I wanted him inside of me, too.
And he thought Fury and I were involved. It was suddenly important that he know that that wasn’t the case.
“Fury and I aren’t involved,” I said simply.
“We’re naked baby, in bed, and you call out his name? Hard to believe.” He gave a rough snort. "And I seem to recall him coming out of your fucking trailer the morning I left, saying something about toys and coming back."
Toys? I thought back to the morning in question. I'd run into Fury just as he'd come out of Casey's place after having breakfast with her and Jim. Noticing that I'd been upset, he'd followed me to my place. We'd talked for a minute before he’d used my bathroom, coming out to tell me about the leak I’d had. He'd offered to fix it, but needed to get his tools, which he'd referred to as his “toys. It was obvious that Jace had overheard him and thought Fury had meant something entirely different by the word”toys”.
He had a lot of nerve.
“Maybe we’re just casual like you and me,” I said without thinking, recalling how it had hurt seeing him with CC right after he’d spent the night with me. “It shouldn’t matter to you if I thought you were another man. Just like it didn’t matter to me that you let CC give you a blowjob before I even left your place that morning.” I was lying through my teeth, praying that Jace didn’t hear the hurt behind my flippancy.
“I thought you said you were okay with casual,” he countered.
“I thought you said you were, too,” I shot right back. It seemed to be an insane conversation between two people who were in bed together, naked, when we could have been doing something more enjoyable. Jace may have been angry, but his body still wanted me. His cock hadn’t shown any signs of softening.
“Well, since we’re both okay with casual, how about you jump right up on my dick and ride it till we both come?” There was something in his hard tone that I couldn’t identify.
He was serious, I knew he was, and I’d walked right into his trap. I couldn’t do it. The last time with Jace had proven to me that I didn’t have what it took to be in a casual, sexual relationship with him. I didn’t want casual. My attraction to him was about more than that. But Jace wasn’t the kind of man who wanted to be with just one woman, much less be in a permanent situation with one. His nomad way of life didn’t afford him that kind of luxury.
Knowing that tore me up inside. I couldn’t do it. If I did, I’d lose my soul.
But I needed to have him one more time.
Because I was weak, and I wanted him.
“Sure,” I found myself saying just as indifferently as he’d been. I began to shift upward with his help. His hands were gentle against my waist as he raised me off his body until I was in position over his cock. I pulled my wet panties aside, my pussy already dripping down onto him. I caught my breath when he lowered me, thrusting up at the same time.
I closed my eyes and groaned at the sensation of being filled to the max by him. Jace groaned beneath me, his hips leaving the bed as he seated himself deep, grinding me down against his pelvis. A little tremor raced through my body when he trapped my clit with his movements.
“Fuck, baby,” he said hoarsely, beginning to fuck me deep and hard. “You’re as tight as I fucking remember.”
It appeared that foreplay wasn’t important or expected for casual sex. I didn’t like it, not one bit. We’d done plenty of it the last time. But if Jace was okay with a quick fuck, then I was, too. We’d both get off, and then I’d walk away. I’d have to. I wouldn’t be able to remain there and watch him go from woman to woman.
I fought back tears while I worked Jace’s cock as if it were my own personal sex toy. I sat up and leaned back, riding him hard, keeping up with the grueling pace he’d set. Fuck, it felt good! I could feel every ridge and vein that lined his massive muscle every time he glided into me and my walls swelled around him tightly. I squeezed, feeling the big man beneath me shake and groan in weakness, relishing in my power over him. At some point I reached behind me and grasped his balls, rolling and squeezing them and feeling them get full and tight with his cum.
Jace’s hands came up and cupped my bouncing breasts, pinching my nipples until I cried out. He wrapped a hand around the back of my neck and pulled me down to him toward his mouth, but I turned at the last second, avoiding his kiss and hurting myself in the process.
“Casual, big man,” I husked, letting his lips caress my jaw line and down my neck. He grumbled something under his breath, but continued kissing his way down my chest. I arched wildly when he reached my breasts.
“Let me taste those fucking tits,” he growled, pulling one into his mouth. He kept fucking me strong and steady. Our bodies became wet where we were joined, the heady aroma of musk and sex surrounding us. He lavished attention to both breasts, scraping his whiskers over my sensitive skin as he ran his open mouth over me. He caught a nipple between his teeth and suckled it, the pull so strong I felt it down to my toes.
“Jace!” I cried out, grinding my pelvis against his. I was going to come any second.
His hands moved beneath my butt and squeezed roughly, holding me right where he wanted me. As we continued to rock against each other I reached down between our bodies for my clit. I found it slick and swollen, and began to manipulate it, throwing my head back and panting as I chased my release. “I’m so close!” I wasn’t aware that I’d spoken the words out loud until Jace’s hand nudged mine away and took over.
He knew exactly what to do to set the fireworks off. A rub, a pinch, and I was coming undone.
I screamed out my release and then my body was convulsing wildly around Jace’s thick cock. He was inside me when I exploded, and I tightened around him, causing him to suck in his breath. He fucked me through my orgasm with an intensity that added longevity to my pleasure. I climaxed hard and long before I gradually came down from a pleasure that was unparalleled to anything I’d ever experienced before. Out of breath, out of steam, I began to slump forward, but even then Jace was able to continue his thrusts. A series of groans erupted from between his lips, and then his hand twisted in my hair and he forced me the rest of the way down to accept his mouth, finally reaching his own release.
He buried his dick deep inside my body, the head against my cervix, and released stream after stream of cum. I could feel every pulse of his cock against my walls until he was spent and growing soft. Our hearts beat as one, and I let Jace ravish my mouth for as long as he wanted to, kissing him back with an eagerness and passion that renewed my desire. It was a desire that I ignored. There were things that I needed to say to him. When he stopped kissing me I sat up so I could look down at him. I watched as his eyes moved over me like a caress, stopping on my breasts.
“That was a good fuck, baby.”
I couldn’t argue with that. It had scratched the itch in both of us.
“I missed your tight pussy.” I forced a small smile. “How’s your back?”
He’d been so careful not to touch it while we’d been fucking. “It hurts a little, but I’m okay. I’ll get someone to treat it later.”
“Want me to?”
I quickly shook my head.
His eyes narrowed. “Something wrong?”
I snorted. “What could possibly be wrong? We just had smoking hot sex. In the ten years that I was with Seth, I never had an orgasm while he was inside me.”
“Who’s Seth? Your ex?” He reached up to push my hair behind my ear.
I couldn’t take the combination of the atmosphere in the room and the way that he was tenderly touching me. It was all fake. “Yeah,” I responded, beginning to feel antsy. I was sitting there on top of him, his dick semi-hard inside me, touching and talking as if we were a normal, loving couple. “Well, I guess I should leave before CC or one of the other girls shows up, right?” Did he hear the bitterness in my voice? I tried to laugh it off, disgusted with myself for being so obvious.
Jace obviously didn’t think what I’d said was funny. “Do you kno
w something that I don’t?”
“No. I’m just going by what happened the last time. I guess I better find another room, too. Maybe I can stay with someone.”
“You don’t need to find another room, Luna. I don’t mind you staying here.” He lifted his hips, showing both of us that he was more than ready for round two. His hands were suddenly smoothing up my ribcage to right beneath my breasts. “I kind of like having your tits and pussy against me all night.”
I snorted. “I kind of liked being up against you all night, too. But I don’t think it’s a good idea.”
“Why the fuck not?”
There was a knock on the door, and then, “Jace? You in there, baby?”
A smile that I wasn’t feeling spread across my still wet mouth. “Wow, right on time.” I couldn’t tell from the voice if it was CC at the door, or one of the other club women.
“Fury said you would need me this morning.”
Fury? Why would he send a girl to Jace’s room, knowing that I was inside? I’d told him about what had happened that morning with Jace after we’d spent the night together. How could Fury purposely send CC, knowing how it had hurt me the last time? I grew numb, feeling let down, waiting for Jace to invite her in. I quickly got off his hard cock and slipped from the bed.
“Go the fuck away!” he yelled at whoever it was at the door. His gaze swung back to me as I scrambled around, picking up my clothes. “Luna−”
“Listen, Jace--” I decided that it was now or never. I had to tell him how I felt. “I lied to you.” I halted for a minute to make sure that I had his attention. His eyes were narrowed on me in the beginning of a frown. “I can’t do casual. I thought I could, but it’s not me.” I decided to tell him everything. “That first morning, when I came out of the bathroom and saw you with CC, it crushed me.” He opened his mouth, but I hushed him by raising my hand. “I know that we were little more than strangers, that there was nothing between us and I shouldn’t have let it bother me, but I can’t help how I feel. I’ve been attracted to you since I first met you, and I’m honest enough to admit that there’s nothing casual about what I want from you.” I took a deep breath. “What happened here this morning between us, it can’t happen again, Jace.” I was dressing as rapidly as I was talking. “The next time I give myself to a man, it’s going to mean something. To both of us.”
I turned and walked out of the room, thanking God that the woman was gone.
I stopped on the other side of the door and leaned against it, looking up at the ceiling as if searching for a sign. For the first time in a long time, I seriously considered going home.
If I could handle giving Jace up, I could handle a possessive, controlling ex.
Chapter 21
Jace
What the fuck? I stared at the closed door for a second before jumping from the bed and going to it. I was buck naked, but I didn’t give a shit. I pulled it open, and Luna fell back into my arms. I jerked her against me back into the room and slammed the door shut. Her injuries were the only thing preventing me from slamming her up against it. I ignored the bewilderment on her pretty face, ignored her round eyes and her dropped jaw. The tears shimmering in her eyes fucking gutted me, though.
“What−” She began backing away from me, confused by my actions.
“Shut up,” I snarled, stalking her. “Let’s stop playing games, shall we?” Now she was afraid of me. Good.
“I’m not playing games!” she said heatedly. “You’re the one who used the word casual from the very beginning. I just can’t do it, Jace. No big deal. You’ve got plenty of pussy options.”
My lips quirked at that, I couldn’t help it. “’Pussy options?’” I had finally cornered her, but still I was reluctant to touch her. I did cage her in between my arms when I slapped my palms against the wall on either side of her head. “Yeah. I suppose that’s one way of looking at it. It’s what I’m used to, baby. Easy pussy, wherever I go. I don’t remain in one place for very long, so keeping things casual just makes shit easier. No one gets hurt.” I leaned in closer, wanting to replace the angry hurt in her eyes with something else, something hotter. “But something about you makes me feel differently. I haven’t been able to get you out of my mind. Don’t ask me why because I don’t fucking know. Women are out of sight, out of mind when I’m done with them, but you--you’ve been haunting my dreams. For the first time in my fucking life I don’t want to do casual,” I ended on a growl.
Her face softened, as if in sympathy. “You don’t sound very happy about it.”
“I’m not,” I admitted truthfully. “Getting involved with a woman on a deeper level complicates things. I’m nearing forty-five, too fucking old to be thinking the kind of things I’m thinking about you. I’m not talking sex, baby. Sex is the easy part.”
“Then what, Jace? What are you talking about?”
I shook my head. “I’m not fucking sure. It’s like you’re inside me. I think about you, I dream about you. The thought of you with someone else makes me want to fucking rip someone apart with my bare hands.”
Luna sighed softly. “It hasn’t been easy for me, either. I just got out of a long term relationship. I’m not ready for this, whatever it is. But I’m not a player, either. I can’t hop from man to man, I…” She paused, color rushing to her cheeks. “If I’m attracted enough to a man to jump into bed with him, then he’s the only one I want. If he can’t give me that in return, then it’s not meant to be.”
“Are you saying that you haven’t been with anyone while I was gone?” For some reason the thought that Luna hadn’t let another man touch her made me fucking happy.
She confirmed with a nod. “Not that I haven’t had the opportunity,” she added quickly. “More than once.”
I fully believed that, and I didn’t want to know the fucking details.
“So what are we doing here, Jace?”
“The hell if I know,” I snapped, frowning down at her. “You don’t do casual. Casual is all I do. We both can’t stop thinking about each other. The sex between us is fucking off-the-charts-hot.”
She lowered her eyes shyly. “Even without the foreplay,” Luna murmured low, her tone slightly disappointed.
I raised a brow at that, a grin moving across my lips at the cute little pout on her bottom lip. There hadn’t been a moment of foreplay when we’d fucked earlier. “You like foreplay, baby?” I teased. I was more than ready to fuck her sweet pussy again. My dick hadn’t gone down since she’d jumped off it.
When she slowly raised her eyes to mine the sensual fire burning within them fueled my desire for her. Arousal put a beautiful flush on her face. Her teeth sank into her full bottom lip, tugging the corner of it inside her mouth, making me hungry. I leaned forward and took her bottom lip between my teeth, chewed on it for a while before letting it go with a pop. Luna’s soft gasp was music to my ears. She couldn’t hide the fact that she wanted me as much as I wanted her.
I slowly moved in and was about to cover that trembling mouth with mine when a hand flattened against my chest, holding me back. “Wait,” she said, meeting my eyes.
“I’m not going to be chasing after club whores, if that’s what you’re worried about,” I said, sensing that this was what she needed to hear. That was as clear as I could be that we would be exclusive, and fuck knew that even thinking that word felt as if I wasn’t being honest with myself. Still, I said what she wanted to hear if it would help to ease her concerns a little. “I don’t know how long I’m going to be here, baby, but you’re the only woman I want to sink my dick into.” The minute the words left my mouth I wondered what the fuck I was doing, limiting myself to one pussy like that.
It wasn’t a concept that I was familiar with.
It wasn’t me.
I couldn’t remember a time when I’d ever been exclusive with a woman. I didn’t know how to be in a relationship. I didn’t know how to date. Wasn’t even sure if I wanted to, but I did know that Luna captivated me. I wanted to posse
ss her, completely, and not just her body. Did it mean that I wanted forever with her? Fuck if I knew. Hell, maybe I’d reached a point where I needed something more significant in my life, because God knew I had nothing right now.
I wasn’t sure if Luna believed me, but in that moment I didn’t give a fuck. I needed her mouth beneath mine, I needed to taste her. I easily pushed against the small hand splayed against my chest before swooping in and claiming what I wanted. I slammed my mouth down on hers and kissed her like a starving man. I groaned, drinking in her warm sweetness when she willingly opened to me. It didn’t take long before kissing Luna wasn’t enough. I wanted her naked and under me again. Her moans fired my blood into wanting to fucking consume her.
The hand on my chest moved up to my hair, her nails biting my scalp as she wove her fingers into the long strands. I dropped my arms from the wall, my hands finding the delectable shape of her ass and squeezing her through her clothes. I pulled her up against me sharply, grinding my dick into her with a groan. I could easily come like this, but I wanted to come inside her pussy.
“I need to feel your skin against mine.” My hands went to the edge of her tee and I quickly pulled it up and over her head. I moved in and raked my teeth down the column of her throat as my fingers worked the front closure of her bra. Heavy tits fell into my hands when the bra gave way. Luna arched wildly, her soft moans urging me to cup and squeeze the mounds. Her nipples were round and hard little berries that I couldn’t wait to taste.
I picked her up until her tits were in my face and I could get my mouth on one. She cried out the second I took a nipple between my teeth and began to gently roll it. Her hands fell onto my shoulders, her legs clasped around my waist.
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