by William Boyd
“You’ve come a long way,” she said. “Let’s save it for the station, shall we?”
“Ain’t done nothing wrong,” he said petulantly, hurt at the implication. He looked away from her, sniffed and tightened his blanket round his shoulders, freeing the rope’s-end of his pony-tail with one hand as he did so, a gesture that brought her father’s face back to her again. She felt a sudden worry-tug of melancholy in her chest, thinking of Jeff, old and vulnerable, then immediately consoling herself with the thought that she would always be there to look out for him, make sure he was safe and well. But that was no consolation, she realised, pondering the nature of this situation, as it spoke of a future she didn’t wish for in the slightest.
She stepped out on to the aft deck and needlessly resecured her towing-rope, looking at the tender lurching and sliding in the Targa’s wake. She didn’t want to think of herself getting older, still living on the Bellerophon. Thirty, forty…The longer she stayed the harder it would be to move out one day, however much she routinely threatened to do so when her father made her angry. Not being with someone, not having a relationship, inevitably brought these thoughts on. When she’d been with Gary she never fretted morbidly or fearfully about her future. Gary had asked her out on a date and she wondered whether she should go—things between them could start up again, she realised, as easily as she had brought them to a stop.
She turned and looked at the toothless man, now berating Joey with his troubles, a dirty finger jabbing at his back from between the blanket folds. Gary wasn’t ever going to be right for her, she realised, that much was clear, and she would make a big mistake going back to him just for some temporary security and confidence. She was young and attractive to men, she knew. Some lucky bastard was out there waiting for her and she would know it when he showed up—wasn’t there a song about that? She searched her memory for the words and the melody and the prospect of her inevitable future happiness cheered her up, suddenly. She looked at the toothless man with pity, now—what brought a person down to that kind of state? He had been somebody’s sweet little baby, once, dandled on a loving knee, repository of maternal and paternal hopes…What terrible mistakes had he made? What tricks had fate played on him? How had he fallen so low and helpless?
She turned away and looked back at the river as they swept under Blackfriars Bridge. Shakespeare had had a house in Blackfriars, she remembered, someone had told her that. Only one bridge across the Thames in those days—lots of boats, though, packed with boats. She smiled to herself, glad that her spirits were lifting again, happy to be part of the river and its timeless traffic.
33
WHEN ADAM WOKE ON Saturday morning, the smell—the smell of stale monkey smoke—almost made his stomach turn. Vladimir had found himself incapable of waiting until the weekend to party, especially with rocks of high-grade monkey in his pocket, and so Friday night had been designated the moment to celebrate his new name, his bank account, credit card, his sofa and TV, his salaried employment as a hospital porter at the Bethnal & Bow NHS Trust—and his new flat-mate and lodger, it went without saying. Adam hadn’t joined him in smoking monkey but had drunk a lot of powerfully strong lager in an attempt to show willing, to demonstrate that he too was happy to get shit-faced on intoxicants. They had watched TV in an increasingly bleary, verbose and incoherent daze (they both added free-associating commentary, simultaneously)—they were watching a documentary about mountain climbing, as far as he could remember—Vladimir smoking and drinking, Adam drinking and drinking—until Vladimir roused himself somehow and lurched off to his bedroom, pipe in hand.
Now Adam turned over, the leather sofa squeaking beneath him like a nest of fledglings, and he saw that the TV was still on, though soundless. Groomed, smiling people relaying news of world events. He sat up, immediately aware of his foul mouth and dull headache, and went through to the bathroom to wash his face and clean his teeth. He pulled on his jacket and put on his shoes before knocking on Vladimir’s door to let him know he was popping out for a spot of breakfast. He thought he heard Vladimir give a muted groan in reply, but couldn’t make out if anything intelligible had been said. He didn’t want to even try to imagine how Vladimir must be feeling this morning—he suspected there had been a few more pulls at the monkey-pipe before unconsciousness had claimed him.
Adam bought a newspaper, found a caff and ordered tea, toast and a Full English breakfast (two fried eggs, bacon, sausage, beans, mushrooms, tomatoes and chips) and duly consumed it. Replete, and feeling marginally better, he wandered off to Mile End Park and thought he might just lie down on the grass for a minute or two. Three hours later he woke up and staggered home to Oystergate Buildings.
Vladimir still wasn’t up and this time he didn’t reply when Adam knocked. Adam watched horse racing on TV for a while and made himself several cups of tea. The kitchen was marginally better furnished: Adam had bought a kettle, saucepan, two mugs, two plates and two sets of knives and forks—like an impoverished young couple setting up their first home, he thought. There was no fridge, as yet, so the milk was kept on the window sill.
He sipped his fourth mug of tea wondering, thinking about what to do. He could live on here in Oystergate Buildings, he supposed, certainly for a while, and continue his profitable begging life. He was earning more as a part-time beggar than Vladimir would in gainful employ as a hospital porter and, moreover, he had plans for some more audacious variations on the ‘lost blind man’ sting that served him so well.
Or perhaps he should leave the city and go north, as he had told Mhouse—actually go to Edinburgh, to Scotland. They had blind people in Scotland—he could beg as well there as here. But there was something about London that he needed, he realised, something basic and fundamental: he needed its size, its great sprawling scale, its millions of denizens, the utter and protective anonymity it provided. He thought about the 600 people a week that went missing in this country, the boys and girls, the men and women, who walked out of their front doors, closing them behind them, knowing they would never return, or who climbed out of back windows and ran off into the night to join that vast population of living ghosts that were The Missing. Two hundred thousand missing people—and most of them would be in London, he reckoned, subsisting, like him, under all the categories of social radar—living underground, undocumented, unnumbered, unknown. Only London was big and heartless enough to contain these lost multitudes, the vanished population of the United Kingdom—only London could swallow them up without a qualm, without demur.
No, he thought, he would take it—in line with the cliche—one day at a time. As long as Vladimir kept his monkey habit under control (no police raids, thank you) he was safe enough in Oystergate Buildings. Life could continue in its reliably haphazard way. Thinking of Vladimir, he made him a cup of sweet tea and knocked again on his door.
“Vlad? I’ve made some tea, mate.” He pushed the door open. “Let’s go and buy some—”
It was immediately obvious that Vladimir was dead. He was lying on the mattress, twisted round, one arm flung wide as if reaching for one last time for his monkey-pipe and smoking gear. His eyes were open and so was his mouth.
Adam stepped back out of the room and closed the door. He was trembling so much that tea was sloshing out of the mug. “Fuck, no,” he groaned out loud, “no, no, no.” Cursing his misfortune, his stinking bad luck—and then guilt overwhelmed him: the horrible thought came to him that he might have saved Vladimir. When he’d gone out for breakfast he was sure he’d heard Vladimir moan something. Perhaps he had been alive then, in extremis, but alive and was calling for help. If he’d gone in at that point he might have been able to help—summon a doctor, call an ambulance. But all this retrospection was pointless, he realised. He set the mug down and went back into the room. He knew he should leave Vladimir’s body untouched but, all the same, he closed his eyelids with a fingertip, pushed his mouth shut and straightened him out, positioning him supine on the mattress with his arms by his side. Now he looked as if h
e were sleeping—sort of. The complete and total inertness was the give-away: the absence of even the tiniest movement, the chest rising and falling, nostrils flaring, the little physical tics of vivacity we all produce unreflectingly, inadvertently, that show we are alive.
Adam supposed that Vladimir must have monkey-smoked his way to a massive cardio-vascular trauma: his weak heart succumbing to an attack brought on, perhaps, by one hit of the pipe too many, one final, dizzying, drug-buzzing, adrenalin surge that had overwhelmed him. The faulty heart valve that his kind, generous neighbours and fellow villagers had thought they had paid to have replaced, now fatally malfunctioning. And so Vladimir in his beatific drug-stupor had passed on. Maybe it wasn’t such a bad way to go, Adam thought, as he covered him with a blanket and went out for a long reflective walk.
It should have felt stranger living in a flat with a dead friend lying in the next-door room, Adam considered, but once Vladimir had been ‘laid out’, discreetly covered and the door firmly closed, Adam found that hours could pass without him once thinking about the corpse in the bedroom.
He had decided not to do anything hurriedly or rashly—just wait and think, plot and plan, take his time—in order to see if he could come up with a course of action that would allow Vladimir’s body to be properly removed and buried and, at the same time, not draw anyone’s attention to the fact that he, Adam Kindred, on the run and wanted for murder, had been staying in the flat. Not easy. He thought all through Sunday and the only notion he developed was that of simply walking away and later making an anonymous telephone call to the authorities. Vladimir knew none of his neighbours in Oystergate Buildings, not even in the two flats on either side of his—he hadn’t been there long enough, so no one would miss him or come unexpectedly calling. Adam himself reckoned that ‘community spirit’ in Oystergate Buildings was on the low side, anyway, not to say moribund. Sunday passed by, slowly. Adam walked the streets of Stepney, went to the cinema and saw a bad film, bought a pizza and took it back to the flat where he ate it while watching television.
On Monday morning, having come up with no new bright ideas, he decided to leave and packed up his few possessions again in their plastic bags. He wondered where he should go: he was tempted to return to the familiar security of the triangle by Chelsea Bridge but was immediately aware that however familiar the place was, its security was no longer on offer: the police had raided it; the ugly man from Grafton Lodge mews knew about it. No, he would simply have to find somewhere similarly secure—there must be somewhere else in London where he could hide up.
He shut the front door behind him—thinking: maybe Hampstead Heath? Wide open spaces—and had just turned the key in the lock when a postman in shorts, heavy boots and a dusty blue turban stamped wearily up the stairs.
“Brilliant, got you. Mr Belem?”
Adam turned. “Mmm?” he said, in a neutral voice.
“Sign and print here, please.”
Adam signed and printed ‘P. Belem’ and was handed a registered envelope with the crest of Bethnal & Bow NHS Trust on one corner.
“Have a good one, Mr Belem,” the postman said and wandered off along the walkway.
Adam unlocked the door and went back into his flat.
34
IT HAD TAKEN NEARLY a week to find Mohammed, much to Jonjo’s intense frustration. The guy seemed to be living at about five addresses and he had been obliged to pay serious money to Bozzy and his cohorts to track him down.
They caught up with him eventually in a terraced house in Bethnal Green, lodging with an uncle. Jonjo decided that this next encounter would run more smoothly without Bozzy being present so he drove alone to Bethnal Green and parked up some twenty yards or so from Mohammed’s temporary residence. Jonjo watched him come and go—with cousins and friends—before he finally left the house alone and headed for his Primera, presumably to start minicabbing and earn some money. Jonjo followed him for only a couple of minutes, Mohammed abruptly pulling up the Primera at the kerb—hazard lights flashing in the afternoon’s sunshine—and running into a twenty-four-hour supermarket to buy something. Jonjo double-parked his taxi so that it was impossible for Mohammed to drive away and settled down to wait.
There was a brisk rap on the window.
“‘Scuse me, mate. But you’ve parked—”
Flinging the door open abruptly, Jonjo knocked Mohammed to the ground. He helped him up, dusted off his denim jacket. Mohammed recognised him at once.
“Listen, man, no way you can—”
“Step into my office, Mo.”
They sat in the back of Jonjo’s taxi, Mohammed on the jump seat, Jonjo sprawled grandly at ease, opposite. The doors were locked.
“I got a big family,” Mohammed said. “Uncles, brothers, cousins—anything happen to me, they know Bozzy. He’s dead meat, yeah?”
“So do us all a big favour.” Jonjo leant forward and placed his hand on Mohammed’s knee to quell its spasmodic jumping. “I want to give you money, Mohammed—not hurt you.” He counted out £200 and handed them over. “Take it.”
Mohammed did. “Why?”
“Because you’re going to tell me who else was in your car that night you took the mini to Chelsea. And then you’re going to show me where I can find that person who was with you. And then I’ll give you another £300.” Jonjo reached into his jacket and produced his big folded wad of notes.
“I was on me own, man.”
“No, you weren’t. You said the mim went into the patch of waste ground to get his raincoat—while you sat in the car.”
“Yeah, right—so what?”
“So why didn’t he do a runner if you were sitting in the car like a muppet?”
“Ah—‘cause I’d threatened him, like. Said I break his fucking leg if he don’t not pay me.”
“He must have been shit-scared.”
“He was. That why he do what I say him.”
“So you trusted him. You just sat in the car and waited, trusting him to bring you his raincoat.”
“Ah…Yeah.”
Jonjo wrested back the £200.
“Even the most fucking useless, thick-as-shit, minicab driver in the world wouldn’t do that. If you sat in the car who went with Kindred?” Jonjo waved the notes in front of Mohammed’s face. Mohammed looked at the money and licked his lips. His knee started jumping again.
“It was someone called Mhouse.”
“A man called ‘Mouse’?”
“Woman.”
Jonjo’s face registered no surprise at this information, even though he was very surprised. “Do you know where she lives?”
“Yeah.”
“Take me there and you get the rest of your money.”
Jonjo waited until it had grown dark before he went back to The Shaft. He climbed the stairs and walked quickly along the walkway to Flat L. In his pocket he had a small thick jemmy that he wedged in the door-frame above the lock and threw his full weight on it, levering at the same time, hearing the screws that held the lock ease and give under the pressure, the wood splintering. He slid the jemmy to the top and bottom of the door—no bolts. He paused, looked around to see that no one was looking, and with one powerful kick of his mason’s boots blasted the door open. He stepped in quickly, swinging the door shut behind him and stood still in the entryway. There was no noise—the flat was empty. There was a light burning in the kitchen and he walked quietly into the sitting room and saw a TV, cushions, two chairs. In the kitchen he noted the power cable and the rubber water pipe coming through the window and allowed himself a small righteous sneer of taxpayer’s disgust. These people will steal the bread from your mouth, he thought to himself. What kind of a world—
“Hello.”
Jonjo turned, very slowly, to see a small boy with curly hair, wearing a stained T–shirt that fell to his knees, standing in the doorway to a bedroom.
“Hello, little fella. Don’t worry, I’m a friend. Where’s your mum?”
“She working.”
> “She asked me to get something for her.”
He moved past the boy into the bedroom—mattress on the floor, dirty sheets, wardrobe, a few cardboard boxes. He opened the wardrobe and rummaged through the clothes hanging inside, reaching into the back recesses to see what might have been stashed there. He pulled out shoes, a plastic bag full of sex toys, dildoes. The chemical smell of cheap perfume made his eyes smart. Then he pulled out a heavier box—no, a briefcase. He knew it well—solid locks, polished leather, brass trim at the corners. He clicked it open, empty. But this was Kindred’s—pieces were beginning to fit together and he felt his excitement rise. The little boy was looking at him sleepily but curiously, leaning against the door-frame, scratching his thigh.
“Whose is this?”
“My mum’s.”
Jonjo checked the other room—a bare mattress, bare floorboards, more boxes filled with crap. The state some people lived in—disgusting. He strode to the door, briefcase in his hand.
“Cheerio, mate.”
“You a friend of John?” the little boy said.
Jonjo stopped, turned. “Who’s John?”
“He live here but he gone now. You tell him to come back—say Ly-on want him to come back.”
“Does Mummy know John?”
“Yeah. She like John very too much. Green, green peas.”
“Whatever.” Jonjo patted him on the head, said good night and closed the door as best he could behind him.
Bozzy was waiting by the trashed playground. He pointed to the briefcase in Jonjo’s hand.
“Where you get that?”
“The Mouse-woman. Kindred’s been living there.”
“Fuck me. All this time?”
“Yeah. Where does she work?”
Bozzy grinned. “Work? She’s tugging sad bastards down Cherry Garden Pier.”
“She’s a gas-cooker?…” This confused Jonjo—what was Kindred doing living with a whore? “You sure?”