“Whatever.” Tommy held his emotions back, sure in his heart that she lied. “I’m going anyway. Have fun with your precious work.”
He disconnected and rushed to the men’s room. Never had he felt so angry and hurt at the same time. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. He stared at himself in the mirror. You know better than to get into something like this. Fuck this. He punched the wall.
“Ow.” He groaned. “That was stupid, too. This is why I don’t do relationships.”
Chris was in the hallway when Tommy emerged. “Everything OK?”
“Fine,” Tommy growled. “We’re gonna pick up bitches and fuck all night.”
Eyes wide, Chris glared at him. “You are not fine. She canceled on you?”
“Yeah.” He couldn’t bring himself to bad mouth her. That was not good. It meant he was in too deep already. “Let’s just go.”
Chris waved at Dean. “I’ll drive.”
Chapter 30
“The girls are killer tonight,” Chris said as he watched a group of three pass their table.
Dean nodded. “Yep. Good night for sure.”
Tommy glanced around and wasn’t sure what to do. He was angry, hurt and frustrated. Is this really a reason to pick up women? He wanted to have a good time, but that didn’t seem possible. His phone vibrated, and he groaned. Then he stared at Hailey’s name. Reluctantly, he opened the text.
I’m sorry I canceled at the last minute. Go and have fun without me, don’t think about me. Just get yourself a chick to hook up with. I’ll make it up to you when I can.
He shook his head. Does she give a shit about me? Or is this a joke to her? Fuck this. I’m not letting her break my fucking heart! He scanned the room and searched for the night’s entertainment. A group of women a few tables away caught his attention. One familiar face in particular, an actress he had fucked once. Then he sighed. The last thing he needed was someone to say they had a fling. This needs to be anonymous.
“Tom,” Dean pushed Tommy’s arm. “Check it out.” He pointed to a group of young girls that headed toward them. “Should I get their attention?”
Tommy was interested. The girls seemed to be in their mid-20s. That was a good age for him. He nodded. “Go for it.”
Chris watched Dean stand and bite his lip. He eyed the brunette behind the others. She was more his type but seemed unsure of herself. “Nice.”
Dean draped his arms around two of the four women and led them to the table. “Hey, guys. These lovely ladies are willing to keep us company.” He could be charming when the situation called for it.
“Hi,” most of the girls said together.
Tommy shifted further into the booth while Chris stood and tugged the one he was after to sit between them. Tommy cocked an eyebrow, shocked Chris went for the shy one.
“Having fun tonight?” Chris asked as he slid in close to his conquest.
She blushed, unsure why the handsome man was interested. “Um, I guess.”
“I’m Chris.” He put a hand on her bare thigh. When she didn’t respond, he whispered, “That’s your cue to tell me your name.” Her shyness was kind of cute.
Her face heated up even more. Anytime she went out with her thinner, more beautiful friends, men ignored her. “Uh, Kayla.” She started when he squeezed her leg.
“You’re beautiful, Kayla.” He licked his lips and anticipated the taste of her.
Tommy grinned. Then he felt a body press against his other side. He turned. “Hey there.” The obviously bottle blonde was hot, but she couldn’t hold a candle to Hailey. Get the fuck outta my head! “You up to partying with us tonight?”
“How about we get the girls drinks?” Dean waited for Tommy’s attention. “OK?”
“Yeah.” Tommy grinned then waved a hand at a waitress. Everyone ordered, and he paid. “We’re heading out soon. You girls wanna come with?”
A brunette on the other side of Dean said, “How about we hang out here a bit longer?” She was obviously leery, which meant she didn’t recognize them.
Perfect. Tommy smirked.
“Sure.” Dean put his arms around the two women close to him. “We have all night.”
* * *
A few hours later, the musicians led the four women to a large hotel suite. Tommy looked around the sitting room, the bottle blonde on his arm. Because there would be multiple couples, he had upgraded the room he reserved.
“There should be three bedrooms,” Tommy announced. He walked around and checked each one out. “I’ll take this one.”
Dean nodded as he walked with his girls, one on each arm. “Don’t matter.”
“Fine with me.” Chris placed his hand on Kayla’s back and directed her to the next bedroom. “I just want a bed.” He winked at Kayla. “I got some tasting to do.”
* * *
Meanwhile, Hailey was in bed. She tossed and turned. No matter what she did, she couldn’t stop the thoughts about Tommy. The last thing she wanted to do was hurt him. He deserved to know the truth. By his tone of voice, he was as smitten as she was. Her heart broke when he abruptly hung up. That meant he was in pain. She cried for almost an hour after that. How can I feel this way?
She reached to her nightstand and grabbed her phone. The text was an afterthought. When she had gotten herself together, she knew she had to do something. The lame message was all she could muster. His lack of reply meant he was either still upset or in bed with another woman. Either hurt like hell.
Eyes closed, she pressed the call button. Tommy seemed to pick up, but she only heard muffled voices. That was a good sign. He was with multiple people. She waited. She guessed he tried to get somewhere quieter.
When there was nothing more after a minute, she called out, “Tommy? You there?”
* * *
Back at the hotel, Tommy jumped when he heard Hailey’s voice. He searched around, but she wasn’t there. “What the fuck?”
“Is that your phone?” the bottle blonde asked.
Tommy searched his pockets and pulled it out. “Hello?”
“It’s me.” Hailey sounded defeated. “I’m sorry.”
He covered the mouthpiece. “Wait for me on the bed. I’ll be right back.” He ducked into the bathroom and put the phone back to his ear. “What d’ you want?” He wouldn’t play cat and mouse. It was all or nothing.
“I—I was scared,” she admitted. “I don’t wanna be branded your hook-up of the month. That could kill my career. And then there’s…” She pulled her lips in and tried not to cry. “How do I know you’re really into this?” She rolled over and put an arm over her eyes. “You don’t do relationships.”
He growled, “Neither do you. How do I know you’re not faking it to get a piece of me like the rest of the world?” He closed his eyes. In his heart, he knew that she wasn’t like that. “You broke a fucking promise. Don’t ever promise me something you don’t intend to keep.”
“I freaked out.” She couldn’t hold the tears back any longer. “I never felt like this before. I can’t stop thinking about you. It scares the shit outta me.”
Tommy sighed and sat on the closed toilet. “I’m scared, too. But lying ain’t the answer. That fuckin’ hurt. If you care at all, you won’t lie to me or break promises.”
“I won’t do it again.” Hailey sniffled. “I’m sorry, Tommy. I really am. I miss you.” She took a deep breath to get a hold of her emotions. “I never let someone in like this.”
He hung his head, unable to stay angry. “Me neither. Are you coming to the hotel, then?”
“No. Can you come to my place?”
His eyes widened. That was a first. “Yeah. I’ll be there in like 20.” After he disconnected the call, he went to the bedroom he chose. The blonde was undressed. “Uh, sorry. I gotta go.” He hurried to the room he knew Chris picked. After he knocked, he cracked the door open. “Hey, Chris. I gotta go.”
“Whoa. What?” Chris suddenly opened the door wider. “Where you goin’?”
Tommy avoided a glimpse
of the naked couple. “That girl called.” He wasn’t sure Hailey wanted Chris to know yet.
“And you’re running?” Chris laughed. “Wow. You’re whipped. I gotta meet this chick.”
With an eye roll, Tommy replied, “One of these days, you will.” He grinned and hoped he could introduce her to everyone. “Can you take care of Blondie, too?”
Chris turned to Kayla. “You mind if she joins us?” He got a shrug. “I got it. Like I always say, more for me.” He smirked. “Go get your woman.”
Tommy nodded and left. He arrived at Hailey’s place in under 20 minutes. He was lucky enough to arrive just as someone walked out the locked front door. When he stood outside her apartment door, he nervously lifted a hand to knock. Then he closed his eyes and stepped back. Am I doing the right thing? Is a relationship like this really doable? Can I afford to crash if she does this again? The door suddenly opened, and he looked up.
“Hi,” Hailey said sheepishly. She had heard footsteps and hoped it was him. “I didn’t think you’d come.”
He couldn’t help but smile at her adorable Disney pajamas. “Hard to keep me away.”
She stepped aside. “Come on in.”
“Nice building.” Tommy passed her and looked around the simple, yet elegant, living room. “Wow.” It wasn’t as big as his place, but he could get used to it. “I like it.”
Hailey locked up and joined him. “Would you like a drink?”
“No thanks.” He grabbed her hand and pulled her into his arms. “Just need to hold you.”
His lips brushed over her hair. The emotions that ran through him were foreign. No way am I in love with her already. It takes a lot more than a few weeks. However, he sure felt something more than lust. It was nothing like with Crystal. Hailey seemed to reach into his soul as well.
“You must be exhausted,” he whispered.
She muttered into his chest, “Kinda.”
“Let’s go to bed,” he suggested, completely serious. “If you’re up to it, we can fuck in the morning.” He wouldn’t leave without pussy. “Lead the way, my girl.”
Hailey froze for a few seconds. “Your girl?”
“Uh…” He had never called her that when she could hear him, except up against her office door. “Well, you are. Aren’t you?”
She gripped his hand. “I guess.” They hadn’t labeled what they were to each other. “So we’re looking at this as dating now?”
“Aren’t we?” Tommy lifted her face so he could see her eyes. “I don’t take other women to dinner. Or sleep in their bed. Or let them sleep in mine.” He winced. “OK. Crystal don’t count. She don’t come alone.”
She nodded. “I get it.” Her eyes drifted to his lips then throat, as she continued, “My emotions haven’t been this outta control since I started law school. You confuse the hell outta me. My whole life useta be my job. Sex was just something I got when I needed it. Then you come along and wreck everything. It’s hard to trust this is real.”
“I’m real,” Tommy assured her. “You see the real me.” He leaned down and kissed her lips. “I want this. Someone to have a life with. Even if it’s just part-time. I can deal with that.” He held her face and forced her to look at him again. “Just promise me one thing. No more lies and no more breaking promises. Ever. Tell me if you’re overwhelmed. Chances are, I will be, too.”
She gave him a small smile. “I promise.”
“Good.” He pressed his lips to hers again and followed her to her bedroom. “Impressive.” She had a king bed with metal head and foot boards. “’Perfect for tying you up.” The glare he received made him laugh. “You think I’m kidding, huh? Just wait and see.”
When they were both undressed, Tommy climbed into bed with her. They faced each other. He wrapped his arms around her. Instantly, his dick started to grow. She shifted closer, and he groaned.
“Don’t get me started. Please.”
She ran a hand over his bare back. “Didn’t get any tonight?”
“Nope.” He wasn’t about to mention he was close when she called. “I been neglected.” He used his best sad voice. “I need some lovin’.”
Her hand traveled down then over his hip. “Maybe we should fix that.” She took his half-hard cock in her hand and stroked it slowly. “We wouldn’t want you going to sleep with blue balls.”
“Wouldn’t want that.” He gasped. Once she had him hard, he rolled them so he was on top. “Would be a waste.”
He grabbed her hands and held them over her head. She struggled at first. He smirked and used his knees to spread her legs. Then he stared into her eyes, filled with fear and defiance. He pressed her hands into the pillow more, to tell her he wouldn’t relent.
With a bit more pressure on her thighs, he slid his erection through her folds. She fought the pleasure. Obviously, she wanted to be in charge as always. He let her sometimes, but that night he needed to show her how determined he could be. Slowly, he shifted his pelvis up then down. It was something he hadn’t done to her before. He thought about eating her out, but that would take away from his point.
Hailey held in a moan when he rubbed the head of his cock against her clit repeatedly. She tried to hold back the orgasm that threatened. It was no easy task. She again tried to break out of his hold, but he wouldn’t let go. The look in his eyes told her it was some sort of punishment. She closed her eyes and listened to his body instead. Then she understood. He needed her to compromise. The soft sounds he made were arousing as hell, but she knew they meant he waited for her to respond as he needed her to. She lifted her hips a bit and ground into him.
“Fuck.” Tommy gritted his teeth. She was finally putty in his hands and moved with him, not against him. “Where’s your condoms? I left mine behind.”
Their eyes met. She hesitated for a few seconds. “Are you clean?”
“Huh?” His eyebrows went up. “I took a shower before I went out.”
She sighed. “No. I mean, do you get tested for STDs often?”
“Yeah. I don’t play games. I use condoms and get checked like, every four months. Why?”
“I’m clean, too.” She never had that conversation before. However, she wanted to show him she trusted him, and that he wasn’t just another lay to her. “You don’t need a condom.”
He stared into her eyes for a few seconds. “Wait. Are you telling me I can fuck you raw?” He searched for a hint of deceit. There was none. He had seen her obvious birth control implant, and she had also told him about it. “Why?”
“Am I your girl?”
“You know you are.”
“Then have all of me.”
He was still in shock. “You sure about this? You trust me that much?” But do I trust her, too? He could see in her eyes that it wasn’t a line.
“I do.” She bit her lip. Emotions built again. “Take me.”
Tommy brushed his lips over hers. “Does this mean I can cum in you?”
“Yes.” She swallowed the knot in her throat. “One thing, though.” She paused and hoped he understood. “Promise me you’ll use a condom with everyone else.”
He looked down, unsure he could keep that promise if Crystal allowed him bareback. Then he understood. Relationships required sacrifice. “I promise.”
“You sure?”
“Yes.” He looked away. “There any exceptions?”
Her mouth dropped open. “Why d’ you need exceptions?”
“I just wanted to know if there were.” He forced himself to look into her eyes. “Crystal? Maybe on special occasions?”
She felt slighted but then realized how much he trusted Crystal. “How about only if she can’t get pregnant, and she asks you to go without a condom?” She knew Crystal couldn’t take birth control because they had talked about it. She expected that situation to never come up.
“Deal.” He understood what she meant. The risk of him impregnating another woman was painful. “Thanks.”
Eyes closed, he prodded her entrance with the tip of his
erection. Her legs moved up, then wrapped around his waist. He loved how wet she was. He pushed in slowly.
“Fuck.” His lips trailed over her jaw to her neck. “Nothing like it.” He withdrew and thrust in again. Then he shuddered. “God, you feel good.”
Hailey gripped his hands and locked her ankles together. It felt so different. She only had sex a few times without a condom. Nothing prepared her for skin against skin with him. He breathed in her ear as he moaned. She shivered, unsure how to deal with the feelings that overwhelmed her.
“Tommy.”
“Yeah.”
“Kiss me.”
His head lifted, and he grinned. “Of course, my girl.”
He rained her face with soft kisses before he planted one on her lips. Her tongue swiped his briefly, and he dove in. His hips moved faster as his tongue dominated hers. They moaned together as he burrowed deeper and caught her sweet spot within. Her nails dug into his hands when he ground his hips into hers, fully seated. He wanted to stay just like that forever. However, his body had other plans. His hips circled and ground into her harder. With a whimper, he struggled to hold back his feelings for her, but it was no use.
Hailey suddenly cried out. Her entire body trembled. Arms came around her and soothed the terrifying power of the orgasm. She clawed at his back as her hips bucked out of control.
“Damn,” Tommy whispered. “You like that, huh?” He smiled against her lips, glad she was just as affected by the lack of a condom. “Squeeze my dick, babe. Please.” His eyes rolled back when she did. “Ah, yeah.”
When she came down, her vision was a bit blurry. “Holy shit,” she muttered.
“That’s one way to put it.” He nuzzled her neck. “Keep cumming like that, and I’ll blow real quick.”
“If you do, we’ll just start over again.” She smiled then her lips grazed his neck. When he shuddered, she raked his skin with her teeth.
He groaned. “Fuck, yes.” His hips moved faster. Pleasure flowed through him all over. “Bite me.” When she did, he gasped. His head went back.
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