I hung up the phone and looked around the room. I wasn’t sure if I was ready to face her again. I hadn’t done such a good job the first time I tried to kill her. I kept thinking back to that night and how she managed to slip away. I kept blaming myself for all of the trouble that Black was going through. I blamed myself for everything. I hadn’t been able to do one thing right with my life. From the outside looking in it seemed that I had everything and that I was always lucky. But my life was in shambles. I was never happy regardless of how much money I had and it took me this long to figure it out. It took me to almost lose everything to appreciate the one thing that I always had. I always had life and I’d always had good sense, I just chose not to use it.
I gathered up my things and packed them in the car. I was on my way back to Philly and back to snatch my life back. Once I got back home, I called JB as he’d instructed. He came over to the house immediately. I heard the knock at the door and hurried to go answer it.
“Hey, come in, I just have to grab a couple of things.” I walked away from the door after I answered it. JB followed me into the house after closing the door behind him.
“So that was pretty quick, I didn’t expect you to get home so fast.”
“Well, I want to get this over with, I need to see my man walk out of that prison.”
“That’s not going to happen.”
“What do you mean . . .” I turned around to find JB standing there pointing a gun at me. What the hell was going on? “What’s going on, JB?”
“I’m sorry you got caught up in this, Diamond, but this is the way that it has to be.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, I wish that I could keep you alive but I know you’ll never go along with this. I thought that we could be together but then you started fucking Money. Why did you go and do that, Diamond?”
“How did you know about that?” Tears started to form in my eyes. I never expected JB to be the one out to get me.
“He told me. We were working together to get rid of Black; you were supposed to be with me but you went and fucked him like a whore.” He was yelling and waving the gun around. I was standing still, crying.
“Please, JB, don’t do this, we can be together, we just have to go get rid of Mica, remember.”
“That bitch is already dead. I took care of her and her man.”
“How are you going to get what you want without me? Black is going to get out of prison now that she’s dead.”
He stared at me. He hadn’t thought that far. He’d killed the only witness keeping Black in jail so unless he planned on killing him too his plan would never work.
“Fuck Black,” he yelled. “You think I’m scared of him, I will kill that muthafucker so fast.”
“I didn’t say you were scared of him, I said that we can be together. You and me can do this.” I was trying to get his confidence. I was still crying but I was trying to mask it, but it wasn’t working out like I thought it would.
“Do you think I’m stupid? You actually think you can fool me? I’m not an asshole, Diamond. I know that you’re only saying this so I can let you go.”
“I mean it, I mean every word, JB. We can be together.”
“I don’t want you now, I know that you’re a fucking whore. You cheated on Black with Money and Black hadn’t even done shit to you. I know your kind and there’s no way this shit would work now.”
“Yes, it can work, you just have to give it a chance.” I moved close to him and tried to win him over by looking in his eyes. He wouldn’t look at me, only backing away the closer that I got. “Please give us a chance.”
I saw a shadow behind him but I didn’t want to focus on it. That shadow turned out to be Tommy. He put his finger up to his mouth as to say be quiet. JB was starting to warm up to me. I could tell because he wasn’t backing away any longer.
“I’m sorry for what I did, I didn’t know that you wanted to be with me.”
“You’re not sorry, you were willing to throw it all away for some dick,” he began to yell again.
“I am sorry, I wish that it was you.”
He turned to look at me again. Just then Tommy’s shoes made a sound. JB turned around with his gun drawn. Tommy shot him twice before he had a chance to shoot back. I dropped down to the ground and burst into a hysterical cry. Tommy walked over to me and pulled me up from the floor. I grabbed hold of him and continued to cry. He walked me over to the couch where I sat down. He dialed the police on the house phone and reported the shooting.
“What are you doing, Tommy, you’re going to go to jail!” I tried to grab the phone out of his hand.
“Look, take this gun. You’re going to say that you shot him after he burst into your house and tried to attack you. Everything will be fine, I promise.”
I’d heard that line too many times in the past few weeks. For once I wanted to believe it. I shook my head and agreed to tell the story to the police. The sirens and red and blue lights were flashing within ten minutes. The cops ran in with their guns drawn. I was still sitting on the sofa with the gun in my hand. Tommy had left out of the back door before they’d arrived.
“Ma’am, are you hurt?”
“No, I’m not hurt.”
“Drop the gun, please.”
I obeyed. I sat the gun down on the floor. The officer ran over and kicked the gun over. Another officer reached down to check JB’s pulse and looked up, shaking his head, confirming that he had no pulse. I was in a daze. I still wasn’t grasping what had happened. The cops left me on the sofa while they began marking the scene. I was taken down to the police station where I gave them the story of what happened at the house. I stayed for a few hours before they released me. I couldn’t even sleep when I got home. I got up in the middle of the night and went over to Kiki’s house.
Instead of giving me words of wisdom, she gave me comfort. I fell asleep in her bed finally after an hour or so. She lay next to me holding my hand. The day had been such a traumatic day and I still didn’t know what was to come. I was still afraid. I didn’t know who to trust. The person that Black trusted the least had been the one to save my life. Everything was so out of control. At that point, I didn’t know if they could ever be the same.
Chapter 25
Black
Home Sweet Home
Finally, I was going home. I told Ms. Baker not to tell Diamond, I wanted to keep it a surprise. I hadn’t seen her since the day that they dragged me out of the courtroom. I never wanted her to run up here and see me in this cage nor did I want my child witnessing that. I wasn’t allowed visitors and letters still hadn’t been enough. I missed her and I wanted to get home to feel her again. I’d heard how things were on the streets and I couldn’t believe how JB turned on me. Jealousy and envy will make people do some strange things and that was definitely true with that situation.
What went wrong? Niggas were trying to kill me, my girl, and take my spot. When this shit first started JB was the main one, saying that he had my back no matter what happened and it turned out that he had more than my back in mind. I would have never thought that he’d turn on me. I would have thought Tommy would have been the one. When the Kemp shit started he was sure that Kemp wasn’t alive. I guess it made sense now that he had so much confidence because he knew damn well he wasn’t alive. He knew because it was him and that nigga Money all the time. Tommy made it his business to get word to me and I owed it to him for saving Diamond’s life.
Tommy picked me up from the bus where they’d left me. I looked like shit and there wasn’t any way I was going to show my face to her looking the way that I did. Tommy got out of the car and walked over to me. I stuck my hand out to shake his. Instead of shaking my hand he hugged me, which caught me completely off guard.
“It’s good to see you, man.”
“Thanks so much for all that you’ve done.”
“No problem, man, I told you I was here for you.
“I need you to do me a favor before you take
me home. I need to get a haircut and get some gear. I can’t go home like this.”
“Already got that shit lined up, got some jeans and shit in the back for you. Nigga, I know you too well.” He laughed.
“My man, thanks!” I gave him dap.
We drove down to the barbershop where I got a fresh haircut, then he drove me over to his house so I could shower. I felt like new money when I got out of there. I was ready to go home. We pulled up in front of the house and I was more nervous then I’d ever been. I felt like I was going on a job interview or some shit. I didn’t know what to say to her. I hoped that it would come natural. Tommy pulled out as I made it up to the door. I knocked lightly. It was strange knocking on my own door but I almost felt like a stranger visiting for the first time.
“Coming,” she yelled as she neared the door. My heart was pounding a mile a minute. I couldn’t wait to see her face. She opened the door and stood still as a statue. Tears came out of her eyes before she moved out of the door to wrap her arms around me. “How did you get out? Why didn’t they tell me?” She cried and smiled at the same time.
“I wanted to surprise you, I missed the hell out of you.” I grabbed hold of the sides of her face to bring her into a kiss. I wanted to make love to her at that moment and I would have if I could.
“The baby’s inside, come on in so you can see her.”
We walked into the house. I dropped my bag near the door and followed her upstairs toward the baby’s room. She was asleep but as beautiful as a porcelain doll. I didn’t want to wake her so I didn’t reach in to pick her up. I just stood there looking at her, then looking at Diamond.
“Why are you looking at me like that?”
“Because I never would have imagined you being a mother. I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for you.”
“It doesn’t matter, you’re here now and everything is going to be okay.”
I believed it. I was focused and there wasn’t anything that was going to mess this up. We’d come too far for that. I pulled her out of the room and into the bedroom. I couldn’t wait another minute to touch her. She smiled as I moved closer to grab hold of her. She helped me by taking off her clothes. I stared at her body and it was perfect, just as I’d left it. I’d heard about her and Money but I didn’t care. I knew that everything she did was to get me out of jail and I couldn’t let that affect me.
She lay on top of the bed as I undressed. I wasn’t even fully naked before I opened her legs, got on my knees, and met her clit with my lips. It was as sweet as honey and I was savoring every drop. She was moaning as I continued to fuck her with my tongue. She used her hips to grind harder against it. I stuck two fingers inside of her pussy as I used my other hand to slide my boxers off. My dick was as hard as a brick and after months of jacking off I could finally feel her wrapped around it.
I got up from the floor and slid my dick inside of her. She gasped for air as if she wasn’t expecting it. I pulled her legs up around my neck and fucked her like a racehorse for the next half hour. I erupted all inside of her and fell down on her like I’d lost every bit of my energy right along with the cum that was now running out of her.
She got up from under me and headed to the bathroom. I was still laying across the bed when she turned on the shower. For once I felt like I didn’t want to hurry out of the house. I wasn’t thinking about work but instead I was thinking about her. I got up off of the bed and jumped in the shower with her.
“You really do miss me, huh?” She giggled just before facing me then going down to her knees and taking my dick into her warm mouth. I grabbed onto the side of the wall and let out a sigh similar to the one that she’d let out earlier. Her lips wrapped around my dick with the water pouring all over her turned me on more than I’d ever been with her. It wasn’t long before I bent her over and fucked her for another fifteen minutes. Finally, I allowed her to shower. She kissed me before leaving me in there alone. I washed up before jumping out and getting dressed again. She was downstairs in the kitchen making the baby a bottle.
“Trice is on her way over, I called her.”
“What? Why would you call her?”
“Because your son wants to see you and Trice is cool. There won’t be any drama, trust me.”
“Since when have you two become friends? I see I’ve missed a lot more than I thought I did. I would have never imagined that.”
“Right after you went in, she came to me and let me know that she needed some help. I wasn’t going to turn her away, so I helped her and we’ve been cool ever since.”
“You should have told me she was coming. I have to run out and meet Tommy back at the warehouse,” I lied. I wasn’t really ready to be in the same house with both of them. I thought of it as being a very uncomfortable situation.
“Babe, you just got home. Just see him and then you can go.”
Damn, I was going to have to deal with it sooner or later so I thought, fuck it, I might as well get it over with. It wasn’t long before she was ringing the bell. I opened the door and my son ran right to me, hugging my legs. Trice smiled and gave me a quick hug.
“Good to see you, he missed you a lot,” she said, walking into the house. Diamond had come out of the kitchen and was standing in the hall.
“I have to run, but I’m going to spend a lot of time with him this week, I promise. I just have to go take care of some things right now. I didn’t know that you were coming until a few minutes ago.”
She looked disappointed. I wasn’t trying to upset anyone but I really did have some shit to handle. I needed to get back to the office to begin rebuilding.
“It’s cool, I know you have to go work. We’ll hang out here for a little while but I’m going to hold you to that. He needs to be with you.”
“And he will be.”
I hugged him again and kissed Diamond before I left out of the house. It actually wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. I grabbed my keys off the key rack and hopped into the car. I was on my way down to the office. I had so much on my mind. There was so much to do and now that Money, Mica, and JB were gone, there wasn’t anything to worry about. Everything should be smooth sailing from that point on. I was back at home where I needed to be and the sweet smell of success was flowing up my nose as I drove up the expressway with the windows down. A change was coming and I was going to embrace it.
Chapter 26
Diamond
Trust
I was worried that Black would find out about Money and me. I enjoyed making love to him every night since he came home but it wasn’t the same. It was almost as if he knew but didn’t want to tell me. I wanted to just lay it out on the table but that most likely wasn’t the right thing to do. He hadn’t said anything about marrying me either. Maybe he changed his mind and decided that I wasn’t marriage material. I was driving myself crazy worrying about it. I felt like I had to come clean so that we could move on. I would have to accept whatever was thrown my way afterward but I couldn’t keep it inside any longer. He came home and I was sitting in the living room with the lights on but nothing else was on.
“What’s wrong?” He could always tell when I was upset. I was beating myself up all day and I was probably about to make a huge mistake.
“There’s something that I have to tell you. I have to be honest and I can’t move forward without telling you.” I could feel the tears forming in my eyes; it was going to kill me to hurt him but I didn’t see what other choice I had.
“Look, Diamond, I just got back. There’s no need to go into all of that. Let’s enjoy this time that we have together.”
“No, I have to tell you and I have to tell you now.” I was determined to get things off of my chest.
“If it’s about Money and you, I already know and I don’t care.”
I looked up at him, stunned. I wasn’t sure if I’d heard him right.
“You don’t care?”
“No, I don’t care and I want to forget about it.”
“But how can we h
ave trust after that?”
“Diamond, I trust you and I’m not questioning you about it because I understand how that could have happened. I love you and I’m going to marry you. I don’t care what happened when I wasn’t here. I’m worried about what happens from this point on.”
Was he serious? I’ve never found a man who could trust a woman after they’d cheated. I mean, I dealt with him even after I knew about all the women he chose to sleep with but that was different. That’s what I thought I was supposed to do.
“Are you really going to marry me?”
“I just said I was, why do you think I bought you that big-ass ring?” He laughed. He pulled me close to him. “Look, I’m not perfect and I know that I’ve done some things in the past. I’m not going to leave you for doing the same shit that I did. We are going to start fresh from this point on. Fuck the past.”
“Sounds good to me,” I laughed as I hugged him.
I was happy the way that things were turning out. They were actually going better than I could have imagined. I thought for sure once I told him about Money we would be over. Following that day things were good. Black and I planned to get married in the spring and things couldn’t have been better. The business was going great and I had even talked Black into making Tommy a partner. Tommy was strong and he’d saved my life. I had to find a way to pay him back. What better way to say thank you than running a major drug empire?
I thought back to all of the things that I’d been through in my life. It was always good to reflect on your past to appreciate the things that you’ve learned along the way. We all make mistakes and every mistake teaches us something. Whether we learn from them or not is up to us. There were a lot of times that I did things that I swore I’d never do again only to end up doing them again. Maybe I was a hard learner but whatever the case I’d managed to look back and smile. I smile because I made it out alive and strong. Things could have gone a whole lot different if I would have let those mistakes get the best of me. There were people in my life who made such an impact. That night, I lay in bed thankful for my life and all that I had to look forward to. There had been a lot of bumps along the way and I’d still been able to succeed. There were times that I felt like I didn’t deserve to be here, but now, I knew that I did. I’d done a lot of wrong in my life but maybe that was also a part of the plan that was laid out for me. I believe all of it was even down to my teenage years. I closed my eyes with Black nestled next to me and reminisced.
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