by Lucinda John
BOOM! BOOM! BOOM!
“Emma open this fucking door!” Ramsey yelled.
Tiny and I both jumped, but we paid him no mind. I sat there wishing he would hurry get the hint and go home. I didn’t have the strength in me to talk to him right now. I didn’t want to give him the satisfaction of seeing me crying over him.
“OPEN THIS MOTHERFUCKING DOOR NOW!” Ramsey yelled sounding agitated.
Tiny and I both said nothing as we listened to him yell and beat on the door like a crazed maniac. When the screaming and beating ceased I was able to relax. He was gone, but I knew he would be back. Ramsey was the type who got what he want no matter what. He was going to make a way to talk to me regardless if I wanted to or not.
POW!
A loud sound went off, then my door came crashing in. My heart started beating fast as I looked at a crazed Ramsey with a gun in his hand staring at me with his chest rising and falling. He started walking towards me causing Tiny to jump in between us.
“Get the fuck out of my face!” he snapped.
“No put the gun down first.” Tiny replied.
He looked down at his gun, and dumped all the bullets out of it placing them in his pockets before tossing the gun to the side.
“Now get the fuck out of my face!” Ramsey yelled.
“Give her some time to calm down.” Tiny spoke for me.
Instead of replying, he grabbed his phone from his pocket and made a phone call.
“Bruh come get your girl…. Yeah…. I’m at Emma’s crib…. Bet” he said before hanging up the phone and placing it in his pocket.
“I suggest you move before my brother come snatch your little ass up.” he spat.
“I’m not going to let you out your hands on my friend.” Tiny snapped.
“Ain’t nobody gonna touch that girl now MOVE!” he yelled causing Tiny to jump.
Tiny was my girl for real because no matter how much threats he made, she stood there, the barrier between me and this deranged person I was madly in love with. Twenty minutes into Ramsey and Tiny stare off, Mayhem stormed in the house and yoked Tiny up.
“The fuck you in their business for?” he asked shaking her.
“I’M NOT GOING TO LET HIS CRAZY ASS HIT MY FRIEND! HE SHOT THE FUCKING DOOR LIKE!” Tiny yelled with tears streaming from her face.
“He not going to hit her, grab your shit and let’s go!” Mayhem barked placing her back on her feet.
“Aye bruh you good?” He asked Ramsey.
“Keep ya hands to yourself.”
“I’m good bruh.”
“iight peace.” Mayhem said dapping his brother up.
“If he put his hands call me and I’ll be over here.” Tiny said.
“Man you ain’t going nowhere but for a ride on this dick, shut up and bring your ass on!” He snapped.
When they were gone, Ramsey walked towards me causing me to walk backwards until I was backed In by the wall.
“The fuck is wrong with you?” he asked.
“How could you do this to me?” I cried.
“Do what?” he asked looking confused.
“You cheated on me. You fucked that nurse behind my back! You lied to me, you told me you were at the hospital visiting your friend not a woman who claim she had just given birth to your child! Is the baby yours?” I asked choking on my words due to the tears.
“Damn man.” Ramsey said punching a whole in the wall above my head. “Listen baby, that bitch getting pregnant was before you and no the baby ain’t mine.” he said.
“Did you fuck that nurse?” I asked.
“Yes, but not because I wanted to. I needed her to put a rush on the results for me.”
“All this money you got and you had to use your dick?” I asked looking at him sideways.
“She ain’t want the money she wanted the dick.”
“Instead of waiting three business days for the paternity results you cheat on me, on a woman you claim you love. Then you lied to me with a straight face. I can’t right now please just go.”
“Come home, the door on this motherfucker broke you can’t sleep like this.”
“It’s fine I’ll get a hotel room.” I replied.
“Man stop fucking with me go to the house and take your ass to sleep.” he snapped.
“Ramsey I’m not really trying to be around you right now!” I snapped.
“Man I ain’t gon fuck with you, imma crash at ma dukes house.” he said.
“Ok.” I said just to get him off my ass. The moment he left I was going to grab my things and check into a hotel room.
Ramsey followed me back to his house and sat in the car to see me in. I was discreetly standing by the window, waiting for him to leave so I can plan my escape, but he never left. It was as if he knew I was going to leave so he decided to sleep in the driveway just to watch me.
Walking over to one of the guest bedrooms, I pulled the blankets back and got in bed. I allowed mix of Jazmine’s Sullivan music to penetrate my ears while I cried out my pain. Words couldn’t explain the aching feeling that was in my heart. I was so disappointed in myself for not paying closer attention. The signs were probably there but I was too high off love to recognize them. A gut wrenching cry escaped my lips when Jazmine Sullivan, “Let It Burn” started to play. Not only was it how I felt about Ramsey, but it was also the song that played when he called me.
Ramsey
It’s been three days since I spoke or seen Emma and I was going crazy. The thought of her leaving me was really fucking a nigga head up. I was so mad at that big mouth nurse that I paid a few girls to jump her ass for running her mouth. I told her off rip I had a girl, but she wanted the dick anyways. She had no place to confront Emma when she knew Emma was the head bitch in charge in my life.
“I told your ass about that thoting and bopping, now you in here looking real sick.” My mother said sitting a plate of eggs, bacon and grits in front of me.
“I ain’t hungry ma.” I said pushing the plate of food to the side.
“Yup you feeling the blues, because you never turn down my cooking.”
“I’m ready to bring her ass home ma.” I sighed.
“Give her some time.”
“How much more time she need? It’s been three days.”
“You know when your father told me about that white woman, it hurt me like crazy. I needed time to heal but I couldn’t get it because he brought you home. Now don’t get me wrong I love you like you were my own, but I wish I had a few days to myself to get my head together. It’s hard, she’s going through it right now trust me baby. Give her some time.” she said making since.
“Imma give her ass one more day, I ain’t on that shit.” I snapped, picking up a piece of bacon and stuffing it in my mouth. I said my goodbye’s to my mother and headed home.
Emma didn’t think I knew that she was at the Ritz Carlton by the beach. Even though she paid for her room with cash that still wasn’t enough to keep me from finding her. I knew she was going to run the moment I left that is why I sent someone to tail her. I knew exactly where she was room number and everything. I was giving her ass one more day before I went over there and brought her home by force.
I was walking around the living room when a beeping noise caught my attention. The beeping stop as I got closer to it, then it started again. Picking up Emma’s iPad, I plugged in her code to see what was beeping like crazy in there. Her messenger popped up and a message from A Mani Gregory popped up. The fact that she was keeping in contact with her first love had me seeing red. Tapping on the messages I read everything to back when she was in college.
I can still taste the sweetness of your pussy on my lips, when I come home next week you gonna let me taste you?
He wrote causing my first to ball.
Lol. I don’t know.
Emma replied.
Are you still with dude?
He asked
It's complicated.
She replied.
Well let dadd
y uncomplicate things for you when he comes home.
He wrote back.
Lol you play too much.
She replied.
Is that a yes or a no?
He asked.
Idk…
“This bitch!” I snapped throwing her iPad across the room. Grabbing my car keys I made my way to the hotel she was staying in. All I had to do was slip the guy up front three hundred dollars and I had a copy of her room key. Those messages danced around in my mind as I made my way to her room. The fact that this bitch was still talking to this nigga while we were still together had me piss the fuck off.
Beep!
The door beeped giving me access to the room. Both Tiny and Emma looked at me with wide eyes as I came barging in the room. Tiny immediately jumped in front of Emma but her little ass couldn’t do much to protect her hoe ass friend. Mayhem was right when he said birds of a feather flocked together, this bitch really had me fooled. I should have known she was no good when I found out she was cool with Tiny thot ass.
“You gon’ let Mani eat that pussy huh?” I asked tossing Tiny ass out the way.
Emma looked at me with wide eyes as I pinned her up against the wall.
“Answer me! You gon’ fuck that nigga next week when he come home?”
“No.” she replied pissing me off.
WHAM!
I slapped her down to the floor.
“You ain’t tell that nigga ‘no’ in them messages .” I replied yoking her up again.
“MAYHEM COME GET YOUR BROTHER HE’S HITTING ON EMMA.” I heard Tiny frantically say in the phone, but I was stunting her hoe ass at the moment. I had a bigger hoe in front of me that I had to deal with.
“Ramsey stop.” she cried as I slapped her ass again.
I knew my father was in his grave turning over, but my anger was getting the best of me. The thought of another nigga between what I claimed as mine infuriated me.
“You was gonna give that nigga my pussy?” I asked slapping her ass again.
I knew better than to punch her, I had enough strength to knock her into next week. I was just going to yoke and slap her ass around for disrespecting me. It’s been three days and she was already plotting on jumping on the next nigga dick.
“Ramsey you’re hurting me.” she cried.
“No, I want you to feel how bad you hurt me when I had to sit there and read those messages!” I yelled.
“You cheated on me first.”
“Because I fucked up that gives you a pass to fuck up?” I asked yoking her up again. This time I wrapped my hand around her throat and started choking her ass out.
“Get the fuck off of her.” Tiny ran over to me decking me in the face.
He small blows wasn’t doing nothing to me so she jumped on my back and stuck her fingers in my eyes.
“Oh shit!” I yelled pushing her off of me.
“Come on Ramsey man chill the fuck out.” Maleek said grabbing me.
“The fuck you in here doing!” Mayhem yelling.
“I’m fucking this thot ass hoe up! This bitch making plans to fuck her ex and shit behind my back. It’s only been three fucking days and she ready to cheat on a nigga. I fucked up once and she turn my pussy into community pussy.” I vented trying to keep my emotions in check.
It was true when they say a nigga could fuck a bunch of different females behind his girl’s back, but it takes her fucking one nigga to fuck his whole life up. I was about ready to cry over this shit, a nigga was hurting behind this shit for real. I looked in the eyes of the woman I gave up all the hoes for and my heart broke. The fact that she was about to give me a taste of my own medicine had me ready to kill her. I was on that if I can’t have you no-one else can type shit.
“Let’s go.” Maleek said grabbing me out the room.
“Pack your stuff and let’s go.” Mayhem said helping Emma off the floor.
Maleek through me in the back of his truck and drove me off. Pulling out my phone from my pocket I called my homey Oz.
“Keep eyes on her, I want you on her ass like a fucking hawk. If you gotta hire more help to watch her, you do that. If you see her meeting with some nigga kill his ass on sight!” I barked into the phone before hanging up.
“The fuck you laughing at?” I asked Maleek.
“I never thought I’d see the day a chick would have your head gone.”
“Shut the fuck up and drive wherever you taking me!” I snapped.
“Man anywhere but here.” I groaned when we pulled into my mother’s circular drive.
The way she was sitting out front with her legs crossed let me know that she was waiting for me. She was furious, the way she chewed on her bottom lip while flicking her nails told me so. I This was going to be a long fucking night for me I could feel it.
“Get the fuck out the car!” My mother yelled.
“Maleek man get ya Ol’girl.” I sucked my teeth.
“Nah bruh she told me to bring your ass to her and that’s what exactly what I did. You deal with her.” he chuckled.
When I didn’t exit the car fast enough, my mother jumped out her seat and headed in our directions. She swung the door open and jumped on me, swinging her fist wildly. My mother was small, but she packed a mean punch. Some of her blows even had my eyes dazed for a bit.
“So you putting your hands on women now, put your fucking hands on me Ramsey. I thought I taught your ass better than that! Men don’t hit women!” she snapped throwing blow after blow.
“Maleek get the fuck off me or you’ll get it next!” she snapped, while she continued to beat my ass.
When I had enough, I grabbed her into a bear hug and started kissing her all over her face.
“Ma I’m sorry, I just got so angry.” I apologized still hugging her.
“Ramsey you fucked shit up. You’ll be lucky if she talks to you now. All your hard headed ass had to do was give her some space!” she snapped.
“I know mama but when I saw those messages I flipped. The thought of her fucking another nigga had my head gone, I wasn’t thinking rationally.”
“Did she ever agree to meet him and hook up?” My mother asked.
“No but….”
“But nothing you had no right putting your hands on that girl!”
“I’m sorry ma.” I pleaded.
“I ain’t the one your sorry ass should be apologizing to. Now you take your ass in that house and sit the fuck down. Don’t leave my out that door until I tell you to!” She yelled.
“Mama I’m twenty-five years old, I’m a grown ass man.” I replied.
“Ramsey take your ass upstairs I’m not playing with you, I will personally call the cops and tell them to come pick up your women beating ass.” She snapped.
“Man.” I groaned walking towards the door.
Taking a seat on the patio that was on the second floor and away from my crazy ass mama, I rolled up a blunt and poured me a cup. I was still fucked up about the shit that went down between Emma and her ex. I could have handled the situation better, but images of her busting it open for another nigga the way she did it for me had me seeing red.
I was nice and high when I picked up the phone to call Mayhem. Emma ass had me blocked from any source that I could use to contact her so my best bet was to holla at my big brother to check in on her.
“Speak.” My brother answered his phone.
“Man how’s Emma?”
“Her face bruised the fuck up but she straight.” he replied.
“Where she at?” I desperately asked.
“She at the crib, come up here starting trouble if you want to and I’ll fuck you up myself.” My brother said.
“You know mama ain’t letting me out this bitch.” I replied.
“I already know.” he chuckled. “I heard she laid hands on you.”
“Yeah mama went in on my ass, my jaw still a little sore.”
“Reminded me of when we were teenagers and she use to stand toe to toe beating our asses daring us to lay
a finger on her.” Mayhem laughed walking us down memory lane.