Good – you need looking after.’
Amy sparked up again, started waving her arms around: ‘You approve of this? God Almighty, Gus… I thought you at least-’
I put a finger on her mouth, said ‘Sshhh.’
She kissed the tip of my finger, smiled.
‘Amy…’
‘What?’
‘I was trying to say that… we were worried about you.’
She moved closer. ‘We… only we. Not you. That’s what you want to say.’
I looked away, laughed. There was sun shining on the windowpane. ‘Amy.’
‘Oh, shut up, Gus. You know you’re crazy about me.’
I felt shocked, exposed. I stepped back. My escape route was blocked by the wall. ‘Y’wha’?’
‘C’mon… admit it. You can’t get me out of your mind – that’s what you want to say.’
She was on me now, like a big cat with its prey. I had nowhere to go as she put arms either side of me and opened her mouth. I responded for a brief moment, then pushed her away. ‘Amy…’
‘Gus, shut up.’
She managed to kiss me and undress me at the same time. This girl was impressing me no end. I went along with it… all the way.
It had been a while since I’d woken up with a beautiful woman on my arm; maybe too long. I’d forgotten how good it felt. As I looked down at Amy’s long hair spread out on the pillow I wanted to tell her how happy I was, but the thought of it seemed to immediately cancel out that plan. It was as if the mere suggestion was enough to throw happiness out the window. I had been through this so many times with Debs – the feelings of joy, then the feelings of sorrow – that I felt destined to be alone. Christ, I had felt it was what I deserved.
I’d made Debs miserable; she had said so herself. My problems, the drink, the self-destruction – they had all taken their toll. She didn’t want to be dragged down with me. Could I blame her? No way. I wanted Debs to be happy more than I wanted it for myself. As I lay there with Amy, though, I couldn’t help but think of Debs.
I had spent so long with Debs that she had become a part of me; when she had left it had been like losing a limb. An arm or a leg – one day you wake up and it’s gone. You get by, because you have to. But your sense of the world around you has changed. Dramatically.
I had thought I couldn’t go on without Debs once, then, later, when I thought about the truth of the situation I thought I could never go on with her. It was over. That was the truth of it. I no longer wanted to be with her because I knew I was no good for her. We had went on for too long trying to keep it together when the plain truth was, it was never meant to be.
I looked down at Amy. She was flat out.
I risked fingertips on her shoulder, traced the line of her back. She never stirred. Warmth was radiating from her. It felt unnatural. I had slept alone for so long that I’d become used to my own cold trembling bones.
Was this really happening? It didn’t seem possible; but it did feel right.
Amy was right: I wanted to be with her. I’d been fighting my feelings for so long that I’d almost convinced myself otherwise, but the truth was out now. In my warped head I could only see it going awry, but I knew I was judging her by my experience with Debs. This wasn’t Debs by my side. I’d need to remind myself of that every step of the way. Amy was her own woman; she deserved to be treated as such. I needed to lose my baggage.
Amy stirred. ‘Hmmnn… how long have I been out?’
‘Dunno… an hour, maybe.’
She drew closer to me, hugged. ‘And how long have you been awake?’
‘I haven’t been asleep.’
‘Oh, Christ… analysing the situation, eh?’
I laughed. ‘Sort of.’ The girl knew me so well. She reminded me of Debs in this regard, but she wasn’t Debs. Her perceptions were her own.
She sat up. ‘Got any smokes?’
I leaned out of the bed, pulled my jeans across the floor and released a packet of Marlboro red tops from the back pocket. ‘Here you go.’
‘Oh, man… these are the heavy hitters.’
‘You don’t like them?’
‘Nah… they’ll do.’
We both lit up. After a couple of drags, Amy turned to me. ‘So, Gus Dury…’ she tapped on my head, ‘what conclusions have you come to in that mind of yours?’
‘What about?’
‘Us!’
‘We’re an us now are we?’
She mock-punched me. ‘Too fucking right. I don’t just roll in the hay with anyone, y’know.’
I fended off some more blows, stuck my cigarette in my mouth, said, ‘Okay… okay… You win.’
‘I should think so.’
She smiled. I felt lucky to have her here.
‘One thing, though, Amy… you should know that I’m a bit-’
‘Of a prick!… Yeah, I know.’
‘Apart from that… What I was going to say was, I’ve just come out of a long relationship and…’
Amy leaned out of the bed. I watched her bare back as she grabbed an ashtray. She stubbed out her tab as she spoke. ‘Look, Gus, I know all that. And I know things aren’t exactly sweetness and light in your world, but so what? We have something… let’s just see where it goes.’
It seemed a plan. How could I argue?
‘Well, I want you to know that thing you did… when you disappeared with Gemmill. That really put the frighteners on me.’
‘Really… Is that what I’ve got to do to get your attention?’ She smiled, winked.
‘No. And I mean that, Amy. I don’t want you trying anything like that again. It’s too dangerous. The next time, we might not get away with our necks.’
She looked out of the window. The sun was going behind a cloud now. ‘You know, if you lot hadn’t come breenging in like that… I might have been okay.’
I got out of bed, pulled on my jeans. I tried to cool it, give myself enough time to find the right words but they never came. ‘More than likely you’d have been killed. You don’t know the kind of form Gemmill has.’
‘But look at what I found out-’
‘What, that Ben Laird owed money to Gemmill!’ I tried to sound offhand, lying, ‘That would have come up sooner or later.’
I wasn’t giving her proper credit and she knew it. ‘Oh yeah?… When exactly?’
‘I dunno. All I’m saying is, it wasn’t worth the risk.’
She got up, stood before me with the bed sheet wrapped around her. ‘Gus, we have Gemmill and Shaky, both with form and motive, possibly in the frame for murder. That’s down to me.’
I couldn’t fault her, but I couldn’t risk encouraging more of the same. ‘Amy… there’s more to this case than you know about. That pair are just skimming the edges. They don’t even know how deep this goes… They’re dangerous because of that, and they’re scared too… which makes them unpredictable. You should never have gone anywhere near Gemmill.’
‘Well, if you told me all the facts, maybe I’d make better decisions.’
I picked up my shirt, flung it on. This was an argument I was never going to win so I played cautious. ‘The fact is, Amy, I care about you, and I don’t want you hurt. Can you get your head around that?’
She nodded, moved closer and put her arms around me. ‘I don’t want you hurt either.’
I sighed. Way things were shaping up, that wasn’t going to be an option.
Chapter 30
IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE happiest of days; I’d opened up to Amy and found myself experiencing something close to joy. Never a good state for a drinker: it means something bad is just around the corner. It’s the alky’s rationale. Days are meant to bring grief; it’s in the contract. The minute something starts to go right, panic sets in.
I holed up in an East End drinker. I’d given up staying out of Shaky’s manor. The self-destruct button had been flipped, nothing mattered to me any more. If h
e found out I was still working the case after he’d warned me off, so be it. Like I said, I expected grief… it was in the post.
The thing about getting together with Amy was that it meant dredging up more memories of Debs. I couldn’t escape them, she was still a part of me. My hands trembled as I picked up my mobi. I was well on, blootered drunk. Had put away the best part of a bottle of low-flying burdie. It stung on the way down but I was past caring; I needed drink… I needed to be drunk. To block out the hum of thoughts circling inside my head. If it ended me, so be it.
Ringing.
I cursed her loudly. ‘Fucking pick it up, Debs… what you doing to me?’
I wanted her to tell me she was okay, that I could move on.
Ringing.
I needed to know things were over between us for good. That all the hurt of our past was behind us. That I was free to stop worrying about her.
Ringing.
I wanted nothing from her, nothing. Why couldn’t she see that? Why did I need to hear the words? My head was a mess. I knew I was in bad shape. I belched up a sliver of whisky-perfumed bile.
Voicemail.
‘Oh for fucksake… Debs, Debs… it’s me. Why are you doing this? Why? Why can’t you just speak to me? I need to hear your voice. I’m sorry for everything… everything that went wrong between us. I know you don’t want to hear it but it’s important to me to let you know I’ve moved on. I just need to know you have too… that there’s a world without Gus and Debs. Tell me, please, and I’ll stop calling… I just need to know, Debs… that’s all I need to know. We never spoke. We never talked about this. We just split. Please, Debs… tell me life goes on, eh. Please-’
The call timed out.
I sat the mobi on the bar.
The barman came over. ‘You okay there, mate?’ He was an Aussie, blond and buff – aren’t they all?