"And have my people think that I have one set of laws for them and one for the nobility? That I twist justice how I like? Besides, John Holland is detestable. Everywhere he goes he makes trouble with his bombast and his brutality."
Anne knew that he was right. But her heart ached for Joan. "In that case I suppose it would take a lot of courage to go and see her," she observed.
"And listen to her heart breaking," he agreed with a sigh.
Because Anne had finessed him into it he got up there and then to go, but mother-love forestalled him. Before the horses could be saddled Joan herself was at the door. And it didn't make it easier for Richard that she—a sick woman—had come to him. Women, for him, were creatures to be comforted and cherished. He hated to see her suppliant. Because he was furious about the ugly thing which had come between them he greeted her formally, so that all joy in seeing each other was spoiled. Yet in his miserable constraint he was grateful to see Anne show his mother the tenderness he could not.
The Princess had been brought in a closed litter and her servants had carried her upstairs. She still held the letter John Holland had written her and it was clear that she had risen from her sick-bed and come at once. "You will spare him, Richard?" she beseeched. It had been some time before she could speak, but her eyes had been asking it from the moment she came into the room.
By an almost imperceptible gesture Richard begged Anne to stay. He wanted her to see for herself how circumstances always hounded him to do the things he hated—to understand, and to be on his side. He himself leaned defensively against a table in the centre of the room. The change in his mother's face alarmed him, and he averted his glance with loathing from the desperately scrawled appeal in her hand. "He sent you here to beg for his life when all the physicians say you must rest," he broke out. "Wasn't it enough that he had to come crawling to me at Beverley?"
"I should have come anyway," countered Joan faintly. "Don't you see, Richard—whatever he has done, he is my son?"
"Your favourite son."
"You said that before. You've always been jealous of him," accused Joan, with a spurt of anger.
Moved by some uncanny dog-sense, Mathe growled as though his master were being attacked, and Richard pulled absently at his ear to quiet him. Somehow the warm, silky contact helped to soothe him. "Curiously enough, I'm not," he said slowly. "I just—dislike him. I dislike in him the same things that I dislike in Henry Bolingbroke. Except that when Henry brags he usually has something to brag about. One can't be jealous of someone who doesn't count."
He looked up as if glad to make the discovery, and his mother's anger melted before the grace of his reasonableness.
"I know it must have been difficult, to stand his sneering— his lack of understanding. And I know he has never loved you as Thomas does. I'm not upholding him, Richard…"
Richard said nothing. He was thinking of that crazy ride to Mile End. Seeing Holland and his horrible raw-boned horse disappearing across Hackney marshes in ignominious haste. At least he had been able to spare her knowledge of that.
But apparently others had been less kind. Her next words shook him out of all thought of his own reactions. "It was generous of you—not to tell me—about the time he ran away."
That she—the Black Prince's widow—should have to speak such words…He was across the room in a few strides. "So you knew?" he whispered, dropping on one knee beside her as he used to do.
"I've known all the time," she said, the great slow tears of spent grief welling in her lovely, faded eyes.
"Then surely that makes it—easier?"
Such knowledge seemed to Richard a bigger thing than knowing that one's son must die. If he had seen any son of his turn tail like that, he would go on loving him, he supposed, but all joy in him would be gone.
Joan only shook her head. All his life Richard had adored her as the fount of gaiety and loveliness, and it hurt him horribly to see the helpless tears course unheeded down her raddled cheeks. "Even Uncle John—though Holland is his own son-in-law—agrees that there is nothing else I can do," he argued, in self defence.
She made one last bid. She clutched at his encircling arm. "Dickon! Dickon! By all the loving joy we had together in your childhood—"
He released himself gently and walked away so that he should not see her agony. "I can't. It's only common justice," he flung back at her. "You are here pleading with me now to spare his miserable life. But in my mind's eye I can still see Stafford's father—at Beverley, only a few days ago—weeping for his son. And Stafford was the sort of knight we all of us, in our better moments, hope to be."
Joan's hands fell with defeated limpness to her lap. Simultaneously with the knowledge that John must die came the realization that Richard was no longer a malleable boy, but a man with a streak of obstinacy in him whom she could no longer melt. Her reign was over. If anyone moved or moulded him now it must be Anne.
"I don't know how John comes to be your son, my sweet," he was saying pitifully. "We all of us have vile tempers, I know. But his violence is a destructive, uncivilized thing—part of this professional warmongering—and I mean to pluck it out of England."
Despairingly, Joan looked across at her daughter-in-law. Anne's sweet face was pale with pity and distress. But she said nothing. She sided with her husband. Involuntarily, she moved closer to him. Through her tears Joan of Kent saw them standing side by side. And it was as if for the first time and with prescient clarity she saw them facing life together. Only they were facing it with a completely different code from the one she and her husband had known. In whatever they did they would be moved less by traditional impulses, more by their own young minds and consciences.
"You can see him to say good-bye," offered Richard. "After I refused to pardon him he ran away—again. But I will have him brought to you."
When her women came for her he went with her to her litter. He took her hands tenderly and had his own physician accompany her. But he could not kiss her. Through no fault of his own he had been made to feel like Cain.
And he never saw her again.
Only a few days later her tired, generous heart was stilled for ever. They would have fetched him home from hunting but Anne insisted upon breaking the news to him herself. "Let him have a few more joyous hours," she entreated, knowing how remorse would always gnaw him. How all the happy memories of his mother's radiance must be blurred by regret.
"If only I had let John go!" he kept saying over and over again, when the first storm of his grief was past.
"It couldn't have made much difference—only a few days or weeks perhaps," comforted Anne.
"But she would have gone out happy—with a smile on her face." He covered his own face with both hands. "Every day, as long as I live, I will pray for the repose of her soul," he vowed with intensity.
It was already dusk but the servants had not dared to come in and light the torches. Richard began to pace up and down the room, while Anne, etched in half-tones against the uncurtained window, watched him from a high-backed chair. "It wasn't only what Holland did to Stafford," he burst forth presently, sensing her compassion. "But how could I tell her more?"
Anne stretched out a hand as if to halt his tortured progress. "What else, Richard?"
He stared at her consideringly for a moment or two. He was wont to see her as some witty, exquisite being, surrounded by gilded youth—the pampered daughter of an emperor. Ever since she had come to him as a bride he had thought of her as a charming companion for his leisure hours—someone to say pretty things to, or go hawking with to the accompaniment of jingling bells and carefree laughter. Someone who must be sheltered from the sordid things of life, just as her delicious gowns must be protected from the splash of mud. It had never occurred to him to make a serious confidante of her. But his mother was dead, and Mundina was at Wallingford laying her out. Rare, unshockable Mundina whom he had been wanting so desperately…"Weeks before Stafford was murdered an old friar came to me with some story about Lancaster wantin
g to betray me to the Scots," he said, half ashamed to begin talking to his young, foreign wife about these miserable, ever-recurring state intrigues. "People are always telling me Lancaster is treacherous."
"Perhaps only because he is so powerful, and they are jealous," she suggested reasonably. "What did you do?"
Richard resumed his maddening tramp across the sweet-scented floor rushes. "Do? Why, what anybody with a grain of common sense would have done. Changed our route at the last moment so as to avoid the alleged ambush, and had the monk detained in the nearest castle until I had time to go into the matter. I wasn't concerned with the tale-bearer himself. I wanted to get at the people who sent him. To settle once and for all if there's any truth in these rumours, and who spreads them. It's so important to know if I can trust Lancaster."
"And did you find out?"
"No. That cursed half-brother of mine went back secretly to the castle and tortured the poor wight. Tortured him so horribly that even the men-at-arms refused to have anything to do with it, and he and his friends had to do the beastliness themselves."
Anne shuddered, but would not break his mood by moving nearer to the fire. "How can men do such things?" she murmured.
"God knows! And men we have both sat at meat with. The poor devil died in spite of everything the constable of the castle could do for him. And now, thanks to those inhuman fools, I shall never know whether there really was an ambush or not."
"Weren't you furious?"
"So furious that I hit one of Holland's friends in the face. A bishop, I believe. I behaved like a maniac. And then I come back and preach at my poor mother about John Holland's temper!" He laughed harshly, then fetched up penitently before her. "But I'm not really like that, Anne. You know I don't get wild unless other people do something vile first. And at least I'm not smug. Tell me I'm not smug, Anne! "
"I can't imagine you ever being smug, Richard," she assured him gravely. In the gathering darkness he could not see her lips twitching into an almost maternal smile.
"I know only too well afterwards when I've behaved badly."
"And suffer for it."
"Yes. I suppose that if one chooses to indulge in ideals one must often suffer shame. And now I can't even show the people my fine gesture about justice."
"You mean you won't have him—"
"How can I have him put to death after this? It's as if she had already paid his debts, and I've no longer the heart. He'd better go on a pilgrimage or a crusade or something. Anything, so long as I don't have to look at him again for a very long time!"
Richard stood there staring out at the drizzling rain, too wretched even to call for torches. There was a flurry of silken skirts behind him and suddenly it was Anne, his impeccable little wife, who was playing penitent.
"Oh, Richard, please don't hate me!" she entreated, clutching his hand and pressing her smooth cheek against his sleeve.
He swung round, surprised by her vehemence. "I—hate you?" he repeated vaguely.
"For causing all this. For sending Sir Meles—"
"That was Uncle Thomas's fault." His jaw set savagely, as if almost glad to discover one more score against the man. "It was all Uncle Thomas's fault, damn him! If he hadn't butted in—"
Anne disliked Thomas of Gloucester intensely, but she had not witnessed the years of bullying frustration that had built up Richard's loathing. And sometimes the deep-seated intensity of it frightened her. "But it was I who fussed about getting a letter from you," she reminded him hastily. "I wanted one so badly."
Richard drew her down on to the window seat and into the comforting circle of his arm. "Dear Anne," he comforted, the kindness of his smile seeming to illuminate her life again. "And I never wrote you a proper love letter after all!"
Chapter Seventeen
Richard lay full-length on the daisy strewn lawn in the privy garden at Westminster. His green hose and tunic made him as one with the grass but his head looked like a splash of copper against the grey coping of the lily pond. He rolled over on to his stomach and began indolently tickling the golden carp with a bulrush reed. The scent of red and white roses, for which the palace gardens were famous, drifted over him and the warm afternoon sunshine warmed him through and through.
All morning he had sat in a stuffy Council chamber where tempers ran high—and his own, in the finish, higher than any—and after dinner he had come out here to be alone. But somehow it seemed a king never could be alone. People had to be near him to feel they were at the centre of things, or because they were afraid of missing some favour—or sometimes, of course, simply because they liked his company. Robert de Vere, stretched on a stone bench nearby, wrapped in the throes of composition with his lute, was quietly companionable. But now Lizbeth de Wardeaux must needs come running out from the Queen's apartments and seat herself unbidden on the grass beside him.
Richard glanced from one to the other of them without enthusiasm and returned to his preoccupation with the fish. At least in line and pose they detracted nothing from the peaceful beauty of the garden. Robert with his lute and Lizbeth with her ridiculous daisy chains. Richard had had his fill of looking at ugly, quarrelsome faces round the Council table. He could bear it for so long, at first with bored indifference and then with a sort of exasperated patience, and then when they started picking Michael de la Pole's foreign policy to pieces or being rude to Burley, he would cut in with some sarcastic reminder of the business they were really there to settle. And then it would always end up with Gloucester or Arundel criticizing him, and he would fly out at them. Each time he would go to a meeting determined to emulate Burley's polished calm, and each time he would lose his temper. And losing his temper took so much out of him. It was so much more exhausting if one cared tremendously for the principle of the thing involved. He couldn't go home and eat a good dinner like Uncle Edmund, for instance, who could argue like an obstinate mule just for the sake of hearing his own voice. Half closing his eyes until pink and yellow water lilies merged themselves into a waxy carpet of exquisite colour, Richard admitted to himself that he felt tired in mind and full of lassitude in body. "But perhaps it's only that I'm missing the strenuous exercise of the campaign," he thought.
Lizbeth edged closer to him. For all her demure looks and sober mourning damascene, he felt sure that she, too, had come to argue about something. "It is just three months now since my dear lady the Princess died," she sighed, looking up appropriately to watch a flight of white pigeons flap upwards towards the blue sky. But as Richard took no notice she dropped her daisy chain and the guilelessness of her childlike pose. "It is true, isn't it, sir, that I am your ward now?"
"I suppose so," said Richard, chivvying an obese carp to sanctuary beneath a lily pad for no better reason than because its protruding eyes and rapacious gills reminded him of Richard Arundel.
Without looking around he sensed that Lizbeth was settling her skirts in the deliberate way of pretty women who intend to stay until they have got what they came for. "Well, what are you going to do about me?" she asked, her impertinence excused only by the informality of the hour.
"After a morning with Lancaster coveting the crown of Castile and Edward Dalyngrigge wanting a permit to build a new castle, I should imagine the King came out here precisely because he didn't want to have to do anything more about anybody," observed de Vere, pausing in the middle of a stanza to tighten a string.
But Lizbeth only made a grimace at him and defied convention still further by taking off her tall head-dress and setting it on the stone coping, where it stood like a miniature church steeple.
"I've had you brought here as one of the Queen's maids-ofhonour, haven't I?" pointed out Richard. "What else do you want me to do?"
Lizbeth regarded the back of his comfortably relaxed body with exasperation. "You might take an interest in me, for one thing."
With a ponderous sigh he abandoned his piscatorial pursuits and sat up. She was so pretty that he could only review her pouting persistence with amusement.
"I'm sorry," he apologized charmingly. "But judging by the way half the eligible bachelors and widowers in the country plague me, I should say that quite enough men are interested in you already."
She tossed her head so that her loosened curls made delectable little shadows against the whiteness of her neck. She probably knows, thought de Vere, how enticing she is without that tight wimple affair. "I don't want dozens of men," she was declaring. "And you know very well they are interested only in my money!"
Richard forgot the aftertaste of political wrangling and began to smile. "I'm not exactly disinterested in it myself," he reminded her, tossing a pink water lily into her lap.
She tucked the blossom absently between the coral buttons of her tight-fitting corsage. "Oh, I know that's why you all want wardships. So that you can sell us poor girls to the highest bidder—"
"Oh, come, Lizbeth! I'm not as mercenary as all that."
De Vere laid aside his lute. He was always interested in a girl whose amatory technique surpassed his own. "But it would help to pay for some of those banquets and tournaments the Commons were complaining about," he pointed out, hoping to prod her into a fury. Lizbeth, he knew, always looked her best with her passions unleashed and he wished that Richard would stop being such a monkish fool about her.
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