by Mick Brown
But then, what is happiness? It’s not a good woman, Phil Spector said, or a good man. It’s not money. It’s not hit records. “Happiness is when you feel pretty fucking good and you’ve no bad shit on your mind.” He closed his eyes. “A memory is a curse. Good health, bad memory, that’s about as happy as you’re going to fucking get, buddy…”
Spector was still not drinking. But shortly before Christmas, he was involved in an accident that was to change things.
He was driving himself to visit a friend at her home in Beverly Hills, according to one source. Near his destination, Spector ran off the road and hit a fire hydrant. The car was undriveable. Shaken, Spector walked the rest of the way to the friend’s house, where he poured himself a drink. By the time his driver arrived to collect him, Spector had to be helped to the car.
In January, Starsailor began giving interviews to plug the release of Silence Is Easy. Asked about Phil Spector’s participation in the record, the bass player James Stelfox was quoted as saying that Spector showed Starsailor “how records used to be made” and they had shown him how recordings were made today. How that must have hurt.
At the same time word began to leak out that Paul McCartney would shortly be releasing a remixed version of Let It Be, shorn of all Spector’s additions and embellishments, and entitled Let It Be…Naked. After thirty-five years McCartney had finally gotten his revenge.
On February 1, 2003, my interview with Phil Spector was published in the Telegraph magazine. The cover line read “Found! Rock’s Lost Genius.” Thirty-six hours later, Phil Spector walked into the House of Blues and met Lana Clarkson.
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“I Think I Killed Somebody…”
It’s an old axiom that actresses die twice in Hollywood, the first time around their mid-thirties, when they can no longer pretend to play young. At the age of forty, Lana Clarkson, an actress who had appeared in some fifteen movies and countless TV shows, had hit a lean time in her career, and was trying to get back on her feet.
For Lana, 2002 had been a particularly difficult year. The movie and television roles that had made her a minor cult star in her twenties, and sustained her through her early thirties, had all but dried up, and her attempts to forge a new career as a comedienne had been sorely hampered by an accident that had resulted in her breaking both of her wrists. By Christmas 2002, in search of employment that would both pay the rent and, she hoped, turn her career around, she had taken a job as the hostess in the VIP room of the Hollywood nightclub, the House of Blues.
She had been named after the Hollywood movie star Lana Turner, a fact that seemed to set her destiny in stone. As a child growing up in the Napa Valley in Northern California she dreamed of being an entertainer, and when the family moved to Los Angeles in 1978, when Lana was sixteen, she began a career in modeling and acting. At the age of twenty she made her film debut in Fast Times at Ridgemont High, playing the role of a geekish schoolteacher’s improbably beautiful wife. She had one line of dialogue. “Hi.”
Her big break came in 1985, in Barbarian Queen, a sword-and-sorcery movie produced by Roger Corman, the king of the Hollywood B-movie. Clarkson played the lead role of Amethea, a warrior in a fur leotard, leading an uprising of slaves. It was a part that the statuesque, six-foot-tall Lana seemed to be made for. Corman would later claim that the film—“loaded,” according to one approving review, “with action and gratuitous nudity”—was the inspiration for the highly successful television show Xena: Warrior Princess.
For Clarkson, the role was the passport to a succession of similarly low-budget, and low-concept, films: Amazon Women on the Moon, Death-stalker, Barbarian Queen II: The Empress Strikes Back—spoofy sword-and-sorcery films and formulaic serial-killer pictures, shot on low budgets in Argentina, Mexico and France. She also featured in modest roles in TV dramas and serials. Nobody could pretend these films were art—in her last major role, in Roger Corman’s Vice Girls (“three beauteous vice cops go undercover as porno actresses to catch a killer”), Clarkson was obliged to utter the timeless line “You’re obedient, Russo. I like that in a sex slave”—but in the peculiar parallel universe of schlock movies they made Clarkson a star, bringing her a large and devoted fan base.
Semi-nudity was an almost obligatory requirement of such films, but Clarkson was never comfortable with it. One story tells of her being furious after discovering that some nude publicity stills had been reproduced in a San Francisco paper, and confronting Roger Corman, demanding to know who was responsible. Denying all knowledge, Corman marched Clarkson to the publicity department, where he proceeded to tear a strip off the hapless publicist. When Clarkson was safely out of the door, Corman is said to have turned to the publicist and told him: “Don’t send the nudes to California. East Coast and Europe only.”
According to her friend Eric Root, Lana “wanted to be a superstar. And she was gorgeous enough.”
The self-proclaimed “hairstylist to the stars,” Root ran a salon in Beverly Hills and used Lana as a model when she was first starting out. Root was also the longtime hairdresser and confidant of Lana Turner (he would later write a book, The Private Diary of My Life with Lana), and he made a point of introducing the veteran Hollywood star to the young ingenue.
“Lana Turner was very dignified and very sophisticated. Lana Clarkson also was very, very elegant. She never acted slutty; she’d cross her legs and the way she would sit…Even Lana Turner said to me, ‘What a magnificent lady!’ And she said, ‘What is she doing, Eric?’ I said, ‘Well, she’s trying to be…’ And Lana Turner said, ‘One day I’m sure a movie will be made of me after I’m gone, but Lana Clarkson would be too tall to play me.’ When I told Lana Clarkson that, she laughed and said, ‘Couldn’t I kneel?’”
Clarkson’s dream of fame is the oldest story in Hollywood, of course. She worshiped the twin doomed deities of Elvis and Marilyn, and collected Monroe memorabilia, covering her walls with pictures of the star. “This is not to imply that I wish to live the sort of lonely and narcotics-shrouded existence she did,” she wrote on her website. “What I love about her is her essence, her work and her commitment to it. She was an ACTRESS with a capital ‘A.’” In another posting she added, “We as humans at our deepest level are pure love…[Marilyn] through all of her difficulties gave LOVE!”
That’s how Lana befriended A. J. Benza. A gossip columnist and the author of a book called Fame: Ain’t It a Bitch, Benza first met Clarkson in 1998 at a music club called the Backstage in Beverly Hills. He had recently arrived from New York to host a celebrity cable TV show and had moved into an apartment at Normandie Towers in Hollywood where Monroe had once lived. “Lana loved that,” Benza says. “She told me she wanted to wake up looking up at the same ceiling that Marilyn had.”
Lana took Benza under her wing; got him backstage passes, introduced him around, told him who was important and “who was an asshole.” Hollywood, says Benza, is filled with beautiful blondes. “They’re like orange trees. But Lana had class. She wasn’t a bimbo; she wasn’t stupid. She’d been through ups and downs. She knew about life. And she was a good listener; you’d want her at your table.”
Another friend, Bill Craig, who ran the MIDEM music festival in Cannes, would call on Clarkson whenever he came to Los Angeles, to help him work the room at music events. “She was polite, intelligent, very smart,” he remembers. “Everybody loved her.”
Lana knew everybody. She was said to have dated Jack Nicholson and Warren Beatty; and to have partied at film producer Robert Evans’s house; she was good friends with Chris Blackwell, the founder of Island Records, and hung out with musicians like Bonnie Raitt and Don Henley. “A guy-girl” is how Benza describes it. “The kind of girl who could sit down and watch the ball game with you, curse with you and drink with you. She was always up for a good time. Lana was intrigued by people with power, people who’d made it—but in this town, who isn’t? You can’t be here twenty years, when your career is made up of being a six foot tall, blonde, buxom woman,
and not have the men come around you. So it was not unusual for Lana to have known Jack, Warren, Bob Evans—those were all her friends.”
Answering fans’ queries on her website, Lana was careful not to give too much of herself away: “I prefer to keep my love life private!” she wrote in one posting, then hinted teasingly at revelations to come. “As far as past relationships, there have been some great loves (some of them famous), but you’ll have to read about them in my book. That won’t be completed for a couple of years yet.”
She was the kind of girl whom men showered with gifts, flew to parties in Mexico and on the French Riviera. But while there was never a shortage of admirers, one way or another none of these relationships stuck.
“The last time I spoke to her,” Eric Root remembers, “I asked her, ‘You got a boyfriend?’ She said, ‘I’ve got several.’ I said, ‘Anybody famous?’ She said, ‘No, but they’re trying to be, like me…’”
Lana, according to another friend, “really didn’t want a significant other stopping her getting what she dreamed of. She was not short of men giving her offers to whisk her away; oil tycoons, this, that and the other. She had no interest. She didn’t want to be somebody’s arm-piece.”
“The thing about Lana,” says A. J. Benza, “when she reached her level of fame she was just having too much fun; and all of a sudden she turned around and maybe she was thirty-five or whatever, and in this town that’s not the age where a man pins you down and says, ‘Let’s get out of here, you’re mine.’”
By the mid-’90s, Clarkson’s film and television career was on the wane. Too old to play warrior queens, she continued to do television commercials and modeling jobs, and she was still in demand at science-fiction and comic conventions, dutifully signing autographs and talking to fans. (“She could have been the head of protocol for the Queen, she was so good with people,” says one friend.) But to anybody who asked, she would say that nowadays she considered herself a comedienne.
She devised a stand-up routine, developing a range of comic characters, along the lines of Lily Tomlin or Tracey Ullman, and started working small comedy clubs—the kind of places that book a performer on the condition that they can guarantee an audience of forty or more friends to boost the bar takings. Lana’s shows were always full.
In the autumn of 2001 she enrolled for lessons with a Hollywood voice coach, Patrick Fraley, who taught character and cartoon voices, primarily for animation films or TV commercials. Fraley had no idea that Clarkson had had any sort of movie career. “She never mentioned it. She looked good. She didn’t look like she was faded and scary. And she was no more needy than most actors.”
Lana took two workshops at $350 each and a couple of private sessions at $100—an investment that to Fraley showed serious intent. He thought she had the talent to make a career in cartoon voices, but Lana was more interested in “fine-tuning” the characters and impressions she had worked up for her one-woman show.
“I teach seven hundred students a year,” Fraley says, “and I have a sense of who is motivated and who is ambitious—and she was highly ambitious. And one aspect of that was that she was willing to open up even the smallest or most difficult area of performance to get into.”
“Most people who come into this city,” says one friend, “they chase the dream, it doesn’t happen, they give up. But Lana just kept chasing. It was always, ‘We’re going to be huge, darling; we’re going to be huge.’ It was always bigger than life.”
“She was definitely someone who always saw the glass as half full rather than half empty,” says Courtney Kanner. “Someone who always saw the good in things rather than the bad.”
Kanner, an aspiring fashion designer, had met Clarkson in a Brentwood hair salon. Kanner was designing cell phone covers sprinkled with diamanté Clarkson loved them, and according to Kanner immediately threw herself into helping the young designer’s career, handing out business cards and featuring Kanner’s designs on her website. Lana, she says, “was everyone’s best friend,” someone who always saw the best in people, sometimes to an almost naïve degree.
As her forties approached, she started taking more care of herself. She had developed an interest in spirituality and started attending the Self-Realization Fellowship Temple in Santa Monica, founded in the 1940s by the Indian swami Paramahansa Yogananda. Set in two acres of woodland around a large lake, the center is an oasis of tranquillity close to the busy Sunset Boulevard. Clarkson would attend regularly for meditation and yoga classes. It was where her funeral service would be held. She also did voluntary work for a charity called Project Angel Food, delivering food to AIDS patients.
Bill Craig remembers arriving in Los Angeles and taking her to “the nicest sushi bar in Hollywood, expensive, the best. She wouldn’t touch a piece of fish—she’s eating seaweed, she’s eating soup, she’s eating rice. No alcohol. She never smoked cigarettes. I said, ‘What’s going on?’ And she said, ‘I’m really focusing on my career, I really need to get this together.’ She knew she had to change her life and her style in order to be taken seriously.”
It was shortly after that, in December 2001, that she suffered a freak accident at a family party. As Lana was dancing with some children, a rug slipped under her feet on the wooden floor, and she fell, breaking both her wrists. Medical bills were high, and she was unable to work. But she put on a brave face. Two months after the accident she attended the Grammy Awards in Los Angeles with Bill Craig and his girlfriend. Lana wore an outfit that had been made for her by Courtney Kanner, one arm in a leopard-skin print sling, with her name picked out in rhinestones on the strap. Stepping into her limousine she made sure that Courtney was beside her for the paparazzi pictures. “The Grammys are a big deal for anyone,” says Kanner, “but all she did was talk about me and my designs. She didn’t take that moment up for herself ever.”
On her website, Clarkson maintained a message board, where she would answer questions about her life and career—fans’ stuff (“The torture scene in Barbarian Queen I is intense and stimulating, you demonstrate great bravery and unwavering courage. How long did the scene take you to shoot?”). Her replies were always sassy, smart and resolutely upbeat.
“I have been blessed to work in an extremely difficult industry,” she wrote in September 2002, “but in my opinion I have not even begun to reach my full potential. I have been pounding my head against a Plexiglas ceiling trying to break through to a completely new level for a while now. God willing, this year it will happen. Keep your eye out for a new quality of work from Ms. Clarkson!”
A month later, she was talking of reading for a new TV show, playing the part of a prison warden. It did not materialize.
“I have been around and working continually,” she wrote in November. “I just haven’t booked myself a series. Then you would hear about me all the time. Unfortunately, that’s how my industry is. You’re hot when they decide you are! I am working on several new ventures and God willing, I’ll finally make that huge breakthru I’ve been working toward this next year.”
But in the absence of acting roles, she needed something else.
Toward the end of December, she applied for the job as hostess in the Foundation Room at the House of Blues. Built in the studiedly ramshackle style of a Mississippi juke joint, the HOB stands on the Sunset Strip, across from the Chateau Marmont hotel. The Foundation Room, or VIP lounge, is frequented mostly by high rollers from the rock and film worlds. Decorated in the style of a maharajah’s palace, with ornately carved wooden panels and plush velvet couches, it offers panoramic views across Los Angeles and what the promotional literature describes as “sacred prayer rooms.” Membership costs $1,000 a year; champagne, $250 a bottle. Spector was a member and had often attended events there, such as the celebration for Ray Charles’s seventieth birthday in 2000.
It wasn’t Clarkson’s first choice for a job, but friends say she was determined to make the best of it, a way of tiding things over until her acting career picked up. Bill Craig prov
ided a reference. “She was very proud of getting the job,” he remembers, “because it was the VIP room, it was associating with people at the top.”
A. J. Benza puts it another way. “Taking that job showed a lot of nerve. In this town, if you have a bit of fame, and the fame starts to trickle away, you can hear the people talking and whispering about you. And at forty years old, for Lana to go back to work as a hostess, in a town where she made herself more or less a star, knowing that she would be seeing the same people who knew that her star had faded…To me, that’s a real strong character.”
Clarkson told friends that she enjoyed the work, and she was optimistic it could lead to better things. “I am going to meet people,” she told one friend. “They will remember that I am here and it might get me another job.”
She would drive in from her home near the beach in Venice, arriving at the HOB at six each evening, and work until 2:00 a.m. The days she had to herself. On February 1, 2003, she made a personal appearance at the Creation Comic Book Convention in Pasadena, signing autographs for fans and posing for pictures. She spoke to her lawyer, who was reviewing contracts for an infomercial that she had been lined up to appear in. Things were looking up. She spent February 2 shopping for shoes with her mother and e-mailing friends, including a reply to a birthday party invitation. “Can’t wait,” she wrote. “XOXO Lana.” That afternoon, shopping with her mother at Nordstrom in the Grove shopping center, she bumped into a friend, Dianne Bennett, a former columnist for the Hollywood Reporter who was now running a dating service, Beautiful Women–Successful Men. Bennett had long been pressing Clarkson to send in her picture, but Clarkson had always replied that she wanted to concentrate on her acting. But now, she told Bennett, “I’m finally ready to get married and have a family.”