by Carly White
I nodded, though I wasn’t going to be going. I couldn’t believe what I had agreed to and it was like the man did not know how to take the answer no. Instead of sticking around to say anything else, I left without looking back. I was embarrassed at the way I had acted, but my body felt satiated like it hadn’t felt in a long time, maybe ever.
Chapter 7
“What are you doing home? I thought you had history class at ten.”
“I did, but it is the last class and I have enough points for my A. Really no point in going.”
“I hear that, but you are usually so vigilant.”
I shrugged, not able to tell her the real reason. I loved Melissa and all, she was a good friend, but she had a large mouth. “So what are you doing for break?”
“Just going home I think. I was thinking of staying on here, but I need a few days of sleep.”
I laughed. She had been boozing it hard lately and the black circles around her eyes showed it.
“So what are you doing Deidra, working?”
“No, I am taking the break off and going home too. Haven’t seen some of my old friends in a while and mom needs help planting her garden.”
She nodded. I would be the first to admit that my plans weren’t that exciting, but I needed some time away. I had explained at work that I was wearing down, feeling like I was going to burn out. They had agreed to some time off and I was thankful for it. In truth, I was running from a promise that I couldn’t keep. There was no way I could let Billy touch me again. With him, I lost myself and the control that I desperately needed in my life. Ever since that night that he came into the hospital, he had side railed my plans and I had to get away and take some time to remember what was the most important thing in my life. Right now, it was my studies and getting into a good program when I graduated.
“Well you should come back a couple days early so we can go out before starting back.”
I agreed, but knew that I wouldn’t. I needed as many days as I could away from that place. What I needed was some time at home for a much needed reality check. Billy’s offers had not stopped and since he was back to normal, he would soon be richer than his wildest dreams and girls like Leslie would be a dime a dozen. I was sure that there wouldn’t be any room for me in his future, so I had to forget about him. It was impossible when he was around, so I was in hiding and had to leave. He had called the night before several times, but I had ignored the rings, eventually turning my phone off so I could try to go to sleep. It wasn’t forthcoming for some time.
Now, I was packing when I was supposed to be finishing up classes, but as I packed a few bags into my car, I knew it was the right choice. We were from two different worlds and it would never work out. No sense in dragging it on when someone was going to get hurt, especially when I knew that someone was most assuredly going to be me. It was self-preservation, plain and simple.
***
Home was as I remembered it and the slow pace just gave me more time to think. I had several missed calls and messages from Billy, but I wasn’t brave enough to actually read them. I knew he was mad and rightfully so. I had broken a promise, but I appeased my guilt with the fact that he had forced my hand. If I really thought about, every time he had manipulated the situation or took what he wanted. I had no other choice but retreat to keep my sanity intact.
“Deidra I swear, where is your mind at these days?”
“Huh? Sorry. What did you say?” I looked down sheepishly. I was thinking about Billy again, trying to get him out of my mind. I had been talking to my mother, but something she had said triggered it for me.
“I asked how you are liking the hospital?”
“Oh, it’s good.”
I looked away and tried to get the feel of Billy’s hands out of my mind. What had he done to me?
“That’s it, good?”
“Sorry, my mind is just somewhere else today.”
“Today, it’s been all week. I feel like you are still at school. What has you so rattled?”
I wanted to tell someone, but my mom wasn’t the one to tell. I could give her the short version, the very, very short version.
“I just got this guy at school and he has been distracting me. So I came here to get him off my mind, but it doesn’t seem to be helping.”
“Sounds like there is where you should be.”
“I have too much work to do though.”
“Are your grades suffering?”
“No.”
“Work?”
“No.”
“Then what’s the problem?”
“Aren’t you supposed to tell me to study hard and all that?”
“Why would I say that? You work hard all the time. Lighten up Deidra, life is short.”
I sat back in the chair. It was certainly not the advice I had expected to receive. It was strange how she was acting. This was not the advice I had been given before. Before it was work and study first, social life later. She must have seen the confusion in my face because she kind of laughed. “Oh Deidra. It’s about time you found someone to make you smile like that.”
I looked down. Suddenly uncomfortable with where the conversation had went. I was there to forget about him, to get talked down from the ledge, but she was just encouraging it. Feeling my face getting hot, I took a sip of my drink. My mouth was suddenly dry and the one person I was not supposed to think about was back in my mind full time.
The conversation tuckered out and for that I was thankful. I don’t care how old I got it was still weird to talk to her about boys. She didn’t bring it back up again and I spent a few days there before I went back up to campus. My first class started at the beginning of the week, so it gave me the weekend to get my books and myself sorted.
I finally turned my phone back on and there were a lot of missed calls from Billy. The latest one was a few hours before and I realized I was going to have to answer it eventually. So I dialed the number back and held my breath as my heart pounded in my chest. I was never one to run away from anything and I don’t know why, but I wanted to get the issue on the table.
“Hey, you called?”
“Yea I’ve been calling you for weeks now.”
“Did you need something?”
There was a pause on his side and I figured it was because of the way I was acting. I didn’t want to feel anything for him and it was easier to push him away. Or try anyways.
“Yea I want to see you. We have unfinished business.”
“I have a lot going on, maybe sometime next week?”
“Now.”
Man he was demanding and the tone left me no assumptions of his seriousness. “How about Sunday?”
“How about now? Where are you?”
“I’m out of town right now.”
“Liar. I saw your car come through earlier.”
“I’m at home Billy, about to go out.”
“Address?”
“I’m not giving you the address.” Fuck, I was going to if he asked.
There was a silence on the other side and I waited for his command. The very idea made me want to hang up, but I was waiting for something.
“If I don’t see you tonight I might explode.”
The answer was so simple, as the question had been. I gave him what he wanted. I knew I was going to cave in.
“Be right there.”
Chapter 8
I didn’t know how long he would be, but I knew that I was not ready for a visitor. I had driven home in yoga pants and a T shirt. It definitely wasn’t what I wanted him to see me in, so I went to the back of the apartment to change and maybe jump in the shower. I was already preparing for what was to come.
I decided on a shower after the drive. It had been a long day and a long drive back to campus. I didn’t feel sexy, I felt a mess. Facing Billy in this way did not suit me. I made it quick, not sure what time he would be there. I was turning off the water and wrapping a towel around me when I heard a loud knock at the door. Of course. “Jus
t a minute!”
He knocked harder and I cursed at the closed door. Why was that man so impatient?
Moving towards the door, I tightened my grip on the towel. I opened the door while I held the towel in place with the other and then moved to let him in. “Just give me a second to get dressed. I will be right out.”
I got into the back bedroom quickly, shutting the door behind me as I searched for something to wear. My heart was going a mile a minute and I couldn’t think.
Hearing the door open, I turned around to see him standing there. “I am sick of waiting Deidra. You are not going to put me off anymore.”
I gulped, trying to swallow down the sudden obstruction in my throat. Billy was next to me quickly. Before I could blink he was in front of me. His hands and lips were on me in seconds and there was no way I could think anymore at all. I opened my mouth to the pressure of his tongue. It was as I knew it would be. When he started moving me backwards, I didn’t really understand what he was doing, until I felt the bed mattress on the back of my calves. I was quickly pushed to the surface, his body moving over mine. Everything was just going too fast, but there was no way for me to resist it.
There was a breeze on my body as he lifted up his own and pushed the towel away that was covering me. He hissed with a full view and I couldn’t help but dampen from the sound. Pulling me towards the headboard, his arm snaked underneath my back to effortlessly move me. Then he was pulling his lips away and I was left staring up at him. Grabbing my hands, he raised them above my head and told me not to move them. “If you do, I will not let you come.”
It was not that dangerous of a threat, but in my current state, it seemed like a fate worse than death. While I had been the one hiding, it was not from lack of want. I wanted him more than anything I could previously think of. When he moved back and started to undress, I was quickly reminded just how big he was, in all parts of his body. My eyes were drawn to the long length between his legs, swinging slightly side to side as he walked towards me. It was impossible not to feel something with the intent in his eyes and the hardness below.
I had never felt so confined without anything holding me. He looked determined and I somehow knew that if I did move my hands, he would make good on his threat. I whimpered as he moved back over me and I looked between our bodies to his hardness. My thick thighs opened wide for him, urging him closer. I just needed him inside of me. No more teasing or playing, just fulfillment. When his long rod finally did touch my core, I jerked with the sensation. It was hard and heavy against me.
“Is this what you want?”
I shook my head quickly. I was practically gagging for it. How could he not see? I wanted desperately to grab his fat cock and push it inside of me. I could feel it rubbing back and forth against my wetness, but not moving inwards which was needed so badly.
“Please Billy!”
Words tumbled out of my mouth as my hips rose up to meet him, to force him to give me what I want. But he moved away, taking away his heavy heat and leaving me begging for it. Not once or twice, but several times. He barely had to kiss me to make me wet, as I had been primed for weeks.
“Why didn’t you come like you had promised?”
My eyes opened and I whimpered. I didn’t want to talk. “Because you scare me.”
“You don’t seem scared.”
I closed my eyes again, my hips rising suddenly and pushing the head just inside my tightness. Its width pushed against the sides of my walls, stretching me for a second before he pulled back. I knew that the contact had affected him as much as it did me. His eyes darkened and he moved down to kiss me. His teeth nibbled on my bottom lip, a tiny pain shooting through the sensitive area.
He moved back and pressed back into me slowly and only another inch before pulling out. Billy did it several times, waiting for something from me. “What are you afraid of?”
His shallow thrusts were driving me crazy. I clenched as hard as I could, trying to tempt him to push deeper. His short nails dragged over the skin on my arms and then down my sides as he pulled away and sat back on his knees. The action made me shiver and squeeze harder on the silken shaft. “Answer me or I will stop.”
“Fine.”
My stubbornness was hard to resist. He slammed forward and I screamed out. My eyes crashed closed. Billy ripped out as fast as he had entered my velvet sheath that embraced every inch of his massive meat. “Still want to stop?”
I nodded that I didn’t. “Please don’t.”
I felt the head move back to my tightness and I held my breath for him to push in deep. I needed him to push in deep. I needed it back. When he didn’t, I reopened my eyes and looked up into his questioningly. “You still haven’t answered me. I want to know why you keep disappearing?”
Having enough of his games, I moved my arms, reaching for him. They wrapped around his neck and I slide down on top of him before he could stop me. Once I was all the way on top and he was all the way inside of me, I started to move up and down on his hard cock. My tits bounced in his face to distract him and his hands went to my waist. I had finally broken his will and the triumphant feel of him inside of me couldn’t be matched. Then I was gasping, my body heaving as each push down filled me full and dragged his body up against my clit. “Yes, yes, yes!”
I couldn’t stop saying it and when he leaned down to bite my neck, the different stimulations converged and I was crying out his name. I saw stars behind my closed eyes and then felt my body being slammed down into the bed and then sudden fullness that took my breath away. Hammering inside of me, wave after wave of pleasure coursed through my body.
Billy was gritting his teeth above me, rutting deep and hard when he finally stilled, pouring his hot seed deep against my womb. Shaking inside, he pushed me to another end that seemed to have the same results.
It was several moments before he pulled out and left me with a sigh on my lips. It had been well worth the wait.
Billy lay down next to me, pulling me in to snuggle with his hard body. My form melted against him, feeling like it fit too well to not be right.
“What are you afraid of Deidra?”
“This.”
“This?”
“The feeling that I get when I am around you.”
Billy was quiet for a moment. “I don’t understand.”
“You will be playing pro-ball soon with all those contracts, you will forget about me, but I won’t be able to forget about you.”
“What makes you say that?”
“Because I think I’ve fallen for you.”
“Now what makes you think I could forget about you?” He turned his face towards me, but I couldn’t meet his eyes. “How could I forget the only woman who was there when everything might have slipped away? You encouraged me and helped me heal. You gave me hope Deidra and I can’t get you off of my mind. Where ever I go, I want you there with me.”
Finally meeting his gaze, I could see that what he said was genuine. I felt like my heart was going to burst and I kissed him. The idea of him being mine, made me press myself against his sticky cock that was growing behind me. “Already want more?”
I shook my head. I was dying for more, trying to move up to push him in. Wrapping his arms around my chest, he tugged me tightly to his own and licked my earlobe with his tongue. I jerked with the feel of his wide cockhead pressing against me, pressuring my tightness. “Say please.”
My eyes closed. “Billy, please! I need you.”
I cried out when my wish was granted and I started to feel whole once more.
THE END
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