by Louise Hare
Evie opened her mouth but she didn’t know what she could say without giving Lawrie away. She gripped the edge of the table behind her as her body weakened, panic taking over.
‘So what?’ Delia butted in. ‘They’d’ve questioned anyone who was there, whether they did it or not. It might not have anything to do with him.’
‘Girls!’ Mrs Jones marched in and everyone turned to face the front. ‘Some hush, please.’
Delia put a hand on Evie’s, squeezing it briefly.
Extract from the Evening Standard – Friday 17th March 1950
GRUESOME DISCOVERY ON CLAPHAM COMMON AS BABY FOUND DEAD
More details have emerged regarding the body of a baby that was found yesterday, hidden in the shallows of Eagle Pond, Clapham Common.
The discovery was made by a local woman, whilst walking her dog in the vicinity of the pond. Police have confirmed that the woman is unrelated to the case, and that they are already questioning a person of interest, a man who was discovered close to the scene.
The child has yet to be identified but we are able to disclose that the baby was female, 10-12 months old, and well cared for. It is still unknown whether her death was a consequence of foul play or accident. She was found wrapped in a white woollen blanket with a floral decoration so it is likely that she had a mother who cared for her.
Police ask that anyone who has any information call in at their local police station as soon as possible. If anyone knows of a baby of the right age who hasn’t been seen in a while, or was in the area on the evening of Wednesday 15th March, or the early hours of Thursday 16th, please think carefully – you may have seen something which at the time seemed unimportant but may be vital to the police investigation.
There will be special prayers said for the deceased at both St Mary’s and St Barnabas’s churches again this evening for local parishioners who wish to pay their respects following a generous turn-out yesterday.
5
There were far better ways of spending a Friday evening than waiting on a cold station platform for an unreliable friend. But here he was, freezing his arse off at Waterloo as legions of buttoned-up office workers marched past him on their way home to the suburbs. They all looked the same: harassed and hunched over, their grey overcoats and hats giving the appearance of a national uniform. The shoes were the only clue; the most reliable way to tell boss from employee, the tenant from the landlord. Lawrie’s own dress shoes were polished to a high shine but the soles were not original and the leather was cracked along the throat line.
Aston had rung him up on the telephone on Tuesday. A lifetime ago, it felt like. Few more days and I’m a free man! Thing is, I need somewhere to stay… And how could Lawrie say no? Aston had served in the RAF since 1942, side by side with Lawrie’s brother until that last fatal mission, just weeks before the war ended. But of course, Aston was late. He hadn’t been on the train he should have been on which meant that he’d missed it, probably ’cause he’d got chatting to some pretty girl on his way to the station, and they’d both have to wait for the next. As usual. Lawrie checked his watch; he still had time.
He felt a debt to Aston, not least because it was one of Aston’s RAF contacts who had finally managed to get Lawrie his Post Office job. It had been Aston who had come down to Kingston two years earlier and talked Lawrie on to that boat, convinced Mrs Matthews that it was a wise idea to send her remaining son overseas where he could seek his fortune. She’d cried as she waved her surviving son off but she had a new husband to look after her now. Lawrie had only been in the way, Mr Herbert from the grocery store leaping at the chance to comfort the handsome widow as she grieved for her eldest son. How well it all worked out in the end, the new Mrs Herbert wrote to her son months later, taking his good news missives at their word.
The ship had been full of men seeking their fortunes, many of them having fought in the war just like Bennie and Aston, escaping the island life that was too quiet now that they’d experienced adventures across Europe and beyond. Why bother gambling with your life if all you did with your winnings was put it into the small farm that you could have had anyway, just by staying at home? Like Aston, they’d seen the advert in the Gleaner – cheap tickets back to the Motherland – and jumped at the chance to return. There was safety in accepting the embrace of the depleted British armed forces, crying out for men who’d already been trained up.
Walking the deck and breathing in air that was as salty as the unfathomable ocean beneath him, Lawrie had listened to tales of big houses, pretty girls, the wages even the most menial of jobs paid. He’d expected to arrive in the country of his schoolbooks, to walk the wide thoroughfares he’d seen on newsreels and have conversations, perhaps in a real English pub, with people who spoke like they did on the wireless. It would kill his mother if she ever found out how the English actually lived. Eating spam and shopping with coupons; living in bomb-damaged houses. It would destroy her if she could see her only living son now, if she knew that the police suspected him to be involved in the murder of a baby. She could never find out.
The next train pulled in and he watched the passengers pour out of the doors. He waited until the last old man hobbled off, no Aston in sight, and was about to give up when he felt a tap on his shoulder.
‘Fancy seein’ you here.’ Aston looked smart in his demob suit, kitbag in hand, newspaper wedged under his arm and a smile on his face.
‘What the…’ Lawrie looked around him. ‘What train you come on?’
‘Came in over there.’ Aston pointed vaguely to his right. ‘We got time for a drink? I’m parched.’ He put on a hoarse voice.
‘Then you shoulda got here earlier. I got no time, not even for a quick one before you ask.’
‘What’s up with you?’
‘Nothin’.’ Worried that the police would come back and question him. Exhausted from not sleeping. ‘I just got a lot to think about at the moment.’
‘Lyceum, right?’
Lawrie nodded.
‘Good-looking women there, I remember rightly.’
Aston was what Evie referred to as a ladies’ man when she was in a good mood, an alley cat when he annoyed her, which was often.
‘You was so drunk the last time you could barely stand. How you remember a thing?’ Lawrie reminded him. Last time had been New Year’s Eve and he’d had to throw himself off the stage mid-song to stop Aston from getting punched by some fella who’d taken against Aston dancing with his girl.
‘Never forget a thing, boy. The women, they call me the elephant.’
Lawrie rolled his eyes and groaned.
‘Get your mind out the gutter! It’s ’cause I never forgot a pretty face.’ Aston laughed and clapped his friend’s shoulder hard so that Lawrie winced. ‘Talking of which, how’s your girl?’
‘She got a name and I know you know it.’
‘I apologise sincerely. How is Miss Evelyn Coleridge, might I ask?’ Aston put on his best English accent and they both laughed as they negotiated their way across the concourse towards the exit, the crowds around them watching the departures board intently, waiting for it to announce their passage out of the city. A few commuters turned to see who these chaps were who dared to be so carefree and loud. ‘We walkin’?’
‘’Less you feel flush enough for a taxi – ’cause I do not.’
They emerged from the station. Seven o’clock on a March evening and the skies over the city didn’t even have the decency to turn black at night, the stars staying away in protest.
‘Evie is well, thanks for asking. She’s coming to the Lyceum tonight so behave yourself when you see her. She might even start to think better of you.’
‘I doubt that.’ Aston’s words were mumbled as he tried to light a cigarette, his head bent to the match sheltered between his cupped palms.
‘Well, you can at least try. You never know when a person gonna change their mind. I thought Evie’s mother couldn’t stand me but apparently she decided I’m not so bad.’
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Aston snorted. ‘That woman’s a dragon, guarding she daughter like she’s some fairy tale princess. Must be gettin’ to realise no white fella’ll marry the girl so she make do with a light skin boy like you.’
‘Why you make everything an insult?’ Lawrie elbowed his friend in the side.
‘Just saying how things is,’ Aston corrected him. ‘Mrs Coleridge sees some dark skin bastard like me go near her daughter, she’d lock her away ’til the end of time. Man, she would never let me cross her threshold ’less she had a knife ready to cut me man parts off. You, on the other hand, are the educated son of a government man, or whatever your papa was. You got a steady job. Perfect son-in-law.’
‘Steady job? Keeping hold of it’s all I can manage these days.’
Aston acted like Lawrie had it so easy but, until now, he’d only ever known the RAF, had been safe in his barracks, insulated from real life. He’d not yet had to sit in those interviews with some shoddy-looking fella looking him up and down as he decided without even bothering with the CV, or asking a single question, that this nigger before him would not be working in his establishment.
‘You work too hard, boy. You all right for money?’
‘Fine. I been doin’ some extra deliveries for Derek, you know?’ He knew that Aston felt a responsibility towards him, though he wished sometimes that he didn’t. Sometimes he just wanted to be left alone, to get on with things his own way without Aston or Mrs Ryan or anyone else feeling like they needed to intervene.
‘All right. But you just say the word if you need anything.’
A light drizzle began to fall as the men crossed the road and turned onto Belvedere Road. Lawrie pulled up his collar as they walked the dingy damp street that ran parallel to the Thames, the beginnings of the new Royal Festival Hall blocking the view to the river. Each time he passed, he had to wonder at the vast building site that was slowly transforming into a great beast of a concert hall. It beggared belief that they would leave people without proper houses to live in and spend a fortune on a so-called festival, as if people could come and dance themselves out of strife and not worry that they were still having to use ration books and make do.
They climbed the steps up onto Waterloo Bridge as raindrops landed on Lawrie’s cheeks like saltless tears. Back home when it rained he had liked to stand outside and let it baptise him, the water cleansing, rejuvenating. English rain made him feel grubby, falling from that filthy sky, its dank grime sinking into his skin until he felt contaminated.
‘You ever goin’ tell me what is the matter?’ Aston said, breaking the silence.
Aston would find out soon enough. Lawrie wiped his face with his hand and forced himself to speak, recounting the events of the past two days to his dumbstruck friend.
The Lyceum was still fast asleep when they arrived via the stage door. Aston dumped his bag on a rickety wooden table in the green room and sat down with a sigh. They were the first to arrive, the other band members cutting it fine as usual. The Johnny Sands Band they were called. This was their regular Friday night slot and they usually had at least one booking on a Saturday as well. It had taken a while to build their reputation but Johnny had ambition, as well as an eldest son back in Jamaica who he wanted to bring over when funds allowed.
Telling Aston had lifted a weight, and while the shadow of his macabre discovery still loomed over him, Lawrie already felt better. He always enjoyed playing this dance hall. Although the audiences in the poky Soho clubs were more appreciative of his talent, he felt immersed in the history of this old theatre, part of something that had existed long before his time and would continue on long after. He could imagine the ghosts of Shakespearean thespians and beautiful opera sopranos who used to draw the crowds. Maybe one day people would recall hearing Lawrie Matthews at the Lyceum. He’d happily give up his job tramping the south London streets if he could make a decent living from music but chance would be a fine thing. Of all of them, only Johnny was getting by as a musician. His wife, Ursula, worked in a factory five days a week while Johnny looked after their two young offspring. She was home by four, and then off went Johnny. He could play the piano as well as sing – hotel bars paid his wages on the nights when the band wasn’t playing. But there wasn’t much call for a solo clarinettist and no one would pay to hear Lawrie sing. He could hold a tune all right, but Johnny had that rich tone to his voice that made people close their eyes as they listened, letting his voice sink into their souls like butter melting on toast. Lawrie would have been embarrassed to get up before an audience and be mediocre.
Aston reached into his bag. ‘Got any glasses?’ He pulled out a bottle of Scotch. ‘I reckon we could both do with a little pick-me-up.’
At the back of the room was an ancient cast iron sink, five mismatched mugs drying on the side. Lawrie chose the two least tannin-stained, and handed them to Aston who poured two fingers of whisky into each.
‘To a new life in London.’ Aston raised his drink, Lawrie doing the same.
‘Cheers.’
They clinked their mugs together and drank, the fumes burning the hairs in Lawrie’s nostrils before the heat hit the back of his throat.
‘So this all happen yesterday, right? You had any more trouble today?’ Aston asked, not ready to change the subject. ‘The cops, I mean.’
‘Not a word. Nothing new in the papers either, I checked.’ Lawrie’s hands had trembled as he tried to turn the pages of the newspaper that morning, expecting any moment to see his name printed there in black, sweat lifting the ink from the paper onto his fingertips. ‘It’s strange, they still never mentioned that the baby was coloured.’
Aston shrugged and lit another cigarette. ‘Maybe they’re worried about vigilantes. Don’t we know at least one fella would like an excuse to take matters into his own hands?’
‘You think there’ll be trouble? ’Cause it’ll get out at some point. Can’t see how it won’t.’
‘Almost certainly. You better watch your step. They get desperate to tie someone to this, you’re the obvious choice, ’less they know a lot more than they’re letting on.’ Aston leaned over and refilled Lawrie’s mug. ‘Your boss know?’
Lawrie nodded. At work that morning he’d gone straight to Donovan and told him everything that had happened the day before. Arthur had suggested it was better to come clean, even though Lawrie hadn’t technically been on duty at the time. He’d still been wearing his uniform and it wasn’t out of the question that Rathbone might go sniffing around his place of work, asking after Lawrie. Donovan’s lips had pressed so tightly together as he listened that they’d vanished entirely into his chubby face. None of it had happened during his shift but he could see in his boss’s narrowed eyes that he had no room to mess up from now on.
‘You think that Rose could—’
‘No!’ Lawrie snapped the syllable, surprising himself.
‘I not sayin’ you would—’ Aston stopped talking as they heard voices echo along the corridor.
‘You here already?’ Johnny walked in first, taking his role as band leader seriously. He was a smooth talker, five years older than Lawrie.
‘Just about.’ Lawrie greeted Moses and Sonny as they came in, shaking hands with Aston.
They’d formed the band right after arriving in London, though they’d run through a few changes of personnel since. Moses and Sonny were always together; drums and a double bass required transportation and a portion of the band’s earnings was always allocated to keeping Moses’s rusty old van on the road. Al was the current fifth member, on trumpet.
‘I should go. Head out front to where the action is.’ Aston winked.
‘See you later?’
‘Perhaps, but if I disappear it only means I got lucky. ’Sides, it might be wiser to steer clear of Evie. You know I only put she in a temper.’
‘What is it with you two?’
Aston walked off without answering.
Lawrie had never been able to fathom a reason for this enmity that ex
isted between the two people closest to him. He guessed that something had happened between them at the party where he’d first introduced them. The party which had ended so badly. The one thing both of them had in common was a reluctance to talk about whatever had happened, and the last thing Lawrie wanted was to dredge up bad memories of that night.
Johnny was warming up his fingers at the piano in the corner and Lawrie began to assemble his clarinet, massaging grease lightly into the cork. It would need replacing soon, he noticed; it was wearing as thin as his nerves.
‘They asked for upbeat tonight.’ Moses unpacked the sheet music. ‘Nothing slow ’til the end. Get everybody dancing and sweating.’
‘I could use something upbeat meself,’ Al said, eying up the bottle of whisky on the side. ‘Anyone else have a knock on the door this morning?’
Johnny stopped playing. ‘Police, you mean? Last night. I was already out but they scared the hell out of Ursula. Lucky she had the pickney right there when she answered the door so they leave her be. They still was acting sus though. Wanting to know when Joy was born, where she was born, all that. They went all along the street. Ursula know ’cause she stood out on the step and watched ’em.’
Al blew out a lungful of relief. ‘I thought it was just me.’
‘You never told me they come to the house.’ Moses frowned. He and Sonny shared a room in the same house that Ursula and Johnny’s family called home, the landlord making the most out of each inch of space.
‘You was out at work, same as me,’ Johnny shot back.
‘Well, yes, but—’
‘This is ’cause of the baby, right? Clapham Common?’ Lawrie interrupted them.
Al sparked up a rollup as he spoke. ‘They never come right out and say, but they was asking me where I was Wednesday night. Who I was with. And I asked around at work and seems like they only been asking those who are of the Negro persuasion. Not a single white fella knew what I was on about.’
‘The baby was coloured,’ Lawrie told them, his eyes trained on the floor between his feet, his chest growing tight as the men fell silent. Without looking he could feel their eyes, all of them staring at him.