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by Emmy Laybourne


  ‘Wake up,’ she said.

  She was in my berth.

  I shook my head awake.

  I wasn’t dreaming it – she was really there.

  ‘What is it?’ I asked. My heart was hammering wildly. Was it the wall? Jesus, we should have been watching the wall!

  ‘I just want to talk to you,’ she told me.

  She had a pen-size flashlight pointed at the floor.

  I saw she was wearing pink pajamas and had bare feet. She was shivering and she looked so beautiful I thought my heart might stop.

  We went out to the Kitchen to talk.

  I grabbed a fleece for myself, and for her a sweater I’d worn a few times.

  We sat down at a two-top in the Pizza Shack.

  I saw the brass fire pit Astrid had set up. It was shiny new and filled with a couple Duraflame logs. Somehow the sight of it made me sad. It looked so shiny and hopeful.

  ‘Astrid, I feel so bad about what happened,’ I blurted out. ‘It was wrong and if I had been stronger it never would have happened.’

  ‘No,’ she said with a wry set to her mouth. ‘I knew you’d be feeling all guilty. Look, we didn’t mean to do what we did but it’s not bad or wrong. It’s not even our fault. Jake and I had an open kind of thing – no commitment. We are free to do whatever we want.’

  ‘Oh,’ I said. I sat back in my chair. ‘Okay.’

  ‘The only thing I regret about what we did is that I think Jake saw us and I am worried about him. What you said about him committing suicide… I don’t know. We need to watch him.’

  She chewed on her lip for a moment.

  Then she looked at me and smiled, glancing away. I think she was sort of blushing, even.

  ‘But as for this afternoon? I thought it was… awesome.’

  My heart had some kind of a seizure.

  ‘But I… I feel like I forced you. Did I force you?’ I said.

  Now she looked shocked.

  ‘No!’ she exclaimed. ‘Did I force you?’

  ‘No, I mean, I wanted to do what we did. Very, very much. It’s just…’

  I didn’t know what to say.

  ‘Dean, can I ask you something?’

  I blew out a big breath of air. I knew what she was going to ask.

  ‘Was it your first time?’

  The blush that hit me could have melted paint. I think I started stammering.

  Astrid reached out and grabbed my arm.

  ‘It’s okay!’ She laughed. ‘Everyone has a first time.’

  I tried to laugh, but I still felt really embarrassed.

  ‘It’s just not everyone who has a first time under the influence of a deadly chemical warfare compound,’ she added drily.

  ‘Yeah,’ I said. ‘It’s gonna be hard to top it, frankly.’

  We both laughed.

  I scratched my head. I think even my scalp was beet red.

  Then Astrid leaned over and kissed me.

  It was a soft kiss. Her lips parted just a bit as she pressed them against mine.

  I kissed back, my mouth feeling strong pushing against hers. She was answering me with her mouth and it was a quiet, sweet yes.

  And then she pulled back gently.

  ‘That should have been our first kiss,’ she said quietly.

  I sat for a moment, taking it all in.

  ‘There’s no reason why it can’t be our first kiss,’ I answered her. ‘This could be, I don’t know, the official start of Us.’

  ‘Dean—’ she started to protest.

  ‘Astrid, you know how I feel about you. I’m crazy about you—’

  ‘Dean, no. Not now.’

  ‘Why? I’m good for you. You said it yourself, I’m a good guy. I would never leave you like Jake did—’

  ‘Dean! Listen to me. If Jake confronts us, I’m going to say it was a huge mistake. I’m going to say it was just the compounds.’

  ‘But why?’

  ‘Look, maybe I have a little crush on you right now. But Jake’s the father of my baby. And he’s in really bad shape. He needs me. You said it yourself, he’s depressed. He could be suicidally depressed! He probably needs the promise of… of being with me, if he’s going to make it through this disaster.’

  ‘That doesn’t make sense.’

  ‘It does to me,’ she said.

  ‘It’s not fair!’ I protested, probably sounding like a dumb kid.

  She laughed bitterly. ‘What about any of this is fair, Dean?’

  Then she squeezed my hand.

  ‘I’m sorry.’

  And she rose to walk away.

  I sat back in my chair.

  ‘That’s it? End of discussion?’

  ‘For now,’ she said.

  It seemed outrageously unfair. When he was the king of the hill – the most popular, the most handsome – Jake got to be with Astrid. And now he was going to get to be with her because he was a pathetic mess.

  When she liked me.

  Me.

  I stood up and headed back toward the berths.

  No way was he going to win this one. I didn’t know how it would play out, but I wasn’t letting Jake get Astrid without a fight. And you know what, it felt good to have something to fight for, besides the old garden variety survival.

  I couldn’t get back to sleep so I made everyone a big breakfast.

  A little crush on me.

  Astrid had a little crush on me.

  Was it wrong to feel a heart-spike of happiness in the middle of the Apocalypse?

  I carried the food over to the Kitchen, and lit the fire in Astrid’s fire pit.

  The kids were excited when they saw the fire pit. It was something new.

  They had stopped asking us about being rescued, I’d noticed. I’d stopped even thinking about being rescued. We all just stayed in the moment.

  Jake came over, walking like he had a hangover.

  He took a big bowl of oatmeal and a big mug of coffee with creamer.

  Astrid came, dressed in my blue sweater and a pair of jeans. Was it some kind of message to me, the sweater?

  Was I supposed to be placated by it?

  The kids got their oatmeal.

  ‘Cinnamon spice?’ Chloe complained. ‘Are we out of peaches and cream flavour?”

  ‘If you can find it, you can make it for yourself,’ I told her.

  ‘Nah, I’ll just eat this.’ She sighed benevolently.

  ‘Yeah, you’re welcome,’ I said.

  ‘Jake, I have to tell you something,’ Astrid announced. She sat down opposite him at the table.

  Jake took the fireplace poker and jabbed at the Duraflame burning in the centre of the brass fire pit. ‘Save it. I already know.’ He scowled. ‘I saw.’

  ‘Saw what?’ Caroline asked.

  ‘It’s not about that,’ she said. ‘That was just an accident. We’re Os. It just happened.’

  ‘What just happened?’ Caroline asked again.

  ‘I have news for you,’ Astrid barrelled on. ‘Good news.’

  Jake set down his plastic spoon and looked up at her.

  ‘We getting rescued?’ he said bitterly.

  ‘I’m pregnant,’ Astrid said.

  Jake just stared at her.

  ‘What?’ he asked.

  ‘I’m going to have your baby, Jake.’

  She pulled up her sweater – my sweater – and showed him her belly.

  Jake saw the rise now.

  Once you saw it, you couldn’t miss it.

  ‘How far?’ he croaked.

  ‘Four months,’ she said.

  ‘You’re gonna have a baby?’ Caroline gasped.

  Astrid nodded. A smile played on her lips.

  The kids squealed. They jumped up, so delighted. So happy. They hugged her and danced around.

  Astrid laughed and let them have their moment, but her eyes kept flickering toward Jake.

  Jake roared with happiness and jumped up. He swept Astrid into a big hug and kissed her.

  I’d had enoug
h.

  I walked away.

  ‘What’s wrong with Dean?’ I heard Henry ask.

  ‘He’ll be okay,’ Astrid said, loud enough for me to hear.

  Sure, sure, I’d be okay.

  The girl I loved, who loved me back or at least liked me back, was going to get back together with her manipulative, depressed, drug-addicted boyfriend.

  Also, the world as we knew it had ended and add to that the fact that I had killed a man. That one kept creeping up on me.

  I went to look at the hole. I wanted to take down some shelf-boarding from the Accessories Department and put it up over the hole as a layer of extra protection.

  That’s when I heard the noise.

  Something was rattling in the storeroom.

  ‘Hello?’ I called into the dark space.

  I shined a flashlight around.

  There was the shattered Operations Centre, with the useless panels that had once controlled our power, air, and water.

  There were the two lifeless bodies near the wall in their matching floral shrouds.

  Boxes of merchandise spilled their guts here and there.

  Empty pallets in a messy stack against the gate, next to the intercom.

  Everything was in its place.

  The rattle came again and it wasn’t coming from the loading bay gate.

  It was coming from the hatch.

  I stormed back to the Kitchen. They were all gathered there, lingering over the breakfast that I had cooked for them.

  ‘Jake!’ I shouted. ‘Did you leave the ladder hanging down from the roof?’

  ‘What?’ Jake asked, looking befuddled.

  ‘Did you leave the ladder hanging down from the roof when you left us, three days ago?’

  ‘No,’ he protested. ‘Alex hauled it up after me. I’m not stupid and neither is your brother.’

  ‘Well, there’s someone up on the roof now. And they want in.’

  ‘Who are you?’ Jake hollered through the hatch. He had insisted Astrid take the kids to the Train. She had agreed, much to my surprise.

  The hatch was padlocked, thank God. I had checked it the day before.

  ‘We’re just some kids,’ the voice said.

  It did sound like a kid.

  ‘Please let us in. It’s scary out here.’

  Now, that sounded a little like sarcasm. Jake and I exchanged a look. We stood on the metal staircase, crammed together, under the hatch.

  ‘How did you get up there?’ Jake hollered.

  ‘What?’ the voice said. ‘We can’t hear you.’

  Whoever he was, it sounded almost like he was laughing.

  Jake and I shared an uneasy look.

  ‘How the hay’d they get up there?’ Jake murmured.

  ‘We need to talk to you. We have a message from your other friends.’

  ‘What other friends?’ I shouted.

  I’d put on a mask, of course, in case we decided to open the hatch.

  ‘What other friends?’ Jake repeated.

  ‘The ones with the bus.’

  I stared at Jake.

  ‘You have to let us in!’ the voice demanded. ‘We have Brayden with us!’

  Jake and I scrambled to open the lock.

  Not for a second did we think it might be a trick.

  ‘Brayden!’ Jake screamed. ‘How did you find Brayden?’

  We pushed open the hatch, and three guys were standing in the beam of our flashlight. They had guns.

  They wore dark uniforms. Dirty and ragged. Their faces were uncovered. One of them wore a beret and had some gold cords going under his arm. He was the leader, there was no question.

  ‘Hi!’ he said, cheerful as could be. ‘Thank you so much for letting us in!’

  Then he kicked Jake in the chest.

  14 ALEX

  WE SET OUT AGAIN.

  Max had to be carried. He had blisters on his feet that had burst. Niko had given him his extra socks, but apparently, Max’s feet still hurt too much for him to walk.

  I was sick of all the crying and whining.

  I had blisters, too. Mine had burst, too. Every step was like little knives stabbing in my heels and I was hot in all the stupid layers. It occurred to me that I could just take them off. But then the little kids would whine even worse that it wasn’t fair that I didn’t have to wear layers, etc.

  I had already paid the consequences of my blood type. I would never be able to have kids and I guess I would never be able to have sex. Wasn’t that enough?

  I was in a bad mood.

  We trudged along.

  Maybe a mile an hour? Maybe?

  I was in a very bad mood.

  It was less dark than usual and I realized maybe it was midday. It was almost as light as a night with a full moon. Or maybe it was that our eyes had adjusted to the light. But I could actually see, sort of. Everything was greenish, but I could see.

  And then we stopped.

  Niko crouched down, letting Max slide off his back.

  He motioned for us all to get down, and as Sahalia and Ulysses crouched down, I saw why we were stopping.

  Up on the road, under one of the floodlights, there was a soldier.

  He was wearing lots of gear, including a machine gun.

  Some equipment hung off his belt – 2 bright-orange air masks and some vial-shaped things in a holster. Flares, maybe?

  Niko was whispering to us to stay put, but Sahalia lurched to her feet and started running toward him.

  ‘Help us!’ Sahalia cried. ‘Hey, mister, please help us! Our friend is on a bus!’

  ‘Wait!’ Niko hissed, but Ulysses and Max started running toward him, too. ‘Wait!’

  The soldier turned and at first I thought he was smiling at us. He took off a hat he was wearing and threw it aside, his arms open wide.

  Then he brought up his gun and I was running then, too.

  He fired it at Sahalia!

  It just went CLICKA, CLICKA, CLICKA.

  And then he roared.

  The soldier was O. Definitely O.

  Sahalia skidded to a stop. She tried to back up but Ulysses crashed into her and then they were all scrambling backward, away from the soldier. He swung his gun free from his shoulder and started coming at Sahalia with it like it was an ax.

  He said something. It came out a dry grunt.

  He lifted up his gun and brought it down again.

  Said the word again.

  Niko grabbed Sahalia and hauled her back. Josie grabbed Max, and Ulysses and I ran.

  I ran by Batiste, who was frozen in horror, and grabbed his arm and shouted, ‘Run!’

  The O soldier was right on us.

  He kept grunting his word. And sometimes he would laugh this horrible, low guffaw that sounded like a cry of pain, but was his laugh all the same.

  And then I understood what the word was.

  He was saying, ‘Kids.’

  All I had in my mind was to get away. I’m embarrassed I didn’t take more care of the younger kids, but all I did was run.

  So, my mind wasn’t working in a logical way but my theory, looking back, is that the Os who had been out the whole time since the compound leak were worn-out. All that rage had drained them.

  The O soldier was still vicious and strong and deranged, but he looked thin and thirsty. The bloodlust must make them stupid, is my idea. Too angry to eat or drink properly.

  The O soldier stumbled on the underbrush as he chased us.

  His slowness was good for us because we started to get some distance on him.

  Tall, thin shapes rose up through the dark air in front of us and I realized it was an aspen grove. The skinny trunks stood white and it was very still between them.

  Now we dodged away from him like rabbits, going in different directions, and he got very frustrated.

  Josie grabbed me and pulled me with her behind a stand of three trees.

  The little kids headed for Niko, who started boosting Ulysses up into the thin branches of one of the
trees.

  Good idea, I thought.

  The O soldier headed toward Max.

  Sahalia, who was behind a different tree, shouted, ‘Over here, dummy!’ and waved. The soldier lurched toward her.

  ‘Max!’ Niko hissed, calling him. Niko was now helping Batiste into another tree.

  Max moved toward Niko, but his boot got stuck in a root, I think, and the boot pulled halfway off. Max screamed and I realized his blisters were worse than I’d thought. I could see blood on his socks and the O soldier headed back toward him. Max couldn’t get his foot free.

  ‘Here!’ Josie yelled, waving. ‘You stupid jerk!’

  She threw a stick at him but the soldier didn’t turn.

  ‘A KID, A KID, A KID!’ the soldier repeated, his voice deranged and happy and disgusting.

  He was descending on Max’s cowering form. Max screamed.

  And then Josie stepped in front of me, and as she moved toward the soldier, she took off her mask.

  Just pulled it off and threw it to the side, like it was nothing.

  As she ran, she breathed in big, loud breaths.

  She launched into the air and landed on the soldier’s back.

  The sound she made as she flew at him was horrible.

  It was loud and jagged and throaty. It was also joyful. Liberated. Pure rage: ‘WRAAAAAAAAAAUGH!’

  It seemed like something she’d wanted to say for a long time.

  Josie landed on his back and I think she sunk her teeth into the back of his neck. He made a motion to swipe her off and the motion toppled him to the side.

  Max finally pushed back, away from them, scooting back through the dead leaves and dirt.

  The soldier threw Josie off him. She rolled back in the leaves and hit her head on a tree.

  ‘You gonna kill us?’ she growled as she rose, her voice thick with hatred. ‘A bunch of kids?’

  They circled each other. Meanwhile, Niko dug in his backpack for the gun. Sahalia had come around the back of my stand of trees. She grabbed me to her. She clung to me, hugging me.

  Josie launched forward through the air. Almost like flying. She tackled the soldier. He took a swing at her but missed.

  ‘I can’t get a shot. I can’t get a shot!’ Niko shouted, trying to aim the gun at the O soldier. His hands were shaking.

  Then Josie was on top of him, sitting with her legs over his shoulders. She started punching the soldier on either side of his head in alternation. She was just whaling on him.

 

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