by Nick Cole
He imagined what the tank might be stuck in. What position would cause that and how to get out without making things worse.
Outside the tank, someone had found a sledgehammer or something equally capable of making a tremendous ringing gong. Mixed with the other assaults, it was becoming unbearable.
I am not beaten. I am just stuck.
He thought of the old man in the book. What would he do?
Sometimes there is nothing to do but the only thing that you can do.
He gassed the accelerator hard and held back on the sticks with all of his might, as his fingers and wrist turned sweaty with heat and tension. At the top of the rise, he pushed forward on the tank, and then almost immediately, once it leapt forward, he pushed back again.
I have to pop the nose up. It’s the only thing I can imagine that must be done.
He felt his stomach float for a second and knew that the attitude of the tank had changed. He hoped it was enough. He gassed it forward, and then at the last second, felt he needed more of one stick than the other. He went with the right stick, pulling back on the left before he could think further on the subject. He felt the tank turning and finally moving forward. The attacks on its shell ceased.
I’ve got to see or this will happen again.
He opened the hatch but kept the tank moving. He traversed the turret, taking in the panorama of savagery that surrounded him. Black smoke filled the area and the sun was low in the sky, turning everything blood red. As he traversed east, monsoon clouds built up in angry red and purple bruises.
I must have been out for a while.
The Horde, toothless, angry, misshapen, twitching, hobbling, screaming, gashing, beating, wild animal thing that it was, surged in every direction as he gunned away from the center. His passing clotted quickly as they followed him howling and yelling.
There must be an end to this.
Atop Picacho Peak, a large bonfire burned against the deep blue of the high altitude.
When he had some distance from them, he swiveled the tank to face the peak.
It must be this then.
He traversed the gun and set it on the face of the peak just below the topmost edge and fired. This time he put one finger in his ear. He heard the reloading system eject a hot shell and re-load another. He fired again once the ready light went from red to green, near the firing button.
The rounds began to fall directly into the side of the peak, and almost instantly the walls began to crumble in great sheets of dust and rock.
He fired again and saw the savages scream, dropping to their knees, unable to comprehend the horror of what was happening to them.
In the last moments of daylight, he switched on the tank’s high beams and fired again. The Horde fled the field, heading east into the dark.
When he had fired most of the rounds, he alone remained. Bodies crushed by the tank turned up as he crossed the field. But the rest had gone. He returned to the main road and set the tank on it.
We will have to watch them.
Over the hum of the engines, he considered the place as he readied for the long push back to the village.
What had been the difference between this place and the village?
He set off down the road making slow but steady progress. A harvest moon came out and it stayed dry. It smelled dusty when he arrived at the burnt town where the two highways intersected. The bodies were still spaced across the blacktop. He maneuvered around them and set the high beams on the road heading west.
If I remember right, the village will be beyond the next valley. But it has been some time.
He crossed a small plain where once crops had grown. An overpass had collapsed across the road and he went around it. Shaking with hunger, he stopped and turned off the tank. He opened the can of chili and ate it as he walked around the silent tank. It was cold and he began to shiver.
Back in the tank, he started it, momentarily knowing it wouldn’t. But it did and soon he eased forward into the night as the road climbed a small desert plateau, crossing a pass and descending into a valley of jagged peaks.
I remember this part. I remember driving it many times.
Thoughts that had seemed so important then, as he passed over the same ground now, seemed foreign.
I was different then, he said in the wind and the night.
When he reached the end of the valley he felt tired enough to stop. He thought about buttoning up the tank and sleeping on the floor.
I need rest. I know I am very sick.
If you die . . . or if in the morning you cannot get up . . . no one will know. Eventually the Horde will find the Fort. The machine gun won’t keep them away for long. Once it runs out of bullets, what then?
He drank some water and pressed on. He passed a conical mountain, and then came to the Gas Station that had burned down at the edge of the town that was the farthest limit the villagers would salvage.
Just a ways more.
The Old Man in the book is not his name. His name is Santiago. In the book he wanted the boy with him as he fought the fish. Just as I wanted my granddaughter with me.
He passed the blackened ruins and a little later the moon fell low in the sky.
He topped the rise and saw the village. He turned off the tank feeling the heat dissipate quickly. He was just a mile off from the village but he could see it below. It was a collection of sheds and huts built around an old processing plant. It was his home. He could see the field of broken glass glittering like the stars above.
He left the tank, feeling hot and sore.
I WILL WALK home and go to my house and in the morning they will see the tank.
There has never been such a fish.
He knew he made little sense. But it seemed right not to wake anyone.
Let them sleep in the village one night longer. To have the village one more night. Then they can have the world.
My journey was like the one in the book.
That is the thing about books. You take their journeys with you.
You came home with something more than just the remains of a fish.
The book was never about the fish.
He neared the sleeping village and passed through unseen.
Even the dogs are asleep.
I want to tell my granddaughter the lesson of the book. The lesson that they can beat you, but they cannot defeat you. I must tell her that.
At the door to his shed, he wondered if someone might live here now. His thoughts were scrambled and came in waves. But he knew it was the sickness and the fatigue.
He pushed open the door and heard its sound, knowing it as his own. He loved the sound of it. All was as he’d left it. Still holding his rucksack, he lit a candle and carried it to the desk where he kept the book. He looked at the cover for a long moment and then set down his pack.
Your must tell her that.
What?
They can beat you but they cannot defeat you.
He put the book on his bed and lit a fire in the stove.
My friend in the book is safe.
Maybe just some tea. Then sleep.
But when he sat on the bed to take off his new boots, he couldn’t get back up.
Be sure to tell her.
I will.
For just a moment he mumbled, then lay down.
He dreamed of lions playing on distant beaches at sunset. His granddaughter was right next to him, watching, both of them silent. Her little hand in his old hand.
SHE WAS GOING out again. In the dark, she gathered all the tools she would need, and when she found the claw hammer her grandfather had let her carry, she placed it in her belt. It was like having him with her. She needed that.
On the way to the cantina for the tea that the old women made while they fried the sweet dough, she felt the cold earth on her toes. This was the best time of day, she thought. This was the time when they would meet and she would go out with him to salvage.
She looked at his shed as she had every mo
rning, its silent, gray, unlived in look a memorial to her grandfather.
It’s a good thing. That way you will remember everything he taught you. You will need it out there.
But as she looked this morning, she saw the wispy smoke in the chimney of his shed and she was angry.
Someone has moved in! It’s too soon . . .
She charged toward the shed door, intending to wake the village with her rebuke at whoever had taken her grandpa’s shed as his own. But then she was running and hoping. Hoping he had come back.
Like she knew he would.
She found him sweaty and hot atop his cot, mumbling in his sleep. She kissed him but he did not recognize her in his fever. His body felt thin and gaunt.
She hurried back to her parents’ door, telling all in one burst that he had returned. Then to the kitchen to tell the women.
Back at the shed, her father knelt by the side of the cot, crying and talking softly to the Old Man. She would nurse him back to health. She would make him drink soup. They needed to kill one of the chickens. Then when he was well, they would go out again to salvage, and then she too was crying.
Her little brother came running to her as he always did.
“There is something on the road. Something wonderful.” He pulled her through the lanes of the village to the edge of the highway.
Alone and in pairs, the villagers approached the tank atop the hill as the morning sun rose behind it. She didn’t care. Even though it was the greatest salvage ever, it was nothing compared to what she cared about.
Epilogue
The Chief Excavator stood atop the scaffolding, the wind blowing at his jacket. He stepped back from the hole he had just made with the cutting tool.
“It’s your turn.”
The Doctor of Antiquities stepped forward. He had campaigned long and hard for this day. Now that it was upon him, he didn’t want to go through with it. From theory to paper, to committees and hearings, it had been one thing. The game of academics. But now those questions would be answered. He would have to find something new to uncover because the riddle of the tank would be solved.
His heart beat rapidly as he moved his light toward the opening, his head close behind. Inside, a wrapped body was the first thing he saw. He knew it was a body. The first residents of the reoccupation of Old Tucson, the foundation of their culture, had prepared their bodies in the same manner. But those bodies had all been found in the graveyards of Starr Pass.
“It’s true,” he mumbled.
“You were right?” asked the Chief Excavator.
The Doctor stuck his head and light back in the hole.
“It’s a body. Probably an early warlord. Maybe the first to conquer the area. There is something on top of the body. A book perhaps.”
A strong wind, a danger at this altitude, gusted past the Doctor’s head and turned the ancient book to fragments, floating and swirling about the inside of the tank.
“Looked like a book, I should say.”
“Any clue how they got the tank to the top of the tower?” asked the Chief Excavator. The Doctor stepped back and pulled a plastic sheet over the opening to prevent further wind damage.
“We’ll never know how they did that.” He took in the panorama of the world’s oldest still-populated city. Towers and buildings raced toward the heights above, the Space Elevator beyond that, its thin diamond line tracing away into the sky above.
“That was never the point of this project. We wanted to know who was in here. It’s our city’s oldest monument and no one knows a thing about it.”
“So who was he?”
“Can we ever know? Probably not. We will make some guesses from what we know about the survivors of that period. But we can never know for sure.”
“So we can just guess a little better, is that it?”
The Doctor put his hand on the tank, feeling its ancientness.
“I can say one thing.”
“What?” asked the reporter who’d come out to the historic district to cover the story.
“Whoever put him here, in a war machine of the period, which was impossible as we know it by their standards after the catastrophe, to hoist a multiton vehicle to the top of this tower, whoever it was, loved him very much. He was very important to them. I can say that.”
Intermezzo
For those who loved
The Old Man and the Wasteland,
You will find this novel a bit different.
This time the Apocalypse is personal.
I thank you in advance for this brief indulgence.
God willing, we may yet hear more of the Old Man.
PART II
The Savage Boy
Chapter 1
You take everything with you.
That is the last lesson. The last of all the lessons. The last words of Staff Sergeant Presley.
You take everything with you, Boy.
The Boy tramped through the last of the crunchy brown stalks of wild corn, his weak left leg dragging as it did, his arms full. He carried weathered wooden slats taken from the old building at the edge of the nameless town. He listened to the single clang of some long unused lanyard, connecting against a flagpole in the fading warmth of the quiet autumn morning.
He knew.
Staff Sergeant Presley was gone now.
The last night had been the longest. The old man that Staff Sergeant Presley had become, bent and shriveled, faded as he gasped for air around the ragged remains of his throat, was gone. His once dark, chocolate brown skin turned gray. The muscles shriveled, the eyes milky. There had been brief moments of fire in those eyes over the final cold days. But at the last of Staff Sergeant Presley there had been no final moment. All of him had gone so quickly. As if stolen. As if taken.
You take everything with you.
The cold wind thundered against the sides of Gas Station all night long as it raced down from mountain passes far to the west. It careened across the dry whispering plain of husk and brush through a ravaged land of wild, dry corn. The wind raced past them in the night, moving east.
A week ago, Gas Station was as far as Staff Sergeant Presley could go, stopping as if they might start again, as they had so many times before. Gas Station was as far as the dying man could go. Would go.
I gotcha to the Eighty, Boy. Now all you got to do is follow it straight on into California. Follow it all the way to the Army in Oakland.
Now, in the morning’s heatless golden light, the Boy came back from hunting, having taken only a rabbit. Staff Sergeant Presley’s sunken chest did not rise. The Boy waited for a moment among the debris and broken glass turned to sandy grit of Gas Station, their final camp. He waited for Sergeant Presley to look at him and nod.
I’m okay.
I’ll be fine.
Get the wood.
But he did not. Staff Sergeant Presley lay unmoving in his blankets.
The Boy went out, crossing the open space where once a building stood. Now, wild corn had grown up through the cracked concrete pad that remained. He crossed the disappearing town to the old wooden shamble at its edge, maybe once a barn. Working with his tomahawk he had the slats off with a sharp crack in the cool, dry air of the high desert. Returning to Gas Station, he knew.
Staff Sergeant Presley was gone now.
The Boy crossed the open lot. Horse looked at him, then turned away. And there was something in that dismissal of Horse that told the Boy everything he needed to know and did not want to.
Staff Sergeant Presley was gone.
He laid the wood down near the crumbling curb and crossed into the tiny office that once watched the county road.
Staff Sergeant Presley’s hand was cold. His chest did not rise. His eyes were closed.
The Boy sat next to the body throughout that long afternoon until the wind came up.
You take everything with you.
And . . .
The Army is west. Keep going west, Boy. When you find them, show them the map. Tell th
em who I was. They’ll know what to do. Tell them Staff Sergeant Lyman Julius Presley, Third Battalion, 47th Infantry, Scouts. Tell them I made it all the way—all the way to D.C., never quit. Tell them there’s nothing left. No one.
And . . .
That’s the North Star.
And . . .
Don’t let that tomahawk fly unless you’re sure. Might not get it back.
And . . .
These were all towns. People once lived here. Not like your people. This was a neighborhood. You could have lived here if the world hadn’t ended. Gone to school, played sports. Not like your tents and horses.
And . . .
There are some who still know what it means to be human—to be a society. There are others . . . You got to avoid those others. That’s some craziness.
And . . .
“Boy” is what they called you. It’s the only thing you responded to. So “Boy” it is. This is how we . . .
Make camp.
Hunt.
Fight.
Ride Horse.
Track.
Spell.
Read.
Bury the dead.
Salute.
For a day the Boy watched the body. Later, he wrapped Staff Sergeant Presley in a blanket; blankets they had traded the Possum Hunters for, back two years ago, when their old blankets were worn thin from winter and the road, when Staff Sergeant Presley had still been young and always would be.
At the edge of the town that once was, in the golden light of morning, the Boy dug the grave. He selected a spot under a sign he could not spell because the words had faded. He dug in the warm, brown earth, pushing aside the yellowed, papery corn husks. The broken and cratered road nearby made a straight line into the west.
When the body was in the grave, covered, the Boy waited. Horse snorted. The wind came rolling across the wasteland of wild corn husks.
What now?
You take everything with you.
Horse.
Tomahawk.
Blankets.
Knife.
Map.
Find the Army, Boy. All the way west, near a big city called San Francisco. Tell them there’s nothing left and show them the map.