I smile at how sweet my little boy is. This kid truly lights up my life and getting to see Kash this morning on top of it, only makes it feel like today is going to be a good day. I really need one too.
“Sure, baby boy.” I rub my hand through his messy hair. “Be back soon.”
When we pull up at Hannah’s, she’s waiting outside like usual, but this time she’s smiling at me as if she knows something I don’t.
She waits until I say goodbye to Alec, before turning to me and finally speaking. “So . . . who were you going to see at the club last night? I was too tired to ask before I took off.”
My face turns red as I realize I’m about to admit I’m sort of dating one of the strippers. “His name is Kash and that’s all I’m saying right now.”
Her eyes grow wide and her mouth drops open in surprise. “Whoa.”
“What?”
She shakes her head. “Nothing. Cool name, that’s all.” She lets out a small laugh. “You’re going to be late again.”
I look down at my watch to see that she’s right. “Shit. Gotta go!
“You really need to set your watch like ten minutes ahead. I swear!” She yells to me as I rush to my jeep.
“Good idea! Thanks again. I don’t know what I’d do without you.”
“No problem.” She smiles and waves me off before disappearing inside.
I spent a little too much time in the shower this morning, apparently.
Guess I have Kash to thank for that . . .
Kash
SHIT . . .
When I heard Alec’s tired little voice this morning calling for Eden from his bedroom, I wanted nothing more than for him to come out and see me standing there in his house.
I wanted to see the excitement in his eyes that’s always there whenever he sees me show up at my sister’s house for him.
It fucking hurt that I couldn’t let him know I was there. I threw on my hood as if that would somehow stop him from noticing me if he were to walk into the living room.
Truthfully, I knew Alec would know it was me no matter what. The kid has been around me far too many times to not notice this old hoodie I wear.
But I did it for Eden’s sake. I knew how much it would hurt her if she found out that way. Alec rushing over to me, calling me Hunter would fuck with Eden’s head, making her lose all trust for me.
That’s the last thing I want to happen. I know now more than ever that I need to have that talk with Eden and soon. If I’m not the one to tell her, it can ruin everything we’ve built over the last nine days.
The thought causes my chest to ache.
I care about Eden more than I’ve ever cared about a woman before. Some may say I’m an idiot for falling so quickly, but sometimes the fall happens so damn fast that you don’t even know until you’ve already fallen.
And after falling asleep with Eden in my arms last night, getting to feel how fucking good it was to have her let go around me and allow her walls to come down; I know without a doubt that I’ll never get over that feeling for as long as I live.
The way her small body melted into my arms, tangled up in me as if I was her safe haven had my heart beating, making me feel more alive than ever. I want that feeling every damn day.
I want to be her safety; the one she can come to when she needs comfort and protection from everything bad in this fucked up world.
I want to be that for her and Alec.
That’s exactly why I set up dinner plans for tomorrow with Styx and Meadow. I want her to see what it’s like to be a part of my life. I want to know what that feels like before I break the truth to her and possibly push her away.
I’m a selfish asshole for not telling her in the first place. I know that and I hate myself for it.
But when it comes to a woman like Eden, you do stupid things sometimes in fear of losing something that was probably too good for you to hold onto in the first place.
“Fuuuuck!” I run my hands through my sweaty hair and step out of my truck.
That’s when I notice the same black car that was parked in front of Eden’s house last night, now parked across the street.
Keeping my gaze on the sports car, I pull out a cigarette and lean against my truck, letting it known that I see them.
It’s not until I’m half-way through my cigarette that the car finally pulls out of the parking lot across the street and slowly drives past me, giving me a clear view of Knight in the passenger seat.
He flexes his jaw, staring me up and down, making it pretty fucking aware that he’s sizing me up.
I take one last drag off my cigarette and smirk, before flicking it toward the street, letting him know he doesn’t intimidate me.
Like I told Eden; I’m not going anywhere.
He wants a fight and that’s exactly what he’s getting in six days. I just have one more fight to get me to that spot.
This shit is happening when we’re both prepared and ready to go head to head. He just doesn’t know it yet.
Pushing my hood back, I give the little car one last look before heading toward the door. From what Riley told me before, Knight isn’t allowed here anymore, due to him making a huge scene once when Eden was working.
Riley had to push him out the door and make it clear he’s not to step foot into the parlor again.
Good to know the son of a bitch is staying off the property at least. He’s already fucking with the woman I care about. He fucks with family and he’s for sure dead.
Riley immediately looks up from the computer and gives me a surprised look when I step inside. “What happened to your face?”
I shrug and walk up to the counter. “I don’t know what you’re talking about?” I smile when she does. “Styx happened to my face. Him being a good friend and all.”
“Alriiiight.”
I grab her head and kiss it, before rushing past her and down the hall.
“She has a client in ten minutes, Kash!”
“Good to know!” I yell back.
I catch her shaking her head, right before I reach Eden’s room and push the door open.
Before Eden can manage to say anything about me showing up unannounced, I stalk inside and pick her up, setting her on top of the table.
With a small growl, I wrap my hand into the back of her hair and press my lips against hers, kissing her hard and deep.
My heart flutters in my chest the moment her tongue swirls around mine and she moans into my mouth.
Fuck, this woman does things to me I can’t explain.
“Kash,” she breathes against my lips. “I have a client soon.”
I smile against her lips and run my thumbs over her cheekbones. “I know . . .” I press my body further into hers, making my erection known. “Cancel it.”
She digs her nails into my arms and closes her eyes, most likely fighting her need for me to take her. “I wish it was that easy, Kash.”
Pushing her further onto the table, I climb above her and settle my body between her legs. I slowly run my hands up her sides, before reaching up to grab her throat.
I see the excitement in her eyes at the idea of me being rough with her and I love it. She’s no longer holding back with me.
Keeping my hand on her throat, I grind my body into hers and lean in to bite her bottom lip. “Are you sure it’s too late to cancel? Fuuuuck me, Eden. I want to rip your clothes off and fuck you against the wall.”
She lets out another little moan, enjoying the feel of me between her legs, before she finally slaps my chest and smiles. “Dammit, Kash. You’re good. Really damn good, but my client is most likely checking in right now. I can’t cancel with her right in the lobby.”
I growl against her lips, before kissing her one last time and stepping down off the table. “I want to do something with you tomorrow. Can I have you for a few hours?”
She smiles as I help her back down to her feet. “Depends . . . what do you want me for?”
I grab her waist and pull her against
me, wanting to feel her close to me for as long as possible, before I have to leave her until tomorrow. “Styx hates double dates and his woman wants us all to go on one. Help me annoy him and then spend a little alone time with me after. You in?”
“Styx . . .” she kisses my face. “The one that messed up this handsome face of yours?”
I nod. “Yup.”
“I think I’m up for annoying him.” She smiles against my lips. “I’ll have my father come by for a few hours. Alec’s been wanting to show him his new room set up.”
“Perfect.” I cup her face and kiss her, causing her to moan against my lips and wrap her arms around my neck.
“Kash . . . you should . . .” I kiss her again, making it hard for her to get her words out. “Dammit . . . you’re making this hard.”
Smirking, I grab her hand and lower it down my body and down to my hard cock. “Like this?”
She nods her head and rubs me through my pants, her breathing picking up. “Mmmhmmm . . . exactly like this.”
Locking eyes with hers, I back her against the wall and pick her up, wrapping her legs around my waist.
“Maybe it’s not too late,” she breathes. “Maybe they’re not here yet . . .”
I’m just about to reach over and lock the door, when someone knocks on it, scaring the shit out of Eden.
She jumps out of my arms and quickly fixes herself, fighting to catch her breath. “Shit . . . Shit . . .”
I push down on my erection and growl under my breath, sexually frustrated. “Fuck. Looks like they’re here.”
We both smile as she fixes her hair and splashes a little water on her face to cool off.
“I’ll text you later with a time for tomorrow.” I grab the back of her head and kiss her one last time, hating the fact that I have to leave her now.
“I so hate you right now,” she says against my lips.
“But you’ll love me later . . .”
I open the door and smile when some pretty brunette looks me up and down and then shoots her attention over to Eden who is still looking hot and bothered.
“Very nice . . . talk about being lucky.”
I can practically feel her eyes burning into my backside as I walk down the hall.
Riley immediately laughs when she notices the look of disappointment on my face. “Sorry. I held her off for as long as I could. She’s really damn annoying so I had to let her go.”
“Thanks,” I say sarcastically. “Still love you though.”
“Love you too, punk.” She stands up and fixes my hair. “When is your next fight before the big one?”
“Tomorrow night.”
She pushes my shoulder. “Good luck, babe.”
“I won’t need it.” I grin and walk outside, looking to see if Knight is anywhere around.
The asshole’s lucky he’s not . . .
Eden
KASH LEFT ME HOT AND bothered last night at work, making it nearly impossible to get through my clients without thinking about all the dirty ways he could fuck me against the wall.
The way his hard body moved between my legs was so damn hot that it had me sweating every time I thought about it. I swear I even almost passed out at one point from the heat the memory brought.
I can’t even count the number of times my clients had to ask me if I was alright before the night was over.
It really makes me believe he did it on purpose just to leave me thinking about him all night. He knew it would only make me crave him more and he was right.
The thought leaves me smiling as I pull out of the driveway and head toward the park. The same one Kash and I played baseball at last week. The same one we almost had sex at.
I also think he asked me to meet him there on purpose as well. He and I both know exactly how hot that night was and going there again is only going to bring up memories and leave me on edge with need tonight.
As soon as I told him it wasn’t a good idea for him to pick me up at the house, he suggested we meet here.
I swear I could hear the smile in his voice as he spoke, setting the plans in motion.
He wants to play . . . so I’ll play.
We’ll just see who gives in first before the night is over.
I asked my father to stay over for a few hours, giving me enough time for dinner and whatever else Kash has planned for after.
As expected he was fine with it and happy to see me out doing something for myself for once. The only thing I feel guilty about is lying to Alec and telling him I was going out with a few friends.
I plan to talk to Alec about Kash soon, but I just don’t know how to bring him up. I mean do I call him my guy friend? Or do I just come out and say that mommy has a new boyfriend?
I’ve never had to do this before and it’s not easy. It’s really damn hard. He may be only five but he understands that his daddy and I used to love each other very much and that’s why he was born. I have no idea how he’s going to feel finding out that I’m letting another man into our lives that isn’t Knight.
Alec doesn’t open up easily and let people in. It scares me that he might not give Kash a chance, but scares me even more that he will and things won’t work out in the long run. I don’t want to add any stress or heartache to my son’s life, when he’s already had so much over the years, due to Knight so easily abandoning him.
He’s been scarred enough by a man that’s supposed to be there for him.
But I feel like Kash is different. He makes me believe he’s different and I want nothing more than to believe that with all my heart.
I just need more time before I make such a huge, lifechanging decision. I’ve only known Kash for ten days. It shocks me that I’m even thinking about this so soon, but everything with Kash seems to be different.
I plan to talk to Kash about that tonight and let him know that I’m just not quite ready for them to meet yet, but soon. Maybe another week or so. I don’t know for sure but I have a feeling that I’ll know when the time is right. Or maybe it already is and I’m just too scared to see it.
Kash is already parked over by the baseball field, waiting on me, in the same spot he parked the last time.
He immediately smiles and jogs over to my jeep, opening the door for me. I can’t deny how his gorgeous smile has my heart aching in the best way possible.
Without saying anything, he grabs my waist and pulls me into his arms, pressing his lips against mine with a desperation that has my heart going crazy for him.
He makes me feel needed and wanted, a feeling I’m afraid of losing. I hate being afraid, but with Kash it’s a good kind of scared that’s completely worth it.
We’re both breathing heavily, with my arms wrapped around his neck when he pulls away to look me in the eyes. “Fuck, I’ve been wanting to do that all damn day.” He tangles his hands into the back of my hair and kisses me again, this time much harder and deeper, making it almost impossible to catch my breath.
“Oh yeah . . .” Smiling, I reach in between us and rub my hand over his erection, before running my tongue over his ear. “I’ve been wanting to do this all day. Too bad your friends are waiting for us to have dinner.”
Kash places his hand over mine and lets out a sexy little growl that has my pussy aching for him. “You trying to get me back for yesterday, baby?” He lets go of my hand and reaches around to cup my ass, practically lifting me up off the ground. “I’ll fuck you on the dinner table if it comes down to it, baby. Don’t test me. The whole restaurant can watch.”
I feel him smile against my neck, before he bites it and backs me into his truck. Keeping his body against mine, he reaches for the door and opens it. “You ready?”
I swallow, still trying to compose myself from his words. “I’m a little nervous, but ready.”
He pulls me further into his arms and tilts my chin up, until our eyes meet. “You’re my girl. No need to be nervous, ever. Got it?”
I nod my head and smile. Hearing him call me his girl has my heart doing c
razy things.
“Good.” With that he boosts me up into the truck and shuts the door, before walking over to the other side and getting in himself.
I wait until he takes off, before leaning over and grabbing his thigh. That’s when I notice a black and pink baseball mitt in the backseat.
He must notice me looking, because he smirks. “Hope you’re up for a little ball after dinner. We have a game to finish.”
I laugh and squeeze his thigh. “Is that right? Are we playing with or without clothes this time?”
“We’ll definitely start out with clothes.” He grabs my hand and places it on his dick, causing chills of excitement to run all throughout my body. It’s so damn hot when he’s in control. “I just can’t promise we’ll end with clothes. Besides . . . he nods down at his crotch. I’m pretty sure you want me naked. I don’t blame you.”
There he goes again turning me on and making me laugh at the same time. “So does that mean it’ll just be the two of us playing ball? Or is there going to be four grown adults running around in their underwear like lunatics? Should I be worried? Is that part of the whole double dating scene.”
A small smile creeps up on his lips. “Definitely just the two of us.” He reaches for my hand and holds it now. “It’ll always just be the two of us . . . until it’s the three of us.”
My heart practically jumps out of my chest from his words.
Why does the idea of that make me feel both happy and scared?
I think I know though. I don’t want to lose Kash, that’s why. Because deep down inside I want it to be that way too. The three of us . . .
We sit in silence, my hand still in his, for the rest of the way to the restaurant.
But I can tell by the way he keeps glancing over at me with that little smile of his that he knows his words affected me in a good way.
He’s just giving me this moment to prepare before meeting his friends.
“Styx and Meadow are inside already. They saved us a table so there wouldn’t be a wait.” He shifts the truck into park and reaches over to grab my chin. “They’re like family to me. Just be yourself and I promise everything else will just fall into place and they’ll fall for you just as I did.”
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